I need a mentor

faithandfifty

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giggle, giggle.....

thought I was over on the beach thread: OOPS!!

appreciate some beach vibes

EWB

Thinking of you Held! Praying that you are able to complete the walk/run. Be sure to take care of your foot afterwards!

Happy Mother's day to all.

Elaine

Held

I DID IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And I carried you ladies with me.  I had a sign on my back that said "In Honor of" and I listed my wonderful mentors on it! 

saint

WOW!~I'm really glad you made it & SO touched you took us along!

 Hugs sweet Held!

saint

As promised-here are a couple of prom pix. (there are more on the bitch thread) The first is dd & her date, second son & his......

faithandfifty

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super congrats and thanks to you, HELD, for making it happen!! blessings on completion of such a significant lap in your journey. so glad that your prayers were answered for your participation.

and then PROM pictures!!!! oh happy day! those are good looking kids, (which comes as no surprise to me -- since I've met them in real life!!) but seeing the happiness factor is seriously enough to make my whole day!!

So glad that you remembered how to post them.

Big hugs to you, too EWB.

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EWB

Held- I am so happy you were able to do the walk/run! What an accomplishment, esp with a sore foot.

Saint- Lovely children you have!

Don't know why but feeling like a funk is coming on...so tird of crummy weather, so tired of limited energy, so tired of hurting and all that stuff, so tired of being a real trooper, so tired of not making a big deal of it all, I am ready to get off the treadmill. blah. 

Held

Oh EWB  BIG hugs!!!!  What can I do to help?

saint

ewb----hugs-- I GET IT! Take heart, hon---I was there exactly a year ago & doing SO much better now-----may be time for a break! TALK with your onc! TELL 'em how you feel.........

you are in our prayers----I keep that candle burning! 

faithandfifty

Joining the hug train for EWB, our Elaine.

Come here and vent whenever you need to..... sending prayers immediately.

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Tomorrow's our Komen walk. I'll have each of your names on my back.

EWB

Thank you for the prayers and hugs and kind thoughts.

saint

Hugs Faithy!!!  Feets don't fail ya now!!!!!!!!!!!!!

faithandfifty

My feet held up..... the rain held off.

It was an incredible day!!

Scads of pics on my blog:

www.rainbowswithinreach.blogspot.com

Your names were on my back!!

Held

Awesome pictures F&F!  Thanks for thinking of us while you walked!  I am impressed about how many names you remembered. I was wide awake and could only remember about 5!! LOL!

EWB

I ask for help, my mother (Ruth) had a colonoscopy today and a large polyp was found. It is possible that it is cancerous but we won't know until Thursday for biopsy results. Either way it will need to be removed. My Dad died in 11/07 so she is in the house alone, trying to go thru everyday motions while waiting.  She is a strong woman, but I know she is worried about this. Would you please offer a prayer for her?

Thank you dear sisters.

saint

Praying & candles burning.......keep the faith sister girl!

Held

My computer must be on the fritz again.  I thought I posted last week.  How are things going EWB?

saint

We let our little thread get swallowed up! Let's get 'er back in the frey!

Asking for prayers----in thanksgiving for my son's scholarships (& praying for more) AMEN

& for my starting rads in the AM.......... I am at peace & pray that it does the job with little interference.......waiting for new scans at the end of June & really hoping there won't be a need to change tx-THAT is my most fervent prayer...

Then: safe travel for our beloved F&F & praying we can meet this week! Oh YEAH!

I love this pic!

 

EWB

Saint, what a wonderful picture! You have the most beautiful eyes, and what energy from Faith even from a photo!!

Held, things are ok, mom's biopsy came back b9, although she will still need to have the polyp removed. She is seeing the surgeon later this week.  I am still having issues with the joints and muscles, my plan this summer is to focus on ways to deal w/ or manage it better. There has to be something out there! Later this week I am seeing an exercise physiologist w/ focus on cancer pts, and hoping to come up w/exercise program that will help, not hurt joints.I also know that the more the house is under control regarding clutter etc, the better I feel and less work that has to be done. BIG purge this summer; have been doing some and really notice a difference but there is more to go. makes it easier on the family since they do so much here in addition to work, school etc. I also want to really do some spiritual decluttering if that makes any sense. Don't know how it is with you all, but I think more about God and after life things more now than before bc. I have really been struggling w/church religion and spirtual beliefs (direct to God without the middleman church). I would love to find someone I can really talk with about this but our minster is not the one. Nice guy, has done wonders for the church and church life but not someone I feel comfortable  discussing this stuff with. CT scans and bone scan scheduled for 15th, should be fine but for some reason I am feeling a little uneasy about this one;have had about 2 1/2yrs on this treatment (Lupron and Femara) and feeling like I am on borrowed time. Several women I know with similar situation got about this point and it stopped working for them. I know I need to have faith but....

Well, thats whats going on in my world, How are you doing? How's your foot...did you see doc about it or did it just get better on its own? 

Hugs to everyone, Elaine

faithandfifty

Lightning struck today, just outside of our house & knocked out all cable: TV/Computers.

I've over @ DD to say good bye to my babeez & WB.

Headed north before ya can blink your eyes, Saint.

That is a great pic of both of us, isn't it?

Gals, we had such a great time in the windy city -- art museum extravaganza.

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prayers for all wrestling in the faith department.

saint

HUGS----the faith/religion confusion can make this SO difficult---religion is merely the vehicle to get us there--sometimes ya gotta change transports-------I find I am having mysical & magical spiritual encounters.......I feel so far from the center of recognized chuchi-ness, yet I am still fed there--F&F & I have talked this one LATE into the nite in the past..reincarnation anyone?........wish we could all get together for a women's retreat--I know a little lady who is a remarkable leader!

HUGS elaine, held & debbie! you remain ever in my prayer!

EWB

The more I think about the church and religion and bible the more it seems to be an angry place in that so much emphasis on all these things that shouldn't be done, punishments, starting out with sins, such a focus on the bad/negative/evil. Why not more focus on the goodness of life and people. Just flipping the view a little to the other side. There is so much good stuff out there, this shouldn't be getting us to do things by threats or fear of bad things happening to us, should be celebration of life and the incredible things it offers and the joys of helping others and our selves etc.

Saint- hope your feeling better, I'm guessing you are since your posting again. Prom is tonight will try to get photos, pray that the rain of the past few days takes a break for prom.

Hugs to everyone

saint

I agree completely EWB----if you focus on the good the plant will flourish & choke out the weeds..that's my philosophy & I'm sticking with it!

SO find yourself some like-minded ppl & let go of the fire & brimstone! I know you can change your affiliation to a place that FEEDs you! It just sux that so much damage (or nothingness) is done in the name of church! It was a lonely hunt I had til I found my current church-home-----and it is threatened everyday with todays' administration & backward movements, but WE are the church & I will continue to find what I need in PPL--not that building (if it comes to that)

ALways in my prayers---be well & stay strong 

wayover20

WOW, I've been "here" since 2004 and just now saw this thread.....good one!   Turns out Held has mentored me!

I was just going to say how this disease continues to exercise our faith muscle and I can say that I've never been consistent about praying and giving it up for my Lord to deal with.  Not sure if it's my long nursing background that makes me look at every symptom, test, medicine etc with extra critical eyes or what. But all that "thinking" and mulling over makes me worry even more that I need to.

So last night I had extra bad cramping to my feet (chemo done 2 days ago) and couldn't get to sleep. Top that off with bone scan testing today and Cts in 3 days....and I was a nervous wreck.  Anyway, I'm lying there with my toes going in different directions as well as my mind and I realized I hadn't really prayed lately, so I grabbed my rosary and at first just talked to God about my worries then laid down and started praying.  After several minutes I noticed the cramps had left and I felt really sleepy but kept on praying and when I finished I went fast to sleep and stayed asleep all night (which is unusal for me since I ALWAYS wake up at least once to go pee)....and no more cramps!

For me at least these things make me realize the importance of continuing to build my faith through continued prayers and knowing that only God can handle everything and is waiting for us to just ask him.

Hugs to everyone!

Pat

faithandfifty

Welcome Pat. We are a very supportive, tho sorta small thread of seekers. Good listeners all.

Your story is a genuinely good example for us all to 'remember.'

Saint and I have had the great, good fortune to have spent some great time together over the past two years...... talking late into the night on more than one occaision..... about every possible topic under the moon -- but especially how our maturing faith has guided us thru the turmoil.

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***everyone on the thread prompts us to think more deeply.

saint

Welcome Pat-----speak freely----it's all good & you never know when what you say is exactly what someone else was needing to hear!

Be well & stay strong 

Held

Sorry ladies I have been so bad about posting.  I had my FINAL (!?!?!?!?) surgery on May 21st.  I am healing well.  I got the rest of my stitches out this morning.  It looks like some of them were pulling on my skin and tore it, so I have to go back in 10 days, BUT...... I might actually make it a few weeks without a doctor's appointment!!!!  Yippy!

My family and I are getting ready to go on vacation for a week.  We have NEVER done this.  All of my time off for almost the last 2 years has been spent recovering from one surgery or another.  Praise God we have this opportunity.  Even my dh is giddy with excitement! I am so happy for my girls.  

I have not managed to make it to church YET.  I am very disappointed with myself.  I am thinking about seeing if I can find a church just a bit closer to my house.  

My life still seems out of control... always up to my eyeballs in something and never enough time.

I had an awesome question to ask the group when I started this e-mail, but I have totally forgotten!!!!  I left my brains on the operating table............. (again)  LOL!

Hugs and prayers for everyone!

faithandfifty

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Held, I'll be laughing all evening -- thinking of your updating us with a question, but forgetting what it was. My what a like-minded (should I say swiss cheese minded) sisterhood we are.

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saint

hugs held---glad you are "done".

...........come back anytime to post that question! We'll still all be here wondering what we're waiting for! LOL

dreamwriter

I am sick and tired of being sick and tired.