Thinking Out Loud.....

Tree is beautiful Deb!

Is this your house, Linda?

It is absolutely breath taking Deb.

Beautiful Deb!  And yes, Chris, I see you looked North and found me!  My ceramic tree is now my avatar!

OK I changed my avatar to my 2 years ago Christmas tree.

Good Morning!

So sorry Deb.

Well I have a little tree that I bought for them years ago for them to put in their room so I have that and will put that in my room, and I always buy myself stuff for the holidays, they either dont' buy me stuff or I tell them what I want and they don't buy it....this time told them nothing, actually they don't (my son) bother with me so buying me something for Christmas is hypocritical IMO, so don't buy me anything...the twins, I am tired of being abused and they treat me like crap.  Their birthday is friday and sort of feel guilty about not doing anything but, I am not rewarding them for bad behavior AND they ignore my birthday all the time.  Told the older kids to take them out for dinner, they don't want to go anywhere we me, I embarrass them, so I won't go....The reason there are no decorations is because I can't carry them from the basement (same as last year) and I can't carry them, and there isn't anybody else to do it, so they don't go up, and why am I buying a tree if that won't get decorated either, cause they won't bring them upstairs, they tell me that I can do it and I am just lazy (poor, ugly, fat and live off of the government) and nothing is wrong with me anyway....last year I did buy them 1 thing, this year after the year I have had with them I am not doing anything, they have ruined every Christmas and killed my spirit and I don't really enjoy anything anymore because of their abusiveness......I know I didn't have to explain why, but thought I would.  I am fine have the grandchildren and honestly, it is what it is....

Well said.  I agree Ducky.

(((Sandy)))

Lol Sheila.  You did not!

Deb.....Isn't this beautiful maybe you can visit.................

I own a generator!!!  YAY!!!  Now we just have to get it hooked up to the heat, well, microwave, fridge TV!!! and some lights.  We better be able to hire someone before the next week long blackout!

Sandy, you are awesome!

The next week long blackout.....we've had 2 this year and it sucks!  Can't even flush the toliet!

Good night my friends!

We all at one time or another have problems with our kids.................I had 6.........I know people with 1 who had more problems then I did..............but I think this is why that was.

When you have a lot of kids......sometimes people judge you as having no sense, and no self control............it was at times I was looked down on for having so many................My kids wore hand-me-downs, and they didn't always have the "real Barbie".........theirs came from the $1.00 store, until finally at xmas they got the real thing.....................we didn't always have steak, only once in a while, but we never went hungry.......................

I made sure I kept my kids in "check", and always behaved and well mannered...........why you ask..................because I knew we were judged by the way my children behaved..........I use to say to them........"I want you kids to be so close, that when the other one gets hurt, you cry first"..................They all turned out well................I'm not bragging.......its just having so many, I had to be on my toes.................

They are all grown up now, with families of their own, and are finding out what "raising a family is all about"..............it isn't that easy, and they don't come with a book of instructions, you just do the best you can........................sometimes it works, and sometimes it doesn't.............but if nothing at all..............parents deserve respect.......................I would say to them when they would give me a hard time..........................I'm not here to win a popularity contest, and you don't have to "like me", but you will damn well "respect me".....................