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Congratulations to the entire family on the occasion of Ella's birth. All we want is a healthy baby, a healthy mother, and a healthy grandma. On the Jewish calendar she will always be a Chanukah baby and Chanukah is a celebration of a miracle from God. So, Ella is a little miracle.

WOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'M A GRANDMA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I left you many comments on Facebook but just want to say that y'all done good!

Yipey!!!!!

Cathi you look beautiful, just as you should! Ella and Amanda look perfect. What a day for Amanda!

Please don't worry until they tell you  there is anything to worry about...  the docs et al will be very careful regarding Ella, since there were concens pre birth and she is early...they will check every part and bit of this little one - just to be careful.

 Thank you for sharing so much with us. Many hugs to the family, much love to you.

FOR ALL MY SPECIAL CYBER G'MA'S - LOVE ELLA.  I got to come out of NICU today,  they say so far so good,  still some concern over my kidney functions,  gotta HAVE A FEW MORE TESTS,   XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOX TO ALL MY CYBER G'MA'S

What a sweet photo. Precious little darling. That's wonderful news that all the tests have been good so far. Praying for a clean bill of health for Ella's kidneys.  oxox

Jane thanks for the concern,  I slept well last night when I finally un woound and let some meds help,  I'll admit my hip is really hurtng today,  lots of working and the chairs in the hospital room are just awful,  but it is amazing how our minds will allow us to work through the worst of feelings,  I am pretty sure in a day or so I will just crash for a bit,  right now just to hiped up. 

Spoke with Amanda a bit ago,  she is hurting now from the tubal,  DR described the procedure as "digging around" in there.  SIL  is staying at the hospital again tonight, he makes me nuts,  but I'll give credit when credit is due,  the past 2 days he  has been very good. 

Well off to take some pain pills and get some sleep.  Landen is spending this night at Jaclyn's so maybe can sleep in Sunday AM.

XOXOXOXOXOXOXO

the miracle of birth and the human body...just amazing and really beautiful. Now go get that well needed rest missy.

Thanks I really am upset over that whole thing,   feeling so sad for Landen,  Ed really did have a man to man talk with him,  he has far for SWAVE than I,  I just have to keep quiet or I'll really say something I should not,  poor Ed he gets an ear full from me.  It's quite hard when the sibling is so young,  my girls were 16/Mo's apart it is not easy,  oh well.  Heres a picture of Alexcis with Ella she just loves her new cousin,  keeps wanting to look at her little feet,  she was only 4 when her brother was born,  now being six she is just in awe of hoow "TINY" everything is.

Cathi,

God bless you and your whole family and in a very special way Ella!  May He surround you all with His love and fill your hearts with His peace and His healing love.

Bless

Finally got a moment to post here, Ella is beautiful just like her grandmother. Ella is still in my prayers.

Sheila

Beautiful photo Cathi. I love Alexcis' sweet expression - what a proud cousin!

Love and hugs to all.

Jane oxox

this is a good sign that they let her come home so soon! Now go have fun getting ready for Santa - and take a nap... (but not necessarily in that order) you need it.

Hi sweeties

Cathi, the baby is aching beautiful, what a wee fighter eh? Lovely pic of her with her big cuz, Alexis looks spellbound. And what a relief to have her home and safe in time for Christmas. I'm sure it will be the best one ever.

Lassies, I am finally feeling weepy, and I hate, hate, hate feeling sorry for myself. Had my 20th rads today, 10 more to go. I keep trying to put a positive spin on it "only 10 more", but the tiredness is so all consuming, and I am still getting some belated side effects of chemo, nails are falling out, still got sore AND numb fingers and feet, hair fell out after the chemo, can't walk more than a few yards, havent writtten as much as one card or wrapped a present. I keep telling myself the worst is past but I have never felt so bad in my life. i seriously am considering discontinuing the rads. Surely after 2 gruelling sessions of chemo and 20 rads - and clear margins - I have had enough? Oh and Herceptrin too! On the plus side, the skin has held up well,almost no pain and little reddening but I feel the fight and spirit has gone out of me. Can't even work up any enthusiasm for Christmas. What a wimp I am! Does anyone know how long it takes for all of poison and radium to leave the system? Need to start feeling 'normal' again.

Thanks so much for letting me rant girls. So cathartic. 

Only a week until Christmas eh. Anyone got exciting plans?

Lots of love and hugs, and a great big HELLO to baby Ella, and congrats to her brave wee mammie, grannie and the rest of the family.

Loads more Pics Cathi, the really bring a smile to the face, and we all need that! How is wee Margot? And well done for keeping your cool with your dunce of a son-in-law. Sounds like he'll never learn I'm afraid. Thank god Amanda and the kids have you and Ed.

Well, going to wrap the christmas presents and try to get into the christmas spirit.

Speak soon

Nettie xxx 

Nettie I agree with Nancy,  I know it seems an eternity,  but hang in there for those last 10 treatments,  I don't want to sound like a NEGATIVE NELLIE, but theres no guarantee that no matter what we do will keep BOOTFACE at bay,  but God forbid it retured some day you don't want to be regretting or think "if only I had done the last rads" THE STUPID WHAT-IF'S .  Just my first hand advice.  As far as Christmas,  well this is absolutley the worst organized I have ever been,  thank Goodness for Ed,  but I am so utterly exhausted,  I am looking forward to it all being over this year,  I will enjoy  the eve and the day with the children I know,  but I just don't know where I am going to muster up the energy,  I guess I will I always do.  I have suffered with the most awful headache of my life these past 3 days it has even made me nauses,  today has been some better,  I have not a single gift for my Ed,  he continues to come home nightly with something all wrapped and then under the tree,  I start the day with good intentions,  then,  work,  headaches,  Dr's appointments for the children get in the way. Ugh I look at myself in the mirror and see and old haggered lady. 

Just venting,  you know how much I love my family and would not trade them for anything,   I have to get back to Onco and get started on some stuff in the new year,  Nettie I may actually have to do some rads to my hip to elevate some of the pain,  taking far to many pain meds these days.

Ella has a touch of Jaundice per the ped's DR today,  she is at 6.5LPS, but thats ok.  She is starting to PEE better,  things seem to be looking up -  I pray so.  They just keep poking and prodding her so much.  She is so darn small.