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Darn it, Sue!  Stop googling scary stuff!  You are NOT having a recurrence!  Poppy's right--cancerous lumps don't just show up like that (though it seems like it).  I'm sure the pain in your other breast is from the chemo.  Plus, your hormones are all messed up.

Go to bed if you haven't done so already.

Love you!

Karen

Hey Sue, honey, none of us is brave, strong, anything. If I feel a funny pain I turn into a weeping hunk of junk in about 10 seconds. We all do.



I doubt very much if this little thingy is anything, but since you are going in, be sure and have someone look at it.



And for goodness sake, stop apologizing for being terrified, we were and often still are, terrified. You need to be able to be perfectly open and honest here, this is your safe place. You will have things, and fears for quite some time with every little thing that happens to you. I went to the dentist about a year after my cancer to get a tooth checked. He always does a mouth "feel" around too. He looked at me and said, "Did you know you have a lump in your tongue?". I almost had a heart attack on the spot. I was completely terrified. I think I scared him. He took it out, sewed my tongue back up and, of course, this was on a Friday, no labs open. Soooo, what a fun weekend I had. Then, he called and told me on Monday it was just a silly lump. I must have died a thousand times of fright. I couldn't sleep, eat (altho that didn't hurt me any) or even move around well. I felt like I was in a fog.



I don't like you thinking you are with a bunch of amazons. We are not. Trust me, you are just as brave, just as strong. And I fell apart like a handful of Pick-Up-Stix when he said "lump".



So talk about anything, you must know we are in exactly the same boat. I get a back ache and it is mets. I have had toe mets, mets of the hair follicles, you name it. Never just a headache, always a brain tumor.



I don't want to scare you more, but you need to know that you are just as strong and brave as any of us. We are just a little further down the road. Of course you worry about the little "thingys", anyone would. So yell loudly and find out what it is.



So keep on keeping on, sweetie, one step, one day at a time. You will get there.



Love you, dear Sue, Shirlann

Hi All!!

Sue....I hope you are doing better today. I read all of your posts, and you are just totally freaking yourself out!! I have aches and pains too, and I do worry about what they are, that is natural.  But don't jump the gun on these things happening to you! Poppy is right...lumps just dont pop up!  Aunt Em told you..knock it off!! Haha...you will be ok!  How is your hair?  Are you going to shave it?

Poppy..how is your back doing?  Still allot of fluid?  Your book sounds great!  Here in Ohio, we sometimes have snow on Christmas..right now it's cold enough to snow, and we had a few flurries on Thanksgiving.  I love snow on christmas and christmas eve..so I am crossing my fingers!

Ulla...what stickers do you have for scars?  Do they help them fade?  If so, I want some!  I too had sleeping problems going through my tx's..even with meds for sleeping, I had trouble.  Keep up the good work pumping up our Sue!

Karen, I hope you are still feeling well. Leavenworth sounds like a storybook..how lovely!

Val...that is one BIG lap dog!! haah..oh my!

Shirlann...you are right...we all have our scares and we all fall apart...Sue you are not the only one...we have our weak moments too!  Heck...I found myself crying 3 times this week!

Gb...Glad you couldn't stay away!! Thanks..about the haircut comment..or should I say trim..haha.

xoxo

Lisa

Hi Sue,



Haven't said hello in way too long, but can see that you've not let bootface keep you down!



Funny about the cellphone. Don't we all just call our cells when we've misplaced them? LOL.



Decorating for the holidays since it's December 1st here. Red is my favorite color, and yes I still wear red lipstick by Revlon. Just brightens my skin tones the right way.



Thinking of what goodies to bake and for whom. Maybe we could do a cookie/bar/stollen exchange? It's not to late.



I heard if we wait to the last minute here in the States to shop, the retailers mostlikely will be dropping prices due to nervousness of any recession and low sales. Gotta like that. In the meantime, have to make that list and check it twice....



Thinking of you and your boys, Sue. Glad to see you smiling!



Happy Holidays Everyone!

Tender

Hi everyone..and Happy holidays to all.

Sue..you sound better!  We are happy to support you..that is why we are here! Too funny about your phone...been there done that! haha.

How is the hair today?  Did you see in my post the other day, that I actually got a trim?

Tender...I have done a cookie exchange at my home for years.  I haven't done it for the past 5 yrs..and decided I would host it once again this year.  But...decided to have an ornament exchange instead.."saving the calories"!

Poor Poppy...I am glad you don't have to work, it sounds as if you don't get any sleep.  I am still not sure about the date of my upcoming surgery.

Great day to all!

xoxo

Lisa

oh yeah...Sue...standing all day like that is hard on anybody..like you said..even your young employees!! Add on top of that all that you are going through with your tx's etc...that is too much!!  I so wish you had a sit down job during these tx's!

I wore scarves allot when I first lost my hair.  It really wasnt that bad, not like I expected.  I wore my wig more in the beginning..and wore scarves.  Later I wore baseball caps, etc.  If there is not much left of it and it hurts..shave it.  You can do it Sue.  Have a friend come over and do it for you.  You will not become a hermit! You are a beautiful woman with or without hair!

Gosh , I wish Lisa and I could come over and I would bring the voodka , and shears and lots of laughter and tears and we'd getter done!

You can do it, you can do it!  Go Sue!! We will be your cheerleaders..picture Melody and I with our pom poms!! haha!

Melody is right...it feels sooo much better after it's off!  Mine was gone before my 2nd tx also.