STFU (Shut the F*** UP)

IllinoisLady

Just dropping by to say hi.

camillegal

Oh I just read the question----I feel like the state screwed up my money--well they did, but now no one will take responsibility for this and I would like the money back. I knos it wil never work but I have to try. I'm such a bitch.

And I would be Lou because of the way I look but Chevy would be Lou cuz she's so funny.

sas-schatzi

HMMM then who's BUD? Lou couldn't be as good as he was without Bud. As far as the stooges, no one here is Mo. Mo was funny , but in a mean way. OKAY, Who is Stan and who is Oliver?

WE already Know who Mae is!

Anonymous

Right now I could be Mo. Grrrrrrrr... I was told that I am the cause of my cancer. Well maybe not in those exact words, but that was the gist of it. It's because I eat red meat and don't eat organic. Then I was asked if it runs in the family. Not it don't. Sometimes "it" just happens. With a friend like that, who needs enemas, whoops, I mean enemies. I started to tell her off but quit. She doesn't deserve my energy.



I've been writing but erasing too. I'm not in the basement. I've been lurking mostly. Tonight I am drinking wine. Oh my, could that caused my cancer? I'm not giving up my wine. It's the only vice I have.

rennamr

Thanks for the input! I actually just discovered this site the day I posted. My friend sent me the link cause she found some thread regarding the costochondritis, difficulty breathing and thought it may interest me. But...I do like the STFU and that really did catch my eye since I have been saying that for YEARS! (I actually thought I invented that acronym)

Just a quick update: nurse called me and I discussed with her possible costochondritis. She talked to dr and called back saying it was possible, and to try taking motrin (400 mg every 6 hrs or so). I did that throughout the weekend (actually only took it twice a day, I'm horrible about remembering to take meds) and I did notice an improvement, but I don't know if it's 1)  because of the motrin, 2) because I stopped exercising or 3) because I was more aware of the breathing difficulty and therefore like "panicky" and calmed myself down more.

I am going to try to go running tomorrow and see if the problem comes back. I will try to log onto this site more often. I'm on the computer all day, so last thing I wanna do when I get home is pick up my laptop!

You guys are a fun bunch! Thanks!!

rennamr

Oh, and yes, I do feel like I have been through the ringer with the double mastectomy, chemo, radiation, reconstruction surgery...all in a 6-7 month time span, but I also feel like my body has tolerated it all pretty well. I have a high tolerance for pain anyway, but I'm a "move on" kind of person, so even though I had some really hard times (like severe bone pain during chemo) I am just wanting to move forward and onto better things!

Shellshine

I'm about to see my last pediatric pt, a 6 year old's physical. Boo Hoo, I'm gonna miss swing these little critters.

Spookiesmom

Oh nothing better than puppy breath to make your day. What a doll baby. I want to kiss that widdle nose, and give him hugs, and listen to him squeak.



Pee pads are really great for the little ones. Especially for rain or snow. Spookie is 3 and still uses them

sas-schatzi

Who to talk with first:

Shells, it seems to me I remember kids were a way for you to attain the certification you needed to get to a different goal. But goals change. As all of nursing has it's plus and minuses. Since I'm not a peds nurse and a never wanted to be one. I do remember spectacular moments when I had kid involvement.. Maybe it's a calling. It certainly takes a totally different nurse to deal with it on adaily basis.  MHHHH , you may have a gift

Renn almost everyone goes through the ringer that you have in the first 6-12 months. From mammo/MRI iregularity to bx/ to sx to recon(3 to 4, but can be more with complications). Chemo or not, rads or not. Our paths all our different.  The commonn is BC got us here and it all just sucks. Everything we do, we seek solutions. Then we second guess the solutions. Then we try to find solutions for all the S.E.'s(side effects) . Spelled out for the NEA, NSA, TSA-shit which ever Big Brother agency watching us b/c of our language that affects there agency. All, basically, men thinking these women have drug problems and are advising each other on what drugs to ask their docs about. A pox on them. Let the disease happen to them- way in a mood tonight--wishing a disease on someone, UgLy.  Sorry off on a rant. Then we go into 3 month mode, then 6, then 12, but it never ends. You are learning to cope every single day. Use every moment to move forward.

If you can't remember when you took your meds make a chart. I drew a rough one a few pages ago

Date/time      pain site1     painsite2    pain site 3    pain site 4   bowel  urine  weight  bp

 d/t                 site/scale      site/scale   site scale     site/scale     y/n    y/n     #         #

                      drug            drug           drug             drug        d-y/n  y/n       #         #

The point is if you need to track something make a chart. Track what is important to you. What I care about, may mean nothing to you. Revise your chart as you go. You decide something has more or less meaning to you. For example, bowels aren't a problem don't track.

Everything is a possibility with us because we have been brutally assaulted by surgery and drugs. So, listen to your docs, but do allot of research on your own, and ask here and on other threads "hey anyone got this". 

Running--if you have foobs, protect them from bouncing. At the same time the axillary tightnness of a sports bra may cause an LE problem. So check in with runners on the LE thread. These are not questions your going to find much research on. By the time there is data on it, we'll all be gone and our great grands will get the answers. 

So who are you? Stan, Laurel, Bud, Red, Rosanna, Mae, Reba, Rosanne, Walter, Achmed, Jeff, Peanut, Jack, Rosebud, HMMMMMMMM

Haven't decided who I am yet --maybe Maude.

sas-schatzi

Chevy I'm on a mission to send you a fairy lamp of my choosing, simply b/c I watch the stuff and i know what the prices ought to be.  OH,  also, Love you thats why. Love fairy and butterfly gardens. So, send me your address by PM and when i win a fairy lamp. I'll send it for your fairy garden. erhh your address. I love ebaying and a goal on ebay for me is fun. I totally love my fairy lamp. it's clear. They have colored ones, but color can thwart light. The reason Indiana stars and bars did so well is the facets. Then there's American Pattern, many facets but haven't seen it with light underneath. As a pattern for daily ware, i dislike it , but as a fairy candle it may be special, just haven't seen it. The really old ones from 1880 to 1920 are out of reach$$$$$.

Shellshine

Ok Pups - sitting here at Starbucks drinking an Izze Sparkling Clemmentine soda with two small Absolut Citrons poured in on the sly. I feel drunk because no alcohol for so long. I'm done with school, effective today.  F'ing hurray. GD that was hard work. It would have been so much more fun without BC.

I wish I could fly away for a week and sit on a deserted isle and contemplate. Wait a minute, I'm on an island, living in a house  with an acre backyard with lots of mosquitoes, a stream and birds singing up a storm.....

sas-schatzi

I wish I could do what Barrie did when he created the storey Peter Pan that entranced generations of children and adults with beliefs that were outside reality. Now we have JK Rowling with Harry Potter with the same. A storey outside our reality. In the middle was Watty Piper with "The Litlle Engine That Could". 

Tinkerbell in a time of weakness needed us. Pan saw the need that if we clapped for her  she would regain her strength.

Harry Potter given a tough beginning , overcame, learned to fight, then went on to teach others to fight against evil.

The Little Enginge that could taught us when four other engines denied help , he thougth he could.

We read these stories either to our children or to ourselves.

In all of them, we as people, define resilence of spirit to our children or to ourselves. We come here each day and state our resilence and our care

juliaanna

ShellIamsodonewithschool- Congrats!!

Sas, So happy you made it through your biopsy today.  Take care!  You may be resting your voice but you are saying volumes with your fingers.  

To the rest of you hoolies-have a good weekend.

sas-schatzi

jULIA, thanks, now to support what we have in our own homes, I was decluttering children books. The "Little Engine That Could" the edition that i have is valued at 100$. I have many other children books like all of us---I was floored. But the point above was well taken.  Don't despose of anything until you check value.

Julia -- destressing------1:48 am

Cheverette---we have six nurses------julianna, lumygoats, beatmom, shells, stacey, sassy--yup gotter right. That's more than the nurse's thread had so there ya go

juliaanna

Sas,

We have so many books, we could be a branch of the library system.  My daughters loved to read so much-punishment was taking away the books!  Their grandmas and great-grandmother gave them so many books.  Now they are ready to be passed on to my granddaughter.  My gramme would write a dedication in each one-  to "#1 buddy" for my eldest and "little trouble" for my youngest.  Those books are priceless!

Now go to sleep, sas.

I think we have nurses in every time zone and have experience in almost every specialty.  

sas-schatzi

Julia, books were always a wonder to me. We had this library and i'd go in and look at the the titles. Lincocn and Douglas Debates. Theses books that showed pictures of WW2 deaths, So, many others. A a youingin i'd read several books a week from the library. Besides playing football, baseball and climbing trees. We had polio in 1952, my twin and I were 26mos. my brother was 4 y/o. 2 years before the vaccine. Our lives were defined by that stress and it never stopped.  But back to the books. When M&D lost the house and truckloads went off. It was the books I missed. I only recently got rid of my college textbooks in the past six months. 40 year old books. Words. But the words I wanted were in Dad's old library.

juliaanna

Sas, there is such magic in the words and pictures. I'm sorry you lost so much. I sometimes despair when I see so much going digital. There is something special about opening a new book, the crisp pages, the smell of ink and paper. Then there is the story. I spent many a day in the neighborhood library. I miss the card catalog- thumbing through the cards I found so many interesting books. You just can't have that experience with electronic catalogs. My treasure is a Welsh songbook that belonged to my maternal grandfather. I also have 1924 edition of the Library of Health, twenty books in one volume. My paternal grandmother gave it to me when I finished nursing school. The quote on the cover, " you can do nothing to bring the dead to life, but you can do much to save the living from death". On the frontispiece "Proper knowledge in the prevention of disease is one of the greatest safeguards for the protection and preservation of the home". Wish you could look through it with me.

Shellshine

I had a children's  library for my son years before he was even born. He can't bear to part with any of those  books, wants to keep them for his children. Ed and I are decluttering and letting many of our of books go. It feels good...there are so many more books to read (as long as they are not textbooks). 

Sas - what you wrote was just beautiful - U2 Juliette.

sas-schatzi

Julia yes we have nurses in every specialty except neonatal unless someone pops up and says I have that. We are unique.

camillegal

Just poking my head in, well my body is with me too--I love the conversation u'r having. I don't kniw if u can instill the love of reading into a child but when u see a spark going on u encourage all u can, I used to say to my youngest dgtr (cuz she loved to read-still does) That u'll never be bored, because u can be anywhere u want. Now my grandson loves it and hope he stays that way cuz again I've said that to him and I added u can do anything u want in life, cuz if u love reading and understanding their is no limit what u can take in. And I believe that. And I'm so glad he likes books--he goes to the library and actually holds book in his hands, and to me to that's the way to read---but anyway is always good.

I didn't realize all the nurses on here wow we're loaded---OK here's a question got a scan that u drink that stuff the other day----"something" is pushing on my liver into my ribs---so it's painful-now what test should I ask for next--It could be my colon knotted up or a tumor or whatever--I see my onc next week and I'd really like to know what to ask and what other test I should ask for--I had this done the other day by my reg Dr. cuz of pain on my side not to be confused with the back problem--so WTF am I talking about that makes me sound not crazy or is this common and just ignore this whole other crazy thing. Could it possibly be something near my kidney or bladder that can cause this? I do have chronic bladder infections that ave turned painful too for about 6 months. OK my nurses go to town-- hahahaha--OK no serious talk the rest of the day.

Chevyboy

Morning little fairies!  I mean Hooligans!   I love you all so much, and I just hate to hear of anyone not feeling good!

 

Cammi!  WTH did you do?  I don't even know where a liver IS, much less what it can do... Can you just go get it checked out now?  WHERE do you live?   If something "hurts" ....  it shouldn't be doing that... I mean there is a reason.

 

Do your Doctors look like medicine men, and drive around in a horse-drawn cart?  Good Lord, you gotta find someone that knows what they are doing! 

 

Maybe "our nurses" will give you some suggestions?  Man, I love that we have all you gals...    Our Sassy, Julianna, littlegoats, beatmom, Shells!!!!  Wow!  And me.  I will make chicken.... oh, I mean beef soup for everyone..... to make you better.

 

I never cared for books, until about 15 years ago.  My Daughter gave me a book to read in the back-seat of the car when we were driving to the beach... It was by Danielle Steel, called "The Kiss".....  And it really was a beautiful story!  Then I started looking for more books by her....  Found millions..... One of my favorites is ..... Oh hell, I'll think of it later.  OH, Memoirs of a Geisha...  

I have a Nook, but you are right, holding a book, curled up on the sofa, all by yourself, is just the best!   You get lost in a book. 

 

Sass, I don't know what to say....  I still don't think I understand what "fairy-lights" you are talking about...  I would be honored if you would do that, or even post me a picture???  But I would pay for it... 

Do you mean like this?

 

I typed in Indiana Stars and Bars Fairy Lamp, and I saw this. 

I'll send you my address by PM, but don't go doin' anything too extravagant...  or I'll owe you my first born. 

 

Shellster!  I had a Sweetened Iced Coffee Grande' with no room!  I add the cream AND a sweet & low.  A person can never get enough sugar. So we had one together!   Although yours DOES sound better than mine.  More exotic!

Congratulations on being done with school, you little scholar you! 

 

Sass, yes, you can be Maude...  I will be Bette!  I am crazy like her.  I just remember her singing "The Rose"...  Special meaning to me. 

 

Hi Julianna and Renamar... or something like that!

 

 

Chevyboy

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oR6okRuOLc8

Anonymous

Books! I'll read a book, I'll read it on a Nook, Heck, I'll read it on my phone, by a brook.  If it was on a scroll, I'd read that too. Growing up, my mother and grandmother were readers.  Mostly fiction/novels.  We had a den in our house that was a converted garage.  One whole wall was filled bookshelves down to waist level then cabinets below.  I read all of those books by the time I was 10 yrs old.  Many of them NOT appropriate for a kid.  I used to sneak a book and fill the spot with something else so it wouldn't be missed.  We also had the set of Children's Classics that the parents bought along with the Encyclopedia Brittanica.  I had also read as many of my grandmother's books as I could get my hands on.  By the third grade, I think I was quite a handful for my reading circle. 

I was not very pleased with the elementary school library.  Jr high library was better but by that time I was able to get rides to the little public library.  I remember when I discovered non-fiction and biographies.  OMG! I was in heaven!  Science, history, people writing about themselves, MAPS!  Nobody told me there were so many maps!  I was a totally indescriminate reader.  Loved novels set in England so that I could practice my English accent - living in Texas. 

I understand the comfort of holding a book and sitting back for a long read.  But, books have always been changing.  Dickens and others were first published in papers and pamphlets.  My son and my ex-h can give you the whole history of printed books, dates, people, formats.  But really, as long as I have something to read, I'm happy.  The beauty of the Nook (there are several) for me is that it has a built in dictionary!  AMAZING.  If I'm reading something way over my head (happens a lot) I just touch the word that I don't know and bingo!  the definition pops up.  I just love that.

However much I love books, or you love books, picture this:

My husband bought out an estate the month before we were married.. Some people go to estate sales and buy the stuff they are getting rid of.  He would go and buy the whole collection of books, or books and art.  Anyway, from this sale he brought home all of these books.  So MANY books that he stacked them side-by-side, waist high, through the living room, dining room, spare bedroom, hallway, and around the perimeter of his bed room.  He left a path from the front door to the kitchen to the bathroom to the bedroom.  A PATH!

He was thinking we could live there after the wedding and he would sell the books slowly.  NO NO NO!  Who thinks like that?  It was a dire warning that I did not heed.  It happened several more times during our marriage.

whoops, TMI again.

Cammit - yes, that is a phyllodendron as my avatar

Anonymous

I got so distracted by BOOKS that I forgot to write anything else.  I hope people don't quit writing them. I made my ex ship all of my signed first editions to me when I moved up here.  He was hoping he could keep them, I bet!

Shells - congrats!  You are just amazing.  Sitting in Starbucks, getting plastered, I mean relaxed.  Who woulda thunk it!  You rebel.

Sassy - hope you're out swimming this morning and relaxing before next week stuff.

Chevy - fairies?  Your garden is lovely and you put a lot of work into it.  I would love to see the giant cyclops garden.  Wasn't there a giant cyclops in the 7 voyages of sinbad?  Or am I making that up?  Can you make one or should I just go to a rainforest?  Are your hands still better??

BTW - I don't think I ever heard of fairy lights until this board.  I think.  Who knew fairies needed lights!  Are they like teeny street lights?  A Clapper? A teeny flashlight?  I just thought fairies glowed and didnt' need a light.

cammi- I hope you do not have a python in your gut.  That's my only experience with abdominal pain so I thought I would share even though it is probably totally irrelevant to your pain.  Sorry, it's just my way of giving bad medical advice.  HAHAHA!  My BIL says "it's only bad advice if you take it".

I hope our little blondiehoney is back SOON and feeling good.

chicklet - that is a very cute neardog.  He will be so handsome when he grows up.  He will grow up, won't he?

marywhere - did I miss your report back on your MRI?  Hope that went well  It is NO fun to have your head stuck in a barrel where someone is beating on the outside to see how much you can stand.

I know I have missed several lovely ladies here but I have already taken up a whole page on the thread and so will give over to let someone else in!

P

marywh

Well Ive decided-enough of the preoccupation with my health...I am so sick of it.Have to go in on Tues. to check my thyroid too..WTH?.thyroid is way up. Oh well. Im just not going to worry about it this week-end. My porches are coming along well, got the roofs on yesterday, sweet little roofers even roofed my dog houses so they would match the roof on the house. Looking for a tip, I geuss..they got one.Picked up gs from day-care yesterday, went to wal-mart. He managed to shop without telling anyone about grammys boob. He picked out a birthday present for his mom. a little dragonfly necklace. It belongs in Chevys fairy garden. Hope you guys are all doing ok..Been so beside myself this week I cant remember who had what, but hope everyone is ok....

camillegal

OK Phyloreadalot---I bet u were the jailhouse lawyer cuz u could read--see I'm right u can never read to much--At least it kept u safe, women counted on u. And oh yes that's what the  plant  is--sure I believe u. But I'm crackin up at u ex--to buy tht many books I would have flipped out, but he was looking ahead for u;r future. It doesn't sound like he led u down the path u chose, so he could be goofy, but it wasn't illegal.

Oh Chevy I know I sound like a walking test subject hahaha--I really have good Drs. They were checked out0but they always seem a little stymied over whar;s going on and when I had my other Drs. they were wonderful but again I always fell in a low percentage of the probkems I had and have. OK so I'm a freak0-we all know this. But I relly do getsome scaredness in me--cuz I have an awful lot of pain and I always think pain is u'r warning that something is going on. So I thought OK let's get the nurses on this so I could arm myself with info and maybe act like do something and find out don't just send me home to wtch how bad the pain gets.--I don't know this has been going on so long now, but I'm tired and it wers on me. That's why I'm so bitchy all the time.

IllinoisLady

Books...un-ending treasure.   I loved to read and devoured all the books ( save for westerns ) in my grade school and high school library...........and continued to read up until the last few years. 

My inspiration for reading was my mother.  She made sure we had story books in our house and I'll never forget " The Littlest Angel " which was my favorite of all time.  Never tired of her reading it to me.  The books all had such marvelous pictures in them at the time and I remember thinking that the story was really about me and that I was my mother's littlest angel.....even if a bit naughty now and then. 

Yay for reading and loving to read -- I mainly only read spiritual type authors now. 

Hope you all have a marvelous Saturday and Cammi.....just tell that liver to straighten up and fly right.

Jackie

GmaFoley

I know that PH got my scarf - did Blondiex and Flowers get theirs??? Just wondering?  If you don't like them you can give them to someone that does - no feelings hurt..   I love you girls! 

I'm letting my GD sleep this morning - she wanted to sleep upstairs so she could do her drawing journal and think with the "peace and quiet" I think is how she put it..  We had a pretty busy day I think I will just let her sleep.

Spookiesmom

Yea Shells!!!! DONE



Now if my sil could just get out of RN school.

Spookiesmom

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I knew it was coming. I wanted it to come. It's going to save me $600 a month. But to actually hold it in my hot little hands was a shock.





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I got my Medicare card today.



Now I am an official OLD FART



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