2012 sisters

Thank you Juneaubugg and Ann!

Hi gang,

Trying to stay caught up!  Marianelizabeth-Glad you are feeling better!  Glad a weekend is upcoming!

Chrissera-so glad it's not celluilitis, Enjoy your facial and glad you'll get rads behind you soon.

Halfcan-REST!!

Websister-Rest for you too!  Glad you are getting through each treatment one step forward.  I still am living in your descriptions of your scenic vacation!

Ann-you are good to give your vein to the students!  I am doing clincial trial etc..to help and let all the resident Dr's in all the time at appts etc.  But when I have one arm to give now, and hate needles anyway..I want the expert first time!

Ramols-Sending you germ free hugs today.  Hope  you get some rest!!

Liefie-how cool to meet your dr throught the airwaves!  Getting your answers without the commute is great!

Teeballmom-Thoughts with you!  Scanxiety will be our new norm, I am afraid as we all will face diagnotic exams as we move forward.  I hope this is just a SE of the chemo and nothing more!

Everyone else, I am keeping up on this thread as it is the community that gets it from the getgo!  We are lucky to have each other and I send you all hugs!  I am off now to rad #27/31.  Am told my skin is holding on well but it is very red and uncomfortable on the underboob and armpit.  Having lost my job a few weeks ago has a silver lining, using all the lotions, being able to air dry and not wearing a bra is what is getting me through this right now.  I never have been so excited for Halloween as this year..as it is hopefully my last drive downtown to get zapped wearing that breathing device! 

Hi all I will come back later and update but



Aruba - I have the same underboob problem and I keep a small piece of terry cloth under there to keep the moisture out. That and the anti fungal cream my RO gave me is helping with the rash.

Ok I'm back.



Teeball I too am sending good thoughts your way. I remember in the beginning I had terrible chest pain when I was on the lovely A/C coctail and having to go to ER for a heart scan. It was nothing just some lovely SE's! I too had/have the bone pain and it was worse then. But nevertheless I am surrounding you in white light.



Today I had a meltdown at rads office. Just so tired of being tired and the aches and pains and not sleeping good because of the aches and pains. I want to feel good! The sad part is I know I'll be ok (that's my story and I'm sticking to it). Even if this ugly cancer comes back one day I'll just kick its ass again! I just want the fucking SE's to go away. I don't even care about my nails looking hideous or no eyebrows or lashes or anything like that. I just want to feel good again! Its been a downer of a week for me. Just Can't stop crying over it today. I need the sun to come back out.



Ok enough of that. Thank you for being here and listening to my rant today. I know my DH gets it but not like you ladies here. Besides I know he has his own worries over all this and sometimes I don't want to unload on him. He deals with enough!



A wonderful day to all! And that whatever your day is like here is a little ☀for you!



Karen

Teeballmom, I'm thinking of you today and sending hugs. Those aches and pains are most probably nothing serious, and I'm with Scorchy in that I just hate that you have to be so worried once again. I think everybody here can identify with that fear of it coming back, even if we are told we are 'cured' or NED. That is the most important change that cancer has wrought in my life which was so carefree and happy-go-lucky before, the fact that I'm now always vaguely on some level aware of the recurrence or metastesis possibility. On the other hand, I do embrace life, and appreciate and just enjoy it so much more now that I have had this reminder that life can (and will) end at some stage. It is a weird juxtaposition.

Karen, hope you will feel better soon. We all have our melt-down moments, believe me. Aruba is right, we understand how you feel. Rant all you want here to get it out of your system.

So when I came home from yoga, there was a message on my phone from my onc's secretary cancelling the telehealth interview this afternoon. He will now phone me after five. Oh well, I'll still get to talk to him, and ask my questions. We just won't see each other - no big deal.

The yoga is so good for me. It relaxes me completely, and my left shoulder/arm which was so stiffened up from the rads is much looser. I don't have full range of motion yet, but that will only come once the TE is gone. Those of you in rads currently, remember to exercise your arm and shoulder on the rad side every day so you don't end up with the stiff shoulder like I did, because my rad team never told me that I was supposed to move it regularly. This has to be continued afterwards, because rads still affect our muscles and tissues for months after it's done. Oh, the joys . . .

I am done. I am done. Nine months of hell and I am done. I have poisoned my heart and body, lost my hair, gotten dry eyes and mouth, bleeding noses, swallowing problems, body aches and bone pain, lost toenails, lost my energy and the contents of my stomach, lost sleep, 3 scars five procedures during three surgeries, sliced parts off my body, put through sudden violent menopause, night sweats, been in pain, burned my skin and scarred my lung and hopefully FUCKING KILLED ALL CANCER in my body. I am now done with the active part of my treatments. Last rads today. Now it's just five years of anti hormone therapy to further remove all traces of the effects of female hormones in my body. To kill cancer. Fuck you cancer! I am done and I beat you. Don't fucking bother me again. That's enough. I am forty two. Leave me the fuck alone.

Jpmomof3........congrats

JP - YAY! YOU GO GIRL! KICK THAT FUCKING CANCERS ASS TO THE CURB!



Yes I meant to yell. I am so happy for you. Now it's time to party! Seriously throw a party this weekend. Storm Sandy be damned! I know that when I do my last herceptin in April I am throwing one big party.



I raise a glass and tip my hat to you for your strength and determination to get through this.



You are woman here you ROAR!!

Way to go JPmom!  Woot!

Fuck cancer! 

Jpmomof3, your post brought tears to my eyes because it is so raw, so true and almost poetic. You are one feisty, brave, courageous girl, and you did it! I am truly so happy for you and your family that this is behind you. Best wishes and hugs to you!

Tazzy, oh my goodness! I have no words for that woman - wow!

Welcome back, Cowgirl! Happy for you that your boobs will be bouncing again soon!

You will all get there ladies keep up the good work. We all deserve a party!

Karen - looks like you got double the hugs - chemo brain on my part

JP.... Woot woot!!!!!!!! Go get 'em girl!

Mrscich- glad you are doing well post BGC and your surgery. Are you able to get your fills at this time or are those on hold?

How cool is it to work at NASA!? That sounds like an amazing job. I have worked at one of the local hospitals in my city, I have been there for 16 yrs and I absolutely love it. I love my patients and my coworkers. I also get very tired and lazy and just really don't give a shit. I figured if I've beat cancer at this time, Ive earned my way to be lazy sometimes.  When I went out for my BMX my coworkers bought me a pink treasure chest and everything inside was pink! I had everything in there you could imagine. Pj's, house shoes, socks, jewely, bath and body, bible, journals, bath towels. I was so overwhelmed by their generosity from their gifts I cried big crocodile tears. When i came back from the original surgery i was greeted by hugs, kisses and most of all love and support. When i came back from the TE surgery once again I was greeted by the above along with, " those look great" or "can i see them, and can I touch them." Now i've learned to smile and lift my shirt and oblige my fellow "curious" friends and I just laugh at them.

hope everyone is doing well.

Well, I had my chemo last friday. Monday was my Neulasta and with it came pain. Pain in my heels, shins, neck and shoulders the worst. My pain pills were effective. Tuesday night the nausea and vomiting started. Wed was much nausea, vominiting and no energy. Today I feel mostly better.

My eyesight seems blurry and not right. This is my first chemo, I hope that doesnt get too much worse throught these cycles.

Also, I have to ask about something else.  Probably TMI but I dont suppose you all care much.  I am itchy in my private area. Not inside like a yeast infection, but all over--pubic area, between my legs-all the skin down there. It looks red, bumpy and is intensly itchy.  Well, now Im pretty sure I have yeast under the hood. Could it be a surface yeast infection all over there?  Do they treat it with regular remedies like diflucan and cream? I also have some itchy spots on my chest.