Yes, I am Breast Cancer Girl!!!

AMEN! Thank you!

I post this in another thread but I guess it was at the wrong place so here is the copy....

Hello! my canserversary is on Oct. 15 it will be 2 years then and I would say I'm done with the bilateral mastectomy with reconstruction and radiation. Then I was diagnosed with fibromyalgia March of this year.

I need some enlightenment and help here. Is there something wrong with me to feel so depressed, sad, and I just want to disappear this month of Oct. for breast cancer awareness month which is also my mastectomy anniversary. The only thing I could keep on thinking is all the flash back from biopsy, mri, mastectomy, radiation, and so on. In short, I don't want to see the pink ribbons, and to listen and watch to breast cancer awareness month. Don't get me wrong, I loved pink and I loved it that a lot of people support breast cancer but I cannot breath, my chest is so tight that I want to hide. Anyone feels the same, is there something wrong with me? what should I do?

Love this thread, thank you Suzybelle!

Angel:  I am with you, I cannot ABIDE the 'pink' stuff, never liked pink anyway.  I for one am totally SICK of hearing about breast cancer "RACE FOR THE CURE"....race away everyone~!  Methinks that a 'cure' is not feasible, just manageable.  NOT to be a downer.  I also have daily migraines, and there could NEVER be a 'cure' for that, everyone is VERY different...and we should all be treated as individuals, not clumped together, we all experience meds differently.

I acknowledge I'm still fighting as you all are...but I don't define myself by bc.  Sure, thinking back to all we went thru, it's QUITE alot of turmoil, stress, pain--not just on us, but our families/friends.  Do we want to relive it, NOPE!   If it happens again, I'll deal then, just as I did first time around, by just saying "Okay, what do we do next?"...then forgeddaboutit!!!  

   Just some sarcastic humor here, it's a serious subject, but we CAN laugh!   ~juli

Oh Suzybelle, this is so refreshing!!

I thought I was alone in this...when I saw all the pink in the supermarket, I wanted to shout "ramming speeeed"!!! and run it over with my cart.

Now that I am 2 3/4 years out, I have a little (not much, still sick of it) perspective in that, hey, it raises money, fine, more research.

I do not care for the things people give me like pink jewellry and stuff, but since my kid got all involved, and it helps her, I've taken the "pink stinks" down a notch to spare her feelings.

For me, Oct. was diagnosis month both times, and I'd like to forget that, but the  PINK won't let me. 

Ah well, they are raising money for us, but thank you for this thread. 

Thank you to all!

I share my emotions to my kids and husband last night and I know that my husband will never understand what I'm talking about.

This is very hard because it is something that we cannot control.So it is very frustrating for us.

Definitely hear ya, and no, not being negative at all...we need the humor, and those who have not gone thru what we have, HAVE NO CLUE~!   Hey, the cole slaw is good at 'that' chicken place!  (in fact, when undergoing chemo for those 5 months, it's all I craved was THAT cole slaw--only!)

~juli

LOL Suzybelle!   Call me from now on:  'THAT'-chicken-place-cole-slaw-juli

(Closest I could find, lol)   ~cole-slaw-juli

Hey y'all, just picked up an Rx at Walgreens and guess what? Pink child proof cap labeled 'pink promise'.

That is exactly what I thought of!!

A PINKish smiley:    .... oh wait, are we 'supposed' to smile???       ~juli

This is hilarious!  You guys are great!  My favorite last year was when I walked into our local Panera and it was filled with pink balloons that had just enough air left out of the top that they all had little pink "nipples".  I was floored!  Do they not understand that some people who get breast cancer no longer have nipples!!! And no, I did not buy their special pink f-ing bagel.

This year, I'm going in with a pin and popping every single balloon.  Grrrrrr!

Honestly, I think I'm going to talk to a manager this year and suggest that, instead of sending the proceeds of the "pink f-ing bagel" to God knows where, they could team up with our local cancer care center and raise money for local women who are already diagnosed that need help, whether it's with paying bills, house cleaning service, child-care, etc.  Lord knows I needed those things badly.  There I was, in my little NOT-pink scarf, buying meals for me and my kids that I really couldn't afford but was just too damn tired from chemo to actually make at home, staring at these damn balloons thinking "They're raising money for someone who doesn't even have cancer yet and here I am in the midst of actually going through cancer and I can't get any help!  What is wrong with this picture!!" It's like once you have it, you're a lost cause or something.

Now I'm all fired up!  I wanna go in there and just burn all their pink f-ing bagels in the toaster!

I read this in the news paper... I cracked up laughing...

5,000 run to find the cure for cancer but no one found it. 

October 6th is the anniversary of my last chemo a year ago. I hate that October is the pink month. Last year around this time I had to go for a mammo and sitting on the receptionist desk is a pink duffle bag filled with pink goodies to be raffled off. The receptionist asked if I wanted a ticket. I told her nicely that I hate pink and I didn't want the reminder.

I love the idea of decorating a tree with pink ribbons, boobies and maybe deflated balloons that look like boobies. If only I had a tree in my front yard, I'd do it! 

what a riot this thread is!! Some posts made me laugh so hard I am crying...others made complete sense with reality. Twinmom77 what a great idea of yours!! we should get together and write letters to these businesses as a group. Perhaps for next year.

Veggie, I love the statement...5,00o...run... I may post it on facebook

Hugs to all

<sigh>

Um, ... Suzybelle, I hate to be the one to break the news, but ...

Here's a Breast Cancer Awareness Pre-lit Christmas Tree, just for you. 

It's available from Bradford Exchange (http://www.bradfordexchange.com/products/111401001_breast-cancer-awareness-pre-lit-christmas-tree.html) for just $199.96.  The advertisement on that website says absolutely nothing about part of that purchase price being wasted on BC research or support.

The tree is pink, of course, and it's covered with pink BC ribbons (see the zoom feature on the web page). So there's no doubt this fun and exciting tree will contribute to "BC awareness" among family members and guests when you display it at your holiday celebrations.

I need to go now.  I am feeling nauseous.

otter