Thinking Out Loud.....

Joan, the drought can cause a lot of problems for our koi.  DH and I change out about 25% of the water each week.  In the summer it is easy for me to use that water on my potted plants but when it is cold I do not feel like going outdoors to water.  If we are rationed I will have to find a way to recylce all the time.

Val..........no tears....happens to me too........

Fire.....probably better off remaining unknown......lol.......got snow, lots, snowed in, lost electric, no heat......pissed as hell, will tell you all later........cell died, and then house phone dies...........then kids were coming to drag me out bodily and I said "NO", and they all got mad.....including the older grandkids..............called me a bull headed, hard ass nut who is going to freeze to death in my sleep...........told them to stop treating me like a school kid,.......was thrilled when the house, and cell phone died...........they could not call............everytime I heard a car or truck outside, I thought it was one of them coming to drag my sorry ass out of the house kicking and screaming...........thank God they finally left me alone................

FK...I got your email and replied

Good morning TOL  

My heat has not stopped since it came back on at midnight last night......had to go from 55 to 70.....still running...........

Fire would have loved a PJ party last night........we could have had one by internet....only problem.....I didn't have that either...........LMAO.........felt like a frigging Nomad........

Val, hope ;you feel better today........last night I was so pissed at everything and everyone, I thought...........I have had it........just disgusted......better today.

Hey girlfriend.......I want your heat bill.......lol............mine this months was $328.00, gas and elect......just heat was $228.00.............told you need to sell my ass on the corner to make the money to pay the bill..........LOL

Val.........could not have said it better..............I do appreciate my kids being concerned........but when I say No, I mean No.

There are times I am sitting her......great weather, and just wishing someone would call, come over, say "hey Mom want to go to the store with me, us, whomever.............I know I'm slow, and can't go real far or real fast, but guess what..........I still want to try........one day I will get that "knee replacement", but right now I'm still a little bit scared...........like so many other things, maye when I do it I will say "why did I wait so long"

So want to be taken care of........but please let me say no if I want to...........

This pissed off son....does so much for me, and I know where he is coming from......he made a promise to his dying father, and wants to keep it.......he is always there for me, but was upset last night about "no heat", and I understand that, but don't blame your brothers and sisters when I was the one who said "NO".....my one daughter wrote to me in a text and said "Mom, I said to Sean (husband)........she is 78, almost 79......she knows what she wants to do"...........another daughter said to her husband........"Kev, I am not begging her....you know my Mother...when she makes up her mind, no one is changing it".........the third daughter tried......said she was "outside my house waiting", when she was actually still home..........I screamed at her......well ;you can turn your ass right around and go back where you came from, cause I am not coming out"...........then she said "Mom I'm still home...I wanted to see what you would say"..........I called her a lying bitch.......LOL, she laughed too.........

Oh kids.............love them all dearly........even the granddaughter was bugging me, and her husband.....

omg, I did it!!

Here ya go, K!!!

Rain............oh yes, had many of those..........."one day I will get back into those"..........some I actually did............but that was few and far between........LOL..........

Val, love your post..........so happy you got your 5 years...........hope you get many more 5's...........hugs girlfriend..........

I am 3 years in a couple weeks........

Ok, Smarty Pants..........saw your picture..........you probably never had "fat clothes" a day in your life......

Loved Val's post too.......beautiful.........

Only good thing that came out of this BC business was you, Val, Joan, Jo, Aly, Rain, and all my wonderful ladies...............I love you all, and could not have made it without you...........

Cancer brought us together love has kept us together.........hugs..........

ducky-since I moved here I gained 16lbs.

Yeah I was never heavy but now since my stomach surgery it's huge and none of my jeans fit me

So now I'm wearing pants that either stretch or sweats...I. Never wore sweats befor the beast but now it's gonna be my new pans,bought every color

Deb,,,,please say something!!!!!

Yes we r sistas,every size and shape but we all over each other.

Lets all pray for the cure for 2014 

Hi Deb!!!  Talk to us!

Sheila - you are quiet today.

Sorry you all are facing another storm - you sure have had a winter!!

Tomorrow is the big Seahawks parade - they are talking half a million people and 22 degrees.  I think not.  TV can be very satisfying

I know how much you are looking forward to another foot of snow, Sheila   I am on the couch eating frozen yogurt, so yes, resting

I wish my school were closed tomorrow...even though we just had a snow day.  Am hoping for delayed start.  It will be a bad commute with snow, then sleet and rain on top of snow.  And another storm on the week end should be the biggest one yet.  I hear that I may have to make up classes over my March break.  That is actually better than doing it in May when the weather is nice and I want to visit my son.

Meece, you are having the opposite problem...you need the rain (but not too much, please!)  Are you on rationing?  It sounds like the koi are a lot of work but they are so beautiful.  Do you have to protect the koi from birds?  I know they are quite large so maybe not.  Living near the shore, my friends who have ponds with small fish have to screen them from the herons. 

I fell asleep watching TV now can't get back to sleep.

Val I know that "let down" feeling after everyone says "you're fine"...but I know that if they had to cut something out, then blast me with more radiation than I can fathom, and give me a pill to keep BC from growing, I cannot be 100% sure of anything.  I have this urgency to just do things I want to do...not worry about the future.  I am plotting retirement plans which under different circumstances would not be thinking about. 
It's all about looking and feeling OK but knowing there are uncertainties.
That said, I am grateful and realize that I am well today, and today is all we have - one at a time.
I know you know all this, we all do.  But we cannot help go into that gray area at times.

I shop the same way, Val...if I like something I get it in many colors.  It works though because I have to work every day and if it fits/works, I'm glad to have multiples.  Since DD moved away I was indulging in all the comfort foods and self-pity.  I gained almost 10 lbs. and finally said "enough".  I lost about 5 lbs. in January, and of course now am trying on all the things I think may fit again.  What a shock when they are still tight...

Ducky, I know how you feel about standing your ground...you just get a feeling that you'll be OK.  I guess your kids would worry that you couldn't call them if you needed them...I'm glad they are there for you, even if they are testing your patience!
I was thinking today of my friends here and how it has helped me ... where else can we say whatever is on our minds?  and be understood without having to explain. 

Hi Deb, hope you are doing well.  How's your grandbaby coming along?  I hope DD is doing well.  So happy for you.