In shock

Edi..love the pic:)

Glad gd sleepover was fun.

Fingertip pain is it numbness or just pain?

Cant explain why maybe tx though i didnt get with cmf hun

Edi, when we were children we had a meerkat as a pet. It was the most adorable little thing, and very loving too. She would sit up on her hind legs in a sunny spot, go to sleep and fall over, then repeat the whole process  again - too funny. She followed us everywhere, and loved scraps of meat. Maybe you have some neuropathy in your fingers? I still have some neuropathy in a few of my toes, which my onc said would disappear as time goes by.

Came home a while ago. We are tired, but had a lovely holiday. DH is already peeling from a little too much sun. Airports were so busy, and the security is becoming more and more tedious. Yesterday I had to explain my breast surgery to a security agent, because the scanner picked up the metal port of my TE. She then asked to feel around the spot where the metal was while apologizing profusely . . . I actually felt sorry for her, but it's her job . . . simply ridiculous. Guess I have to be grateful it was a woman! I was not even embarrassed, and would have taken off my top right there if she ordered me to . . . if you want to travel, you have to submit to this.

Will catch up with all the posts later. Good night everybody!

Hi Everyone,

Movie, you must have benn tapping away at the same time as me !!!!
What you said to nihahi was quite lovely. She is such a love that we must get her through this next part and I didn't realise she had been a nurse so perhaps a little knowledge about what goes on is not always a good thing.
I feel you are a fellow spiritual being, Yoga is such a lovely happening I really should go back to classes or something that puts you in touch with higher side of oneself.
Namaste is a beautiful word, my Reiki master and I use it at the end of a session.
Hope your "girls" behaving ?
Must have a nose at the Diep thread sounds like something I defo would have been too much of a coward to even contemplate.
My BC buddy had double mx and said enough was enough and now is proudly flat as a pancake.
Edi would have been the same, understand completely why you are all doing/done it and am in AWE of you all.x

Scottie, hi you busy lady and thanks x DH adores Scots and our surname is a Scottish one yay! seems his ancestors come from your gorgeous country.x

The gasman cometh this morning, hot water happening but still playing up. We are binning the gas board as a load of thieves and rogues. Neighbour has recommended a decent engineer.
Have started to look at opening my own business. i.e. Cakes.
Had started to distribute business cards and have two orders already.
Can't face not having something to focus on when all this out of the way.

You have all been TOO QUIET, just hope because you have had wonderful weekend need ALL details because I worry about each and everyone of you so come on warriors quick post required.!!!!

Laters x

Hugs to Sergei....Another long night of no sleep and twcbn, but having decided to accept the "drug thing", I am climbing out of this latest "pit". My hubby was the final "convincer" when he pointed out that I had been dealing with twcbn for over a year, so I had used up my "reserves of being tough". Exactly what I would have said to anyone else, so it sunk in. I'm going to yoga this morning, then going to see how soon I can get in to my doc. Thanks for so much love, ladies, it has truly helped. FYI-  I was not a nurse, I was a therapist on a Burn Unit. Spent lots of time with the nurses and PS's and in the OR. It is very true, that sometimes too much knowledge is not a re-assuring thing!!! I remember waking up from one surgery with an unexpected monitor on me, and thinking.....ooohh, this isn't good! Most people likely would have no idea. Oh well, another day comes, so let's get on with the future!!!!!!! 

Edi, why don't you check with your local bc organization. There often are yoga classes specific to bc ladies, as it is such a helpful way of physically and emotionally healing.

I have Scottish/Welsh in me too! Can I be one of the Scots with you guys!!!! Dad's name was George William Darroch, his family came from Paisley, Scotland. My brother and sister had the Swedish "look" (light hair, blue eyes) I'm the only one who got the dark hair, hazel eyes like my Dad. I always tried to use the line of "I'm more Scottish than Swedish" at Christmas time, so I wouldn't have to eat Lutfisk, but my Swedish Grandma never let me escape that tradition. Yucko!!!!!!

Jennie...I understand the resentment of rad treatment taking so much of your time, the other's are right, rock it out on your commute.

Sheryl.....has the chemo is over mindset happened yet? It's an adjustment!

Liefie, glad you're back home. No sympathy for DH "molting". If he's like mine, he refuses to use sunscreen cause it feels yucky. I've had the security patdowns too, cause of bc....you just have to get through it. My sister worked just a few blocks away from the World Trade Center on "that day". She was one of those people you saw on tv, running for her life in the horrible cloud of dust and destruction. Some of her neighbours and friends never came home that day. I have no issues with any secuity measures now, even if "uncomfortable or inconvenient". 

Traii..sounds like summer is over for you now????? No more heat waves I hope. Looking forward to the penguin photos from your family getaway. You so deserve a good time!!!!! 

Movie......We sound so similar.....married about the same years....mountains......wildflowers......yoga......namaste!

Nihahi, good for you on seeing your doc, and hopefully he can help you to get out of that pit. Sorry that you are feeling so low - hugs to you! 9/11 changed flying for ever, didn't it? One can certainly understand why security is so strict, and every time I just get angry all over again at those terrorists who caused all this havoc, heartbreak and destruction. Our whole family once flew together on Dec. 26, 2009. That was one day after another terrorist tried to blow up an American plane en route from Amsterdam to Chicago with some kind of device strapped to his leg. At the airport in Vancouver they searched every single bag, and we were all scanned, searched and patted down four times that day, as were all other passengers. It took hours, and was just crazy. DH wore a knee brace, and sure enough, they pulled him out of the line-up into a room and made him strip down to his tighty whiteys, to the utter glee and amusement of our two boys of course. As we stepped onto the plane at last, my oldest son remarked to the air hostess that one of these days we will all be flying naked with no luggage . . . fortunately she had a good sense of humour, and thought it was hilarious. As for DH peeling, he never wants to put on sunscreen or wear a cap or hat, so I don't have much sympathy either. Don't understand what he's thinking.

Edi, so glad your fingers are feeling better! Hopefully the gasman will sort out the hot water once and for all. Good for you on beginning a cake business - there's nothing like staying busy with something you love to keep your mind out of the dark places. How wise you are, and how exciting for you! Ninahi is so right about  yoga. It is so good for your body and your spirit, nothing negative there.

Sorry I won't be commenting on all the posts, I'm at my son's place visiting with his family. I did want to say that Benny has been in contact and is doing better, getting ready for rads soon. She said that she needs to get back to the boards so I hope that it will be soon also. We are planning to get together for tea when I get back from my son's.



Just as I was going to head for the airport the hospital called and told us my Mom was in emergency after falling from her wheelchair early that morning. After all her hospitalizations in the last year and a half and having just finished rads I decided to get on the plane anyway. Since then I have heard that nothing is fractured, she spent a day in hospital and has now been placed back in the rehab facility until she is more mobile. I hope they assess her well before sending her back again, she has not managed to stay in a lodge for more than a month since her first fall in December 2011.



Jennie - enjoyed your CT sim story, sounds like mine alright. My commute was about an hour in the morning rush hour but better on the way home. Still very happy that I am not having to do it any longer.



Nihahi - glad you got the GP appt so quickly



Everyone else - hugs, thinking of you and will check in again tomorrow



Take care

Hi you fab fab floosies lol.
Had about six hours sleep but do still feel knackered. Did the mug of warm milk bit, it does help but causes wees so up and down like a fiddlers elbow.
Fab floosies is due to all the boob flashing  first rad today so my droopy dumplings will be out and about too.
Looked in mirror last night and thought no gasps of admiration there then lol. Still got big blue patch from before op and big dent from lumpectomy, good job I ain't vain.
Saying which I am a bit, had my nails Gelac treated yesterday  Diamond pink colour. It will stay on hopefully for three weeks, high gloss and they look like false nails but all mine.She came to the house, complete with amazing leather and chrome table, chair and all bits in a small cube shaped block. Took one hour and had a fab manicure first then lots of oils etc then colour. Being pampered is sooooooooooo  good. Saving up for next one as from today.
Sorry about deleted posts, didn't think anyone would be looking lol. Our lovely neighbour who is IT savy was helping with pic posting but still a bit off. will try again later. It was pic of bathroom but bit dark so need to fiddle with it.

Nihahi, Sergei sends hug back and a BIG SLOPPY KISS too. He is a bit of a one lol
No sleep defo not a bit funny, hope meds sort you out, could do with happy meds too. seeing Doc in the morning eyes watering so bad looks like I am crying seems yet another SE !!
You get your butt out of that pit or Edi will do the thumping.
Your DH is like his wife, very wise. Sigourney Weaver only fought twcbm for 90 mins, you have fought a hell of a battle.
Checking out yoga for bc ladies at hospital today, thanks.
Scot/Welsh what a cracking heritage. Really weird that your grandpop a Darroch !! A really unusual name and my friends daughter is also a Darroch, Her husbands family own Fort Perch Rock, New Brighton, Merseyside. It is a very old defence fort on the banks of the Mersey River. Give it a google and they do a video of New Brighton from the air, I live ten minutes away. You and she may be distant relatives.
Your sister at World Trade, how wonderful she survived on what was the worst day I can ever remember. Agree on searches don't care how long it takes as those sneaky bxxxxxxs hide explosives in places you wouldn't dream of.
I had real meltdown too yesterday, DH put on his coat and walked out, first time in 44 years !!
I crashed around kitchen yelling and throwing things then sat and pulled myself together like a pair of curtains lol.
Bless him he forgave me, I would have slapped me soft if I had been him.

Gonna post this bit before it cyber spaces and continue in a min xx

Sergie loves this lol.

Jennie,

You are just ahead of me. I go on 4/1 for my CT simulation. Hell they will probably ask me to cover up as I am hot natured and always glad to take my clothes off. I understand the drive taking a chunk out of the day. I have to go 35 miles each way but across town with traffic and schools etc it takes nearly an hour each way.

Good luck, Sheryl

Wow Edi, bathroom looks fab Bet you are happy with the new look.

Weather has calmed down now thank goodness, well back up to 29degrees tomorrow, warm but its ok, its not consecutively hot days so I'm happy about that.

Wow, chemo already next tuesday, comes around so quickly but good it will be over soon. Good luck with your rads today.

I haven't lost any waeight while on chemo, good for you so long as you are feeling ok and still eating small amounts that's the main thing. How are your fingers now? You have inspired me to go and do the shelacks.....my nails have grown now, hair is getting thicker, DH loves washing it in the shower and said mummy I like your new hair !! Still not brave enough to face the world with it but won't be too much longer now. Ha ha you can't imagine me in a straight jacket.....bet you can't !!! My new girls will be well under control....in their sockets...or maybe i can go out 'socketless' lol....!!

Enjoy your day....in your pockets....(well pants pockets hey because you'll have your girls out for rads) maybe you'll be like websister and have two Joes there for you today .. wink wink!!

Traii, hi glad you like bathroom. We love it, can be cleaned in 5 mins ! Got DH trained when he has had his shower I have a microfibre spone/pad, quick wipe and not a splash mark in sight.
Know our bathroom is like a cupboard size wise, compared to all you ladies, but here they don't give up much space for loos. That is why we went for white seems bit  bigger. Shower is over the bath behind the door and that is a new thing. We have walk in one downstairs but saves the sight of DH clanking past on his way to clean up lol.
29 deg sounds lovely as still bxxxxy freezing here.
Rads was really good, got into trouble with DH as I looked at the wrong time  on the sheet. We were almost and hour late !! They weren't bothered at all but top of his head almost came off  oops
Only good part of chemo is the weight loss for me, hopefully will help my diabetes and make it easier to control.
Appetite is returning thank goodness so will have to be careful. Went to my old pub for lunch. Had garlic mushrooms to start ,followed by liver and onions and creamy mash yum, ate most of it and as my old workmate had cooked it, it was delicious.
My hair growing great too, GD is like DS she tells everyone and then whips off my wig to show them.
Go for the nails, mine feel so pretty now, and even tho normal length have a lovely shine and no lumpy shedding bits.
Felt you in my pants pockets wriggling and giggling, Rads was only one young chap  he was the student and was real cute.You would have liked him.
The other 5 were all lovely funny ladies, they loved my turban and false fringe and have to take in details of where to get turban for one of the girls.
How much longer for your op ?
Is break with mum and dad soon ?
Really weary and just crashed out for a few hrs.
Been up since 5am so might have something to do with it lol.
Hope your sleeping is improving and you rest well tonight. x

Dakota, Hope cockroach behaved on the days he bothered to show. How's it going with the exterminator ?
Hope you are keeping well x

Catch up in the morning with all you hooligans lol xxxxx

Edi, glad to hear your first rad experience went so well! It will be over before you know it. Just a pity that you have only one Joe - how come Websister was so lucky? How many zaps are you getting? I'm sure DH will be happy when all your treatments are over, and his life can return to normal. Poor souls are hit very hard by this, and being male, they cannot cry like we can, right? They have to be strong for us - has to be really difficult.

This is going to be a short post, but I know how anxious I get when I don't here from others during their "bummer" times, so wanted to say hi.

At the appt today, I thought I was doing so well, maybe I should cancel it, but thankfully I didn't. Just after the doc and I started talking, I completely lost it...tears and all. Felt like a poster child for anxiety meds!!!!! She gave me a hug, thanked me for asking for help, and I left with a scrip for anxiety and one for sleep. On the drive home, I realized an eagle was flying overhead of me.....a sign to me that things were going to be ok. 

Going to spend the day in the mountains tomorrow with my best friend...she is such a support and comfort. 

Websister, thanks for the update on Benny...you made the right decision about going on your trip, too. Everyone else, hugs and thanks for the support. Can feel the sleeping pill kicking in, so will end here. ((((((((((((X))))))))))))))

Hmmmm.......well obviously I expected (hoped for) more from the sleeping pill than a 30 minute "buzz"! Wide awake now, can't take anything else, because I have to drive in the morning!!!!!! 3+ hours later, here I am! s**t!

Liefie...did you mean that your kids are coming to visit the weekend you get home from the hospital....holy cow, are you sure you'll be up to that???? All the Diep feedback from my PS and the ladies on the boards refer to needing frequent naps and low energy at that stage!

Edi...love the new throne room! You've got a future in deco, girl...no wonder your cakes look so awesome! Did you have any luck getting info about yoga classes for bc ladies? Sergei's kiss came through right on target....give him a hug from me. LOVE the "mere cat" photo! I've tried to cut and paste too, but have had no luck..any hints you could give? Good to hear the first "shades of pink" session went well - sounds like you and Liefie have "time issues"......chalk it up to chemo brain! Please don't thump me....I'm really trying to be brave!!!!!

Traii...I don't think there is a straight jacket made that could keep you restrained! Might as well say "look out Melbourne" now, and get it over with! What adventures has your little one gotten into lately at pre-school?

Jennie, Sheryl, Edi,Websister....others...you are amazing with your tolerance of "joe" rad techs. I think I would just about die....but then, I did whip the tummy, the alien and it's cousin out pretty calmly for the surgeon at the "meet and greet" appointment! Think hubby almost fell off his chair when the tape measure came out and the surgeon started with his origami on the tummy and the cousin! It's probably a good thing that hubby won't be around for the magic marker moments, cause my ps does that in the OR, after we've said our goodbyes.

Caitlin, Carla....hope all is going ok. Luvmy...waiting for those baby photos!!!!!

Dakota..is your winter EVER GOING TO END!!!!! Sounds like another storm has rolled through!