INSOMNIACS place to talk in the wee hours

Susan3, my husband's parents have known each other from about third or fourth grade as well and they both just turned 80 within the last year.  He saw her skipping rope with her sausage curls and said "that's the girl I'm going to marry someday" and he did.  Also, I can relate on mothers/handfuls.  I could start but then I might never stop...  

2TA - thank you, my sweet Sistah!!! Sending you many, many hugs!!! Hope you are getting some physical, mental, and spiritual rest. Look for an email from me.

Holeinone - thank you for your kind thoughts. Since I don't have my MO to bounce my ideas off of, my BCO sisters are the next best thing!!!! 

LeeA - thank you for the prayers!!! Each one is felt, believe me!!!

Smaarty - Last year, I quit the Arimidex cold turkey... no consequences. Hoping for the same. 17 pounds? Congratulations!

Wren - thanks for the vote of confidence. It's amazing how powerful the words "You're doing the right thing..." can be.

Susan - I met DH in Kindergarten. (But we didn't marry until much later.) We went all the way through school together. We reconnected at our 30 year HS reunion. He had just been widowed. We married almost 9 years ago. We invited our Kindergarten teacher to the wedding, and at the Reception, we had her stand up and we told the story. We thanked her for introducing us! 

That's a beautiful story, Blessings! 

Yes!  A chocolate coke.... Hah!  Thanks HIO....  And those little coke glasses!.... Did you get all your bark down?  It makes it all look so neat.

So 222222ndT!  THERE you are... You wrote something and then deleted that because you were "ashamed" because I'll bet you thought you blabbed too much about personal stuff.... It's okay...  I have no idea what you were talking about, but it's maybe something to do with what WE were talking about.

Don't be ashamed...  It helps you to get it out...  If you have someone you can run away to, that is great.  You need a breathing period... 

I know............  A lot of us "know."......  

One time...(the first time) I ran away, it was at 4 in the morning... And I went to a little Diner, and just sobbed. 

I sat there until it got light.... and then I drove to a motel, and thought I would just stay there.

I called my oldest DD, and she told me Dad is frantic!  Yes... honey, that is the point!  I am DONE, I've made up my mind, I can't take it anymore....   She said at LEAST call him and talk to him...

So I did, and I started sobbing so hard I couldn't even talk... or catch my breath... People in the hallway were looking at me like I was some sort of deranged woman!  I WAS!  

He begged me to come home...  And I finally said I would...  I first went to my youngest Daughter's house, and I just couldn't go home yet!  It took soooooo much to get up enough courage to leave, but I DID it, and if I went back too soon, I thought I had just given up again...  But I eventually went back....   Walked past him, out of my car.... took my little suit-case in...

And when he came in, he said "You want to go shopping?"  I guess it was just ANYthing to get us back talking again. 

We went to the mall....   So that was the first time.

22222222nd.... If you ran away, and it helped you, for whatever reason, that is good!  Maybe it will help things!  All we want to do is show them we can't take it any more.... and maybe that's all it takes.

So whatever you did....  take care of yourself...  but never be ashamed.  We are just here for each other...  See, I feel okay talking about this, because we came THROUGH it...!  And we are happier now than I ever thought possible! 

So don't freak out...  and yes I'll say a little prayer for you....  It will always get better, one way or another.... take one day at a time, and take care of yourself!

Nettie....  If you can do any kind of outdoor "cleaning" or moving around, or just going for a walk, it really helps...   Try something that maybe helps you get going?   I didn't think I would ever move again, after I broke my hip.....

But It's actually trying to be part of the rest of my body, and moves pretty good!  I had to smack it into shape.... I had to get outdoors, park my cane, and get my mind off of it, and move around..... a lot!

If I can make myself enjoy something, at almost 77, and pretend I am not as old as that actually is, I am much better off.

222222222nd.... And what's this about being "embarrassed?"  You think me and Cammi ever do that?    Nope....  that's "recockulous" as Cammi would say....

And can   I call you Maddy now.... because I'm running out of 2222222222's.

Blessings.... I quit Tamoxifen on my own...  Just talk to your Doc when you get a chance....  But your reasons are more important.... Like you said! 

Just take that DH and go and enjoy life!  You can do anything you want! Don't think about what could happen with you guys, just go like there is nothing stopping you!  I'm glad you shared this with us.....  that's what we are here for...

Have fun Friday night Smarty!  ....  Congratulations on the weight loss.  I'm too busy to even try it right now....

Okay, morning to all our other friends!  I'm going to go sit outdoors for a few minute, before it gets light...  drink my coffee, and just enjoy.... something!

good morning owlettes . Hope your days are full of sunshine and rainbows

sas...........where r u? Is everything ok? Thinking about you  

I know!  Haven't  heard from the Sassmiester in a long time!  Come out and play miss Sassy-pants!

Nettie....  Now it sounds like it is up to you to just take care of yourself.... In other words, make yourself happy....  We can't think that our DH will make us happy, because sometimes they don't, or can't.     One time I went to WW, and I loved it...DH hated it, because I started feeling good about myself, and the way I looked.  Made a few really nice friends,  and changed my whole outlook!  Maybe that's why I decided I was responsible for myself, and  this gave me a lot of self confidence!  A group really helps!  And it works.

Oh, yes, Chevy, I know that no one can make me happy but myself, but it's just that I so want to spend quality time with the DH and he seems to not really care much about it unless it suits his needs!  Ex:   the stuff tonight and tomorrow, that is all about what he wanted to do!  Now don't misunderstand, I enjoy it but just wish that I could make him understand that we need to do more things together!  I'm not one to lay around and mope or be depressed!  I just feel like we are wasting valuable time on things that we could do together!

Just peeking in.

this is a real tree. A rainbow eucalyptus  !! Wish it was in my backyard.

Chevy your dinner sounds just delightful! How about some Squirrel Pudding for dessert?

Paula

Oh but we can't make squirrel pudding....  we just treat them like pets around here...  We feed them every day.

Same with the neighbor chickens.... Nothing is wild around her anymore.... not even ME!

Hi everyone--Ive read up an everything I again am so far behind--I've been so busy in these 4 walls of mine I can't believe it. It never stops anyway it stopped for now So I'm taking advantage of it.

Blessings I hope u'r doing well.

Nettie why not ask u'r DH out on a date--just the 2 of u and see how that goes.

Chevy Paula's right u'r dinner sounds like something everyone would stand in line for, u should be proud that u can make just any old thing and be happy with it. After all it's being made by any old thing so it should be good.

OK the weather I think it's supposed to be hot this weekend, like hot here all of a sudden--maybe I'll  go to my DD's house and swim, well kick my legs and sink but it's still movement.  I'll see what's going on this weekend. Somethin is happening soon but I can't remember.

2nnnd maybe u'r DD just thinks u have a lot on u'r mind and doesn't want to add anything to that. ????

And what a beautiful tree, is that a rare thing or in certain parts of the country u can see them, it looks like it has been painted so perfectly.

OK I'll BBL  (((HUGS))) all around

Okay, that Tree IS real! 

I sent it that picture to my Daughter's, and one thought it couldn't possible be "real".... so I looked it up, and it IS!

http://www.lovethesepics.com/2013/01/living-rainbow-rainbow-eucalyptus-most-beautiful-tree-bark-on-earth-36-pics/

Tang..... Just thinking of you.... don't want you to worry too much..... Is there anything else you can do until you find out, or get help?

Susan, little honey, yes, I believed you.... but my younger Daughter thought it was too pretty to be true.... so naturally I'm going to prove SOMEone wrong...Ha!  I sent her that whole page too!  Damn kids....  question their MOTHER!

Sass must be on vacation?  Or somewhere un-beknownst to us!   I don't think that's even a word....   I made a great salad...

Broccoli floretts, diced onions, dried cranberries and blueberries, chopped mini-peppers, and chopped walnuts, with Ranch dressing..... See:?  I'll eat SOMEthing good for me!