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  • wishiwere
    wishiwere Member Posts: 3,793
    edited August 2008

    That's a great question!  Aren't we CURED?  When we've had surgery to remove it all and NED and such?  I mean, it's cured, right?  We aren't in remission at this point, right? I'm totally lossed here.  Going for a bike ride, maybe I can think straighter then :(

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  • suz45
    suz45 Member Posts: 796
    edited August 2008

    K.. Im now majorly frustrated as I KNOW I posted all the dates way back, but cant find them now so a big Tongue out to all that and I will go through my yucky pile of docs and find the correct dates. My memmory is only holding a few (no need to post these yet) Aug 15 found the lump Aug 20 (my sons b day) was my mammogram and aug 28 (my wedding anniversary) was the test results. Oct 19 I had the lumpectomy with sentinal node biopsy and well that was the start. Amy thanks for posting all the stats, Please wait on mine as I will get the proper dates and such in the next day or two properly laid out. Off topic I hope you liked the backstage video sent via facebook Wink. That was just way to cool.

    Uugg, I am trying to do a major cleanup around here and it just seems like so much work. Seriously what used to take a few hours, now is dragging into days..... does this get better...or is this the new norm. I pushed myself to the extreme yesterday with organizing, carpet cleaning and such and then actually crashed until 2 pm today. Dh was checking on me to see if i was still breathing (seriously) He was scared.

    How do you go from a hyper go getter to a slug? Im scared that I wont find the energy again.. I normally would have at least a few large projects on the go at home and then work... well that was/is a 24/7 kind of thing that I was 100% involved in. Where do I go from here? Just because my body is rebelling it doesnt mean my mind is slowing down (sorry, Im venting again) I cant say too much here at home, the guys dont quite understand. I'm so glad I can say whatever I really feel to you gals, I know you all understand. I seriously could never have done this without you all !

    So what do you guys think.... should we plan some sort of a get together... or is this still to early? I know I have a million appointments coming up in August then surgery in September with a month (so they say) recovery.

    Im not sure who might be interested but i can get a pretty scookum deal on some cruises due to dh used to work for the airline.... its a thought.  I would so love to meet you gals. I dont know how I would have gotten through all this crap without your support. I am up to meet almost anywhere when anyone is ready for a real group hug.Its something to think about.

     Love and hugs, suz

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  • bibliowarrior
    bibliowarrior Member Posts: 200
    edited August 2008

    Amy-- I think having the "specks" removed is a good idea... that's what I'd do. I had a non-cancerous growth removed a few years ago... I was, like, "I don't care if it isn't cancer. Get it out. I don't want to worry about it becoming cancer; even if that's unrealistic, that's what I'll be thinking."

    Suz-- I'd be up for getting together, but I think I'd need to wait until next year. Between my Vegas trip, a trip with my sister coming up in Oct, and possible trip to go visit in-laws this fall, I'm feeling a little financially squished right now. But I'm still interested!!!

    Time for lunch. Later ladies.

    -Sal

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  • beasgirl
    beasgirl Member Posts: 241
    edited August 2008

    Suz, I hear you about pooping out on projects. I was the same as you, I loved to do things in giant "frenzies", and now I'll get halfway through something and HAVE to stop. It's wierd. I'm trying to be Zen about it, but I'm not so good at Zen.

    Thanks for the encouragement, Sal. I've been feeling a little foolish for taking on the surgery, but it's just a little deal...I think...have any of you done a surgical biopsy? I suppose I should look it up! I bet my ps will be mad at me for messing up his work...!

    A beautiful day today, and both kids off at camp...ahhh...I get to pay the bills in peace...:)

    A 

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  • wishiwere
    wishiwere Member Posts: 3,793
    edited August 2008

    Suz, thanks for the offer, but geepers, a cruise?  Ha!  I can't dh to go away for one night with him on the road 24/6 :( 

    Joy, when is your next treatment and are you doing better now after that last horrible round, I hope?

    Amy, when is your bx scheduled for?  Is it set yet?  I've not had the surgical one, just the US and then a MRI guided.  Although I was surprised to read there was some calcification in my mast tissue.  Funny you don't pick up on that stuff till you read about someone else's experience and check yours, you know?  Been thinking about you, as I now when I had a scare back in april with what I thought was a lump, I was sure it the beast raising his ugly head already!  Thank heavens it wasn't, so I'm holding on the hope you'll get the same results! :D

    Dear, you need to explain your 'zen' stand on it? Does that mean, you are wishing it fine, or what?

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  • joyh
    joyh Member Posts: 91
    edited August 2008

    Wishiwere,

    I am feeling better, but to be honest not that well yet.  I honestly think my body is trying to rebell.  My stomach is still very upset, and my fingernails are beginning to fall off from taxotere (first chemo).

    My chemo should be this Tues. (tomorrow.  But everything is on hold because of trail.  We are actually meeting with out atty. tomorrow at 9 AM and he says the meeting could go on till 7 or 8 pm.  This trial can't be postponed, we have waited since Jan. 06 for this date.

    Thanks to you and all for your concern.  I am so tired right now and this trial is taking all of my extra  energy.  All I can say is to be screwed over by your best friend for thirty years OVER MONEY certainly gives you an extra energy boost.. Wish us luck

    ,  If we lose, there is no justice.  This was the biggest hurt of our lives, and all we can hope is that the court will give us some satisfaction.

    Too tired for shout outs, but Laura, so happy for you.

    Love to all

    Joy 

     

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  • wishiwere
    wishiwere Member Posts: 3,793
    edited August 2008

    Oh {{{{JOY}}}}!  I know you can't postpone the entire trial, but your testimony if you needed another day to recoup could, couldn't it?  I'm so sorry you are dealing with this crap when you should ONLY be focusing on your healing, is just too much!  Dang it, this isn't right! You've been dealt a whammy woman and I pray that you get yours in the way of complete recovery to watch them get theirs in justice!  Please, if there is a Lord, let him show these other people their wrong ways and settle this first thing in the morning!  Hon....know you are in our hearts and prayers.  Keep us updated as you can and untill then, we'll continue to say our prayers and keep you close in thoughts.

    Hang in there sweetie!  Nails grow back and yours will too!  Again, so sorry you are dealing with this all at once! :(

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  • JeannieBell
    JeannieBell Member Posts: 38
    edited August 2008

    Hello Ladies!

    I haven't posted in a while..just been too darn busy working and too tired at night.. but I wanted to check in on everyone and say Hello.. I've just read a couple of the last two or so pages of posts but it's gonna take a while to catch up... How is everyone doing after their treatments and check ups etc....?  I certainly hope good news all around....

    I have finished all treatment except the herceptin every 3 weeks until December 2008.... and hope to goodness for reconstruction in December too... check up appt. tomorrow...I plan on asking many questions when I go in... I'm also suppose to start Tamoxifen after tomorrow (?) I think....

    My hair is coming in amazing... eyebrows, eyelashes, nose hair, legs and underarms....Whoo Hoo!!   I feel Great and am beginning to Love myself again... (except the xtra pounds I can't seem to shed)...Thinking about going to a nutritionist.. what do you think?   I know that question is on my list for the doctor tomorrow... Any Who.... hope everyone is feeling well... I will read as many posts as I can to catch up on everyone..

    Love and Blessings,

    Jeannie Laughing

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  • wishiwere
    wishiwere Member Posts: 3,793
    edited August 2008

    Jeannie!  So glad you are doing well! And staying busy can help, can't it!  Sorry you can't get online as much, but you know...it's heathly you are getting back to your life!  Unlike some us :(  Just kidding, I'm doing great, just keep checking on the others we all worry about!  Good luck at your appt tomorrow, hope you get all your questions answered!

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  • suz45
    suz45 Member Posts: 796
    edited August 2008

    OK..... I just wrote a huge long message to everyone but the fri&&!# board crashed....... so big breath, huge sigh... its alright.

    I got through my first two Oncologist follow ups (rad & chemo) rad was tues and chemo thurs. I was so unprepared for the emotional turmoil I would go through even entering the cancer agency. It took everything I had to not break down when I walked in.

    Rad doc says I am where I should be, pain and fatigue all seem to be normal. I couldnt help myself and I broke down and cried.

    I spent a lot more time with the chemo Onc and had way more questions... Honestly I wanted to know if/when/why I could/would become NED. I had at least 20+ questions before that, but that really was the really big one....

    So...as I am triple neg she said we would work from my surgery date (Oct 19.07)and then after 5 years from that date they would consider me NED. That was a bit of a shock as I thought I would be there way sooner!! But.... she also said that being TN they would also consider me cured after five years. That was quite unexpected and really cool except I dont think they factored in I am BRCA1 possitive. So whatever.... who knows.

    Anyway my follow up appointments will be a MRI as soon as they can scedule it then a mammogram 6 months later, followed my MRI (6 months) and so on for 5 years. Will also see chemo onc every 6 months for the next five years. I talked with her re: maybe more drastic breast surgery but she felt comfortable that we could monitor it real close for now. I have set a surgery date in sept to have my tubes and ovaries removed. It seems they are a time bomb and I just dont want to go there. I am so emotionaly drained right now but whatever... it is what it is!

    Joy, I'm sendind as much possitive uplifting energy your way as I possibly can! Words wont help but Im giving you all I got. Sweetie I truly wish you didnt have to deal with any of this even in the best of circumstances, never mind at your worst. Sending so much love and hugs out your way!

    Laura, So glad dh will finally be home for you. I hope his homecoming is absolutely everything you could want it to be!

    Amy, I agree with Sal, if it doesnt belong get rid of them. Hope you got to enjoy a bit of time out when the kids were at camp!

    Sal, I know Im jumping the gun as Im also feeling the time & $$ squish. I hope you enjoy Vegas and the family visits. I just dont want us to fall off the board and forget about us.

    Jeannie, Lucky you with all the hair! I'm loosing all my nostril hair (dripping nose again) and my eyebrows are getting really sparse.... sigh. Its only temporary but I cant help but complain just a little bit.

    Wishiwere, Thanks for being there! Its so nice to know that someone is listening and cares even when the board is quiet!

    To everyone else that hasnt been here in a while, hope its because your enjoying your summer or you just need some time out. Know that your in my thoughts and prayers. Big Hugs to All, Suz

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  • wishiwere
    wishiwere Member Posts: 3,793
    edited August 2008

    {{{Suz}}} that emotional let-down from that the post-tx appointment is normal I think.  You've got to believe with all you went through in treatment, that you are NED!  NED after all is No evidence of disease, and you are that right now, correct?  I'm reading more and more that with careful and watchful eyes, even IF there is a recurrence, that they find them early and can tx them as they would the first time and get good results!  I'm going to pray you REMAIN NED for the next 5 years so you can have that peace of mind, but that also you are one of those that will live NED for many, many more years as NED and prove those stats are incorrect!  You will do it dear, I believe that!  You've done all the treatments they suggested, right?  And now you must believe it was more than enough to keep you from dealing with this crap again!  Period, no more redos for you, K?  We'll keep that prayer going dear lady!  Your follow plan sounds very thorough, so try to remember that, K?  Nothing will be missed, as there will be NOTHING TO FIND!

    Do something to celebrate being done with Treatment, k!  You deserve it!

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  • bibliowarrior
    bibliowarrior Member Posts: 200
    edited August 2008

    Joy-- thinking of you. Wondering where you stand on your chemo date... didn't sound like you were be feeling well enough for Tuesday but I'm hoping that somehow they were able to go ahead just so you could be done with it. Big, soft hugs. What a mess you've been forced to slog through.

    Today was my last surgery... got my permanent breast implants put in. Piece of cake. I had my husband stop at Dairy Queen on the way home... I got a chocolate-covered waffle cone, with chocolate ice cream and jimmies... ate the whole thing without hesitating. It was great!! So I consider my cancer treatments/surgeries officially done. Yippee! Gonna go eat some supper now.
     Take care everyone.

    -Sal 

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  • suz45
    suz45 Member Posts: 796
    edited August 2008

    Sal, A huge congratulations! So you must feel so incredibly good (I think, surgery does hurt normally,doesn't it?) I'm guessing you must be so beyond that. A huge hug sent sent your way. You made it!

    Joy, I hope your OK.. I know you were not feeling well, but your in my thoughts and prayers as you deal with this legal battle.

    Lots of love and hugs sent to everyone, Suz

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  • wishiwere
    wishiwere Member Posts: 3,793
    edited August 2008

    Joy?  How are things going with the trial and did you get your tx on tuesday? HOW are YOU doing lady?  Been thinking about you all week and wondering how it's going for you.  Hope the SE's are less this time, but I'm probably far from right, so I'm adding more prayers that you get through it quicker and with less severe SE's at least! 

    SAL, CONGRATS! Must feel great to have the worse of it over. So, do you do fripples with these or not?  That's another surgery, is it not?  All week I've had a weird set of pains and what looks like slight bruising on my chest.  I realized that I had carried stuff in from that patio and most like bruised it (It's still numb in the area) when I held the spotters scope (weighs about 10 lbs) up against my chest and under my arm with a load of books and the camera and such while opening the patio door.  When I went to lay them down, I realized I'd been squishing this sharp edge of the thing against my chest and thought perhaps I couldn't feel the damage if I'd done some.  Apparently, I did do some, as it's now sore to touch and bruised and ...well, not really bright feeling as I should have been more careful!  Funny what you have to careful of now when you are numb all over :(  I was hoping some would come back, but after this long, I rather doubt it :(

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  • bibliowarrior
    bibliowarrior Member Posts: 200
    edited August 2008

    Thanks for the well wishes regarding my surgery. I feel braver than I used to... before the chemo and everything... I used to get so nervous about any procedure, scared when they had to draw blood etc. I can honestly say I felt like a real trooper when it came to this surgery because I didn't sweat it at all, even when they had trouble getting my IV hooked up and had to try a few times. I feel as if I've sure come a long way. But in all reality, it really was a simple thing. I haven't even needed the pain meds they gave me... I just use them at night, just in case.

    New Avatar pic... me and my sister. My mother's family (er, well, step-mom's family) had a get-together today and I got lots of pics. This one is one of my favorites. I know it's really tiny, but I wanted to change my Avatar pic. I'm wearing the black and white top. 

    Hugs to everyone,

    Love Sal 

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  • wishiwere
    wishiwere Member Posts: 3,793
    edited August 2008

    One of these days I'll have to get a pic of me (current) to use as an avatar. Never have had one on any forums before, but feel I should here, b/c I see everyone and how great they look and hope I don't bad as I feel. You all I HOPE would be honest, whereas I think my family is just saying what they think I want to here!

    So I'll be honest....even tiny, YOU Look great!  didn't we have a thead to see one another more clearly somewhere? So glad your surgery went well and you are done with the major part!  You have another though, don't you to finish up, or is that just with flappers? :D  I'm lost on these things!

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  • suz45
    suz45 Member Posts: 796
    edited August 2008

    Wishiwere, I think its time for you as well to get some cool pics up!

    I just had dh take a few pics this evening as I actually """curled my hair""" I almost want to bow, yes I have a mini curling iron maybe 1/4 of an inch.... and it really made a difference when I tackled this unruly crop that Im growing. I am way more concerned about how bad my skin looks..... boy is that ever a great feeling.

    Sal You look wonderful with your sis, Its so amazing how we just carry on and move forward. More power to all of us!

    So lets see some more real pics of all you wonderful ladies. No reason to hide, our inner beauty is just waiting to burst through. Personally I would rather see pics of me before all this but this is the new me and Im proud that I made it through this last year. So new avatar is from today.

    Love and hugs to you all, Suz

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  • beasgirl
    beasgirl Member Posts: 241
    edited August 2008

    Suz, Sal--you guys look great. Really, really--so lovely and so healthy! Suz, congratulations on curling your hair!!! And I totally get your fall-apart at the check-- I really find myself so much more vulnerable now, like I was keeping it all together or something. Of course, I'm not on my antidepressants anymore, and I'm all menstrual again and stuff, so that probably contributes a little to my verklemptocity. In fact, Sal, I got a little teary when you were talking about your big ice-cream cone! I'm glad the implants went in slick, and you're feeling comfy.

    I just feel so proud of all of us. *sniff*

    I actually had a hair-cut today--when I walked in she said, "you don't look like you need a haircut"--hee hee--but she "cleaned it up" for me a little. It was kinda nice. I took a couple of pics and will try to post them later when hubby gets home with the non-ancient computer...

    Joy, gosh. Check in when you can and let us know how it went. Too much for anybody to deal with. I'm thinking of you.

    Jeannie! you look and sound great! Thanks for checking in! 

    I also had my pre-test appointment today for the biopsy. Blah. They'll do it on the 20th. Blah. It will take a week to get the results. Did I mention, blah?

    Sal, I think I will be in Maine sometime in the last couple of weeks of August--when I know more specifically, I'll get in touch--I'll buy you another ice-cream!

    Anybody else having joint pain still? My hands and knees are really hurty! Ack! I don't want to be stuck with this! 

    A 

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  • wishiwere
    wishiwere Member Posts: 3,793
    edited August 2008

    As a matter of fact yes!  Joint pain and stiffness was in my hips for the most part, but has moved into my knees and feet/ankles, now :(  I hate it too!  Then today I was rolling up 150' of 3/4 inch hose and the d*mn thing broke where it was put together (there is actually 2 (100 foot) hoses connected, but I don't normally use or unroll more than 150' foot.  So, it breaks while I'm bent over rolling this arm thingy so I can mow and when it broke, I jerked my neck somehow!  Owy!  It's hurting for certaina and the tylenol hasn't touched it!  I hate pills, but this is nasty!

    Glad you like your hair too, now your pic needs updated also, doesn't it?  Still haven't gotten up the nerve :(  I will though...  Sorry you are still waiting on that bx :(  Hate that too! No one should have to wait! Period! {{hugs}} Amy!

    Joy?  Are you reading, is everything okay dear friend?

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  • suz45
    suz45 Member Posts: 796
    edited August 2008

    Hello Lovely Ladies!

    Well I just got a call from the cancer agency and they are trying to get me in for my MRI tomorrow {sigh} thats great... but I am so scared that they will find something as Ive never had an MRI. I feel so irrational about all this... I know I should be ecstatic that I can get these tests, but am still so afraid of the results.... go figure.

    Anyway on a lighter note I made sushi for the first time ever last night and it turned out great! I love to cook and used to constantly experiment with ethnic food and new recipes, but havent in over a year. So in a silly way its a bit of a milestone for me, getting back to being me. Mind you its cloudy and cool today so Im sitting here with an old standby, french onion soup. (its so good)Embarassed

    I hope everyone is having a great day, big hugs all around. Much love, Suz

    ps. Joy try to touch base if you can, we are all very worried about you. Doesnt need to be a huge message... just a quick note so we know your ok... lots of love and a hug.

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  • wishiwere
    wishiwere Member Posts: 3,793
    edited August 2008

    {{{Suz}} Dang it, I must have missed something! Why the MRI?  Is this routine, or a reason for it?  I sure hope it's for routine testing? :(  Keeping you in good thoughts and a prayer regardless!

    After all that hurt yesterday, I had taken 2 extra strenght tylenol then 2 motrin and hour later and before bed, a beer!  It always relaxes me and I normally sleep better!  I did, and woke with little or no neck/shoulder pain but taking easy today lifting anyway.  And even my hips/knees and feet were better!  Yeah!

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  • JeannieBell
    JeannieBell Member Posts: 38
    edited August 2008

    Hey Ladies!

    Sal -  Congrats on the new "Boobs"   How do they feel?   I just found out last week when I went for my follow up that I can't have reconstuction until a year from Radiation....YUCKKK!! which means it'll be sometime in July or Aug. '09.... boo hoo Cry..  I was soooo hoping to be able to have new "Boobs" before the end of the year... If I could have, I wouldn't have to pay Anything at all because I have met all of my deductibles and Max out of pocket on my insurance and it would have paid 100%... but now since it will be next year, I'll have new deductibles and a new out of pocket Max to meet.....It sucks....

    Suz - Tell me what kind of Sushi you made.... my husband and I love Sushi (well some of it)  the cooked or smoked stuff  -- we love!  I'll keep you in my prayers until after the MRI... good luck!   By the way you look GREAT! 

    It is so exciting to see everyone looking and sounding so good...

    W I W --- your next!   get your pic up there girl... we want to see!!

    Sorry mine is so small.... I guess I need to redo it.. my husband helped me and we had to shrink the picture because the file was too big.... I think we shrunk it too much..!?!... That is my 4-legged, furry son  (he he he) sitting in my lap... "Boo Boo"  he is a pomeranian with a summer hair cut... he is absolutley  SPOILED ROTTEN. and he knows it..... LOL ....Laughing

    By the way -- my joints hurt ALL the time.. I feel like I'm a hundred years old when I get up from sitting or laying down.. it's really embarassing....I've started walking on the treadmill again, hoping that will help!   maybe shed some pounds in the process..

    I've also started my Tamoxifen 3 days ago.. so far so good.  Anyone else on Tamoxifen?

    Amy -- good to hear from you too... How have you been?

     Anyone watching the Olympics?   I love them....

    well take care everyone... those I didn't mention .. I hope all is well... nighty night..

    Love, Hugs and Blessings to all!!!!

    Jeannie

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  • wishiwere
    wishiwere Member Posts: 3,793
    edited August 2008

    These pics are way to small to see you ladies well, darn it! I can't even make out that you have a fluffy lap! :D  Sorry about the delay in the recon!  Figures you make the deduc this year and can't do it now!  I'm kind of thinking IF I were to do, now would be the time with so much met already! :(

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  • suz45
    suz45 Member Posts: 796
    edited August 2008

    Not to worry (yea right) MRI's will be the standard for me followed by a mammo 6 months after it. Then another MRI and so on. This will continue for five years. I believe this is normal protocol when genetic testing shows up BRCA1 possitive genes. Ah well what can you do. Boy the mri machine is sure a lot noisier than I thought it would be. And I got a nose itch just as she told mr to breath shallow and stay still for 6 minsUndecided. Not sure if they noticed my nose was twitching as frantically as a bunny. But overall it was good.Should have the results in a few weeks.

    Jeannie as Ive never made sushi before, Im not sure what kind?? I would presume them to be California rolls. I used seaweed paper, Japanese sushi rice seasoned with sugar& rice vinegar. Then stuffed them with Pollock (fake crab) or smoked salmon (lox) along with cucumbers, avocados, mango's and a touch of mayo and experimented later on as my confidence built... ahhssooo  suz is suchi chef.. lmao. It was all great fun and thats why I like to experiment when I cook.

    So tomorows doc appoint is just a huge insurance scam that I have been battleling since my MVA Dec 3 2004.... I say my, but I was only an innocent passenger, who was so lucky to have not been killed. This appointment is even harder as for some reason, the insurance company is trying to place some sort of blame on me even though "I was just a passenger" Needless to say it was really bad and messy and I dont think (or they care) that I have been though a cancer battle this last Year. I have spent almost 4 years caterering to there whims, trying to find obscure paperwork for no reason. I hope this appointment will just lay this stupid crap to rest. I have no use for it. Enough venting, I am finding this difficult. Dh and I are both so honest that its hard to be put through this wringer. I dont expect any results as they are trying to wait till we die so they wont have to pay out on any insurance claim. Hence the reason they would love to hear Im having a cancer battle. I dont know where Im going with this. But I feel better that I could vent here. So sorry do dump all this negative crap here when you gals lift my spirit up so much when Im down.

    Just had Dh read a few lines of this and it was not good. Geeze who am I supposed to talk to? Anyway the doc drive tommorrow will be at least 3-4 hours when its all said and done. Guess I just have to roll over and take all the crap...... Sorry, Love sent from suz in a really bad mood

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  • suz45
    suz45 Member Posts: 796
    edited August 2008

    Sorry girls for the neggative, Wow I had a bad day, Love you all, Suz

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  • wishiwere
    wishiwere Member Posts: 3,793
    edited August 2008

    {{{{{{{{{SUZ}}}}}}}}}}} I'm so sorry about all this!  And for dh, bahumbug ol' bug!  Geepers, yes you need to vent and vent away.  This thread is just as good as any other with friends to complain to!

    I haven't been on tonight, b/c dh showed up home tonight!  YEAH!  But...anyway..

    Good luck with appt tomorrow, and I hope it goes as you'd like it to.  Is dh going with, or alone? :(  Hope you have someone to go with you.  Hate driving those long distances alone :(

    Rest well tonight and be your honest and sweet self tomorrow and kick butt without them even knowing it's coming! :D

    {{hugs}} suz

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  • bibliowarrior
    bibliowarrior Member Posts: 200
    edited August 2008

    Suz-- love the new Avatar. It's kinda funny to see we all seem to have the same hair stylist Tongue out
    And I think it's ok that you're venting here... we all need to from time to time. But my hubby is the same way... he doesn't like me to share personal stuff and/or "dump" on other people. I guess I just look at it from a different angle... I'mworking out the problem in my own way and trying to get past it.

    Amy-- I hope you won't be up while I'm on my vacation (I'll be in Vegas). But if so, we'll just have to find another place/time to meet... such as, I'm going to be in Salem, Mass in October... my sister and I are going on some AAA trip. You and I will meet!

    JeannieBell-- I'm on Tamoxifen. So far, so good. Only "problem" I've noticed is the major increase in hot flashes & chills. Annoying, but compared to chemo, I'm not gonna complain (much). Love the pooch picture!

    Wishiwere-- I'd love to see a pic of you. I just wish the pics weren't so darned tiny. 

    Well, I made the local paper today. Not trying to brag... I'm only telling you ladies because the reporter asked me about support groups and I mentioned I had an online one... YOU LADIES Laughing
    I was a little disappointed with the title of the piece... it was "Not like Mom"... I understand that the reporter was trying to make the point that I wasn't dead, like my Mom, but I don't know... it kinda read like "I don't want to be like my Mom" but I'm very proud of who my Mom was, and I respect what she went through, know what I mean? But I guess I'm just reading way too much into those 3 words. And they got a few other things worded wrong, but oh well. Anyway, if you want to see the article and a picture of me and my Mom... http://www.independentpub.com/windham/

    Have to run. Thinking of Joy and sending her warm thoughts and wishes. Hugs for everyone else.

    Love, Sal 

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  • beasgirl
    beasgirl Member Posts: 241
    edited August 2008

    Sally! You live in Windham! Why did I think Falmouth? I wonder if you know my crazy uncle/aunt/cousins! Do you know any Hoffs? Wouldn't that be weird!?

    I agree that the writer's choice of words was a little unfortunate. The article was sweet. But really, yeah, it's hard to read that in a way that doesn't come out a little weird. Of course people mean well, but a writer should take a little more care.  

    Gotta go pick up my little guy--his last day of preschool! *sniff*--he's growing up so fast!

    love, and more later--

    A 

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  • wishiwere
    wishiwere Member Posts: 3,793
    edited August 2008

    Oh my!  Another celeb in our midst!  Sally, I think the article was very nice.  It put to bed, the 'everyone dies when dx with breast cancer' that so many older people believe.  It encourages breast cancer early detection and tx and although there could have been more on where, and how to get tx for those who aren't insured...I think it was a great article!  Your picture was absolutely fantastic!  You look so darn healthy and happy, makes my heart sing!  Kudos on being a beautiful woman who compliments her mothers even though she never had the chance to know her well. :(  So sorry for that.  Never right for that to happen.

    Amy?  Oh my!  I thank heavens that I don't have wee ones to content with when I went through this treatment!  You women are superwomen!  My hat off to you all! Wow!  And yes, I remember well that final 'sniff'.  It happens yet when the dlil one goes away after a visit and she lives in town!  AND, she's nearly 25~  Oh my I must be getting old! *sniffle*

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  • bibliowarrior
    bibliowarrior Member Posts: 200
    edited August 2008

    Amy... I do live in Falmouth, good memory! That was one of the things that they got wrong in the article. I work in Windham, so I think they just assumed I live there too. Hoff, Hoff... I knew some Hoffmans, but I can't think of any Hoffs. Darn. That would have been weird, though, eh?

    The rain inally stopped here and we are having a sunny day. Yea!

    Hugs to all,

    Sal 

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