Lost my will to live

ceanna

((((Hugs)))) to everyone, new and old here. I have watched this thread become less of support and more of personal criticism. I hope everyone can remember that everyone is different and everyone is in a different place and stage, and needs different support or just a listening ear. PerAugusta has asked for specific support and welcomes it on 1471. JJo may, at this point, have the need to be heard and listened to, not offered specifics. We are all here because we have one thing in common--breast cancer. How that physically and emotionally affects us varies, and a lot depends on numerous other factors in our lives. I hope we can all support everyone here in positive ways--meeting them at their point of need.

See you over on 1471. ((((((((((((((((Hugs)))))))))))))))))))) Ceanna

Whirlaway

Farmerlucy, I read some of Jade's post and I think she said she isn't allowed to have animals in her building. Or maybe it was just dogs?  Only Jade can know if she is physically and emotionally up to, at the moment, to give help/compassion to animals who may have issues themselves. Otherwise it wouldn't be fair to them.

The knitting projects for a good cause are wonderful! I got a lovely knitted hat from the cancer group when I lost my hair. I was so grateful and the colours cheered me up. 

Jade, loved your scarf!  Just wanted to throw it out there, that there are also knitting projects for animals who need sweaters, blankets etc. One was even for koala bears who had lost fur. Tiny, little sweaters:)

To everyone suffering from depression, my heart goes out to you! 

Moderators

Dear Members,

Many of you have been quite brave and have shared very personal experiences, as well as what has helped you get through the darkest of times. There is much compassion and support on these pages.

However, this thread has regrettably become contentious in the last days.This is very upsetting, as we see all members have the most positive of intentions, and that is to help those who are currently in pain by sharing that they've been there, and found things, beliefs, methods, etc to help them when times are especially difficult.

Some members are asking simply to be heard and others may be asking for suggestions. It is helpful to be clear about what you need and be mindful of what people are looking for here. We also ask that our members try to refrain from critical judgment on these boards. If a topic or a member's posts cause distress, then we ask that you block the topic or member. If a suggestion isn't in line with what you think may help, then please ignore. Everyone's suggestions are all coming from a place of caring.

The topic of depression is a difficult one and not for everyone.

We ask you to join us to restore the original intent of the thread.

Thank you,

The Mods

SandiBeach57

Jadejo, please post more of your knitting projects. I think I will start knitting again..thank you for the reminder that I can still knit! Keeping you close to my heart during these hard days for you.

Infobabe

Along the line of some prescription drugs causing suicidal thoughts, without going into detail, I was on ACE inhibitor blood pressure drugs. I was on them twice not knowing that was this drug that was causing me to feel terrible.

It is hard to call it depression and I cannot describe the feeling but I just felt terrible and told my doctor that if I were on this forever, I would commit suicide. Many are on ACE inhibitors and don't have this side effect but I sure did. On the list for side effects is depression, but that is not accurate on what it does to your brain. Has anyone else had this experience?

leftduetostupidmods

Nobody can help you, nobody. YOU are the only one who can help you. This being aid, I watched this thread for a while. It's one thing to come and say "I'm here to vent only" and another thing to come and spurn any heartfelt attempt to help, doing all efforts to drag everyone down, and try to manipulate people into dividing in the "us" and "them, who can't understand us".

This behavior has a name, but I won't name it. I'll just refer you to the words of Septa Unella (Game of Thrones).

Enough said.

dtad

Hi everyone...allI can say is WOW!

SandiBeach57

Jadejo, if you are still on the boards, just wanted you to know that I am still holding your hand in cyberspace.

Spoonie77

Thanks for the healthy reminder Mods. It's appreciated.

JJO - am joining SandiBeach in sending more cyberspace hugs and comfort.

JenCanDoThis

PerAngusta, I do not have BC - I recently received good news - but I have suffered with depression and have lost two loved ones to suicide in the last 3 years. It leaves a horrible legacy. Not only do your loved ones struggle with the loss and what ifs but there is proof that suicide is more common in families where other loved ones have committed suicide. One family member committed suicide Sept 1st. Come to find out he discontinued a med he was on too rapidly and that perhaps caused his suicide. Be careful about any and all medicines. Definitely get help. There is also proof that positive affirmations and hypnosis can help with depression. I discovered that after the suicide of my ex-boyfriend a few years ago. Both affirmations and hypnosis work on your subconscious and are very powerful. It's hard to even think about positive affirmations in your situation but simply putting a sticky note on your mirror and saying something positive actually changes your brain chemistry after a few weeks.

JenCanDoThis

Jadedjo, I am still here too, rooting for you. Anyone chastising you for your posts or replies shouldn't be on YOUR thread (which you started with a warning it would be depressing and dark). That's like complaining to someone about their Facebook posts. Don't read them. Super frustrating. That said, I think it's human nature and woman nature to want to try to help. I also think we all just need to vent and sometimes just listening is the best medicine. I've also had a lot of struggles in life and feel like I got the short end of the stick in some ways so I do understand to some degree. It sounds like you have made some valuable connections on here (private messages) so I see that as the lemonade made out of lemons. As I just posted to PerAngusta, I learned a few years ago about the power of positive affirmations and hypnosis. The mind is such a powerful thing. That is my only advice...I checked out a hypnosis CD from the library and few years ago and was absolutely astounded by the results. Took a few weeks of listening every night with headphones.

Artista964

Jade doesn't want advice. That's why I deleted all my posts. Sharing is caring, but not always.

It's hard to just give hugs for me ever since I almost died at my own hands, twice, so not to possibly rattle anyone, I'm no longer posting in such threads, for my own mental health's sake.

Moderators

Rosabella, sharing your experience was incredibly helpful and tremendously appreciated. Each person hears only what they are ready and capable of hearing at that particular moment. It doesn't mean that they don't take something from it- as well as all the others who are reading and find themselves in darker places. Your sharing, and the sharing from others, is deeply felt, and goes much further than you may think.

However, we completely understand if these conversations act as a trigger for you, and if you feel the need to take a step back to gather yourself, then please do so. The priority here is everyone's health and safety. Just know we are all here for you, Jadedjo and all the members here who are struggling.

--The Mods

Pi-Xi

Wishing you a much better 2019, Jadedjo!