Lumpectomy Lounge....let's talk!

Ringelle

Peggy - You are in my thoughts every day as I check the board to see the latest. I know it's impossible to completely prepare yourself for the inevitable and I'm sending you hugs and well wishes for comfort and peace as you cope with your loss. I know the past few weeks have been excruciating and I hope that soon you can find rest for your body, mind, heart and soul. I'm glad you were by his side when he departed as you were hoping and know that you did everything you could for him right down to his last minutes. Sending love your way.

Virginia

queenmomcat

Peggy: with you in this as you were there for me (us, but I shouldn't speak for the others!)

plumster1

Peggy- I am so sorry for your loss! Even though you know it's coming, it does not make it easy. I hope you and your boys are at a place of peace. Big hugs and lots of good thoughts!

Ringelle

My friend had her biopsy today. She never really did understand why her doctor insisted that a BS do her biopsy but it doesn't sound like it was much different from any other biopsy other than she said they had to do it 2 x. I'll have to get more details on the why about that one. I know she is really nervous right now and I know we can all relate.

keepwalking - I'm sorry to hear of your experience today! I think that's what makes me so mad about all this BC stuff is how nothing is ever straight forward and certain. Everything can change on a dime . . . at any time . . . until it doesn't . . . and then it still leaves you feeling like you are hanging in limbo! Praying this new development doesn't change anything for you. So did this change your surgery date?

Outrunning/Notdoneliving - I understand what you mean about feeling like a "poser" or this all being surreal. Since mine was stage 0 and with the removal of both breasts is now "gone" everything I had been preparing for came to an abrupt stop! Don't get me wrong - I'm totally happy about that but I don't know where I fit in and mentally I need a home. What I had was cancerous but my doctor wouldn't really call it cancer. Just surgery (althought 3) - no chemo, no radiation, no tamoxifen, etc. I had to deal with it and all of it's emotions and surgery but now it's done for me and six weeks post surgery life is pretty much back to normal except I'm not! Even as I write this, I find that I'm crying and I don't really know why. I see what everyone is going through and I feel grateful - yet I feel bad because I'm still whining about this stupid insignificant seroma! I read somewhere that everyone around you is ready to move on much faster than the patient. I have found that so true. I've been back to work since 2 weeks post op but my heart really isn't in it. Thankfully I've not been working too many hours and just getting done what has to be done. Who said work is over rated? Never felt like this before! (Wow - sorry - not sure where all that came from)

poodles - you sound like you are just going through it! I hope things start looking up for you! I haven't responded much but I'm keeping tabs and thinking of you!

Molly - so sorry you have more unanswered questions. My advice - keep digging and asking until you feel at peace. Something is keeping this going for you and even though it's exhausting, track it down until you are confident. I can't imagine having to go through this with your sister at the same time. I hope you are able to be strong for each other. Thinking of you!

Well, tomorrow I am going to get fitted for prosthesis - I'm excited but anxious at the same time - not sure why!

As an update to a post I made earlier - I think I have finally figured out a way to more easily reply to messages - I'm reading on my phone and answering on my PC! Hopefully now I will respond more often

BT828

Peggy, I'm so glad the transition was peaceful for both of you, but, sorry you have to be going thru this. Thinking of you and continued prayers in the coming days, weeks, and months. Please take care of yourself and let people love on you! Huge hugs!

Reader425

My deepest sympathies Peggy. I'm so glad you were able to be with him. I hope you can take comfort in having had a long loving marriage and family life.

Hugs to you and your family.

6doggies

Peggy, I am so truly sorry!! He was a very blessed man to have married you and have two wonderful sons just as you were blessed to have married him and by what you say, you had a great life together. Now he can be at peace and watch over you from heaven. Lots and lots of hugs and love sent your way!!

MaggieCat

Peggy... thinking of you and wishing you a night of rest.... Maggie

bluedog

Peggy, so very sorry. Sending you many hugs.💕

Nash54

Sweet Peggy so glad you could be with DH as he departed this world. Sorry for your loss but glad DH is no longer suffering. I'm sure you are mentally and physically exhausted. Take care and rest knowing we all are in your pocket. (((Hugs))

Nash54

kittyl....I hate pink too

123JustMe

Peggy, so sorry but glad you were there with him. Warm hugs for you and your family.

mustlovepoodles

Oh Peggy! I am sorry for your loss. Even when we know it's coming, it's still such a great loss. I'm glad you were able to be there (could he have been waiting for you? hmmm) And I'm glad his boys were able to spend quality time with him, and with you, prior to your husband's passing. I pray for you peaceful nights and strength to get through these hard days.

pennsygal

So sorry for your loss, Peggy. Thinking of you.

bjclaywell

Peggy - my thoughts are with you and your boys - I'm so very glad, however, that you were able to be with him, and that your fears of it happening at night were ultimately unfounded... I will keep you all in my prayers, as I have done over the last few weeks. Take the time you need to heal, but ultimately, to remember and celebrate a life full of love.

Keys-Plez

KittyL---Where else do I buy things? Amazon. http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B00N59OO3W?psc=1&...

Have fun with the sticker. We b*tches have to stick together.

Keys-Plez

Peggy....Sorry for your DH's passing.

Italychick

Peggy, so sorry. I am sure you were an amazing wife to him, based on all your caring posts I see, and he was very fortunate to have you with him there at the end

BGardenia3

Dear Peggy -

Hugs and more hugs to you and your sons. Life is hard and this is one of the hardest parts. I have buried two children and an ex-husband - such sad stuff. Two more children left, one with issues that may cost dearly. I try to get up each day and hope for the best, feeling often, that is all I can do. Here's hoping you find that place where you can . . . find the random, lingering beauty in the day before you.

Our film wrapped last night, I am back . . .

Keys-Plez

KittyL....2 doors. ROTFLMAO.

I was at PT last week and used their facilities for the first time. I couldn't figure which way was locked, up or down. I finally figured lock up. Whilst I was mid-stream, I saw a sign.....Lock down. Nothing I could do at that point but just hurry, hurry, hurry.

PontiacPeggy

Again, Dear Friends, thank you for the sympathy and support. So many of you are coping with far more than me and you reach out. It means the world. I hope to be back here more often soon. I'm at peace and so is DH. It's nice knowing that there was nothing left undone or unsaid by me or our sons. That helps immensely.

Barbara, I can't imagine how agonizing it has been for you. I am seeing the beauty of the day and know you are too.

HUGS!!

PontiacPeggy

Keys-Plez, I too am cracking up. There is a point of no return and you certainly were there

HUGS!

Sloan15

Peggy - I'm so sorry for your loss. It was comforting to hear you say that there was "nothing left undone or unsaid my be or my sons." It's the kind of closure that is soooo important in families, and knowing you had those talks will help carry you through rough patches in the future. Remember those. My thoughts are with you.

PontiacPeggy

Here's a photo of DH, our sons and me Father's Day 2010, three months before he had his heart attack. Sadly, he lost that memory. You can see the Parkinson's in his face (lack of smile).

I assume many of you realize we are Detroit Tigers fans L to R, me, oldest son Andy, DH Chuck and youngest son Chris.

Ringelle

what a great picture! Thanks for sharing. It's nice to see your family and your husband who we've been thinking about. Seeing you with your guys sure puts your tiny frame into perspective!

PontiacPeggy

Ringelle, I'm not small, just over-shadowed. All the boys are 6'2" +, Chuck shrank with age. Thank you. It's one of my favorite pictures, too.

HUGS!!

notdoneliving

Peggy, so sorry for your loss! ((big hugs))

notdoneliving

Ringelle, thanks for your comment. That's just how I feel. Although I haven't cried since I was first diagnosed. I just feel kind of stunned.

I was watching an old episode of West Wing today in which Josh was talking to a post-trauma therapist who diagnosed him with PTSD. It was interesting because I felt like I could sort of relate, especially the way they showed Josh's reaction to people and sound. He was reacting to things without knowing why. If anyone's interested in watching, it's called "Noël" and is episode 10 of season 2.

Horsegirl

Peggy, I'm so sorry for your loss. You must be weary from this long journey. So many crisis and health battles to face. Now a new season that will take healing and adjustment. Thank you for your transparent sharing and encouragement to others. Know we are there for you 💛

Ringelle, whatever stage your cancer, your feelings are legitimate. You've faced life changing surgery, to boot. I was also "stage 0" at first and felt terrible guilt because my SIL was diagnosed with a larger stage 2 with chemo, etc. Then I went through my first surgery which was a bear & decided that my situation was worthy of a reaction - my reaction. From then on I've embraced the emotional impact of my situation and given myself a wide berth of grace. Let yourself feel. No expectations. You deserve that kind of self love. There are no comparisons in BC. None of us expected to be on this message board!

queenmomcat

Peggy: thank you for that photograph!. (and yes, a very Parkinson's posture on your husband's part)