Prayers, Blessings & Wishes for Saint

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  • lovemyfamilysomuch
    lovemyfamilysomuch Member Posts: 1,585
    edited November 2009

    What a beautiful poem, all my love to dear Saint and God bless us everyone!  In sisterhood, xo

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  • apple
    apple Member Posts: 7,799
    edited November 2009

    Saint wrote quite a few poems found in this poetry thread.  Rereading them this morning has been wonderful.

    http://community.breastcancer.org/forum/6/topic/734703?page=1

    the actual link does not seem to work, but one can copy and paste it into the browser window.


    Diagnosis: 5/10/2008, IDC, 5cm, Stage IIIc, Grade 3, 4/9 nodes, ER+

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  • LMDuncan
    LMDuncan Member Posts: 715
    edited November 2009

    (((((SAINT)))))

    you are never far from my thoughts

    Lori

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  • Jenniferz
    Jenniferz Member Posts: 541
    edited November 2009

    Saint,



    Praying for a miracle for you and your family.



    Jennifer

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  • kbugmom
    kbugmom Member Posts: 15,189
    edited November 2009

    Dear Saint what a beautiful poem. It says so much. I pray for you to have many more days, even years. I still believe in miracles. I send my love across the miles. Can you feel the hugssss. I am a big hugger. God bless you and your family.

    Susan

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  • deborye
    deborye Member Posts: 7,002
    edited November 2009

    I think of you every day Saint.

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  • spar2
    spar2 Member Posts: 6,827
    edited November 2009

    thinking of you Saint, praying for you.  You have grace, strength and courage.

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  • hollyann
    hollyann Member Posts: 2,992
    edited November 2009

    Thinking of you, sweet sister.......Praying for a miracle and sending you lots of strength and courage.....

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  • footprintsangel
    footprintsangel Member Posts: 43,890
    edited November 2009

    God bless You and keep you at peace in His

    caring, comforting hands. God Loves You

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  • Marple
    Marple Member Posts: 19,143
    edited November 2009

    ((((Saint))))

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  • faithandfifty
    faithandfifty Member Posts: 10,007
    edited November 2009

    It's Sunday, Saint.

    My best guess is that you are not able to be singing with your choir this morning. I know how much the choir has meant to you..... not just for seasons, or for years -- but for decades. It rankled you when you had to sit & sing. I can only imagine what emotions you have, if you must acknowledge that you are unable to join them.

    We are all here praying for miracles on your behalf. I know what you would tell us: it's a miracle when my nurse smiles & shares her stories of her children trick-or-treating.  It's a miracle to watch the antics of the ears on Alphie-the-Chemo-Pal-Wonder-Dog. It's a miracle to consider all the people who have made an impact in this crazy adventure called life.

    You see miracles with the clarity of a saint.

    I love calling your phone and hearing your voice in that recorded message. It's so strong & there's that lilt in your voice.

    It is such a new place for me, not to be in conversation with you daily.... my mind wanders all over imagining what your days are like. I long for news. I long for details. I long for insight. I long for giggles. I long for words.

    In attempting to follow your example of seeing every experience as heavenly-designed, the only good I have been able to conjure from this present state of 'unknowing' is that it is indeed preparation for a time when we won't again have two way conversations.

    I know that next summer when we're back at the marina watching the sunset, I'll be conversing with you about getting the sunset & the sailboat in the same picture frame. I'll be saying to myself, "Pat, I need you to be my seagull spotter." (You gotta have a friend help to get the ultimate trifecta picture.) You did such a great job with that assignment last summer. How we laughed during your bucket-list RV trip.

    People must have wondered what was so funny.

    Little did they realize. They were observing a miracle. They were seeing a recipe for laughter: know that your days are limited & your time is agonizingly valuable -- then suck every morsal of juice from every possible experience. Goats on a roof? Laugh. Golf cart trip thru the woods to the pine tree auditorium? Laugh. Laugh. Laugh.

    All my love to you. All the love of this community to you. All the love of life to you.

    xx00xx00xx00xx00xx 

    Strength and courage.

    Strength and courage.

    Strength and courage.

    Dear Heavenly Healer. We gather here on behalf of our friend, our sister, our Saint. We ask for miracles. We ask for brilliant intervention from her medical team. We ask for all pain & suffering to be banished. We ask for moments of normalcy for a family that has walked in your great wisdom. May they be given the opportunity to shower love and affection on one another. May they tell stories and recall fond memories. May they be held in your caring arms, lifted up and beyond this earthly plight, carried to a place of wholeness and a greater depth of acceptance & understanding. May you shower your compassion in the details of what unfolds as we begin this new week. May we trust in your great goodness to shepherd our sister..... she trusts in You...... we are grateful for her witness, example and courage in the face of the unthinkable. Surround them with the strength of a whole squadron of angels. Protect them from doubts. Protect them from fears. Lead them as only You are able. And then, if it's not asking too much, hold us up, so that we may hold one another in the aftermath that we anticipate on the horizon.

    Thank you for this sacred place that we might meet one another in our broken-ness and learn from the gifted in this community, what it means to live a life well. Pat would be the first to point out -- that is indeed our miracle.

    xx00xx00xx00xx

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  • arnie2two
    arnie2two Member Posts: 1,215
    edited November 2009

    Amen... ((((((((((((((((Saint and family)))))))))))))))

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  • faithandfifty
    faithandfifty Member Posts: 10,007
    edited November 2009

    Hallelujah.

    An answer to my prayers.

    Literally.

    Pat & I have been on the phone since I posted above.

    Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.

    She sends her love to everyone. She asks that our prayers be for acceptance.

    She is in the hospital. In the "special care" unit. This is the same wing where she spent the bulk of her time after her leg broke. She knows the staff there & they already love her.

    She would like to "stay" there, if given the opportunity...... to treat this unique place as her own variation on 'hospice.' (Yes, she says that word easily.)

    Her college son was home for a portion of the weekend. They had some lovely time with all four of them just "hangin' out" in her room -- kids sitting on her couch on laptops/phones. Just 'being together.'

    She has received two rads to her spleen & plans to have a couple more..... to ease that pain.

    In general she doesn't have much pain...... the staff is VERY on-top of giving her comfort & staying in front of pain issues.

    She currently has chosen the status of "no visitors" and feels that's best for how she felt last week..... the coughing jags kept her from communicating on the phone -- with anyone.

    She indicated that she might be able to return to us/BCO tether of friends via her laptop.

    The only one with any insight into the timeline ahead has yet to send the memo from Heaven with an outline of what to expect. (LOL)

    Her onc has indicated that there are no options.

    Prayers for acceptance, indeed.

    She wants EVERYONE to know how much she LOVES EVERYONE.

    It was literally a gift to be able to speak to her for that length of time.

    xx00xx00xx00xx

    She told me that she is sleeping more of her day. She thinks she's probably awake for about 8 hours of any given day.

    If we are graced with another conversation I will read her your posts.

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  • AnnNYC
    AnnNYC Member Posts: 4,484
    edited November 2009

    Thank you, Faith.

    Thinking of you all the time, Saint/Pat,

    Love, Ann (AnnNYC-who-grew-up-in-Wisconsin)

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  • deborye
    deborye Member Posts: 7,002
    edited November 2009

    THANK YOU♥ THANK YOU♥ THANK YOU♥ Faithandfifty for keeping us updated.

    (((((((((((((Saint))))))))))

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  • AnnaM
    AnnaM Member Posts: 1,387
    edited November 2009

    Thank you, Faith. When I read your posts I feel that I am indeed learning "from the gifted in this community." How wonderful to hear that Saint is surrounded by her family and that she continues to see the magic icing on everything that presents itself.

    I send loving wishes and will continue the prayers.

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  • Marple
    Marple Member Posts: 19,143
    edited November 2009

    Saint, dearest heart.  Thank you for allowing us to share in these precious moments.  Thank you Faith for providing the connection.

    Gentle hugs and prays of acceptance.

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  • CapeBretongirl
    CapeBretongirl Member Posts: 364
    edited November 2009

    Thank you Faith.   ((((Saint))))

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  • coonie
    coonie Member Posts: 7,618
    edited November 2009

    My thoughts and prayers are with you continually Saint.....and with your family too!

    (((((Faithie))))) you too!!

    edit: for spelling...you would think after 46 years I'd be able to spellTongue out

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  • EWB
    EWB Member Posts: 2,927
    edited November 2009

    St Pat, thinking of you today, hoping for a quiet restful day with the family nearby, enjoying the ordinary-ness of the day. Innocent

    Coonie- thats what spell check is for!  Wink

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  • coonie
    coonie Member Posts: 7,618
    edited November 2009

    Dear Saint--sure hope you're provided with a laptop. Would love to "hear" from you when you're up to it. Still sending big hugs and prayers your way!!!!! Here's a puter for ya :)

    FunnyAnimalsDogComputerlolFunny.gif Funny Animals,Dog,Computer,lolFunny image by classyladytwo

    funny-pictures-cat-kisses-dog-goodn.jpg Cats-Dogs-Good Bight image by Gypsy48

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  • faithandfifty
    faithandfifty Member Posts: 10,007
    edited November 2009

    Saint-sisters & supporters.........

    I can't even begin to capture or convey the sense of 'relief' that I have felt all day as a result of our phone conversation this morning.

    I know that we have a wide spectrum of 'faith' & beliefs here, but I must say that it was one of THE most amazing experiences to hit the "submit" button this morning and have my cell phone ring within minutes.

    Saint would call it yet another "God-wink."

    I wanted to let everyone here know that I am all packed to leave for a week long adventure in the morning. I will have periodic web connectivity, but very few minutes at my disposal. I will do my best to continue to act as scribe and conduit to our mutual friend.

    I just didn't want anyone to 'read anything into' my hiatus, or change in tone.

    She sounded so strong today. Her recent raging coughing jag stuff seemed to have reseeded -- allowing her to be conversant. She described the coughing as "inconsequential" but it had in effect cut her off from her outreach-phone connections.

    I want to be delusionally optomistic & wish & wonder if she might be able to post here again, under her own steam...... at the very least, be able to 'read' here...... grasping the enormity of the support and admiration that is held here.

    I know that there are many, many others who have their own fond & personal memories of Saint -- and will share those reflections when the time is right.

    Everyone hold one another up -- in the coming week.

    xx00xx00xx00xx00xx

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  • vivvygirl
    vivvygirl Member Posts: 435
    edited November 2009

    Saint,

    You go girl....you are a legend

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  • footprintsangel
    footprintsangel Member Posts: 43,890
    edited November 2009

    Dear Lord, Please be with Saint, Help her to sleep well

    and please be with her through all she is going through.

    Thank You Lord for being there and helping this special

    person. Amen

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  • LMDuncan
    LMDuncan Member Posts: 715
    edited November 2009

    (((((SAINT)))))

    I will keep you in my thoughts daily

    Lori

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  • Mazy1959
    Mazy1959 Member Posts: 1,431
    edited November 2009

    Praying for you Saint...praying for a miracle.

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  • coonie
    coonie Member Posts: 7,618
    edited November 2009

    Sending thoughts and prayers for you this Monday morning Saint!

    And the gentlest of hugs!

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  • Saints_sister
    Saints_sister Member Posts: 39
    edited November 2009

    Hello and thanks to all of you,

    I am one of "Saint's" 4 biological sisters, the one who came into the world about 11 months after she did. I got a tip from "Faith" to check out this site and forum. Glad I did. I had NO idea of her poetry throughout all of this, for example. Staggering for me. I have lived in Europe for about the same length of time that Saint has been in WI. She and I had a kind of "deal", or so I thought - that she or her dh would contact me "in time" when the time came, so that I could be there to communicate with her personally before "IT" was imminent. Now that "IT" seems to be raising its ugly head, the situation is quite different. Neither Saint nor her dh have any interest in any of her distant siblings being there with her. We have been advised to wait -that we who would have to fly there will probably not see her alive again. I am in shock and disbelief - not so much about her demise as about this particular reaction. What to do? "Faith" suggests "forcing" my way in. Our youngest sister says - absolutely not. That it is NOT what she would want. I am truly discovering the meaning of being "between a rock and a hard place" and have no idea how to proceed. 

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  • coonie
    coonie Member Posts: 7,618
    edited November 2009

    Welcome Saints_Sister! We're glad you're able to join these forums to see how loved your sister really is. I'm sure you could spend days and days of reading the "strength and courage" she has given to others. We're so sorry for your pain and pray for your peace while Saint and the whole family deals with "IT". Many many MANY hugs and prayers to your whole family!!

    Edit: beginning of a new page, so this is for Faithie:) She's got a thing about pics at the top of a page.....LOL.

    california2009026.jpg picture by mydriene

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  • faithandfifty
    faithandfifty Member Posts: 10,007
    edited November 2009

    It seems I have made a very delicate time a bigger challenge by my naive grasp of reality.

    Yesterday when I spoke with Saint at length she addressed any number of issues with me. The first being that she was in no frame-of-mind to have a parade of people into her room to make final hurrah visits. She doesn't have the strength for that.

    She talked about her own way of coming to "acceptance" and paddling on DaNile for as long as possible...... her choice comes from a desire to have some privacy and 'space' at this time. Who am I to suggest that her sister travel round the globe & move-in? My thought came out of my own very raw spot, of wanting to have someone on hand who could offer support...... my need/my perspective.

    This is about Saint...... and what she needs. Even if I don't really understand. (Who could understand until we are in the situation ourselves?)

    Yesterday in our conversation she shared that as much as she loved having Allen & I there two weeks ago, that it was a challenge to her spirit...... not because we had any needs/demands, but it was a wake-up call as to how much traction she'd lost since our last visit, and even more since our time together last summer.

    That she wanted to be able to do so much more with us -- as we had always done in the past. Tho that was not our expectation, she knew, it was her heart's hope.  

    We were the stark 'reminders' of reality. She recognizes that she doesn't have sufficient strength to continuously be 'engaged', and that now more than ever she needs her space.

    She's consciously chosen a 'no-visitors' status.

    My mentor Mimi, from the horrible car accident is still on a 'no-visitor' status as well. She too is a rock star and was overwhelmed and swamped with visitors.

    So now we must think more creatively & come up with ways to support our saint, in this her time of her frailty. I have already apologized to Saint_sister over on FB. I apologize again for not having a better understanding of Pat's needs, choices and decisions.

    xx00xx00xx00xx

    Now I must get in my car and drive away...........

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