I Come to the Garden...

Meece

Both myself and Grace's Dh have encouraged Matt to have a one on one talk with this leader so he can clarify what he was saying.  He was also hurt that in such a small congregation that some of the members are being excluded from activities.  They don't find out about them until they are over.  The attendance seems to be going down, perhaps over being excluded.  There were 15 people at the last service.

Meece

Paulding, standing with you during your CT today.  We will be with you all the way.

PauldingMom

Thank you all and Amen to your prayer Meece. I will be holding your hand today during the CT

I feel at peace today. Had me a good cry in the shower. My fav. place to let loose as no one can hear me and I can let it pour.   Taking care of my sick hubby has been helpful too. Easier to take care of someone else than to have someone take care of me.  Must be a "Mom" thing. 

Meece

It can keep you mind focused on something else other than your problems.  My DH is really stubborn about being cared for.  Once in awhile he wants to be cared for and it is for something minor, that must be a "boy" thing.

barbe1958

Meece, that sounds like a horrid environment for Matt to experience the joy of God! Sounds more like a fraternity or high-school clique....so sad.

PM, we'll all be waiting with bated breath. Don't know how fast you'll hear, but please let us know so we can let out our breaths!

Meece

HELP!!!!

I just received a call from Matt.  He is in the hospital and has suffered a mild stroke.  I feel so helpless over here, and he is so scared.  Please put him in your prayers for yet another reason.

barbe1958

OMG Meece! You must be out of your mind!!!!

Will the services send you over????

Was it from the surgery???

Oh sweetie, I bet you could fly with your own arms the way you must be feeling right now. My heart is in my throat for you all.....please keep us posted.

Eph3_12

Meece,

Praying - just opened up BCO at work this AM-currently it's 10AM our time.  Keep us posted.

Father,

I ask you pour out your healing on Matt-help him to recover quickly from this most recent set-back.  May you use his youth & strength to speed up the process.  Please cover Meece with your peace and your calm as she is frantic, Lord.  I ask for your presence to wrap itself around her and give her strength & wisdom.  Amen

This song by Bebo Norman, "I Will Lift My Eyes" helped me immensly through treatment.  Here are the lyrics:

God, my God, I cry out:
Your beloved needs You now
God, be near; calm my fear
... And take my doubt

Your kindness is what pulls me up
Your love is all that draws me in

[Chorus]
I will lift my eyes to the Maker
Of the mountains I can't climb
I will lift my eyes to the Calmer
Of the oceans raging wild
I will lift my eyes to the Healer
Of the hurt I hold inside
I will lift my eyes, lift my eyes to You

God, my God, let mercy sing
Her melody over me
And God, right here all I bring
Is all of me

Your kindness is what pulls me up
Your love is all that draws me in

[Chorus]
I will lift my eyes to the Maker
Of the mountains I can't climb
I will lift my eyes to the Calmer
Of the oceans raging wild
I will lift my eyes to the Healer
Of the hurt I hold inside
I will lift my eyes, lift my eyes to You

[Bridge]
'Cause You are and You were and You will be forever
The Lover I need to save me
'Cause You fashioned the earth and You hold it together, God
So hold me now

[Chorus]
I will lift my eyes to the Maker
Of the mountains I can't climb
I will lift my eyes to the Calmer
Of the oceans raging wild
I will lift my eyes to the Healer
Of the hurt I hold inside
I will lift my eyes, lift my eyes to You
I will lift my eyes, lift my eyes to You

God, my God, I cry out:
Your beloved needs You now..

   

Meece

Thank you, my friends.

I went and spoke with one of our pastors and he gave me

Psalm 57

1 Have mercy on me, my God, have mercy on me,
for in you I take refuge.
I will take refuge in the shadow of your wings
until the disaster has passed.

2 I cry out to God Most High,
to God, who vindicates me.
3 He sends from heaven and saves me,
rebuking those who hotly pursue me-[c]
God sends forth his love and his faithfulness.

4 I am in the midst of lions;
I am forced to dwell among ravenous beasts-
men whose teeth are spears and arrows,
whose tongues are sharp swords.

5 Be exalted, O God, above the heavens;
let your glory be over all the earth.

6 They spread a net for my feet-
I was bowed down in distress.
They dug a pit in my path-
but they have fallen into it themselves.

7 My heart, O God, is steadfast,
my heart is steadfast;
I will sing and make music.
8 Awake, my soul!
Awake, harp and lyre!
I will awaken the dawn.

9 I will praise you, Lord, among the nations;
I will sing of you among the peoples.
10 For great is your love, reaching to the heavens;
your faithfulness reaches to the skies.

11 Be exalted, O God, above the heavens;
let your glory be over all the earth.

Meece

I am so scared and feel so helpless.  And He is so very scared.

I told him perhaps this will add to his testimony.  He has been through so much.

Eph3_12

What sort of symptoms is he experiencing? slurred speech? extremity weakness? etc.  I want to come give you a hug-a real one-not cyber!  You can do this!

Meece

he could not speak at all when it first happened, but he has regain speech, although somewhat slurred and he is having difficulty expressing things, like telling me what hospital he is at.

Jwatrlily

Meece, I'm so sorry and have prayed for your Matt and you and will continue to do so.  Please let us know his good progress because I am sure with God's help, it will be!

Love and prayers,

Juanita

Meece

Thank you so much, Juanita.

I have contacted the Red Cross to see if they can find out what hospital he is in.  Awaiting a phone call.

barbe1958

Why wouldn't an advocate for the army/navy/air force (can't remember which!) be with him. This is ridiculous!! Tell them you have mothers all over the world going crazy for you and him!!!!! You could have been by his side by now!!! ARRGGGHHHHH

Meece

I don't have a passport. I am going to try to get my eye cleared enough to go down to the Post Office and get my application started.

Meece

I don't know who will contact someone to get him an advocate.  I am just in a bubble right now.  I asked him to call me again, but if he went to the hospital without a phone charger, I will be out of luck soon.

barbe1958

But wouldn't they wonder where he is? Shouldn't he be "missing"? Was no one with him? How frightening!! In another country too!

Meece

He had someone from the dorms drive him to the hospital because he couldn't speak and his right side was numb.  I just spoke to a SSGT who said he had been with Matt up until 11:15 lst night, which was about 7:15 am my time.  They hadn't contacted me becaus ethey were waiting to find out more on his condition.  His speach is improving and some feeling is coming back on his right side.  This SSGT said he contacted the hospital before calling me, and they told him Matt was sleeping.  A least I know where he is, and the SSGT said he will go visit him in a few hours an d will let me know if there is any change in his condition.

My head hurts so bad right now, most likely from drying and stress.  but, I am relieved that someone knows what is happening with him.  Thanks to the Red Cross, I now know as well.

sheila888

Oh Meece...I feel your pain not knowing where he was and such a distance away.

I don't know what to say.

About the passport why don't you go to that expedited Passport place. We have one here in Conn you can get it the same or the next day.

I will be checking the thread all night if you need to talk more or whatever we are all here for you.

We love you.

Big Hugs to (((Matt)) and to you.

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sheila888

(((Meece)))

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Meece

Thank you, Seyla.

I just spoke with matt again.  He sounds sort of like he's groggy, or that his toungue is numb.  He is hungry but they won't let him eat becaus  e he is having difficulty swallowing.  They are taking blood samples every few hours and running tests.  I could here him wheezing over the phone line, so I told him to tell the nurse or doctor.  Maybe they can give him a nebulizer treatment.  I don't know if it is a result of the stroke or the stress. He was less emotionalthis time and we both held it together as we talked.  I wish I could be there to help him ask the questions of his dr.

Thank you ladies for your support.  

I hope everything has been going well for Paulding Mom.  She must be very frightened.  May God's peace be with her.

sheila888

Just checking in.

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deborye

Oh Meece, we are here for you, he is young and healthy. 

Meece

Thank you.  I feel pretty lost and without direction today.  Sort of helpless to do anything, but pray.  I'm  just coming by to see my friends here and keep you posted.  It keeps me focused, I truly believe in the power of prayer, and know that Matt is being covered with prayers from all over this world.  Our God is an Awesome God.

PauldingMom

Meece first I'm praying for him and for you.

May I suggest calling the local pastor from his branch or service. Often times they can move mountains to connect families in need.

I'm holding your hand as you have held mine so many times before.You have my number if I can help. 

mbtlcsw01

Meece, PauldingMom is right.  Have this SSGT get in touch with the chaplain.  That will be your go to person.  Have the Red Cross hunt down the chaplain to call you let you know what is going on.  Military chaplains can get lots done.  Hope this helps and praying for you and Matt.

Makratz

Keeping Matt in my prayers Meece. XOXO

sheila888

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Meece

Thank you.  I took a litle nap this afternoon.  The hospital he is at has Chaplain Service, and I think I will try to contact them.

I guess the SSgt  I spoke with was the guy that took him to the hospital yesterday/today.  They checked him out at the first hospital and had him drive him to the other bigger hospital.

I am filling out the Passport Application now.  It isn't too daunting. the hard part is getting it processed.

Thank you, Paulding.  How did everything go today?  How are you feeling?  I had my last CT in August and I had such pain in my neck and shoulders the following days.  I wonder if it was a reaction to the contrast.  I hope that isn't another similarity between us.  Soak in a warm tub and relax tonight.