In shock

caitlin61 · May 2013

Hi Ladies - sorry I haven't been on in awhile. Since I last checked in, had a week or so of not feeling so hot, then a week or so of feeling great! Taking advantage of sitting in the chair for Round 7 (just one more to go) to catch up.

Edi, fondest congratulations to you on being done! Hope you are now feeling free as a bird.

Nihahi, so wonderful to see you have come through your surgery and are sounding like yourself again. Best wishes for a speedy recovery - makes a big difference to be drain-free!

Liefie, it will be great if that volunteering opportunity pans out.

Websister, pleased to hear you're gearing up for a return to work. I went on site last Thursday, Friday and Tuesday for the first time since mid-January. Was great to feel welcomed and somewhat "normal" for a few days. Felt a bit shakey on the first day, but improved every day.

Carla, hope you're doing well and that the fuzzy tongue is in the rear view mirror.

DH and I did some planting last weekend. I was kind of useless (weak), but we got everything in the garden that can be planted before it gets warmer. Was wonderful just being outside for that long.

My sisters have been here and we're having a blast! I took yesterday off and we did a major shop, hitting garden centers and sales. I actually held up surprisingy well. My younger sister has been working on my flower gardens and they're both focused on making my house a bit homier - it's looking great!

Had a few friends over for dinner last night. Weather was perfect, so we sat outside. Nice to have a bit of levity before embarking on Round 7.

Hope everybody else is doing well. Think the Benadryl is hitting me today, since I feel VERY sleepy).

nihahi · May 2013

Morning Ladies,

Alive, of course you're scared....you'd have to be an inert vegetable not to be!!!! But, knowledge is power also, and it helps move you down the road to finding ways to get through what you need to get through. It's the wondering and the "what ifs", that are so debilitating. We're all here for you. If sleep/anxiety is an issue, ask your doc for meds to help. It makes such a difference in being able to get through the "waiting/planning" stages if you can get some rest.

Marie....busy days, for sure, you sound like you're getting through them well. Keep on truckin!

Websister...love the new avatar! You're looking quite "sophisticated" with all that new hair!!!

Liefie...the hospice things is soooooo right for you. They'll be so lucky to have you on board. I've also been looking for a volunteer spot for me, but haven't found quite the right one yet.

Movie...wow, you have really jumped in with both feet re: your new business. Glad it's going so well, so earlier on. YEAH.....Stage 2 timing.....start planning those trips and treks, girl!!!! I went to Japan years ago, Tokyo and area....LOVED IT!

Caitlin, Jennie.....always glad to hear from you! Sounds like you both are defo on the upside now. When you can literally see the finish line, it makes things so much more bearable! Yes....outside "anything" is always a treat!!!!!!!!!

Traii.....did you make that appointment yet?????? Can absolutely see you on the playground!!!!!

Edi....has hubby taken over your notebook again????? Somethings are sacred, tell him to give it over!!!!!!

scouser47 · May 2013

Hi gorgeous gals
Edi defo NOT HAPPY BUNNY, typed away for half a freakin hour this morning then ZAP gone, never mind, shortened version coming up, do I hear Universal cheering ?? lol.
Feeling good today, Johny Cash visited a couple of times but was much less violent, the bxxxxxd had gone by lunchtime, so had nice lunch in the garden with my friend..
Had to go out for petrol as it is a bank holiday here over the weekend and queues will be mega.
Did little shop then came home and made DH dinner he is now watching Footy I amin back room on HIS computer.

Traii sweet cyber baby girl, you are right about this emotional bit, weep at the drop of a hat.Envy you your lovely Mum for kick up ass.
he lovely soup is WON TON, prawn and pork little parcels in a lovely broth with bits of Char Sui roast pork and sometimes bit of lettuce, like a mini stew and is lovely.
Glad no trucks, hope sleep is improving
If I win the lottery we WILL have that mad meeting, it would be a riot.
LOVE swings, GD has huge frame in the garden with two on and Nana's butt will fit better on one now two stone gone.xx

Dakota, hi gorgeous, you sound super, glad you like chinese food too.
Your job sounds wonderful and bet you are an inspiration to all.
Hope today was a happy one xx

Maria, thanks for comments, haven't heard of the Dunwells but as I am an old fart who grew up with the Beatles not surprising. Will look them up.
If you get yucky tongue get some lemon drops to suck, they do help, I also used to gently brush tongue with toothpaste too.
This journey will be over before you know it xx

Carla hope tongue improved ?
Your GD swimming video on f'b is lovely she is beautiful like her Nana. xx

Liefie how sad DH not keen on Chinese food.Hope you get some on your shopping for bits trip.
You are right about the distant memory part, Tuesday fading into past already.fraid I am old school too. Especially when potty time, my son trained as a nursery nurse and left after many years as really bad discrimination from the female nurses !! Had to have two watch when he changed a babas nappy.
How lovely that your boys are coming to see you. Bet they weigh a lot more when they go home with Mom's home cooking.
The hospice volunteering sounds perfect for you as websister says. xx

Nihahi, your back easing, big hug xx

Websister tea and toast must be a universal cure.
Meetings, well done you are getting back to normality.
Have had aching lower back and micro lavender heat pad worked wonders xx

Alive, of course you are scared sxxxxxxs part of the journey,get the warrior sisters armour on and fight, fight ,fight.
nausea caused by the terror we go through until we know how our journey is going to go.Sure it will pass and you will be great xx

Movie, you rest that body !! visit to Japan wow jealous !The girls mustn't know what has hit them when you go jogging, go girl.
Business sounds great hope it keeps on growing. You can send YOUR private jet for us all for big party lol xx

Jennie, 7 rads to go, will fly by.Toyed xxwith port idea but the hastle of keeping it free from infection put me off.xx

OK dear sistas, DH comp almost as cxxp as mine, keeps freezing and sticking, it might be flying up the yard if this post vanishes too.Need to close eyes as pooped. Laters potatas xx

scouser47 · May 2013

female warriors photo: gold_plate.jpg

For you Alive, this is what we ALL look like in real life lol xx

Alive4Five · May 2013

Well, this bs just gets freakin better and better! NOT! My MRI showed more extensive invasive cancer in my right, and so, I'm looking at a full mastectomy. DAMNIT!!! Also, the left is a different kind, and will be dealt with in another way altogether. But at least maybe no full mast. Only the Dr. is saying to 'consider' the removal of them both to prevent further possibilities of recurrence.

Good God! I don't know what to do! I had really hoped for better news. I and my DH are a bit upset at the moment. I will come back later and try to relay anything I've missed.

Bless you all and (((hugs))).... I am so pissed right now!

liefie · May 2013

Oh Alive, I'm so, so sorry to hear this! You and DH are upset and in shock right now, and need to process and decompress, but just know that you can rant and rave here as OFTEN as you like. We all do it from time to time. Take your time to get used to this new situation, come back here, and we will help you wade through this. ((((BIG HUGS!!))))

Moviemaniac · May 2013

Alive-sorry the bitch slapped you.....like Liefie said, take time to digest EVERYTHING, and come back here as often as you need to.....we all have strong shoulders and good ears......

Everybody else, will post later, as I am hosting book club this month and have 15 women due over here in 3 hours......I don't have enough closets to throw stuff into to hide it! Had a chance to go to a Timbers soccer game tonight.......would rather be there than here listening to people talk about a book I haven't read because I can't concentrate long enough to string more than 2 pages together......

See you later, Alligators! (Edi-that was especially for you! XO)

Namaste and God bless-Jackie

Traii · May 2013

Alive, thats what we are here for hun..let out all your frustrations to us...we are here to lusten and help in any way possible.

Be frustrated, be angry, cry, scream let it all out. Bmx, mx whatever you decide is best. This is decision making time, look at your options and put those big girly pants on. You can do this sister.

Movie...15girls over, you are game!

Lol hide away so long as they dont open cupboards up accidentally...lol too funny you sound like me yesterday!!

Caitlin almost there...u doing great

Edi thanks for chinese soup info im gonna try next time and write it down this time so i dont forget!!!

Very windy here today....picked up bins with ds and nearly got blown down street! Next doors bin was already passing my house so did the right thing and picked it up braved that wind again!! DS said im a hero and saved the day!! Fireman sam talking there.. lol

Love to all. My parents wanted to take ds to kindy...so i have 5hrs to myself today...clean uptime:(

scouser47 · May 2013

Alive, sweetheart so sorry to hear your news. Like the sisters all say we are here for you. Post when you can ,you have your DH and family they will all be in shock, we are here for the screaming, swearing etc.
Then the help and information from those who have walked this path before you.
Massive (((HUGS)))) from across the pond.xxx

Massive (((HUG))) from across the pond xxxx

luvmygoats · May 2013

Alive - I don't remember if I welcomed you or not. Rant away to us when you are ready. Investigate your options and take your time unless your doc saw some urgency. Go back and clarify with BS if you need to. Reread your intro and though I know you know I want to emphasize that BC treatments have advanced so much in the years since your mom passed. Most all kinds of surgery covered on just this thread not to mention on the rest of BCO.

Edi - that soup sounds heavenly. We have Chinese here in town LOL combined with a donut shop. We call it of course Chinese Donuts. Not great but if I drive 15 minutes to the next town pretty good Chinese but I don't think either have that soup. So funny I was watching Anthony Bourdain this morning and he was in Taipei and he had dumpling that had soup in them. Yummy looking and then came on and you talking about Chinese.

Has shed man heard anything?

Love the gorgeous warrior pic.

Traii - you are the hero. My cleaning is WAYYY behind and I don't care. It is May2nd and we're getting a you know what freeze tonight. Been out covering up my tomato and pepper plants. Its only supposed to be 60 for a low this time of year. Nasty, windy, wet, feels like January.

Liefie - the hospice cooking volunteer position sounds wonderful and perfect for you.

Nihahi - hope the peas are on retirement permanently.

Caitlin - Hope round 7 treats you gently.

luvmygoats · May 2013

Edi - What the heck are you doing up this time of night? It's 10:30 here, what about 4-5 am your time?

scouser47 · May 2013

Hi luvmy, weather is so weird now isn't it? we sat in sun yesterday but bet today will not be the same.
Went out with no wig and loved the freedom. Got a few funny looks but raspberries to all of them. lol.
Thanks for asking about shedman, he is in hospital as from yesterday. Scan showed the beast had returned oesophagus blocked by tumour and he can no longer eat or even swallow water.
DH and I have been up since 4am as we cannot sleep for thinking of him and his wife.
They may be able to insert tube to get nourishment into him today. They are going to try radiation direct into tumour when they get him strong enough.
He spent yesterday morning holding his new GD and she was smiling and gooing at him. His wife said that really helped him face the next part.
Love chinese and donut mix utter bliss, I was gazing at a pack of donuts yesterday and had to stop myself giving in. Sure my sugar levels are potty at the moment. lol

He he he x. X

For all my bessie friends xxx

luvmygoats · May 2013

Aw Edi, I will say a prayer for shedman. Hope the tube placement works and he can get some relief with radiation.

Hope you can sneak some nap time in today.

websister · May 2013

Alive - adding my hugs and support, you will do this. I was different than most of these ladies re: nausea. For about six months before I found the lump I would have occasional nausea and wonder what was causing it, may or may not have been related - hard to know

Trai - re: backache - can't think of anything that I did that injured it, walking makes it hurt more, worse by evening. No signs of UTI so, since it has been two weeks I guess I will talk to MO. I have Herceptin coming up next Thursday so might get a chance then. Did DS enjoy having grandparents take him to kindy? Hope you had some time just for you after cleaning.

Movie - hope nothing fell out of any closets while your book club ladies were there

Nihahi - hope everyday is better and back spasms are history for you

Luvmygoats - stay warm, I like your attitude re: cleaning

Edi - so sorry to hear about shedman. I love that he was holding GD. Hope the feeding tube goes well and he gets stronger soon.

Caitlin - almost there. Hope you have minimal side effects.

Take care everyone

Traii · May 2013

Edi, hope you are back in bed !

Luvmy, I think anyone with tomotoes growing here in there back yards would have had them blown away for tomatoe sauce its that windy today......I went and picked up DS and the wind was pushing me to his classroom !! (lucky I've got this extra weight on me to hold me down!! thought I was going to be Mary Poppins without the umbrella!)

Websister, I actually phoned my onc today. For the peace of mind as I was literally going out of my mind with anxiety and worry. He said sciatica sounds very clear on the butt/ thigh pain. He said even without the bum pain I can get the lower back and thigh pain. With regards to my headache, swollan gland and congestion, sounds all too familiar of sinus. I am however booked in to see my GP this evening so he can just check me over and if antibiotics is recommended I can start on that. Onc said that because we have all this 'poison' or bodies can do 'crazy' things after we finish with tx. he did ease my mind a little. I asked if scans were necessary as I am going in for my liver scan on the 9th May and he said no. I asked re blood work to be done and he said 'no' . never the less I am going to get my blood work checked, the standard chemo ones they do and see if my liver works back in action after the CMF stuff!

The reason I phoned my onc also was to see if i should have another Zoladex injection as I stopped last month being my last one before surgery. However because Surgery is not scheduled for min 2 weeks ( he told me I get 2 week minimum notice!!) that I should start Tamoxifen. SE's sound like they are the same as Zoladex , hot flushes etc but I'm still in two states of mind starting it, do I don't I !! arghhhhh decisions. He told me to start it and we can re-evaluate in my appt with him in June.

I really hope your back gets better before next Thursday so you won't have anything to talk with MO for....fingers crossed for you.

DS enjoyed grandparents dropping him off this morning, my dad was so happy that Zac gave him lots of kisses and cuddles as they were leaving , he does that with my mum all the time.

Mum and I went to pick him up and he ran straight to his nanna....(yeh thanks DS, don't worry about your DM)!! lol.

Will have some me time now and watch a bit of tv. House is clean, laundry is done. and DS having a snooze !!

love to all x

MariaNL · May 2013

Hello all

Laying here again tonight trying to turn my mind off.

Pet scan went well today except the part that I had go lay still for 25 min with my arm behind my head,man didn't feel very good.

Went to my work to meet a friend (I'm a bartender at a sports bar) and she had spread the word I was coming, I was a little overwhelmed by all the people. I feel like everyone looks at you with such pity I'm still me with just a little less on my right side.

I do miss working this is the most time off I've had since my son wad born 19 years ago.

Alive I'm sorry your mri didn't show a more positive result, but you can do this just take it day by day.

Edi sorry to here about your friend.I hope he starts to get better.

Website curses to your back pain hope it feels better soon.

Here is to some sunny weather sounds like most of us could use it.

liefie · May 2013

Edi, so sorry about shedman, wishing him peace. Poor man.

Very late here. DH and I struggled with the refrigerator for hours this evening, but it is working again, it is sparkling clean, and we are keeping our fingers crossed it does not freeze all the veggies tonight as it has been doing for months now.

Good night everybody, will visit again tomorrow.

nihahi · May 2013

Well, some tough stuff lately, eh!

Alive....keep gathering reliable info, stay away from Dr. Google, and talk, ask, rant whatever. I know it is so hard to wrap your mind around losing your breasts, but your life and peace of mind are your priorities. It's great to have hubby coming to the appts., you certainly can get info overload, or sometimes just stop hearing what's being said.

Maria....when you find the secret to turning off your mind, please share!!!!!!

Edi....so very sorry to hear about shedman's reoccurance. Hope things can be found that help him. I'm sure the grandbaby is the best medicine at this point.

Traii...STILL with the sciatica??? CRAP!!!! Your doc is right, all the chemo, etc. does strange things to each of us, and our bodies react differently.

Websister...CRAP #2....hope the back pain gets sorted out.....I have frozen peas looking for a good home????? Just saying.....

Movie....15 people over for bookclub....you are starting to crowd Dakota in the energizer bunny category.

Liefie....How goes it today? All this talk of Chinese food makes me think we'll be getting some on the weekend. Hope you get another fix soon for you.

Luvmy....life doesn't sound dull for you either. Crazy, insane weather this spring. Hope things escaped the worst of the freeze!

Carla....just heard about California wildfires...hope you and family are in safe areas, far, far away.

Love to all.

liefie · May 2013

Just came home from the gym. My trainer/friend is going on holiday to Cuba for a week, so I will have peace - NOT. Vow to exercise hard until the day before surgery. Driving down to Victoria in an hour to see opthalmologist who did the tear duct repair a few months ago. Apparently a little glass canule was inserted then that needs to come out now. Wish drs would talk more to their patients - he never told me this?! Hopefully it's not a big deal. If I can survive chemo, I can survive this. Seems to be my new motto these days - lol. Weather is absolutely glorious, so the drive should be beautiful. On Sunday we are supposed to get 30 C - yayyyyy!!! Friends coming over. I'm planning a picnic on the boat somewhere on the lake; simply have to be outside in such weather.

Nihahi, you sound upbeat? Good to hear! Gives me courage for my surgery - thanks!

Websister, enjoy your weekend with the grandkids! They are blessed to have you for a grandma.

Traii, hope you get that pain under control soon. Not good to hear you are suffering. Your parents must be enjoying that little guy so much. Visited a friend yesterday who had a baby a few weeks ago. I sat holding her, and there's just nothing that compares to that!

Edi, hope you are okay - big hugs to you.

Movie, hope you have recovered from the book party?

Alive and Maria, thinking of you, and hoping you can get some peace. It does get way better as you get more used to the new reality. Yes, unbelievable as it may seem now, eventually you will get used to bc. Big hugs to you two!

Have to run and get showered and dressed before DH arrives to pick me up. Wish me luck as you kiss me good bye . . . I don't like doctors. Lol.

Alive4Five · May 2013

Hello lovely ladies! I am a 'bit' calmer...not much, but some; anyhoo...

liefie, TY so much for your support! It is so nice to have you, and everyone to talk to here! Wishing you luck in your upcoming surgery! Will be thinking of you! ((hugs))

movie, you can say 'that' again...the "bitch" indeed did slap me! Ha! What a simply wonderful way to put it, and pretty darn close to my view of this crap at the present. Hope your book club gathering wasn't too trying. Have to LOL about the closet thing too...I can relate

nihahi, TY for all your words of support too! They are Very Much appreciated! And, no, google is NOT a road I am willing to travel; you are so right about that!

luvmy, TY for your warm welcome! Bless you! I feel so encouraged with you ladies! Although I wish we were not on this journey!

Traii, thinking of you! Hope your upcoming surgery goes well! TY for all your kind words! Hope you feel better soon!

scouser, you are just the shot-in-the-arm for my funny bone right now! Love it! TY! I NEED that

websister, Nice to meet you! Looks as though you and I are indeed alone with the 'nausea' thingy. Hmm. TY for being there for me! Hope you are feeling well!

MariaNL, Here's hoping you had some enjoyment at the bar w/your friend. I am beginning to get the 'looks' as more are finding out my dx. Heck with it...guess I'll get used to it, lol!

caitlin, nice to meet you! Sharing my cyber hugs with you as well!

To any I missed... hope all is well and at least hope there is some sunshine in our futures!

Have to call Dr. tomorrow and tell him what my decision is. Hmmmff, as if I have a clue as to what is the best idea. I know my options, but it doesn't make the decision time any easier. I have to try to stay focused on living with this, and fighting it with every ounce I've got.

Sending (((big hugs))) to all you wonderful women! TY for being so wonderful and tolerant. Hopefully I won't rant too much. But from time to time... ya just never know! Sleep well! Hope the rain stops here soon! We are flooding not far from here in a BIG way...ugh! ~peace~

MariaNL · May 2013

Hey there sweet ladies,

So went for my mugs scan today and fainted not sure what happened I think it was the fact that the fellow putting my Iv in didn't know what he was doing. He kept moving that needle around in my arm,just couldn't get it right. Next thing I know he is shouting my name trying to wake me up. Luckily after I came to a gal came in the room and assisted him in making me feel better, then she put the iv in thank goodness. Never want to have that happen again. My Dh felt so bad he took me out on a date after to get my mind off being traumatized.Never a dull moment I tell ya.

Movie how was book club? Bless you for having the energy to entertain.

Liefie you are motivating me to get back to the gym.it's been far to long.

I hope everyone has a great weekend

Traii · May 2013

Maria, you sound like me except I get in trouble from the radiographers because I move too much...lol I just can't lay still. You know, when I go out and tell my son ' don't touch' I may as well be saying, 'ok touch it ' then when the radiographers say breath in and out stay still , they may as well tell me to wriggle around because when I'm told not to do something I get that itch here and there and I can't bloody move, arghhhhhhhh.....Wishing your PET scans come back all good.

Alive, good you are getting your head around this. It does get easier. This is the worst bit. You will get there.

Nihahi, yep Sciatica still lingering. It started on my bum (I was like what the hell!) then to my thigh, now it lingers around the thigh ... onc said nothing to worry about (hmm easy for him to say)! don't you just love when you get that answer.....instead of ' well try this or do this' no you get ' don't worry about it!!'

Edi, hope shed man got that tube working to be fed. poor darlin' .

Liefie, babies are gorgeous.....it's when they become toddlers , ahh not so cute....lol. My DS is into EVERYThING...yes, everything. I'm go go go with him. worried he is going to hurt himself doing something crazy! Well I know I can't wrap him up in bubble wrap...(sometimes i wish I could) but he gives me heart attacks. They say stress less...yeh right! Guess this is all part of being a mom and him growing up right ?

Movie, hope your book clubbers were good and you had lots of fun.

Saturday arvo here. cold cold cold. Did some grocery shopping with DS and DH decided to tag along.....OMG never again, I told him to stay home but noooooooooo he wanted to come with....He is honestly worse than a 3 year old....lol

Take care lovely ladies...xx

curveball · May 2013

@Alive4Five, it's been a while since I posted on this thread, but I still read it. Earlier in my treatment, when I had to make a difficult decision about chemo, someone here at bco gave me a piece of advice which I found very helpful and will pass on to you in the hope that it will be useful to you also. That was, when you have options to decide between, and you're not sure what to do, take the "path of least regret". In other words, which decision will you regret least, regardless of whether you get the outcome you hope for? In your case, that would mean asking your self "will I regret it more if I have a bilateral mastectomy and then find out afterwards it was not absolutely necessary to remove both breasts, or if I keep one breast and cancer later recurs or spreads which perhaps could have been avoided by removing both?" Which way am I least likely to look back and wish I'd taken the other option?

When I looked at my question that way it became really obvious to me which way I wanted to go.

Moviemaniac · May 2013

Bellies.....book club not only tuckered me out(I fell asleep in the chair during discussion and woke up only when I started to fall over....yikes!) but it started late and ended later!

Tis morning I woke up with what I thought was allergies.......turns out it's a nasty spring cold.... Seems like ever since surgery my immune system is so off...

Fell asleep earlier this evening, woke up and took some NyQuil ..... I don't think I'll need to resort to counting sheep tonight.....

Liefie...the gym was just a fantasy this morning...... Maybe on Monday.

To all.....big cyber (((hugs))) with a germ mask on just in case.....

Namaste and God bless - Jackie

scouser47 · May 2013

For ALLmy darling sisters xxxxxxxxxxxx

Scottiee1 · May 2013

Hi everyone, just popping in to say hello and to let you all know I do keep up but too

tired

to post to everyone.....

Welcome to all the new gals.....great place to hang out....these women are amazing.

Edi....loved your pics.....you are gorgeous!!!!!

I was saddened to hear about the shed man ...I know you will be there for support.

Websister...sorry to hear about your back problems, seems we have something in common....had some issues before starting Letrozole, but it seems this Al has just exacerbated them....hoping that's all it is!!!

Trail, Dakota, Liefie....and everybody else that I've missed please know I think about you

all and send prayers up daily.

Enjoy the weekend everybody....tomorrow I'm going to a big fat Greek BBQ as it's orthodox Easter this weekend....there will be two whole lambs going on spits....I don't eat meat anymore, but lamb was always my favourite.....don't feel sorry for me as I will have lots of Greek Gods around serving me wine....💃

Dakota212 · May 2013

Hi ladies -

Baseball down soccer and lacrosse to go. Alive- it's a tough decision. I had BMX I am glad I did. Before surgery they thought they saw something on my unaffected side and wanted to watch it for 6 months. I knew I couldn't handle waiting 6 months and perhaps having to go thru it all again. I now have two perky silicone implants. U will know what is right for u. Good luck.

I hope everyone has a fabulous day. !!

caitlin61 · May 2013

Hi Ladies. Still trying to catch up here, so forgive me if I'm not up with the play on all the news.

First, sorry I didn't welcome you earlier Alive and Maria. I can assure you that the ladies here have been an unbelievable source of support for me, and I'm sure they will be for you too. Alive, I can relate to how you feel re: disappointing results. As others have already shared with you, waiting for results and settling on a treatment plan really is the scariest part.

Traii, so sorry to hear you're experiencing back pain - you're too young for that! Hope you get some relief soon.

Edi, that's very sad news about the shed man - poor fellow. I too will say a prayer for him.

Websister, I really like your new avatar - way cool! Hope you enjoy your time with your grandchildren.

Said a tearful goodbye to my sisters today, as they set out on their long drive back to Ottawa. Had a great time during the 6 nights they were here - lots of laughs! They also worked on getting my house looking great, inside and out - flowers everywhere! DH and I were doing yard work all afternoon. Feels so good to get outside, but man, I do not have much stamina! I'm slightly anemic and it doesn't take much before I'm short of breath. Just can't believe we're into May already - in some ways, time flies when you're in the midst of treatment.

So far this round I've had perhaps more tingling/slight neuropathy in my fingers, but no bone pain to speak of - I'm not complaining!

Enjoy the rest of the weekend everyone!

liefie · May 2013

Good afternoon ladies,

Edi, thanks for your last post. Some great wisdom in there. Sometimes it is just setting one foot in front of the other, just getting through this next hour. The greatest lesson that I have learned from this bc eperience, is that I was stupidly always living in the future, waiting for 'life' and 'one day' to arrive, while in the meantime life is happening right now and here. We have to make the best of this present day, not wait around for something better to come along.

Dakota, glad you're so happy with the 'perky' implants. You deserve them, girl! I hope that my 'assets' will also be a little perkier after surgery, but at 58 will be satisfied as long as I have two breasts by the end of it. It's not as if I will be parading topless on a beach, or enter the Miss Canada competition, or anything like that - lol. Have to be realistic!

Scottiee, enjoy the Greek BBQ, and the wine! Don't know if I would have been able to resist that lamb on the spit though. Grew up with lamb, dad was a sheep farmer, and love it to this day!

Move, don't worry about gym. You'll get back to it next week. Hope that cold gets better soon!

Traii, have to agree about the difficult toddler stage. It is hard work, but it passes all too soon, and then suddenly one day he will be all grown up, leaving you to wonder where the time went. My two boys gave me all my grey hair, and their father a bald head -lol - and got into all sorts of mischief, but that is very normal, yes. Sometimes they tell us hair raising things that they did as children which we were blissfully unaware of at the time, and I'm just grateful they're alive to tell the tale! Bubble wrap - we cannot do that; they have to experience and learn for themselves.

Alive4Five, hope you are having a good weekend, and that the road ahead is becoming a little clearer. One approach that may be useful to you is to think how you will feel about your decision in five years' time. That has helped me in the past. Hugs and peace to you!

Caitlin, you have a wonderful family! Sisters are the best! I have two, see them only once a year, and we always have a blast. Sorry that you still feel weak. Chemo takes everything out of you, and I remember the struggle to get strong again afterwards. It is what it is, be gentle on yourself, and afterwards you can do what is necessary to get your strength back. Marathon, not sprint.

So I arrived at the eye specialist yesterday all worked up for removal of this canule, and then he said that he was going to leave it in - phew!! What a relief. I'm so sick of procedures. Taking it out, there's a 40% chance the teary eye will come back - no thank you! He told us that he sees so many patients whose tearducts have been damaged by chemo. Wow. That stuff is no joke! We all deserve gold medals for bravery, seriously.

On the way back from Victoria stopped to visit friends, and went out for a lovely pub supper with them. Came home late, and DH woke me at ten this morning(!!!) . . . now and then I still sleep like that even though long past treatment. Weather here like summer with boats/skiers on the lake, even a houseboat came by. People are so ready to be done with winter, that's for sure.

Have to start getting some food ready for guests tomorrow, so a very good weekend to everybody!

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Liefie...so glad your eye is going to be left alone! Enough already, eh! Sounds like you have have an open house complete with gourmet meals every weekend! I can tell you love to entertain. Nothing wrong with a sleep-in every now and then, either!

Caitlin...you must be getting close to the end of chemo??? You have been such a trouper, so glad you had a wonderful and productive time with sisters. Hope hubby's mom is doing ok???

Maria...never a dull moment! Bet you'll be the talk of the radiologists for awhile!

Alive...you may not feel it, but you sound stronger, and more ready to fight! So glad you found us, we are in your pockets, girl, you won't be losing us! Good days, not so good days, it's the same for all of us.

Movie...too funny re: falling asleep at book club...must not have been too exciting a discussion! Yeah, immune system gets screwed up after such a surgery and recovery. Remember too, you had some "extra potholes" in your recovery. Be good to yourself.

Edi, don't know where you find all these "sayings" and pics, but thank you so, so much for sharing them. You always seem to be spot on with where we're at each time. Has daughter's reno finished now??? Hugs still going out to shedman....tough times. I think you going out "au natural" is awesome! Nothing sexier than a proud, gorgeous, white-haired warrior!!!!!!!

Traii....hmm..can't be still.....and you wonder where your son gets it from.....I'm just saying!

I'm now 3 weeks out from surgery, and feeling awesome. Doing my walks, stretches, etc. Drove my own car for the first time....hate being dependent.....NEED to be independent!!!! As long as I don't have too many bumps, potholes, and the like....I"m now good to go!!!!!!

Dakota....how's the new foobs??? Hope you take them out for a girls night out soon!!!!!!!!

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