Chemo Starting Sep 09

chinablue

Pamelajo - tell me about your expander and the flap.  I had diep flap that turned out too small.  My plan is to have an implant placed under the flap in December. I can't wait ... well sort of...I am also kind of scared about new surgery.  At some point, I will have to decide if I am going with the smooth look or "high beams."

Thanks for all of your support about dealing with my ailing mom.  She is becoming really clingy and teary.  She is on an antidepressant.  I wonder if therapy would help too.  I suggested it and she was receptive, but has not done anything about it.  I think she has so many doctor's appointments these days it is hard to add another.  We all know how that goes.   Heavy heavy sigh.

I love to hear about your gardens and foobs.

Jane - my toenails still have not grown in and my fingernails are a funny shape and color.  At least nothing is black, smelly and oozing.  That was sooooooo gross.  Glad to be past that. 

RonnieKay

Hi Buddies!  Just got back from California, visiting grandaughter and going to Disneyland with both grandkids & their parents!  (Daughter's 8th grade orchestra, from here, plays each year so I go to help out). Last year we were there a week before I found my lump in May...I cherish those pictures of a full head of hair..but I'll put up with this year's pix...a bit rounder, short & curly white hair & ALIVE!  Will write more later...off to daughter's 34th birthday celebration (also the day I had my biopsy last year!).  VICKI..Praise God!  Love to all of you...off for a week & I've got catchin up to do...so glad to have you all to talk to...missed ya!

Gin52

Vickilynn - I was born in 52 also, just celebrated b-day on 5/7 along with my sister, who was born on my b-day when i was 12....and NEVER lets me forget that I am older than her, and always will be! lol  Won't tell you what I tell her she will always be.......  Congrats on being born in a great year! 

msmpatty

Catherine - Good luck with your surgery tomorrow.  I'll be sending positive thoughts your way.  Let us know how you are doing and how the hair came out! 

Patty

Pamelajo

They just take a football shaped piece of skin from your back, near the lower shoulder blades, in the bra line and a huge piece of muscle and fat.  They leave all of it attached to it's blood supply and move it around, under the armpit to the front where they excise all the mastectomy scar and sew it into place, making a pocket of sorts.  They detach the peck muscle, and add the newly moved muscle to create a breast mound, then the TE's are placed in the pocket under the muscle.  Everything is covered completely with muscle fat and skin.  It has great athestics, and the boobs look natural in clothing.

I cannot wait to get these softball size, hard tissue expanders out tho, and my soft "gummies" in.

I had no muscle weakness in my back.  The only complaint I have is that when I get a fill, I feel like my spine is being pulled.  Not sure why I feel that way, but right between my shoulder blades gets really sore.  That only lasts about a day.....and it's an excuse to get DH to rub my back.

I'd be happy to send pics to anyone who wants to see.

flacracker

Hello my lovely September Sisters,

Sorry I have been MIA. I been doing some PT and had my all my (5)sisters came done and help me out! I am blessed that we are so close. Oh my gosh, alot has been going on since I visited! Caherine I pray that your surgery goes smoothly, I know they will feel alot better than the TE'S! China have fun on your vacation! Sounds like fun. Pamelajo, my goodness, you just do what you got to do! And keep on doing it Good! I check out the flap procdures,wow! Jane, I am so glad to see that nasty C was not found! Thank god! Barb023 I hope you are doing good with the TE.And yes it is that time of year where gators roam down here! Anytime you want to get together let me know! PM me. We are so close!

As for myself I have been doing PT at home. I move up to a cane now!! Whoppeee! The metal rod in my leg still hurts off and on. My Doc told me I would be alble to tell the weather!  Great, it is the rainy season down here in Fl. My DH and I went to my son H.S. Gradution last friday! It was great! I didn't cry! Instead I yelled!!!! Hurray!!!! So proud of him he made Honor Grads. I have only one son. He will be going to USF this summer. Since I started to use the cane I was able to break out of my house and drive!!! It has been since April since I last drove by myself. It feels good! I still need someone with me to do the shopping. I am still unsteady with the cane. I had a Bilat mas. Aug 4 2009 with TE's. I have 800 cc fills and they do feel like rocks!! I was suppose to get them out in May but the leg issue came up and had to delay it. I am (hopefully) getting them out in July! I told everyone I was having a coming out party!!!! The implants will be sofer they say!

Someone said they were on Femara, I am on Tamoxifen, my Onc told me that she wanted to swicth to Femara in Nov. Tamoxifen give me HOT Flashes and little aches here and there. What are the S.E. on Femara that anyone is getting??

Jane, Barb023, Vickilyn, and Gin I was born in 1957 I am up there with yall! Well ladies I think this is the longest I have ever written. Take Care. I will be prayers are with you all!

Wanda

msmpatty

Wanda - It is good to hear you are on the mend.   I've been taking Femara for a little over 2 months.   So far I've had no major SE's, no aches/pains, no fatigue. I often have a couple brief spells during the night when I feel too warm, but no sweats.  I'm counting my blessings.

Pamelajo - Who thinks up surgeries that entail moving your back to your front and making pockets of your pecks?   I'm glad it's working for you, but it must have hurt like the blazes.  I was squirming just reading about it.

Ronnie -  You sound busy and happy.   Go girl!

I too am a child of the '50s.   Lots of us here...clearly a vintage decade.  HA!

Patty

  

vickilynn

If any of you enjoy historical fiction, my son (Josh - 32 yrs old) is a writer and hoping to get his first book published.  There's a site by HarperCollins publ that encourages writers by having people read their work, and if enough read it and comment the publishers will look at this work.  Few publishers accept written manuscripts any more... too many "writers" these days!

If you're interested, go to  www.authonomy.com and search for Josh Stevens or his book which is "Shipwright".  Read it and leave a comment for him.

I'm hoping to finish up one of my books I've only been writing off and on for 10 years.  Interestingly, when I started, one of my characters has cancer --- long before I knew I would have it!  I've actually finished but am now in the editing stages.  Chemo brain wouldn't allow me to write, so it's nice to have my head back!  I'll let you know when I get mine posted.

Hope to hear that surgery, treatments, life went well this week for everyone.

jadams1264

Hello SOSisters... here I am again catching up on my posting.

Catherine - hope you are doing well.  We need details on the surgery and the hair color!  How are you doing?

VickiLynn-I was born in 1952.  A very popular year from reading the posts - so now we'll have to go by months to decide who's the oldest   I will check out the website, I love to read.  You must tell us when you get through with your book.  How are you doing after your scare?

Pamelajo - glad to hear you back to your usual entertaining self.  I love your colorful stories!  Don't change or edit a thing!  How is it going with MIL, new FOOBS and life in general?

Patty - I am so glad you are having no se's with Famera.  I have to make a decision between now and Wednesday if I want to try another AI.  Told DH maybe just go off for a month and see if all my aliments are related to Famera or leftover chemo.  My fingernails are horrible, they split right down the middle, break if I look at them cross eyed.  This is not listed as a se from the Famera.  Don't know what's going on but not too much fun.  Bone pain comes and goes, better than it was for a while.

BarbAnne41 - it is warm in NC too!  In the 90's, like walking into a furnace when you step out the door and I'm already having my own personal summers!  

DomeGal - missed you.  Can relate to the hot flashes, sometimes I feel like I just want to scream, cry, fling off my wig.  Then I cool off and get cold!  My thermostat is so whacked out I never know whether it's really cool or really, really hot!

ChinaBlue - hang in there with you mom.  I can so relate but am so thankful now that we had the time we did together (even the bad parts).  I don't know what to do about my fingernails, they are as short as I can cut them, can't pick anything up!  Keep polish on them because they are so ugly.

RonnieKay - sounds like you are having fun!  We took the grandkids to Disney World a few years back.  We had the best time.  Talking about beach this year, went last year and had a good time.  It was before the BC news!  I'm coming up on my one year anniversary in August.  Seems like forever.  Since you have already been on Famera for a while have you noticed your hair not growing as much?  

Gin52 - apparently a lot of us gals were born in 1952.  What a great year that was!!!

Flacracker - good to hear from you.  Sounds like you are making progress with your physical therapy, it takes time and I'm sure you'll be up and on your way without any assistance at all.  I wish I could tell you how you will do with the Famera.  Hopefully you will be like Patty and suffer very few if any se's.

Barb0323 - how are you doing with your expanders?  Know it's hot in Florida right now, spending anytime at the beach?  Any alligator siteings?

Well ladies, hope all of you are well and staying very busy!  Take care.

Thoughts and prayers are with you!

Jane

Neece

Hello my dear lovely ladies

What ups and downs everyone is having. Pamela gentle big hugs. I am glad you felt you could vent on this site. You are dealing with so much.Too too much.

Catherine good luck with surgery. Vickilynn I am so glad to hear your good news.  I guess in this world of medicine and disease there are things that we just can't explain. I am so glad for you. And I was a reconstructed gal, and like Pamela I love my foobs! I had TE's then silicone implants and am very happy with them. I am a small size (B cup) so only had two 'fills' of the TE's after surgery, and the reconstructed breasts feel pretty good. I am not going to have reconstructed  nipples though I might consider getting tattoos by a medical tattooist. I had a tattoo nipple the first time around - that time just done by the PS - and it helped to give a more natural look - at a distance of course - but handy when I was in the swimming change room! The old one has faded a bit so I may have both done properly this time.

China I am pea green with envy of your trip!  Hope you and DH have a wonderful time.

Domegal welcome back! Great to hear from you. I am coming up to one year anniversary in July and I have decided to mark it as an occasion to celebrate - rather than the anniversary of diagnosis I am thinking of it as one year cancer -free.

I have just had a fabulous weekend in Queensland, attending a major festival of indigenous culture and music. My son was performing there - his first ever solo gigs - and my DH and I decided to go up for one day /evening. We flew up Friday and home yesterday. My son has indigenous background as his father (my first husband) is a Torres Strait Islander - from northern Australia - and it was very exciting to see him perform. I am also happy to report that we had a bit of contact with his girlfirend, who was there as well of course, and all went smoothly!!!

Pamelajo

Hi Ladies.

Had the big one this weekend.  Lost it.  Broke a couple coffee cups on the patio, and punched the house, then sent the MIL to her room.  She hated me last night, and told me so, but she'll forget this morning.  It's how it goes.  I won the fight.......that's all that matters.  She hated everyone and everything last night. 

Other than that, I'm peachy.  Pluggin along.  Going for tx 4 this Friday.  YAY...milestone, complete.

My hair is coming in already.  Weird. 

 Great to read up on everyone.  I'm so envious of all your trips to the salon.  I shall join the ranks of "styled" before long.

Well, took the day off work to get some things sorted out.  #1 on the list, get the MIL into the doctor for some mood stabilizers or tranquilizers, or ..........a trip to the hardware store for a case of duct tape.  Either way, that woman will behave. 

positiveme

Good Morning

Thank you for all the prayers and positive thoughts. Surgery went really well. I now have pretty big foobs. I was a small A cup and now a really full B. They are alittle bigger than I thought they would be but I really like them. The left one is still alittle sore under the breast where the implant was entered. The right(masectomy side) the PS used the same circle like scar from previous surgery and feels fine. They are natural looking and nice and soft. I will be waiting until Sept. for Tattoo and nipple by PS. I will than feel complete. Saturday was my one year from my diagnosis and I enjoyed the day relaxing at the beach enjoying the sunshine. I was scheduled for a mammo on my left breast in July but was told no mammo's for a year after implants. So I will have a Mri only. Thanks again for all the well wishes

THINK POSITIVE

Catherine

chinablue

Just curious Catherine, which of your doctor's suggested that you get an MRI?

positiveme

China- My cancer did not so up on a mammogram. My breast are very dense. After my diagnosis my breast surgeon wanted a MRI of both breast to make sure we saw everythin. The report came back ok on the left breast but they recommended 6 month follow up with MRI's. So I guess you could say the radiologist and the breast surgeon. My cancer was only found by U/S but I feel better getting an MRI just to be sure. I hope this helps.

Catherine

chinablue

Thanks Catherine.

Anyone get nauseous before a hot flash?  I stomach always seems to know when the flash is coming.  Once the flash passes, my stomach feels better. 

msmpatty

Catherine -  Such goods news on your surgery!   Now...did the hair TX also go well?

Pamelajo - Congrats on your 4th TX!   Too bad you got just enough Adriamycin to lose your hair, but good news it is coming back so soon.   Are you going on to the weekly Taxol?    Please don't duct tape your MIL.   LOL

Vickilynn - I checked out the website and can't wait to read your son's book.  Too bad they don't let you download it (copyright concerns?).   Can't wait to read yours too!

Neece - How wonderful to hear about your son's performance!   I think I would have just cried with pride.    My son's school had their awards ceremony last week and it was all I could do not to blubber through the whole affair.  8th grade graduation on Thursday...I'll be a mess.

Jane - Good to hear that the bone aches are getting a bit better, but what is with the nails?    For whatever reason my formerly horrible nails have become much stronger since chemo.   I play the cello and have to keep them very short, so I never really minded that they didn't grow,  but now I have to constantly snip them back.  Such a waste!  Maybe we could trade.

My bid for oldest on this board:  May 30, 1952.  Beat that!  (Hmmm...you may be thinking...a 13-year-old at this advanced age?  Yes.  There's a story there.)

Patty

chinablue

Do tell.  What is the story, Patty?

I was born in 1963.

positiveme

Oh i forgot about the hair. It didn't go as well as I hoped. It pulled alot of red. It is not so bad but in 4 weeks we will try again. It seems everyone I talk to about this the red comes through no matter what. We will see what happens next month

THINK POSITIVE

Catherine

vickilynn

Beat ya by 2 weeks Patty - May 14, 1952!    I cry at Hallmark commercials, so you can imagine how I was at graduations!  Good for you, Wanda for cheering!!!

Catherine - waiting for your new photo --- with hair.  I wanted mine to come back in red!

Pamela - those MIL's can be a handful... I get along great with mine.  She lives 4 hours away and I haven't been down to visit in 2 years.  : )  I send her a note once in awhile and make sure my DH calls her, but we get along so much better when we don't actually talk.  Maybe you could just  mount a whiteboard outside her room and you can leave each other notes.

Neece - how does your son perform?  Does he play, sing, dance???

Jane - Re: nails.  I stopped chemo the first of December (taxotere and I didn't finish the full course of that) and my fingernails all had streaks which continued until they all broke off below the quick.  My thumbnails had deep, deep groves in them and I kept waiting for them to grow out.  They broke really low too.  But the great news is:  I now have (like Patty) beautiful, strong fingernails as of about 6 weeks ago!  I play the mandolin, so have the same necessity of keeping them short.  But I've not actually played since last year!!!  So I'm enjoying my nails temporarily and hope I'll start playing again soon.  I did try to play back in January, but couldn't even remember the chords! 

Chemo brain was bad news for me.  Still is at times.  Words don't come out right - in fact I find I'll completely use the wrong word and won't realize it... then argue with my DH that I said something I didn't really say.  Frustrating. 

I'm stepping out, though.  I'm going to be teaching a Women's Bible Study starting next week and hope my mouth keeps up with my brain.

And I did celebrate my "one-year-since-diagnosis-but-now-cancer-free" date with a picnic at the lake with family and friends.  It was a beautiful day - the kids and grandkids went kayaking, we ate food (including fresh California cherries), went for a short hike in the woods and played Pooh Sticks with the grandkids on a little bridge over a creek.  It was a great day and a great way to celebrate. 

I did have a new hair photo taken but I'm not crazy about it.  I'll try again and join the hairy ones.

Keep on keeping on........

Gin52

Patti and Vicki - got ya both  May 7, 1952

Geezzzz....why am I admitting that?? lol

barbt0323

Only have a few minutes because I have to get ready for work.........and at my age it takes a long time to get ready.  I may have beat all of you March 23, 1948. 

BarbAnne41

Oooh Patty I want to hear the story too! I actually know more people who live in the town I live in in your boat, born in the fifties kids in you son's age range, they alway look at my husband and I like we're delinquents, born in 68 (May 8, 1968) with a 16 1/2 year old, but I was 25 for gosh sakes. But I still want to hear your story ;-)

BarbT- Hows the alligator? Hope you are feeling better everyday.

Catherine- Congrats on the good procedure and on the nice foobs. Yes mine went red too. Ugh it seems we are all doomed to red. Hope your are healing well.

Ginnie- You are admitting it cause we are all friends here! You were born in a good month for a birthday! How are you feeling?

VivkiLynn-I cry at every animal commercial. I can't hardly watch any sort of dog agility show because the happiness and proud look on the doggie's little faces makes me an emotional mess. Congratulations on your son's book, and your impending one.Glad you celebrated the day in a good way.

Pamela- Congrats on finishing number 4. At least with Taxol your hair will start coming back in, I think the Adriamycin is the one that kills it. But the Taxol did have quite the effect on my eyebrows and eyelashes, especially after I was done of all things. So I am dying to know did you tape her up or adjust the meds?

China- I have heard of nausea being a se, I don't have that, but the strong ones, make me feel dizzy, my heart race a little, and beads of seat pop out along my hairline, it is the oddest sensation. Hope you are doing ok.

Neece- Glad you had  a terrific time, enjoy all those moments to the fullest. I know that all this cancer/chem/surgery/rads, has taught me that lesson. Hope you are well. How is you lymphedema? All Gone?

Jane- I never had fingernail issues, but it sounds like you are not alone. I wish I had a solution, magic wand something! I am sure within the next 12 months post chemo we will all notice a difference in ourselves. It is still super muggy here too. But you have us beat in temp. And those personal summers....oh girl...I am with you there! Keep the fans on!

RonniKay- Hope the trip was  a blast. I know what you mean about rounder. I don't think Tamoxifen is helping me in my weight loss quest. My daily 3 mile walks used to have a slimming effect. I know I need to control what I eat too, but it seems like I can't have any food fun and lose weight, makes me sad :-) We'll get there!

Wanda- Congrats on the mobility and on your son's graduation. Hooray Hooray!! Hope you and Barb T are staying cool in the Florida heat. Is any of the oil effecting you ladies?

Love and hugs to all my sisters

Barbara

Scoobydoo

Hello September Sisters!

Wow I have been away for quite awhile. Just passed my one year anniversary of diagnosis. I jave a lot of catching up to do. I have to schedule my first mammogram since being diagnosed with BC.  All is well so far.  I had a lovely dinner with Holly yesterday and she is such a lovely person inside and out. 

I think about you ladies all the time, but I guess with life now back to its hectic pace it is difficult to stop and breathe.

Anita

jadams1264

Hello SOSisters....okay a few of you have me beat, I'm July 14, 1952.  What a glorious year that must have been for all us sweet babies!  Went for Herceptin today, told onc bone aches were getting better, hot flashes not quite so bad and that I hated my hair!  He said the curl will go away eventually, can't come soon enough.  I don't know what color I will try next, something that doesn't tend to bring out any red.

Neece - sounds like you had a wonderful weekend and how proud you must be of your son.  Glad things are doing a little better with the girlfriend, time is a wonderful healer.  Doing okay otherwise?

Pamelajo - hope that this finds things calmer at your house.  MIL's can be the worst the best of times, with all you have on your plate, having your MIL come into your home has to be the pits.  Is it getting any better?  Know that we are all here for you and vent to your heart's content!

Catherine - are you all recuperated from your surgery?  Glad you are happy with your results.  Ah, the red hair syndrome.  Guess we are all going to go through that for awhile.  I could probably handle the color but I hate my hair.  It's curly, wavy and straight and very, very thick.  I'm thinking the dog clippers could help!

ChinaBlue - I get a little nauseated when I have a hot flash.  It passes quickly and then I'm fine.  Are you having night sweats too?  Isn't this fun?  I honestly thought about stopping my 5 year drug but the good so outweighs the bad!

Patty - The onc said the nail thing could be left over se's from chemo.  I have cut my nails very, very short and put nail strengthner on, hoping that will help.  I envy all of my sisters that can play a musical instrument, I can play the radio!  You have a 13 year old - wow!  You know children keep you young and put life in perspective when we get too serious.  Do tell your story!

Vickilynn - you are so talented, play the mandolin, write, cook!  I'm not sure how I got on this website with such a group of talented ladies.  Thanks for the encouragement on the nails, onc said mine would get better - what else would he say?  I find myself forgetting words and using words like thingy and whatchmacallit.  My DH is pretty good about translating but gets a little embarrassing at work!

Ginnie - your admitting it because you are glad to be here!  And there are so many of us in the same age group and it just makes our bond even stronger.  

Barb0323 - so what is a year or two?  We are strong women who have been through a heck of a journey and come out a lot stronger on the other side!  This is the only website where I am readily admitting my age!

Barb41 - I get all weepy at Hallmark commercials.  I also find that it doesn't take much these days for me to tear up.  Famera?  Advanced age?  Who knows, but I also find I don't care too much these days.  My attitude has defintely changed this past year about what is important and what isn't.  My tolerance level has gone down, my thermostat way, way up and a lot of times my attitude is showing

Take care everyone and stay cool!

Thoughts & prayers are with you!

Jane

Pamelajo

The MIL is actually out for a visit with her grandson   I'm sitting here happier than a pig in poop.

allllllllllllllllllllll is quiet!

 she is absolutely bat shit crazy.  Bless her heart.  I finally got the list of her meds and it is no wonder.  I made an appt to take her to my family doctor next friday to hopefully get her off some of this useless crap like Ultram pain pills, once a day, every day, which cause dizziness (hard to deal with her getting down when she outweighs me by 85 pounds), mood swings, suicidal tendencies and anger.  LOL 

They don't make enough duct tape to stop her.  Wine helps.  Juice her up and she's just fine.

Cancer is the least of my worries.  DH and I are in trouble again.  I'm just not comfortable being his little helper........  and I never seem to be able to do enough.  He did finally call his sisters to ask if they would take her this weekend when I have my final treatment.  He did this only after I threw two coffee mugs at him on the patio, shattering both, and missing him entirely...damn lymphedema arm.  I have lost my aim.  Is that bad?  I don't care.  At some point, one reaches his or her limit......and I reached mine.  Went high order.  He ducks now when I get my morning Joe.  The neighbors were treated once again to a free show.  I didn't yell, but I'm sure they heard glass breaking.  I threw them and didn't say a word.  I picked up a big planter of wave petunia's and got ready to launch it, but he held up his hands and said "ok, I'll call".   

I took care of her the last weekend I had a treatment.  Made three meals a day when all I wanted to do was die.....  gave her her shower and she slugged me for having the water too warm.  I don't need that crap on those days when all I want to do is go to bed and sleep/puke/die.

Anyway.   Enough about the domestic violence LOL. 

Glad all of ya all are sprouting doo's, growing nails and doing better.  I'll catch up soon. 

My foobs now touch my tummy when I sit down LOL  It's a weird feeling after not having anything on my chest for so long.  I keep wondering why the TE's make my chest hurt when I sit.  It's cause I slouch, and my tummy pushes up on them.  Just figured that out after like 9 days of it.  CHEMOTARD!!!!

Couldn't find my shoes the other day.  They were by the door, however, my brain would not let me acknowledge they were mine for about 35 minutes.  Made me late for work.

Just a barrel of fun around here.  Per usual.

Neece

Hi everyone,

Catherine so glad you are happy with your foobs. It's important I think after going thru surgery and everything else to get them!

Pamelajo I hope we will see a new pic when your hair is visible! So glad it is coming back. I cannot imagine dealing with a crabby MIL after treatment. Only broken coffee cups? you are a saint.

Anita so  nice to hear from you again! Glad you are doing well.

Barb my lymphedema is better; I think it is something you always have to some extent once oyu have got it, but my aim is to bring it right under control. My DH still massages every night and I am getting a new (Smaller - yay!) compression sleeve and glove, which I hope to wear then until I can gradually reduce the amount of time I spend in it - sorting of like being weaned really! I no longer have as much discomfort from the arm though my hand is still a bit tight and puffy.

Vickilynn my son plays guitar (acoustic and electric) and sings. he used to have a (VERY LOUD!!) rock band but is now developing a solo acoustic set which I much prefer! I am proud of him because he is very shy and it must be hard to get up on stage with just a guitar and sing songs you have written yourself. Personally I would rather lick the toilet clean! But he is doing  it and I think that's amazing.

BarbAnne41

Pamlea- you poor thing. I am with Neece, just coffee cups? I am not a member of the NRA but I would be hard pressed not to go out and buy a gun after all you've been through. Good for you for sticking up for yourself, and for setting people straight around you. Vent here anytime you want.

Neece- Lick a toilet really? Holey heck, I get all squeamish just thinking about that, but I don't like an public speaking either. Glad to hear your arm is better.

Jane- I am with you on the tolerance thing. And I used to let things eat at me, sort of build up and fester, now I am of the whatever mind-set...tired of peoples petty whining and crap....Thinking cool thought for you.

Barbara

Pamelajo

I work for the government.  I work in the "supply" division.  I have ample amounts of duct tape at my disposal. I have pointed this out to all involved. 

I was also once a demolition expert.  I know how to destroy things.

Gin52

Pamelajo = my hero!  I can think of times that being a demolition expert could come in handy! lol

As others here have stated, you ARE an amazing woman!

Pamelajo

aww Gin, I'm no hero.  I'm just a crazy chemotard hilljack with Daddy issues and a dysfunctional family.

I laugh and drink a glass of wine or two to keep from strangling people.  I'm saving my money to buy extra acreage for "disposal" purposes in case that fails to work someday LMAO