Starting chemo September 2014

For me, the bone crushing fatigue has been pretty routine. I've had my AC infusions on Tuesdays and have been able to return to work the following Monday, tired but able to muscle through. Until today. My last AC treatment was last Tuesday, and this morning I got up, showered, dressed and ready to walk out the door. And then I couldn't go any further. I wanted to cry. Hopefully it will be better tomorrow and I'll be able to make it all the way to the office.

Violet, sorry to hear about your delayed treatment. I can imagine how disappointing it is to drag things out longer.

Sybil, I honestly don't know how anybody manages to work through chemo! You are a warrior! I hope you regain your strength quickly.

Kaya, so happy you settled things with your MO. Good for you! I take Zofran, and it works very well, as long as you stay ahead of the nausea, and keep something in your tummy.I learned the hard way last weekend not to let it wear off or let my stomach get empty. I hope it is successful for you.

Had a couple of good days, and I am tensing up just thinking about the next tx. Labs and onco tomorrow, then appointment to finally get the results of my genetic testing that was done in August. Then the chemo chair on Weds. Plus the soon to be ex is being a putz, and that doesn't help. Trying so hard to be positive and strong. Some days that's harder than others.

sorry badhairday last thing anyone needs is man trouble while being sick.  

Kayarose glad ur getting what u need from ur doc now 😊

Good for you Kaya, so happy you are getting relief.

Toby, you are so right!!!!  I love my team of warriors!!! 

Badhairday, I work in the legal field and see this kind of crud everyday.  I can tell you that if you be nice and don't argue with him, he will wonder what you are up to.  Drives them crazy!!!!! 

Rose, So happy for you finishing AC! You've got this!

Toby, hope you get your allerrgy issue sorted. I don't blame you for not wanting to drag things out.

No matter, if killing him with kindness worked, that moron would have dropped over weeks ago. He hit a whole new level of idiocy today, and I told his dad on him! LOL! I'm betting he will be a bit nicer to me later!

Rose, congrats on finishing AC! High fives to you! Wishing you a smooth path for the next steps in your treatment.

LARock, was hoping you had checked in to say you are feeling better. Been thinking of you.

Big cub scout Halloween party tonight. E is going as a policeman. I'm going as a cancer patient! LOL! As long as there are snacks, I don't think E's friends will care what I look like.

Did labs and saw MO today. She said I am managing well. I skipped the Decadron last time. We are going to try a half dose this time and see if it helps. Back in the chair tomorrow.  Treatment #3 of 5 (2nd AC). After tomorrow, I will be halfway through!

Rose, so happy you are done with AC!!!  One step closer. 

GREAT news for you and your girls Badhairday!!!  I can tell you have plenty of tricks up your sleeve to play against the Moron.  Enjoy tonight with your little man, you deserve it. 

I decided against having genetic testing.  She told me that my insurance would only cover the BRCA 1 & 2 and since I have had all the cancer removed, that it would probably do me no good to do the testing, since they only test people who have cancer.  DUH!!  She was a waste of my time.  The letter she sent to my surgeon placed a 14% chance of breast cancer reoccurring.  Really?? Reoccurring with what??  Tomorrow I see my surgeon to make a last appointment to remove the remaining breast tissue and become completely flat??  She was an idiot!!!!!!

GO ROYALS!!!!!

Had a great time watching all the little scouts run around in costumes, having a blast. Exchanged numbers with a few moms-trying to make some friends so I can do some play dates for E this winter. It's hard to make friends in your 40s!

I refused genetic testing 10 years ago when my sister was diagnosed with BC. Insurance wouldn't cover it, and I didn't want to feel like a time bomb. Back then, they only tested for BRCA 1&2. My sister was negative for both. When I was diagnosed, my BS pushed for the full panel. There's 3 generations on both sides of the family with BC, uterine, ovarian and colon cancer. I decided to get the test for my kids, and my insurance paid for the full deal. I am amazed nothing turned up, but so relieved.

In other news, my husband is still a heartless schmuck. I have officially given up on ever seeing his good side again. Looks like I am going to chemo alone tomorrow. What a prince!

bad hair, do you have a friend to got with yiu?

hoping there will be some folks to talk to !

Thanks ladies for your support and concern. It means a lot. Kicking cancer's ass is hard, and dealing with this divorce is even harder. At the end of all of this, I will know I did it, on my own. I will be able to hold my head up and take pride in getting through it all. I will be able to lpok my little boy in the eyes and tell him I  fought as hard as I could to get healthy so I could be his mama for a long time. The sad truth that I gave his dad multiple opportunities to do the right thing and he refused to do so will come out eventually. I feel sad about that, but you can't force somebody to be a nice person.

Thankfully, I went to the library today and got some cookbooks I can entertain myself looking at, in the hopes that someday food won't taste like nickels!

Rose, congradulations on getting through the A/C .   Onward we go. 

Badhairday so sorry for your troubles.  You will get through this and come out stronger.

Praying for courage and hope for us all.  Love, Jean 

Chemo today went smoothly. When I walked in, I saw a mom from my daughter's dive team. She was so supportive, and wants to bring dinner to E and I this weekend. Walked in to the cancer center and saw another aquaintance who works with my hair stylist. She was there to support a friend she has "adopted" as a grandma. She told me to bring my wigs in and they will all help me get them looking good. Then back to the chair. Had my favorite nurse today. It went well. I brpught along the new cookbook from The Chew, and  Michael Symon's 5 in 5 cookbook, and a ton of post-it flags. (Micheal and his wife don't know it, but he is my secret tv bpyfriend! LOL!) Once I  can taste food again, I am going to be cooking up a storm. It passed the time well. 

Feeling pretty good so far. A bit sleepy, but that's it. I managed a trip to Target for the extravagant purchases in life: toilet paper, laundry soap, and alpha lipoic acid. Look at me, living so high on that spousal support! Then attended a parent meeting for PSR. The moron attended, but he was decent. He agreed to come for dinner and pumpkin carving tomorrow. (Look at me, Nomatter, being all nice! LOL!) I am not thinking it will last, but I don't want to deal with that pumpkin myself! Of course, my boys picked out the biggest one!

Hope everyone is feeling well this evening, and had a peaceful, healthy day!

Hopefully, I did this right and my dx and tx will show up in my profile. You can ask away, Nomatter. After giving birth five times and a bmx, modesty is a long forgotten memory! LOL!

Ironically, my dx was the result of a lump I found on the left side, that turned out to be a cyst. I opted  for bmx due to family hx, and I am so glad I did, as there was suspicious activity on the pathology on the left, but nothing to definitively call cancer. I had two different types of cancer in the right breast and never felt a thing on that side. Odd how things work out.

Nomatterwhat, you look amazing!

Our stories are eerily similar, other than the chemo tx. Taxotere tried to kill me. 

I haven't started rads yet. Have to meet with the RO in a couple weeks. Still considering a prophylactic ooph or hysterectomy too. Then exchange surgery in spring/summer. Did you choose not to do reconstruction or put it off? The TEs have been the most painful part of all of this. Some days, I really regret going for it. Sure hope it's worth it when my new boobs are installed!