I Come to the Garden...

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  • Padiddle
    Padiddle Member Posts: 853
    edited October 2011

    Morning all you wonderful ladies:  Been seeking other threads trying to find what to expect with the new treatment plan I start next week.  At any point, with all that is going on I realized that God is still God, and He is good.  I lost my focus over the past couple weeks, but am aware of that.  Catching up on the latest post here.  Ephesians 3:12 "In Him and through faith in him we may approach God with freedom and confidence."  God bless you all....pray without ceasing.  Jean

  • 2Hands4me
    2Hands4me Member Posts: 484
    edited October 2011
    Typed a reply last night, hit submit and it went away.

    Typed another (shorter) version, hit submit - and it disappeared again! Internet or BCO???

    I'll try again - don't quit know what version this will be!!!!

    I was so glad to hear an update from you Meece! I've missed your involvement here and on the E-Lab thread! Hope you get the thyroid situation figured out soon! You might check the Iodine thread - I'm not sure what I think about that, but I do take kelp. It is high in iodine and helps the thyroid function better. My doctor won't listen to the idea of low thyroid since my labs are fine - even though I have many of the symptoms. Interestingly enough, I was having a lot of hair loss before I started the kelp. It quit, and then for some reason I stopped the kelp. (Can't remember why now!). When I noticed a lot of hair loss, I realized I had stopped the kelp, and I've taken it ever since!

    Glad the information was helpful, zumbagirl. It really makes sense to me that heart healthy is also cancer healthy! My husband had prostate cancer in 2008 and had surgery. His PSA is going up slightly now so we're watching it. I recently changed our diet to lower carbs, more fruits and vegetables. The boys don't seem to notice as long as I have plenty to fill them up! I continue to lose weight on the E-Lab program (thanks Meece!) of drinking water, exercising, and making healthy choices. At the prostate cancer seminar, one of the speakers said, "It's not a diet; it's a lifestyle!" Sometimes you know that kind of thing, but you have to really get it soaked into your thought process! It takes one step at a time, and then another....and another.... And always with God's help!

    God bless you all!

  • Meece
    Meece Member Posts: 19,483
    edited October 2011

    2Hands, thank you for the info.  I have thinning hair as well.  Maybe I will consider the kelp.  I need to get back to E-Lab but I feel so frustrated.  I guess I just need to jump in with both feet.

    DH sees the Dr every 3-4 months for his cholesterol.  It is continuing to go up despite the meds he's on.  The Dr. just increased it again.  He also has high BP.  Both conditions are hereditary for him.  I have shot out the idea to go walking every day, I could use the exercise as well.  I have really cut down the caloric count in my cooking and I gain weight.  Maybe exercise will be my key, if I get the strength to start it up.

    Hope everyone is having a nice weekend.

  • 2Hands4me
    2Hands4me Member Posts: 484
    edited October 2011

    Hi Meece - I really feel that the E-Lab points add up with the exercise. The water is a constant 7, the healthy points are limited, the 2 for a decrease is either there or not on Friday morning, along with the 1 for checking in. But the exercise is only there with some effort and push. I decided that I don't have to like it (I don't like laundry and toilets either!), but I do HAVE to do it! And gardening, vacuuming, cleaning bathrooms (as long as you don't move at a snail pace) all count. The more exercise points, the more likely I am to get the extra 2 for weight loss - even .2 or .4 pounds lost per week adds up over the month!

    The gals on the E-Lab thread would love to have you back! And I'd love for my numbers at the top to not show so high! Embarassed I sort of quit checking in there since I was never on a team and it seemed sort of pointless. My guess is that several others would come back too..... and maybe there's some new interest also. I know you are busy though, and it does take time! So I do understand! Just throwing in my 2 cents.

  • OG56
    OG56 Member Posts: 897
    edited October 2011

    Hey Meece, I have been keeping you and all the women here on my prayer list, it really stinks to feel so tired! I am exercising 5 days a week now with a friend and I keep waiting to like it or for an increase in energy......hmmm still waiting :)   However I have lost 14 lbs between my husband and exercise! Just hoping I can keep it off because I have about 25 more to go.

    Love and Hugs,

    Linda

  • Hindsfeet
    Hindsfeet Member Posts: 2,456
    edited October 2011

    Ladies, tomorrow at 1:15 I have a biopy for a suspected tumor/cancer. If it is it will be my fourth cancer dx. At first it was pretty surreal (after the mammo on Wednesday), now it's getting scary. I really don't want to go through this again. I don't like any of the options. I hope it's just a scare. I know that God is bigger than all this and if it is cancer, He will give me the wisdom I need. I appreciate your prayers. Thanks.

  • 3jaysmom
    3jaysmom Member Posts: 4,266
    edited October 2011

    i'll be praying for you tommorrow (today) eve barry..for b-9!!!i think the docs gonna do a fnb on my thyroid on the 5th also... Meece, the weight gain certainly CAN be from an under active throid, also. plz get it cked. its REALLY frustrating, but if itd hypo, you just can't diet, or excersize it off.. also, till its' cked. the kelp isn't a good idea  (iodine) the thinninfg is also a symptom of hypo.. call that dr!!  im praying for you, as well, sweetie........3jays

  • Laural136669
    Laural136669 Member Posts: 287
    edited October 2011

    I am new to this forum. My initial diagnosis was acute lymphocytic leukemia 25 years ago. I survived chemotherapy treatment well, only to be diagnosed with secondary myelodysplastic syndrome 5 years later. This cancer does not go into remission, only a quiet state. I have had numerous rounds of chemotherapy, with the last being this past summer. In September, I was diagnosed with a left IDC. I also had a suspicious spot on MRI, so opted for a bilateral mastectomy with a left sentinel node biopsy. As the doctor thought the right spot was nothing, he was surprised when pathology report came back with ILC on the right. I just underwent an axillary node dissection on the right, and am awaiting pathology reports. All of this said, I can't fathom facing all of this without the firm hold and stability of our loving Father God. Just wanted to share a prayer/poem I wrote.

    The Lord of the Journey

    Lord, I come before You tonight,
    Heavy of heart and weary in soul.
    This road we are walking together
    Just seems to keep going on and on,
    A continual, arduous climb.
    I find my feet stumbling on the rocks,
    My body crying out with exhaustion.
    But each time I fall, You gently pick me up
    And encourage me to keep climbing.
    You hold my hand, pulling me over the roughest spots.
    You carry me lightly when the path all but disappears.
    I look up now and again,
    Surprised at the heights which we have traversed,
    Awed by the view of the great expanse.
    The top of the mountain is yet wreathed in mists,
    Hidden away from my eager eyes.
    I know not how far or how steep
    The rest of the journey will be,
    But I know that even here on this tiny piece of cliff
    That I can find joy enough to dance before You,
    To raise a song of worship and of praise.
    The very rocks themselves join in the chorus,
    Singing forth the song that is older than they.
    You are the Lord of the journey,
    And I place my trust in You.

  • barbe1958
    barbe1958 Member Posts: 19,757
    edited October 2011

    Welcome Laurel. Eve, you are in my prayers. Please keep us posted. Hugs to you both!

  • Eph3_12
    Eph3_12 Member Posts: 4,781
    edited October 2011

    Evebarry-let us know ASAP-praying

    Laural-your prayer/poem moved me to tears.  I so feel that way most of the time, but those little pieces of the cliffs are precarious, it sometimes inhibits my praise! 

  • 3jaysmom
    3jaysmom Member Posts: 4,266
    edited October 2011

    Laurel: welcome to our thread; and thankn you so much for that poem. i found strength there today that i needed.. its good to have you here........3jays

  • juliet62
    juliet62 Member Posts: 3,412
    edited October 2011

    wonderful prayer laurel, so apt

  • Hindsfeet
    Hindsfeet Member Posts: 2,456
    edited October 2011

    I won't know the results of the biopsy until Wednesday afternoon or Thursday. I asked to see the califications on the mammogram. There were quite a few clustered, and a few that lined upward. The infected area was sited at the original lumpectomy scar area that I had in Dec...2007. I've had 2 others lumpectomies since then, but not right in that area. Right now, I can't decide anything until I know for sure if it's positive or negative. Meantime, pray that my spirit will be at rest and I can focus on my job. Thanks.

  • lynniea
    lynniea Member Posts: 611
    edited October 2011

    I have # 23 of radiation today.  I will have # 25 by Thursday and I will be skipping Friday so I can go to my niece's wedding in Boston.  Can't wait to get away from here for a few day's.  Trust me we all know we need so time off now and then. God has been so good to me through all of this I can not complain.

  • Meece
    Meece Member Posts: 19,483
    edited October 2011

    Laurel, welcome and thank you for your inspiring poem. 

    Evebarry, I will be praying for His will to be for B9 results, and that you will be at peace through this.

    Lynniea, enjoy your time off, you are almost at the finish line with this active treatment.  Our God is with you each step of the way.

    I guess through all of this I have reached an exhaustion, physically and mentally and now when I feel I have no more strength, I must look to Him for a gentle lift back to my feet.

  • Laural136669
    Laural136669 Member Posts: 287
    edited October 2011

    Meece,

    I thought of this poem I wrote 2 years ago when you mentioned being exhausted. Praying for His strength to lift you up.

    Numbers

    The numbers arrive,
    Neat columns with norms and percentages skewed,
    Black and white reminders
    Of the disease buried deep within.
    Once again, the battle of forces begins,
    Bad cells crowding out the good,
    Fighting for space within the narrow confines of life.
    I dig deep,
    Seeking a source of refreshment,
    Some energy to take into this fray,
    But I find none.
    Turning, I fall into Your hands.
    Time has taught me to trust in Your grasp,
    To rely on your strength to see me through.
    Yet even here, I grieve today,
    Afraid to face what lies ahead,
    Too tired to pick up my sword,
    Crying out against the loss of normal once again.
    Tucked in Your tender hold,
    My body finds a stable place to rest.
    Tomorrow will come as I sleep,
    And my heart will regain joy for the journey.
    Laura Alway

  • juliet62
    juliet62 Member Posts: 3,412
    edited October 2011

    thank you laurel

  • Eph3_12
    Eph3_12 Member Posts: 4,781
    edited October 2011

    Laura, you are gifted! And blessed!  Thanks for sharing.

  • 3jaysmom
    3jaysmom Member Posts: 4,266
    edited October 2011

    thanks for all the poems ladies.. another talent expressed here... woke up early, found one of my fav preachers on TV . today is a dr. appt. i was reminded to pray enceasinly that God uses them also, to heal. i've been "pretty sure" its the ms; and that def has got to be divine intervention. they told me can't do anything since you've had bc... so, im now trusting God to divinely inyervene, and help me get over this huge obstacle in my path right now.

       i know , no long it takes, im "suppossed" to wait on the Lord.. pray that i increase my faith... "I believe, help thou my unbelief" since Paul prayed thet, i guess i'm in good company.........3jays

  • Meece
    Meece Member Posts: 19,483
    edited October 2011

    3Jays, I also believe that Doctors can be God's tools for miracles.  May your doctor today have a new plan which will give you relief.

    Heavenly Father, I lift to you our sister 3jays.  Please give her peace and comfort as she awaits a plan for treatment. Please guide the hands and minds of her physicians and help them to find an alternative treatment option.

    Please be with each of these ladies as they face their individual challenges.  Help us all to lean on you and not on our own understanding.

    Amen

  • deniseday
    deniseday Member Posts: 96
    edited October 2011

    Laural,  I'm new on here and just read your poem.  It spoke directly to my heart.  I will read it several more times today and in the days to follow.  I was diagnosed with IDC and DCIS in April,2011.  I have finished 4 rounds of AC followed by 4 rounds of Taxol.  Bilateral Mastectomy followed by immediate reconstruction is scheduled for October 28, 2011.  This past Friday I had an MRI and PET scan. The MRI showed that the main tumor has only shrunk 10%.  I see my oncologist on Friday and I'm so worried that these results may change his surgery plan.  I'm so ready to get this nasty thing off of my body.  Weary is such a good word to describe how I feel and so many others in this battle.  I'm just ready to hear some "good news". 

    As my pastor told me Jesus doesn't work in percentages, He works in the whole.  So, I thanking Him in advance for ridding me of this dreadful disease.

    Thanks for your poem, Denise

  • Eph3_12
    Eph3_12 Member Posts: 4,781
    edited October 2011

    welcome denise....hope your appointment on Friday is better than expected & all systems are go for the 28th!

  • kcl65
    kcl65 Member Posts: 1,156
    edited October 2011

    Welcome Laura and Denise! Thanks for the poems Laura, what a beautiful gift you have! Denise, I will be praying for you!

     Ladies, apparently Roman is doing very well and is at home.  He had a fall and had to be rushed to the ER, but is back home again.  Thank you for all your prayers!

  • Padiddle
    Padiddle Member Posts: 853
    edited October 2011

    Welcome Laurel and Denise.  Wha a beautiful poem...such talent you have. 

    How are you feeling Meece?  Zumbagirl:  Are you getting rested up for your radiation? 

    Lynneia:  Your countdown is getting there.  Hang in!  Eph 3:  Hoping all is well on the biopsy report.  3jays:  Amen to Meece's prayer.

    Thank you Lord for watching over Roman.

    Been quietly waiting for options about this progression I've learned I have.  Had my first PET scan today.  Been clinging to Philippians 4:6&7:  "Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.  And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."

    May God bless each of you spritiually and physically this evening.  To our God and Father be glory for ever and ever.  Amen

  • Hindsfeet
    Hindsfeet Member Posts: 2,456
    edited October 2011

    Romanas 8:28...All things work together for good to those who love God... 

    I am shaking inside. I just got back my biopsy results. It is IDC, high grade 3, como-neurosis type solid.  I hoped it would be nothing more than dcis. I don't know how to feel right now but trust in God's goodness.

    I need wisdom to know what to do next. I am scared silly of a mx, but now I know I have no other choice. I will do some kind of small reconstruction. I will not do chemo, but what else, I do not know. I have to find a surgeon. I need a plastic surgeon. I need to do this very soon as I fear the biopys will cause seeding elsewhere.

    I appreciate your prayers as I run a school and I have a lot on my plate. I am the bread winner of my family. I have a lot of responsiblity and I have little time for recovery. But, again this is life or death isn't it. I am so glad my life and times are in God's hands.

  • OG56
    OG56 Member Posts: 897
    edited October 2011

    Oh Eve I am so sorry to hear that you are having to deal with this horrible disease again! I am so sure your head is spinning with all the things you have to plan for. Remember God is with you and we pray that he will guide you and your medical team and that your tx plan will irradicate the beast.

    If you are looking for a reconstruction that has a quick recovery I know several women who had the one step Alloderm procedure, then you don't have to mess with tissue expanders.

    Hugs and Love,

    Linda

  • zumbagirl
    zumbagirl Member Posts: 308
    edited October 2011

    first to Evebarry, I am praying for peace, comfort and God's mercy. I am so glad we have the Lord to see us through these very difficult times. I do pray for healing for you ,,Isaiah 58:8, then your light shall break forth like the morning,, your healing shall spring forth steadily.,, Psalm 147:3, He heals the broken hearted, and binds up their wounds, , and Jeremiah 30:17,,for I will restore health to you and heal your wounds says the Lord.

    Eph 3, I must have missed to many days, what biopsy report are you waiting on?, I know I will talk to you in a few days in person. I am so excited to know we also share Christ in common Smile

    Padiddle,

    My first radiation treatment is either Oct 25, or 26th. I have an apt Oct 17, to do the 1 hour mapping to get ready for the treatments. I am teaching zumba, and working at the bank, but not over doing it,

  • Meece
    Meece Member Posts: 19,483
    edited October 2011

    Oh, Evebarry.  I am so sorry to hear of this turning of your road.  Take comfort that He will never leave you, and ask for His wisdom in finding the right physicians quickly.  We are here for you to offer support, we are ears to listen when you feel like crying or screaming, and support when you need it.

    {{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Eve}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

  • Meece
    Meece Member Posts: 19,483
    edited October 2011

    Denise, welcome to the Garden.  A 10% reduction is better than a 9%, so perhaps your doctor will not be thrown off course by this finding.  I will be praying for everything to continue as planned, but in ALL things, may His will be done.

  • Eph3_12
    Eph3_12 Member Posts: 4,781
    edited October 2011

    Evebarry-I know that you have been praying & we will lift you up also.  I hope that treatment commences with little effect on you physically so that you can continue your job & personal life & all it has in store for you.   God is good!

    Zumba-I think you must have read something wrong-I am not involved in any on-going treatments right now other than check-ups, Praise the Lord.  Yes, I will excited to get your call on Saturday!

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