Prayer request...unusual perhaps

My heartfelt thanks to all of you for your anticipated prayers...starts tomorrow with my onc appointment and more questions about treatment possibilities...and hopefully some medical answers...meanwhile, we are plugging along...had several affirmations that this is the right decision for us...to relocate...we are tentatively planning a flight in September to El Paso followed by a drive to Las Cruces NM and then on to Tucson area...we've been to other parts of AZ in the past 4 years to scout around...this is a more focused trip and then will return here to MA to close up shop...our dreams were before bone mets dx...that put a crimp in some of our plans...but not a chasm....not yet anyway...sooooooooooo if any of you caring ladies would care to share if you are geographically in those areas I would appreciate it...like maybe names of hospitals, clinics, etc...personally thanks to Wildflowers for her input on some of that...anyone can PM me if this in inappropriate for this board...many, many thanks and blessings...first to the Lord...and then to all of you...

Hello gals...I am making this intentionally short...I am scared...dealing with results of today's appointment...need some time to sort it all out...kindly continue praying for me and mine....will try to keep in touch soon...not doing too good right now...thank you.

Hello ladies, I'm here to gather some hope for myself and my family...last Friday the oncologist told me that the swelling in my lower spine is not due to the bone mets but from radiation damage...and cannot have further rads to that area...which is my most involved location of the mets. Also told me that I need to stay on monthly Zometa and Arimidex as they are my only shot right now at keeping things controlled and in balance between the little suckers eating my bone and the bone loss from drugs and the infusion to keep bones stronger...I understood all that...even accepted it...but when he said extensive involvment of "bone marrow" I nearly dropped off the planet...I had obviously been in denial land with that terminology...never used before in my presence...but has some serious connotations to me and my family personally...we were under the mistaken impression that the cancer cells were attacking from outside to inside and found out, naturally, it is just the opposite...so to simplify my discourse...it is on the inside of the inside...and that's way deep to me...of course, I am a strong Christian and realize nothing is impossible with God...with Christ Who Strengthens Me...it just took us a few days to adjust to the new terminology and what it implies...my husband's first wife died of bc...we've raised our 5 blended kids...4 girls with bc in their family histories...1 son...the words "bone marrow" shake us to the very core because of memories with Suzan...we have all been doing lots of crying and sharing since Friday...probably more than the last 11 years combined...coping is hard...we have taken some major steps to simplify our lives; to live it to the fullest...to find some worthwhile endeavor for both hubby and me...he retired Saturday...so we can have some quality time together...wherever that is...because,quite frankly ladies, this is the proverbial monkey wrench...I realize nothing much has changed pre-Friday to today...other than our perception of it all...if there is a prayer request in all of this rather lengthy epistle...it is this...for the Serenity Prayer to be our focus more than ever...and to remember that God is in control, always and forever...and I am His child willing to follow His lead...wherever it is...until He calls me HOME. Thank you and God Bless You All.

Hello, and thank you for all the prayers offered on my behalf. I haven't felt much like "talking" lately...my news from 7/6 at onc was a bit distressing...this is what he said to me "you have clusters of tumors in your bone marrow; major areas are spine, hips, pelvis, buttocks, femur with other areas that we haven't told you about". He also said the inflammation in lower spine is damage from the rads in January and I have to live with that and try to manage the pain/swelling. Now I also have LE on right underarm which is not the site of original bc. And then I whacked my shin and got a dandy of a bone bruise; tripped over my own feet and jammed big toe joint to the point of not being able to walk and am now in a hard bottom boot to keep from bending until it heals. So, that has put me in a tailspin...I am hanging onto the fact that the tumor markers are still going down and the MRIs still show improvement. He is trying to keep my bone loss balanced and stable but emphatically stated that the damage has been done (undiagnosed for approx. 2 years in spite of regular exams and mamms). I thank my good Lord for the fact that there is no cancer showing in liver, lungs or reproductive organs. Doesn't mean I'm not scared...but it does mean that Jim and I are no longer talking about going to the southwest...when pressed to talk freely to me, he admitted he would rather be here amongst family and friends should anything go wrong; that we can no longer do the motorcycle together; can no longer go rough camping. He did a lot of private crying and rehashing old memories (first wife died of bc). So, we have decided to fly out to KY to see son and family there rather than camping it; have decided to go see Grand Canyon rather than scout out living arrangements; have decided to "vacation" together and have some allowable fun while we can...and stay living here. That's our plan...and because there is no doubt anymore I believe it is God's plan for us...at this time...for this year...who knows what the future holds except God anyway. This has been a rough year (my only brother died in January of cancer) and then we got my dx...I think time to do some internal adjustments is in order...so, thanks for listening to me, ladies, and I will stay in touch...I love the freedom of being able to pray, ask for prayer, and receive answers...you are a meaningful inspiration and in deep humility, I thank you.