In shock

Waving, waving, waving, cheering, woohooing, applauding, waving, waving, waving!! ((((((((((x)))))))))))))

Liefie-sending gentle post-DIEP (((hugs))) your way........love you, girl! You did it!



Much love to all you lovely Bellies! Will try to post again later......



XO



Namaste and God bless - Jackie

Liefie - left a message on the Survivors thread for you but so happy to hear you are doing so well



Edi - so good to hear from you again, maybe since you missed Bingo this week you will win twice as much next week



Jennie - yay, glad skin is healing up so well for you



OK, ladies - I got a call from the cancer centre this a.m. telling me I have an appointment with my MO on Friday, May 24th. That means she got the results back already. The way my mind thinks is that they don't usually waste appointments for good results, I would think she would just phone those like she did my lab results. Trying not to 'go there' but it sure is going to be a long week before I see her.



Love and hugs to all

My Lord, between Liefie and Websister my blood pressure is on a rollercoaster!!!! 

Websister....not even gonna try to say "don't worry", cause that would be the natural reaction of any of us, I think. What a slippery slope this journey is....wanting info and answers, but not wanting to "hear" what those are sometimes. It could well be, that the appointment will be that of "nothing has shown up.....so now let's talk about what else could be checked".....but I know that's not what your emotions are telling you. Surround yourself with that wonderful family, enjoy the grad plans for your son, pull out all of your coping strategies, and plan on us "hovering" around you in cyberspace with thoughts of peace and strength. There have been two beautiful, double rainbows in the evening sky this past week. Surely that means something!!!!  Sending you hugs ((((x))))). 

Websister - pulling for those "nothing there so where do we go" kind of appointments. Time for us to circle around you, hold hands and pray for those results. Like Nihahi's suggestions - busy yourself with grad plans with your wonderful son and other family matters. Hope Rod is attentive as usual. Read through last part of your blog. I've read parts but not consistently. Your writing style is lovely. Have a restfully busy glowy weekend.

Traii - you are a good mom, maybe he can have some chips later



Luvmygoats - thanks for your kind words



I will definitely stay busy. My thoughts are that scan was yesterday and I was told that MO would have results by Tuesday, 2 business days. The fact that she appears to have gotten them already today and asked them to arrange an appointment for me for next week is a concern for me.

After the lab results were back, she called me and asked how I was, which is what led to the bone scan being moved up and the ultrasound added urgently. I would think that an oncologist would know the concern that would be generated getting a call with an appointment and no explanation and would not choose to do that unduly.

If I was the oncologist and the results were good but I wanted to see the person and discuss 'what now' I would call them like she did this week and, first ask how they are, second tell them there was nothing to be concerned about on the scans and then tell them that I would like to bring them in for an appointment next week so I could examine them and discuss where we go from here.



My rant.



Can't do anything until Tuesday as it is a three day long weekend here. So, since I can't I will take the wise advice given and have a restfully glowy weekend, making sure I spend lots of time in the meadow looking up at that double rainbow.

Hi girls,

Had a lovely afternoon nap, and feeling refreshed. I've lost the catheter, oxygen and IV pipes already. Yayyy!!!!0nly the 3 drains remaining. Was stark nekkid under the covers till this morning when all these pipes came off, then put on hospital garb. Not going to create extra laundry wearing my own pj's.

Websister, big hugs to you! Try to enjoy your weekend without worrying too much. As the others said, we never know what these oncs are going to say, so don't go 'there'. Sending positive vibes and prayers!

Holy c**p liefie! Nothing left but the drains.....that's amazing!!!!! You are definitely ahead of where I was at that point. You are rocking your recovery big-time! Did you ever find out if the te was under the muscle?

Websister...rant away...I know I'm standing in the meadow shouting a few choice thoughts myself, on your behalf.

Iceburg, this journey certainly teaches us a whole new understanding of patience and fight. Always keep in mind....we get it!

Hello lovlies! xx

websister, Will be keeping you in prayer!

Agree whole-heartedly your 'rant' re: results... Bless you girl!

Stay strong and try not to 'go there'! (((hugs))) xoxox Double rainbows do sound quite lovely!

liefie, you sound so amazing!!!! Coming along quite nicely it sounds like! Wonderful! Knew you had this!!!!

nihahi, always there with a kind word of support... you are a doll! xx

Edi, agree about the MEN thing... mine was less than his best today, thereby spilling it over onto me...ugh, good to hear shed man is attempting some real food! xx

Traii, Jennie, movie, caitlin, maria, dakota and luvmy, and anyone I missed, in my thoughts .... peace and prayers with big hugs to you all...xoxoxox 

Will post more later. Been so busy w/son's talent show today, another one's graduation this Sun. afternoon, and the list goes on...

iceburg, again we are here for you! (((BIG HUGS)))!!!!

I was diagnosed today with BC.  I am so depressed.  The doctor called me on the phone and told me.  To say I was "In Shock" is an understatement.  Then he started to explain the type.  I heard NOTHING because I was still in shock.  I had to run down and get the report and try to decipher it.  (Which is REALLY hard!).  I googled HER2 positive 3+ and I'm thinking I have some type of agressive cancer that's going to kill me.  Probably the worst kind.  I'm stressing out!  It's horrible the way I feel!

Thanks, it was a miracle I found this.  I just wish the doctor would have called me in and explained this in person.  I go talk to the surgeon on Wednesday.  This HER2+ doesn's sound like a good thing. Also, it has mitosis 1.  Is that good or bad.  I just don't know anything and it's driving me crazy.  Am I being a hypochondriac or am I going to die?  It's like I don't know what the answer is.

Websister, Heart goes out to you, sure all will be ok but this flippin waiting soooo cruel. Your lovely family will lift your spirits and the meadow and rainbows, plus tea and cakes there will soothe you.xx

Liefie, goodness never mind warrior you are an Amazon lady, well done bet the staff love having you there. Keep on getting wellxx pic of you and the sisters on your journey.

Nihahi, hope you are still healing well, how is DD hope she is helping out as much as she can. Meeting youngest DD and GS's at lunch time in kid's play place so we can gossip whilst they throw themselves into pools of balls ( not moose ) lol. slide down slides and generally cause chaos.xx

Traii, DS and chips soooo like my GD's I have just demolished dish of english strawberies I kept back from dinner dessert last night, love those things and are supposed to be an anti cancer fruit too.
Hope you are feeling happier and things soon move on.xx

Jennie, you sound really good,nice to hear from you xx

Dakota, here's to a lovely weekend for you and your little ones, hope night out was good, any hunks ? xx

Bearcub, hpw are you these days, how long is your hair now ? mine growing like a mad weed soon no need for wig. xx

Luvmy, (((HUG))) xx

Movie, do you need a hand with the packing ? I will lie nice and flat in case to hold everything in place lol. xx

Caitlin, hope you still doing well xx

Must go and clean up this hell hole before I can escape and have fun, LOVE to all xx

For the warrior sisters xx

Edi - thanks for the meadow pic and the ocean saying, enjoy your GS's today

I am constantly blown away by how different our "moments" are, yet how united we are for each other.......

Websister....waiting to attend an appointment, without knowing the "facts" that make it necessary, but has enough knowledge to understand it is a cause for concern.....

Staycalm....waiting for an appointment, has the "facts" that make it necessary, but does not yet have the knowledge to understand what the meaning/concerns will lead to.

We are here for both of you, and for all of us. So many prayers and hugs and healing vibes going out to you, the earth is surrounded by angels.

Iceburg....stay with us, it will get better, and you will feel stronger. You just need to find out when and how to start fighting!!!!

Websister..hope you got some sleep last night. It's a beautiful day today, so much nicer than the forecast. Hope you and family enjoy the day.

Staycalm....I am so, so sorry you got that kind of news via a phone call. So not right!!!!! Please take someone with you to all your future appointments, that can be supportive, and a "backup" set of ears for you. Take a list of questions, as a way to help you stay focussed, and get the name and contact info for a support person that you can contact with more questions later, because you surely will have them. If you have the gumption, I would certainly make it well known to everyone in your treatment team, how inappropriate it was for you to receive the "news" and dx info by phone call. 

Edi....love the sunset photo. Not sure what got into your and Alive's hubby's....mine got out of bed "in a mood" today....don't know how they live with themselves sometimes....I'm just thankful the weather here is nice today, cause I'm gonna leave him in the dust until he smartens up. I use up enough of my still limited energy during the week, just trying to keep daughter functioning, I figure it's his turn today. 

Luvmygoats....I feel like a real heel....I keep meaning to ask if you and yours are ok after the Texas tornadoes. Not sure where you are in that huge state, but I want you to know I have been thinking of you.

Caitlin...hope the se's for the LAST AND FINAL CHEMO are not too bad.

Alive....game plan getting closer...you are sooooo a fighter...it comes shining through in your messages. You will amaze us all, I'm sure. So glad the sinus/whatever thing has settled down for you.

Jennie...so, what ARE you doing with all your free "non-rad appointment" time???? Some fun and well deserved reward things, I hope.

Traii.....as a former potato chip addict....I see nothing wrong with chips for brekkie....they are a veggie, aren't they??? Just slug back some OJ....good to go! Of course, that is now in the past for me. I weighed myself yesterday for the first time since surgery.....turns out I have lost 10 pounds in 5 weeks. bye bye alien!!!!!!!!

Maria....keep that music going...you and Dakota will be dancing in the meadow today!!!!

Movie....so great to see your posts, with all the business you must have pre-trip.....but I ask myself...."how much does she need to bring, to go sit nekkid in the hot tub?????" (chuckle chuckle).

Liefie....you're amazing....how's the walking coming??? Now that the catheter's gone, I bet you're really glad you did all those toilet squats pre-op!!!! Any drains out yet? Any discharge talk???? Remember, there might be a "downer day of exhaustion" on the horizon.....pretty normal occurance....just let it happen, it'll pass. 

Love you ladies. Have wonderful days.