Thinking Out Loud.....
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They are having a 2 hour special of something else
No you're not confused
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Joan, the drought can cause a lot of problems for our koi. DH and I change out about 25% of the water each week. In the summer it is easy for me to use that water on my potted plants but when it is cold I do not feel like going outdoors to water. If we are rationed I will have to find a way to recylce all the time.
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We had a small amount of rain last Thursday and some heavy mist today. Not enough to make a difference, but every little bit helps right about now.
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I think I'm going to cry.....
I had this insanely long post written, hit Submit & it's gone!
WTH !!!
I can't do that again............ -
I've had that happen to me before, Val. Please don't cry!
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Val..........no tears....happens to me too........
Fire.....probably better off remaining unknown......lol.......got snow, lots, snowed in, lost electric, no heat......pissed as hell, will tell you all later........cell died, and then house phone dies...........then kids were coming to drag me out bodily and I said "NO", and they all got mad.....including the older grandkids..............called me a bull headed, hard ass nut who is going to freeze to death in my sleep...........told them to stop treating me like a school kid,.......was thrilled when the house, and cell phone died...........they could not call............everytime I heard a car or truck outside, I thought it was one of them coming to drag my sorry ass out of the house kicking and screaming...........thank God they finally left me alone................
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good morning
Val please don't cry...u will make me start all over again
Maybe we should cry for poor Ducky?????
Come here sista,no one will find u in this one horse town
And yeah we have phone svs,water,heat although I don't have it on..that's right my apt is 69 deg.without the heat..sooo get on the broom and come on over.
Tomorrow we r expecting some snow,it's not supposed to be a lot
Living in the foot hill of the poconoes has it's advantages....shhhhhhhhh
Come one come all,we can have a pajama party right here
Sheila...something Is wrong with my email....I tried my iPad and the reg.puter.i havnt gotten anything from u???gonna send u a message
Love my sistas
Love this thread
Xoxoxo FireKracker,,,,,
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FK...I got your email and replied
Good morning TOL
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Sheila,got it,thanks
Gotta go now
I'll be back soon
My shower is callin me
Betta put the heat on in the bathroom
Xo FireKracker,,,,
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My heat has not stopped since it came back on at midnight last night......had to go from 55 to 70.....still running...........
Fire would have loved a PJ party last night........we could have had one by internet....only problem.....I didn't have that either...........LMAO.........felt like a frigging Nomad........
Val, hope ;you feel better today........last night I was so pissed at everything and everyone, I thought...........I have had it........just disgusted......better today.
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I'll be right there ducky
My apt is nice and toasty without heat.
Don't no what happened but without heat apt is almost 70 deg.
Gonna make a meatloaf so the oven will be on to make it even warmer
Start packin sweetie
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Hey girlfriend.......I want your heat bill.......lol............mine this months was $328.00, gas and elect......just heat was $228.00.............told you need to sell my ass on the corner to make the money to pay the bill..........LOL
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I'm doing better today. I don't usually write at this time of the day but kept thinking of what I'd written last night that didn't go thru. GRRR!Anyhoo..... first of all, what I was feeling seems a bit minor compared to all the crap you, ducky, went through the past several hours. Good Lordie, I am soooo friggin' sick of snow & losing power & all that crap that goes with it. I bet you were pissed, ducky, I know I would have been. Sometimes it's a good thing when family can't *reach* us...... let us be for a while. We're old enough to take care of ourselves!! And I just added another year to my 60ish birthday last month. Another year further down the line.........
My post that was lost was a >bitchin' & complain' post.< And I did some swearing, too!!
I'm just in a funk..... lost too many good sistas...... also some having **it** rear its ugly-ass head again........
Ever since this past Nov. when I passed my five-year mark, I've felt, I don't know, kinda lost, I guess I could say. I know some gals are celebratory about it...... I hardly mentioned it. A couple of sentences here at BCO.... I still don't know how to actually feel.... Happy to have reached that milestone or scared to death to have passed that milestone.......
I need to get on track again. I have piles of things I have been wanting to get at & it still sits there.... waiting for me.....
Remember when I talked about DH wanting to sell my car & get me a lease & I really didn't want to do that?? Well, he's changed his mind. But now he's looking at full-size trucks, used ones, yes, but they cost an arm & a leg now. I don't know where in the hell that money is going to come from! There's a bitch session!!
I need to do my taxes before I head north for Miss M's birthday. Only get a few bucks back anyway, that is the way I plan it. (don't need the government taking any more money from me than they need to & then they turn around & give it back to me!! My $$$, with no interest?!?) Another bitch session!!
I'm reading the most current book in the Game of Thrones series, A Dance With Dragons, & there was a sentence in there that as soon as I read it late last night, I thought of all of you here ~ my wonderful sisters ~~
>>"The strongest trees are rooted in the dark places of the earth."<<
All we have gone, & continue to go through, is "dark" but, all of you here are my "strongest trees".
I think I will add that to my signature below when I get the chance....
Thanks for listening...........
♥♥♥♥♥♥
(this had better post or I'm going to be totally pissed!!)
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Val.........could not have said it better..............I do appreciate my kids being concerned........but when I say No, I mean No.
There are times I am sitting her......great weather, and just wishing someone would call, come over, say "hey Mom want to go to the store with me, us, whomever.............I know I'm slow, and can't go real far or real fast, but guess what..........I still want to try........one day I will get that "knee replacement", but right now I'm still a little bit scared...........like so many other things, maye when I do it I will say "why did I wait so long"
So want to be taken care of........but please let me say no if I want to...........
This pissed off son....does so much for me, and I know where he is coming from......he made a promise to his dying father, and wants to keep it.......he is always there for me, but was upset last night about "no heat", and I understand that, but don't blame your brothers and sisters when I was the one who said "NO".....my one daughter wrote to me in a text and said "Mom, I said to Sean (husband)........she is 78, almost 79......she knows what she wants to do"...........another daughter said to her husband........"Kev, I am not begging her....you know my Mother...when she makes up her mind, no one is changing it".........the third daughter tried......said she was "outside my house waiting", when she was actually still home..........I screamed at her......well ;you can turn your ass right around and go back where you came from, cause I am not coming out"...........then she said "Mom I'm still home...I wanted to see what you would say"..........I called her a lying bitch.......LOL, she laughed too.........
Oh kids.............love them all dearly........even the granddaughter was bugging me, and her husband.....
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This is the grandaughter who was bugging me last night, at Sunday's Super Bowl game.....she won tickets from a raffle at work........Her name is Genna, (Genevieve after me, and her Mother, and Great Grandmother)
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D~ Your DD is beautiful!!
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omg, I did it!!
Here ya go, K!!!
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Today I am cleaning out my bedroom closet, linens, and bathroom cabinets. If you ever want to feel tearful and depressed, just try on those clothes you've been saving for when you lose weight......
I feel kinda pissy right now.
Hi Val - I hope you can find your way to joy after the five year mark. Not being there yet, I wonder if it is a little bit like empty nest syndrome.....in theory, you are not supposed to be worried anymore but what do you do with that energy?
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Rain............oh yes, had many of those..........."one day I will get back into those"..........some I actually did............but that was few and far between........LOL..........
Val, love your post..........so happy you got your 5 years...........hope you get many more 5's...........hugs girlfriend..........
I am 3 years in a couple weeks........
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Val......thank u for postin it
Love it as u no
Hey I just passed 4 yrs. since I found my lump,I. Really don't wanna think of it and if someone asks me I have to think hard.5yrs.wow Val.its done and now forget about it...we r here cause we belong here,yes!
I hope both of u posted this on the veggy thread.please!!!!!
Ducky,crazy lady in pink,,,thank you too for that post,u did a good job in more ways then one.
I have nuthin in my closet that doesn't fit me...I. Give it away so I can buy new.
Xoxo FireKracker,,,
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Ok, Smarty Pants..........saw your picture..........you probably never had "fat clothes" a day in your life......
Loved Val's post too.......beautiful.........
Only good thing that came out of this BC business was you, Val, Joan, Jo, Aly, Rain, and all my wonderful ladies...............I love you all, and could not have made it without you...........
Cancer brought us together love has kept us together.........hugs..........
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Just me peeking in.
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ducky-since I moved here I gained 16lbs.
Yeah I was never heavy but now since my stomach surgery it's huge and none of my jeans fit me
So now I'm wearing pants that either stretch or sweats...I. Never wore sweats befor the beast but now it's gonna be my new pans,bought every color
Deb,,,,please say something!!!!!
Yes we r sistas,every size and shape but we all over each other.
Lets all pray for the cure for 2014
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Hi Deb..........love the squirrel.......long time, no post......how are you........
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Hi Deb!!! Talk to us!
Sheila - you are quiet today.
Sorry you all are facing another storm - you sure have had a winter!!
Tomorrow is the big Seahawks parade - they are talking half a million people and 22 degrees. I think not. TV can be very satisfying
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thank God i don't have any children in school....second time this week the schools will be closed again
Also I'm grateful i don't have to leave the house
Some small luxuries in life I take it very seriously
I was little busy today ....I just did my FB movie.....
Hoping you're resting Diane....and Congratulations for the win......
Nothing to report except they are saying we might get foot of snow tomorrow......I don't think so there is no room on the ground for more
FK is gaining weight Welcome to the real world hahahahahahaaaaa
(((TOL)))
Good Night ♥
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I know how much you are looking forward to another foot of snow, Sheila
I am on the couch eating frozen yogurt, so yes, resting
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Speaking of throwing away clothes, yesterday I grabbed 6 tops off their hangers & immediately put them in a bag & closed it down for Volunteers of America. I used to buy several colors of a top if I really liked it so these were two styles of tops, three colors each. I didn't wear them last winter & have not yet this winter.... I needed hangers, saw them & said, "That's it! You guys are outta here!!" This winter I have only bought one color & style of each top that I have liked. Been shopping in Younkers & there is such a wide selection that I like in their clothers esp. in the Jones New York Jones Sport section & lots of casual tops in the Rough Hewn section, I told myself, "only one of whatever you buy" to have a variety of clothes. It is more fun!Yeah, K, I wasn't sure if I'd be able to get that picture off FB over to here, BCO, when you asked me to do it. But I figured it out! I was pretty proud of myself, if I do say so myself.
Feeling a bit better today........guess I needed to get some of my pent-up feelings off my chest.... There was a post on FB that had several doors & you chose the one you liked the best & it was supposed to tell you about yourself. It stated, among other things, that I held my feelings inside.......yes, I do..... Thank you all for listening. ♥
Love "talking" to all of you.....wish we could all have a great big gab-fest in person.... Now wouldn't that be a riot?!?
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I wish my school were closed tomorrow...even though we just had a snow day. Am hoping for delayed start. It will be a bad commute with snow, then sleet and rain on top of snow. And another storm on the week end should be the biggest one yet. I hear that I may have to make up classes over my March break. That is actually better than doing it in May when the weather is nice and I want to visit my son.
Meece, you are having the opposite problem...you need the rain (but not too much, please!) Are you on rationing? It sounds like the koi are a lot of work but they are so beautiful. Do you have to protect the koi from birds? I know they are quite large so maybe not. Living near the shore, my friends who have ponds with small fish have to screen them from the herons.
I fell asleep watching TV now can't get back to sleep.
Val I know that "let down" feeling after everyone says "you're fine"...but I know that if they had to cut something out, then blast me with more radiation than I can fathom, and give me a pill to keep BC from growing, I cannot be 100% sure of anything. I have this urgency to just do things I want to do...not worry about the future. I am plotting retirement plans which under different circumstances would not be thinking about.
It's all about looking and feeling OK but knowing there are uncertainties.
That said, I am grateful and realize that I am well today, and today is all we have - one at a time.
I know you know all this, we all do. But we cannot help go into that gray area at times.I shop the same way, Val...if I like something I get it in many colors. It works though because I have to work every day and if it fits/works, I'm glad to have multiples. Since DD moved away I was indulging in all the comfort foods and self-pity. I gained almost 10 lbs. and finally said "enough". I lost about 5 lbs. in January, and of course now am trying on all the things I think may fit again. What a shock when they are still tight...
Ducky, I know how you feel about standing your ground...you just get a feeling that you'll be OK. I guess your kids would worry that you couldn't call them if you needed them...I'm glad they are there for you, even if they are testing your patience!
I was thinking today of my friends here and how it has helped me ... where else can we say whatever is on our minds? and be understood without having to explain.Hi Deb, hope you are doing well. How's your grandbaby coming along? I hope DD is doing well. So happy for you.
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