Starting Chemo March 2015

Jackbirdie

thinking of you Indygal. Sounds like the "footlong" right now. Maybe things will start to improve soon. Rest. Sending you my best vibes.

Italychick

Avmom, you are in my thoughts and I am sending healing waves your way. I am so sorry you are down. If I were there, I would drag you out and we would go do something outrageously funny. Hang in there, sweetie!

Wpmoon, I went and had breakfast with my daughter and grandbabies and probably over did it, birthday breakfast and all. We shared a strawberry shortcake pancake which created a few throw up burps. Ew I know too much information. But that wasn't pleasant - think I'm over it now. But no actual throw up thank goodness.

Katy, sorry you aren't feeling well. I hope things turn around and you feel better.

Man, this process changes everyday, crazy. Big hugs to everybody today!

BBwithBC45

Hugs to Katy, IndyGal, Avmom, Wpmoon - sounds like you ladies are having a tough day.

Theresa - Happy Birthday!

rleepac

Really tired today after spa day yesterday. But what's worse is that my sisters FIL (who we are all really close to) went in the Hosptial last weekend with ITP (super low platelets). Long at tort short...he fell last night and hit his head resulting in massive brain bleed. They are taking him off life support and in beyond sad.

Life is so precious....

Beachbum1023

rleepac, I am so sorry to hear about your sister's FIL. I hope that everyone will be able to spend the evening together to find comfort and support. Cheryl

Jackbirdie

oh, Bekah! Thinking of you. Of all times....life is indeed so very precious. Hang in there. Hugs

Trvler

Oh, Bekah. I am sorry.

PrincessOfMeh

Bekah, I am so, soooo incredibly sorry!

DavisD

Long day falling asleep several times on my way to work and home, had to pull over every 10 min. Oh well, I made it and the "F" charm came so I wanted to take a pic to share. I wore the bracelet today and I think its magic kept me safe on the road

 

DavisD

Bekah-I am so sorry to her about your FIL, that is beyond sad. I don't really pray much but I will for your family tonight.

Italychick

Bekah so sorry. My thoughts are with you.

SoccerMom20

Thank you!! I will take a look tomorrow.

mysunshine48

So sorry, Bekka, I lost my mom January 30 of this year after sitting by her bed, day and night, for eight days. I was in the middle of tests for this. Not a great few months, but, if you are a praying woman, God is there to listen and get us all through this.

Lynn

Carrie37

I'm so sorry for your loss Bekah. My prayers are with your family.

Jackbirdie

aww Lynn. You never said anything. It must have been a very low time. And now I realize you are just a week out of a bmx and still have sunshine for others. I can't imagine your pain. Physical and emotional. I'm so glad you have your faith to keep you.

Thinking of you tonight. Hugs and warm thoughts bleep the ice packs on and stay ahead of the pain

Katy

eheinrich

(((((((hugs)))))))) Bekah

Jackbirdie

Jem27

Bekah and Lynn, I am so sorry to hear about the losses to you and your families. I get it, just when you think life has served you up the devasting news that you have breast cancer and throws all this uncertainty at you, and you wonder how much worse life can get, you then have to deal with a bereavement in your immediate families. I am having a real hard time dealing with the same thing.

I was so looking forward to returning to nursing on Jan. 6th after being a stay at home mom for the last 12 years, but on Jan 5th I got my bc diagnosis.I thought wow life just sucks but on Feb 11th my 35yr old baby brother who just got married last August collapsed from a ruptured aneurysm and despite making it to the hospital on time, being resuscitated, and surviving an 8 hr surgery he died on Feb. 15th from a massive stroke. The following week my FIL was diagnosed with metastatic lung cancer. The doctors said that he had maybe 6 months, but he died exactly a month after my brother on March 15th.

I have a new sister in law who is a widow after 6 months of marriage, a father who is beyond grief and feels he has lost everything, 2 sisters and 3 brothers all coming to terms with the loss of the youngest member of our family, a MIL who has lost her partner, husband and best friend of 56 years, my DH and kids coping with losing their wonderful dad/grandad. Life does suck at times. I get some consolation in that my brother was an organ donor and four people have a better quality of life and have a life because of him. Sometimes it helps me too when I feel real negative and down with the SE of this chemo that I know it could always be worse. I am alive. Sorry for offloading, I have been trying to stay positive through this whole journey but ever now and then it just hits me. You are in my thoughts and prayers ,

hugs xo

Beachbum1023

Jem27, I have no words to take away the pain, you have been through so much. It seems so damn unfair. I hope that your family can support each other and find a way to cope with the despair everyone is feeling. I am sending you a bottomless basket of hugs, please use as needed. I am so very sorry. Cheryl

Jackbirdie

Jem: I am beyond coherent words. Tonight has been a very sad night. I wish for your family to find solace in each other and that you be delivered a grace that will help you move on somehow. A seemingly impossible task.

I have had nowhere the devastation you've had, made so much worse by first your own personal dreams being (temporarily) crushed, then watching people you love so much being ground down in quick succession. Those who died, and seemingly worse yet, the ones who were left behind, often out of order.

I lost both my parents in the last ten years or so, but worst of all was watching my father lose his eldest son to metastatic cancer that took him ten weeks from dx to death. We both were together with him nearly every day. My father, who was deteriorating with Alz everyday, kept looking up at me with haunted eyes and asked me over and over why God would take Peter instead of him. Peter turned 50 at the hospice. Dad never got his answer, or if he did, he quickly forgot it, and painfully asked it again. He never recovered the loss and died a year later. I never made sense of any of it. As Bekah says, life is so precious.

All we can do is try to be one of the few people in our Western culture who can try to make peace with death. It has been happening to everyone since the beginning of time and yet we are always so surprised, so unprepared.

I am saying these words as much a catharthis for myself as for all if you who have shared your stories of staggering grief tonight. As I try to come to terms with my own dx and the possibilities of recurrence, metastasis, and my death, it still doesn't make sense. All I can give you is my deepest sympathy, and the hope that you, your families, your faiths and hearts can find your way through the loss and pain.

Much love and gentle, healing hugs,

Katy

greenae

jem, bekah and lynn

I am so sorry for your pain and losses. There are no words I can think of, or add to those I have read above. Just know there are extra thoughts and prayers being sent to you to try and give you comfort and strength. Your loved ones will Live Forever in Your Hearts.

Warm hugs

Arlene

shaz101

Bekah, jem and Lynn, I am in shock with your postings and I am so very sad for all of your losses. I wish I had some lovely words that could help you but as we all know, sometimes all the words in the world can't help. I send you all love, light and peace and my thoughts are with you all xxx

shaz101

Katy, I see how my mum suffers watching me go through this horrid disease and I know how you feel. I also lost my dad to cancer nearly 6 years ago now and I miss him so much. I know he is giving me strength to fight the good fight. 

I'm in hospital, this is night 3 and hopefully I'll be going home tomorrow. I've been pocked, prodded and scanned. My veins are now so bad they require an ultrasound to find. I'm not looking forward to the next chemo. as for the headaches, tthey've been horrific. The good news is they scanned my head again and no cancer present.  I also saw a nuerologist.

The nurses couldn't get the headaches under control and had to call in the Dr during the night. An oncologist saw me today and said that they had reviewed everything and he was putting me on different preventers and relievers and I could go home when I wanted, I told him that I would stay tonight so I could test the new drugs if I got a headache. Which he agreed to.But iI've just oken to the nurse and there aren't ANY drugs written up or PrPrescribed and he's gone home! The nurses are not happy and neither am they've called another Dr to come in and sort it out!

shaz101

Wtf do you all see gibberish? Try again

I'm in hospital, this is night 3 and hopefully I'll be going home tomorrow. I've been poked, prodded and scanned. My veins are now so bad they require an ultrasound to find. I'm not looking forward to the next chemo. as for the headaches, tthey've been horrific. The good news is they scanned my head again and no cancer present.  I also saw a nuerologist.

The nurses couldn't get the headaches under control and had to call in the Dr during the night. An oncologist saw me today and said that they had reviewed everything and he was putting me on different preventers and relievers and I could go home when I wanted, I told him that I would stay tonight so I could test the new drugs if I got a headache. Which he agreed to. But I've just spoken to the nurse and there aren't ANY drugs written up or prescribed. The've called another Dr to come in. FFS! 

shaz101

And I love, love, love the braclet

avmom

((((((Lynn, Jem, Bekah, Sharon)))))). I've got nothing but hugs to send out through the ether. It's the middle of the night here, but my heart goes out to you all. Although the hardest truth is that "the only way forward is through" the challenges that we must face, it is small comfort as we must drag our weakened selves, one aching inch at a time, along this difficult path. No matter, we will make it, somehow.

Trvler

Lynne and Jem: I too have no words to say but want to offer my love and support.

Sharon: I am so sorry you are still having the headaches. It just seems like if they could come up with the right meds. Ugh that doctor!

PrincessOfMeh

Sharon, I thought of you during my last spa day because I was sitting with one of my son's extra curricular activity leaders who had retired 2 years ago, super nice woman who's in treatment too. Getting her last infusion, actually, good for her! Anyway, her treatment always provoked migraines that started AS the treatment began pumping into her so even though this was her last, she definitely wasn't looking forward to it. Made me think of you and all you've endured. She's at the end of her treatment plan, though, and you'll make it through yours too! I'm so sorry you (and others) have to go through evil side effects. Sending warm, positive, fuzzy vibes & energy your way, for sure.

BeatIt2015

Lynn, Jem, Bekah, Sharon,

Such unbelievable tough times you are enduring. Wishing you all the love, comfort and peace that can be summoned. We are here for you.

Huge hugs

C

Carrie37

My prayers and thoughts are with all of you who have lost loved ones. There are no words but please know you are in my prayers. HUGS

Sharon, I'm so sorry you're in the hospital. I thought of you as I had my final round of AC with a horrible headache. It was awful and I'm so sorry you have to suffer those migraines. I pray the doctor has come back and figured out your meds. Hugs to you too!