2005 ROCK-TOBER CHEMO GIRLS

debbie444

hmm elephants - I know i still have some weight to shift - but an elephant??? Come on ladies - a dairy cow perhaps - but an elephant!!
I added Cindy and V to the church prayer list today, our church has a congregation of 1300+ so it cant hurt.

Lovely weather here - the kids have worn nothing but swimsuits and factor 35 sun cream today. The pool is out and i feel a killjoy bringing them in but we start school again tomorrow.

brenda - great photo - if that was me taking photos i would have one before the jump and one after!!

Debbie

Anonymous

Debbie: I am not a good photographer. My camera has a "sports" mode. Unfortunately it made too much noise, and my husband kept shushing me, so I only have that one photo (plus the one before, and the one after--in the sporty mode it takes 3 or 4 shots at once!).

Ladies, I received a very funny email from a friend. I will share it with you because I know how you all love to travel. Please read and try it when you have the chance!

1.. go to www.google.com.
2.. click on "maps"
3.. click on "get directions"
4.. type New York in the first box (the "from" box)
5.. type London in the second box (the "to" box) & hit "get directions" on the same line
6.. scroll down to step #23!

Tadah, these are the steps you need to take if you want to visit Debbie.

Anonymous

I spoke to V on the phone when I was driving home from work, she sounds so positive. I didn't know what to say and she has words to comfort me. Our Victoria is an amazing woman and positive that she is not stage iv.

Cindy, glad you got out there and gave your 'donation' to your local mall!!

This is not just happening to you girls, as you know, we are wrapped up in each others' lives, so this is happening to us and of course, we are fearful for ourselves that it could happen sooner than we ever thought.

Anonymous

Brenda, tell Sean that all of Aunties are so proud of him!! How in tarnation does one jump so high???

Graycie

Brenda, Love the picture of your son....I think that is a great camera. The picture came out really clear and with great color.

Laura, Thank's for asking your Mom to add our BC sister's in prayer. I'm not a good church goer either but that doesn't mean I am not a believer. Cathy, those were always my mother's famous words. "The good Lord helps those that help themselves" and I believe that is true. Debbie glad you added the girls in prayer as well.

How is everyone's weekend? Thinking of you girls on the East coast. Look's like a nasty storm is brewing. We are on the edge and I am keeping my finger's crossed that we get spared this time. I am staying in today feeling like a total waste product. We went out last night to a dance and I am paying for it today. I did win a gift basket in a raffle so maybe my luck is changing I sure hope so.....I'm not much of a winner usually.

ravdeb

Tonight starts Holocaust Day here in Israel. We went to a ceremony that every town and village in Israel has. My mother in law, who is a holocaust survivor, was asked to light a candle this year.

Tomorrow the entire country will stop at 10:00 am when when sirens will go off all over the country. Cars will stop on the highways and everybody will get out of their cars for a moment of silence. I have always been in awe of this custom the Israelis do and it's amazing to be on the road at this hour and then all the cars come to a halt.

UGH...my father in law is in the hospital and looks like he will be needing surgery. He's 84. Kinda scary...

Kelly..thanks for the update. We have some amazing women on our thread!

ake

the storm here is so bad! we've lost power twice already. i just want to stay inside in my pajamas all day. we drove to maryland today and met the pregnant "mommy" dog of our puppy-to-be. we will officially have our black lab in the begining if july wow! i knew i might do surrogacy one day, but didn't realize it would be meeting the mommy dog of my puppy!

deb, i'm thinking of you and hoping your father-in-law will be okay. that's powerful how your country recognizes the holocaust. my great-great grand-aunt is a holocaust survivor. her entire family was murdered and she escaped only to be picked up and put in a camp. but she survived. the hard part was that she had so much guilt throughout the years being the only survivor. she actually wrote a book!

brenda....i love the picture!!!! it could be published...what a great action shot!

Anonymous

(((Victoria)))

I sent you a pm.

Hugs
Peggy

ravdeb

Well, that's neat, Amy... you met the mommy dog!

What's the name of the book your aunt wrote. There are so many feelings and issues that holocaust survivors go through. It's awful. Soon, there will be no more survivors as they are all getting very old. It's important to hear their stories and get them to write them down if we can.

I think my father in law will be home tomorrow. He feels okay now but it appears that he will need surgery. The question is if he will agree to have it...

I'm so frustrated! I finally made my appt with my orthoped and will be seeing him on Thurs and now I can't find my results of the x-ray I had done. I've searched the house and car. It's just not here! Where could it be????? They handed it to me on a disc with no papers or any explanation and when I looked on the internet to see if any results were written up, there was a message that no results were to be written according to the doctor's orders! Now I'll have to go over there and see if they will make me a copy and it will probably cost me! This has already happened once to me. I had done the x-ray the same day as I did the ultrasound and in the same place and m ultrasound disc is put away in the right place. It's so strange that this one is missing. I will call there in the morning...

nosurrender

Pardon my intrusion on the Rocktober Girls thread... but I wanted to add some support and love for two sisters here~

Dear Victoria and Cindy,
I have JUST HAD happen what is happening to you. I had a new primary develop in my "good" breast that was 2.5 cms with 4 positive nodes and some extranodal extension... whatever that means. My new cancer is ER+ and Lobular.

It is a kick in the stomach and very hard to hear those words again... but look how much you have learned since your first dx... that is what has helped me. I am so much smarter now and know how to fight the beast so much better. AND SO CAN YOU.

I am getting a port next week and start chemo- AGAIN- the week after. I am NOT going to let this beast gain an inch on my life.

WE BEAT IT ONCE- WE WILL BEAT IT AGAIN.

I am standing with you in solidarity and strength and with love.

The Beast picked the wrong chicks to mess with.

You both have these absolutely amazing sisters here to help you and I am so happy for you that you all have this bond.

Please know, that there is a fellow sister outside this group who is cheering you on and praying hard for you both.

Love to you,
Gina

chumfry

Thanks, Gina, I feel very strong and not nearly as scared as I thought I might be. I'm still in information-gathering mode and it's wonderful to have so many avenues of support. I truly appreciate the bond we all have here.

I had a really good day today. Battled some nasty underbrush in our yard and then went on a very nice bike ride with my hubby. I think spring has *finally* sprung in Minnesota! Hope everyone else had a great day, too!

Anonymous

There's lots of positive vibes and well wishes being sent your way...we'll hold you up...

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On a lighter note, I almost had a mini-meet Friday night with chemosabi1 aka Nicki. She lives here in Illinois and her husband is a musician and was playing at a bar not far from me. (We communicate in an Illinois thread here.) This is so funny! My dh decided to stay home...so, I went alone. I walked into the bar/rest. looked around and thought...okay, what would a chemosabi look like! LOL (She would have had the edge because I have an avatar - drats!) But someone pointed me in the direction of the musician's family. I asked a gal sitting there - "do you know Nicki?" - she said "yeah...she's my SIL" - I told her who I was and she told me Nicki wouldn't be coming. At first I jokingly said, "I'm going to kill her - that dork!". But I totally understood...long week, long drive there, she worked late, etc. No problem...it was literally 10 minutes from my neck of the woods, so no big deal for me. All the while, Nicki's dh is singing up a storm and strummin' his guitar! It was so funny...he sang a song about drinking alcohol...I was cracking up! So I figured since I was there, and everyone was being really nice and welcoming me, that I'd order a glass of wine and hang out for a while (of course I asked if they wouldn't mind). I talked, talked, talked...to an uncle (I think) and others, probably too much for almost 2 hours, but I work from home and I'm cooped up in a house in a forest all week and haven't been to a bar in probably 10 years...LOL Then Nicki's dh took a break from entertaining, mingled and stopped by and I introduced myself. He was very nice too - and so talented! So I stayed had a couple og glasses of wine (they wouldn't let me leave money) and then headed back to my neck of the woods. It was fun - I'm glad I hung out - her family is VERY nice and really genuine!...too bad Nicki wasn't there, we had a great time - but maybe sometime soon!

maryannecb

Cindy, I love your optimism and kick-ass attitude. Do you have appointments for staging yet? I hope that happens quickly so you can get treated and "get beyond" yet again.

Our thread has an ominous quiet today. It shows that we are all thinking hard about the recent developments.

Take care and Fists up!

RoseMarie

(((hugs)))Gina - so sorry ANYONE has to do this again - BUT - you're right - we did beat it and will continue to beat it!! Like MaryAnne says, "FISTS UP!"

What a cool experience, Laura. Very neat.
Brenda - forgot to mention the awesome pic...That is an awesome picture of your son! I want your camera!
Deb - what an incredible, solemn custom! Hope your FIL is ok!
Have a great night everyone,
Lots of love coming your way, ladies!

Anonymous

ravdeb -
I had to come back on line...I forgot to include this in my post: When I read your post about the moments of silence, I literally had tears in my eyes and "goose-bumps". Unbelievable...I was so moved by that.
And then...I have misplaced so many things, but they always tend to re-appear! Usually after you've stopped looking and worrying about it. It's there, it just hasn't re-appeared.

Amy -
I can't believe your having a storm! It's almost May!

Paula15089

Girls, would you believe it, my flu is STILL hanging on. I am frustrated at how bad my immune system is, and this is considering i live a much healthier life now than pre BC - juicing and excercising every day.. arrgh. ok enough of that.

Amy, new puppy, how exciting!! i hope we will be treated to lots and lots of pics?

nosurrender, so good to 'see' you here! i always look out for your posts, your courage and spirit are amazing.

Cindy and V., keep up updated girls... we are here for you.. always.

Graycie

Deb, I saw on the new's about the Holocaust memorial in Israel and I agree with Rosemarie what an incredible custom but I can't help feeling sorry for your MIL Sorry to hear about your FIL, I hope he is OK.

Amy, I hope your OK too and your power is on for "Desperate Housewives." Don't want to miss that.....lol. I tried calling my son in NYC to see how he was doing with all the rain but he didn't answer so I guess I should assume he is OK, I hope. A mother never stop's worrying. I guess I should just ask Tracy how the weather is? Since she hasn't been on maybe her power is out too.

Gina, That was nice of you to offer your support. I read your blog. You are an amazing, strong, beautiful young women and an inspiration for all of us.

Laura, Sound's like you had a nice time. That's wonderful that you were able to fit right in with Nicki's family. I wonder what I would have done. Believe it or not I am kind of shy. Although you won't convince anyone of my friends of that. lol.......

Cindy, Glad you had a nice day. Sound's like you got a lot done.

Paula, I can't believe you are still sick. I hope you feel better soon.

Anonymous

Where's Michele - ?

Anonymous

Arghhhhh! You wouldn't believe my satellite/cable nightmare!! It's too long to tell but I am so frustrated!!!

ravdeb

I do believe we have transformed into the Elephant Sisters..... elehants are big and soft and loving... rocks are just a hard place.

I want all my bc sisters to be well and fight the beast.

Gina...you inspire us and you are no intruder on any thread...you only help our sisters who need your support today. Thanks for being here to join in.

ravdeb

I wanted to tell you that my x-ray disc that I couldn't find has been found. It had slipped out of the envelope and thus I had a "slipped disk" on my hands to match my slipped discs on my back and neck!

Kelly..did you work out your satelite/cable stuff?

RoseMarie

Lol, Deb - glad you found your "slipped disk"
Paula - hope you feel MUCH better today!! This has really lingered!
Debbie - swimming?!! Wow, I'm so jealous! I'm still in shock that it's April and we're in winter coats again...

Elephant sister signing off....sending out lots of positive vibes for health, wholeness, and peace of mind...

Lots of love!

Anonymous

Good Morning: Im humbly sneaking in on this thread. Yes! Can you believe it? Laura got to meet my whole family! While I was in bed sleeping. My husband and SIL couldnt say enough about how sweet Laura is. Im hoping we will connect next time for sure.

I started my chemo the end of July beginning of August 2005. So I have been down the road with many of you. Never really connected on a certain forum or thread about chemo. Which I regret to this day.

Anyways, Im saddened to hear that 2 people here are having to deal with bc again. Sending lots of love and hugs to all of you.

Nicki

Curlylocks

Hi Ladies,

My sister was at my house the whole weekend, just dropped her off this morning. We had fun, will post probably tomorrow morning as I have my local bc support group tonight. If I have time before hand I will be here.

Enjoy the day my sisters....it is cold here again.

Your bc sister
Michele

Anonymous

Nice thing to wake up to!

HUH?

It's impossible for me to have said or written those words...because I have had no communication with her in months. What motivates her to continue to lie about me - is beyond my realm of understanding. This type of personality/behavior is worrisome and sad. And quite frankly, I have more important things to do with my time than try to figure her out.

Her post is grossly self-serving at a time when all we really want to do is hold each other up.

TracySeattle

Cindy, V, and Gina - my thoughts & prayers are with each of you. I love you, sisters - you are strong and we are here with you each step of the way....... YOU CAN DO THIS and we are here to help you! (((hugs)))

Gina - you could NEVER intrude on our thread! All are welcome here and you have been such an inspiration to all of us - I have been inspired by your posts ever since I first came here to bc.org.

Nicki - Nice to see you here, sorry you missed Laura, but it sounds like she had fun with your family! Stay here and visit with us!

I love you all.....

ake

okay seriously. let's stop the bullshit. this is ridiculous. we have to support each other. this is breast cancer. i agree that we all have our own personalities and sometimes we don't click, but we are supposed to support each other. that's why we started this group...to give support, to get support, to form friendships. we may fight, disagree, whatever....but in the end...THIS IS BREAST CANCER!!!! no one owns this group, sets the tone, or dictates. this is my group as much as anyone else's. We are supposed to be a sisterhood!!!!

victoria...you don't need to go anywhere. this is your group as much as anyone else's and we love you and you belong here. no one has the right to say you don't belong and you need us now and we're here for you, so don't let the past interfere with what you need now....to have your rocktober sisters behind you.

laura...you're mad too and i know you have your feelings about all this and it may or may not be the time to figure things out, but please let's not fight. nobody is being self-serving...especially during a recurrence. this is something to work out and resolve.

we are talking breast cancer, recurrences, fear, anger, the works....THIS IS BREAST CANCER.

we have to support each other or this group means nothing.

cathy987

Amy

Thanks so much for cutting to the center of the issues. I am in total agreement with you. We're here to support each other and to form friendships. It could't have been said any better.

TracyNY

Who is updating the address list? Not like I mail many things but there has been some movement and the record keepers need to keep us up to date!!

If all this rain we're having came a month ago and had been snow...all I can say is WOW!! I'm waiting for the ark to come floating by any second!!

Anonymous

Ravdeb, we'll see if it can get handled today! I signed up for Satellite but then after I got it, I realized the man lied. I didn't have all the channels I used to have, w/Dish you have to pay extra for alot of channels. In addition, they don't have the HBO/SHOWTIME movies or series (like the Sopranos, Rome, Dexter) in the ON DEMAND feature. I like ON DEMAND because you can just flip thru the movie library and watch it whenever you want instead of waiting til 9pm when it starts.

Dish's answer was to record everything and there ya go. But I watch the shows, then my dad will come out and watch 4 or 5 Sopranos one right after the other since I have ON DEMAND. With Dish you have to wait til it comes on and you simply cannot record everything.

The guy also did not come out and install my dsl internet so I still have the internet service from Cable So, I call TimeWarner and switch back and make an appointment and the guy comes out with the wrong equipment. I send him away because you have to pay for installs normally and I wanted it done right since they waived the install. Well, I call and the soonest they can get me in with another appointment is during my work schedule, so now I am waiting WITHOUT TV til next Sunday. Oh, they had said the guy would come back yesterday sometime before 7pm to install what he had so at least we had tv but he no-showed and we sat at home all day waiting instead of going to the park or out shopping. And you all know how many days off I have!!!

Now, they say they might be able to get someone out here today due to the fact it was their fault but no guarantees. Oh, they can credit me $20.

I am thinking of going back to Dish which is crazy but at least they give good customer service!!!! The picture quality is great and like I said, TW Cable service sucks!!