I need a mentor

Held

Faith -

Did you SEE that I sang to you on another post?  I say it that way because you would NOT want to HEAR me sing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  I saw that a BUNCH of others wished you happy birthday on the thread too.  Did you see them all????????

Held

badboob -

my mother actually made me cry yesterday (mostly because of the Komen thing).  I decided to not even ask them for their help, but just mention it causually.  I have done so twice, and both times I was totally blown off.   I tried lowering my expectation, or so I thought.  I guess I am still hoping my family will be the heros in my life I dream they are.

EWB

Families are a funny thing, don't get to choose them, just get what you get.  So sorry its been tough and not how you were hoping; everyone deals with catastrophic events differently. Maybe it's easier for them to ignore it or pretend is isn't happening. Easier for them but not so easy for you. Prayers are with you, you always have us 

Held

I posted this once already, but it poofed into outerspace.  I need to BEG for lots and lots of serious prayers.  There is an ugly situation at work and I am a wreck.  We are having a "meeting" about it tomorrow.  Please, please, please pray for me for peace and success

faithandfifty

Prayers.

Prayers.

Prayers.

And more prayers.

Calm.

Peace.

Success.

Be still and know that I am God.

Be still and know that I am.

Be still and know that I.

Be still and know that.

Be still and know.

Be still and.

Be still.

Be.

(Continuous devotion for peace as suggested on another thread here.... brings me serious peace.)

faithandfifty

Held, my prayers continue...... as you walk into the thicket.

May you genuinely be "held" today, thru the confrontation at hand.

((((((((((((((((((((((((Held))))))))))))))))))))))

saint

HUGS held,

Serious prayers are lifting you now & thru the day---HUGS

EWB

Prayers- you got it girl. I pray for strength, courage and wisdom for those involved. Deep breathe, have faith that this will all work out.

faithandfifty

Wondering how your day unfolded, Held. Still praying.

Held

It's early and my crazy day is just about to begin, but I just wanted to thank you all for your prayers.  I could feel your arms around me as I heading to the dreaded meeting.  It went ok.  Time to move forward.  I have great hopes, and today is another day to try.  Thank you again for all your prayers!

Hugs and Kisses

faithandfifty

I've made it safely to Richmond, VA, a mere 9.5 hour drive from my front door.

It's sooooooooooooo great to read your post above, Held. Glad that our crew could offer you comfort in the face of the swirling unknowns.

The entire drive down I listened to the first 6 CDs in a set of 7 by Eckert Tolle. The Power of Now.

It was absolutely fascinating (from our library BTW) and made the trip fly by in an instant.

The author weaves together his 'spiritual' insight and refers often to the Bible and especially the parables, but also to a variety of other sacred writings, from a variety of world religions. I sat there most of the day, nodding my head in agreement. Aspiring to integrate his understanding into my daily life.

He gave very concrete examples of finding the spiritual 'now' in the midst of waiting in line, having an arguement, being on one's death bed..... the whole gamut (sp??) from soup to nuts.

I would highly recommend it if you have a road trip in your future.

VERY comforting way of looking at illness/tragedy/hardship etc.

Big hugs to all, adding to or reading along here.

saint

Hugs & prayers for all writing or reading--

I still keep that candle at my church burning 24/7 for eveyone here.........

faithandfifty

Pleasant Sunday hugs to one and all..... now that it's mid-afternoon, I think I'm ready for my morning shower. LOL.

I 'go like crazy' and then I 'stop like crazy.'

saint

LOl & hugs to one & all!

Here's to blessings in the coming week.......where we least expect them! 

Held

Just wanted to let you ladies know that the meeting with the ladies that have been such a pain in my patoot seems to have had some results.  Interactions with them have been much easier and friendlier.  Other staff members have also given feedback that they are less obnoxious to them too.  What a beautiful thing. 

I had a strange thing happen to me this week.  We were discussing religion at work this week.  I told one of my co-workers that I believe everything that is written in the bible.  Later that day I was thinking about giving some encouraging words to another one of our BC sisters.  I thought about the verse that says "For I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper you", (and then something about no causing harm - not a direct quote as  you can see!!! .....  As they words were rolling around in my head the thought popped in "yeah right".  Have I grown at ALL!?!??!

saint

HUGS Held--you are human-------we ALL do that!

My explanation is that God is NOT responsible for our bc! HE does not GIVE us disease! Therefore, HE has done no harm.......

Too simplistic?? F&F & all the others will have something good to say when they arrives!

HUGS- be well & stay strong 

faithandfifty

Held. I just LOVE how you share -- so straight from the gut, your searching for answers.

Saint and I are always of such a similar mind.

I, too feel that this is an imperfect world that we live on. Crap happens. Fortunately we have a Creator who walks with us thru the valleys.

I always get strength from the verse: "We know that for those who love Him, for those called in agreement with His purpose, God makes ALL things work together for good."

I don't believe God handed me BC, but once it was realized that I'd been dx'd then I've had His hand on my shoulder thru the journey..... and I've met amazing people, and I've grown thru reflection and consideration...... so indeed, even this has worked together for good..... due to heavenly help.

My two cents.

saint

Prayer requests for board sisters:

That Toyful has the vacation of her dreams; safe travel & minimal se's while she experiences the beauty of Hawaii!

That Hollyann & her family know the love & peace of God as they help her sister to the next level. May they know comfort & consolation & may the angels lead her sister into paradise. 

Held

Sending prayers their way Saint.  I found out yesterday that my little brother lost his job in January(he didn't want anyone to know).   He is 2000 miles away, and I feel helpless.  If you could include him and his family in your prayers, I would really appreciate it. 

Love to all!

EWB

So sorry to hear about your brother, but delighted to hear that things have sort of been resolved at work.  Just in from our trip to Savannah, Charleston and Myrtle Beach, just me and dh and lime yellow convertible

Hope all is well for everyone, sweet dreams

Elaine

Held

Things have been going really well at work.  I have not even had other staff members come to me to complain about the ladies who's departments I am now over-seeing.  They smile and laugh and I don't care if it is genuine on not.  It is better than wanting to slap the crap out of them because they are so nasty. 
My birthday was last weekend, and I had a WONDERFUL day.  My husband bought me a Wii and the Wii fit, and I promptly hurt myself....LOL  price of getting old I guess.  My daughters and I played for hours.  We laughed and yelled and jumped up and down.  I loved it.

I booked a week at the beach this summer.  I will be our VERY first family vacation that has been longer than 2 days.  I am very excited.

I am hoping and praying that all is well with my BC sisters/mentors.

PS - Do you guys see anything wrong with someone wearing the Star of David that is not Jewish (to show you support Isreal and in recognition that Jesus Jewish?)

faithandfifty

Jumping and clapping for all the progress at work and the resolution to that stressor in your life.

Jumping and clapping for the making of plans, and the anticipation of the beach.

Hugs and prayers continue.

Blessings on all contributing to this thread or reading along.

EWB

Held, I think people can wear whatever they like; whose business is it what jewlery someone wears, whether it is something pretty or something meaningful to the owner.

So glad things are better at work; good luck with the Wii.

Held

I can barely type through my tears.  I just returned from the vet.  We had to put the dog down.  Please pray for my girls.  I am worried about how they will deal with this.

Hugs

EWB

Oh Held, I am so very sorry.

Held

Thank you.  It seems like I am the one having the hardest time with this.  As I talked to the vet after we put him down, she told me she knew that Jake was my dog (more than anyone else's in the family).  I started to think about how he laid with me everyday while I was sick.  He was always there for me, protecting me and bringing me comfort. 

We got a card from a friend over the weekend that moved me so much it took my breath away.  It said:

"You gave Jake 3 wonderful gifts:

You gave him a home, you gave him love and you let him go. "

EWB

Held- your friend is so right. As hard as it is for us, it is truly a gift to let them go, know Jake is at peace.

saint

Aww held--My heart goes out to you! Having done the same TOO many times I can relate. After loosing one dog the vet called a few days later to check on me. What she said stays with me, "What the bible says we must do to gain heaven a dog does every day of his life!" I believe they will be the first to bound out of the pearly gates to greet us!

HUGS

faithandfifty

Held. I've been on the road and have just learned of your Jake.

My heart goes out to you as you cross the hurdle of life without Jake.

I pray that your girls are adapting in the empty space.

Sending you love. (This time from Alabama.)

strength and courage. strength and courage. strength and courage.

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faithandfifty

What a moving Good Friday service I have just attended.

We are fortunate to be able to choose our place of worship.

Thinking of you, Held, and all of the mentors in this weekend of reflection as we approach Easter.

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