Fuzzy's Romp Room

dogeyed

Oh, Ladies, my memory is so shot, I have thought of many things to say afer reading all he posts, but I do not think I can ecall hem all.  VEGGY, I hve really had it with your cancer situation.  Don't you jus ffeel lkke tellikng them to chop everybthing off you got and pour chlorox ino your ears?!?  And Fuzz, I am SO relieved youur Mom is getting squared away, it has done WONDERS for your senseof well-being. Oh, hon, if you is feeling good, send a little my way. i THINK I told ya'll I had pneumonia a few weeks ago, they said if I hadn't called 9-1-1 that day, I woud have died.  And then I hd the moswt horrible diarrhea an throwing up shit, somehow I made it thru, husband was a perfect angel, bringing me lots of old housewives treatments, cooling milk, helpng me to bed, bringing a throw-up bucket...  And now today I am cryng all day long becaue I lost controlof what has taken me ten year to fix, and I was so rude and unkind to my folks, my very life and soul thru this endless trenching that life CAN be, becuz Igthink of all the beuatiful things I used to do and still want to do, and I'm not ure I ca n ever returm to regular or even close to it.

And I slipped in my temper control.  I read what I wrote to my folks last week, read it thismorning, and husband was with me, andI jus put my head down and cred and cried.  And nw I'mlosing my sense of time.  Lke right now, I cannot believe that it's not even lunchtime yet.  Brother and his family are holding off a few days to come see all us here becuz I've been so sick.  I dont know howmch loger I can hang ono all this stuff.  I'm tryig hard, but I've only got a certain number of heartbeats given to me, and it feels so much like it's fading, it's fading.  "I cannot count the time" Judy Collins.  GG 

Linda-Ranching-in-the-mTns

Dogeyed-- Pnemonia can really knock you for a loop -- and can take quite a while to bounce back from. My sister was a mess with hers -- and couldn't remember doing or saying lots of things. She kept saying how much better she felt than the day before -- for months. So the likliehood is that you, too, will feel better each day as you get farther from the pnemonia.

Whatever you have done that you want to change -- there is still time. Your family MUST know that you are under great stress right now. They will forgive you -- please don't beat yourself up.

This is only a low spot. Everything in life ebbs and flows -- be kind to yourself -- you are doing the best that you can right now... and tomorrow will  be better, and the day after that better still. 

All my best,

Linda

Chevyboy

Lisa and Dog-eyed....I'm with Linda Lisa, and think you really should call the Doctor!  At least they might get back to you, and offer some suggestions, even if it is telling you that "it is normal to feel that way?"  Just tell them you need to see them before the 10 days.  I also usually get a rash or hives or a yeast infection with anti-biotics... and you really DO need someone to talk to or just listen....glad you are here!

That was so profound dog-eyed, about having only so many heart-beats left....I think we're all in the same boat, but we probably feel a lot better than you.... that's a beautiful picture you posted....

A lot of times our memory, and our thinking aren't the same after taking drugs like anti-biotics, Tamoxifen, etc!   And I think we still have those mood-swings every month, like what we had when we were younger.   And if you lost your temper, just think about what you are thinking and feeling before you say it.....  and it's okay to cry....  It reminds me of an OLD song by Johnny Ray.... "Cry"..... I remember singing at the top of my voice to that song!    So here's hugs to you gals!  xoxoxoxoxoxo and kisses.

thefuzzylemon

Oh yeah....lots of hugs....im going to be hugging ya all allllllll day. GG my lovey dovey - somewhere a ways back someone said "it's ok". Honey, its ok....if you feel yucky, you feel yucky. Don't push yourself to do or say anything. I second what Chevy said...and I'll add that my heart beats with yours. Close your eyes and listen to the music you love and go into one of those paintings....I know you'll find your Happy if even for a moment!.

LISAMARIE....Howdy! I recently went through reconstruction and it really sucks. Im thinking we have to get all stretched out before there's any comfort....but girl....get pain meds and muscle relaxers....don't go through this without help....IT SUCKS!!!!!! I just sat in my oncologist's office and cried and cried about that fing procedure...That im not done with....ugh!!! So, get those docs to help you out!!!

Alyson

I think a group hug is needed round here and I need it too. Have lump on collarbone, shoulder is really painfull and have strange pain under good arm, all probably nothing but it does cause concern.

Anyway have to pick myself up and get somethings done as we are looking after DGS and DGD tonight which will be fun.

Big hugs to all

lisamarie68

Thank you everyone .I am not on any meds.I think maybe everyone mis read my post I had my bilateral mastectomy in April and my exchange from te to implant in july. I felt relief after exchange but now its been pain and burning and itchy. I understand the itching is nerves reconnecting. I think at this point I'm experiencing capsular contracture. I'm 5 months post exchange. Sorry for the misunderstanding.

FireKracker

Alyson--let me be the first in the group huggggggggggg...you first!!!!

Veggy-you sound like that beautiful sista i first met.you go girl.

(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((CHEVY))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

thefuzzylemon

LisaMarie....that's interesting....I didn't Think about the little blood vessels and nerves and such. I just had my exchange Nov 30 but it didn't go well...so im behind you a ways. I'll watch and learn from you: )

Alyson....Im in on that group hug!!! Oh yeah!

Veggy....how was your visit with Your friend today?

FireKracker

And how is fuzzy doin right now?????

And where is everyone on that group huggggggggggggggggggggggg?

lisamarie68

im on it ... Hugzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

luvmygoats

Huge (((HUGS))) right back atcha.

Alyson

Hi all, I am sitting here in tears, tears of relief. A friend's son had gone missing on a mountain run, Saturday our time, and even though it is summer here the high country gets very cold at night. He spent two nights in the open but he did have a thernal blanket with him but was only wearing light clothing.

Just heard that Alastair was found about an hour ago.  His mother certainly didn't need that, she is one of us having had a dreadful year with BC and treatment and is not out of the woods yet with things.

Have a great New Year everyone.

Big hugs

FireKracker

Awwwww Alyson...you should get a great big huggggggggggg.

Nice to hear a great ending.

thefuzzylemon

Tears of relief so he must be well? OMG...I would lose my mind in those two days...as the victim or mother!! Thank heavens he's alright and found!! So so scary!!"

Hey Granny Girl!! We just had our Christmas so im feeling very satisfied...very complete. I don't know if there's anything better than giving my babies presents. I could not love those two more than I do...and they work hard...they've seen too much these past few years with me and all the BC stuff, work stuff, etc and their studies are very difficult....I wish I could give them presents all the time! They're so thankful for everything...its pretty special. So, thank you for asking sweetie. Perfect timing I'm glowing: ) hee hee

So, I decided to stay home tonight and I'll go visit mom tomorrow. She's on a 24 hour dialysis and Hey BP is holding at her norm. My sister was up there today so she had company for a while. She wants her eyebrow pencil....so she must be feeling better! LOL

SpecialK

alyson - so glad your friend's son was found safe.  While I was in chemo the nurse navigator told me that the radiologist who did my biopsy had a 23 year-old son who was then missing in the mountains of Montana where he went back country skiing alone.  While they knew the basic area where he went, he didn't return on time and it started to blizzard.  They searched for days and had to suspend because the weather was so bad.  Eventually it went from a search to a recovery - broke my heart - she was very sweet and encouraging to me after I was diagnosed, even gave me her cell phone number if I had questions - what doctor does that?

dogeyed - hang in there, sounds like you are in a low spot - hoping you are feeling stronger each day and can climb out.

fuzzy - glad you mom has stabilized and that you were able to enjoy your delayed holiday.

Hugs to all who need them!

ptdreamers

Hugs all around.

thefuzzylemon

Hey there Special!! That's a sad sad story...but I wonder if that's how the son would have wanted it...his last adventure....probably not as I cannot relate to "adrenaline junkies" and super adventure types...scares the crap outta me.

GG...I know by the way you typed that you were on some heavy meds. I found out that pain killers are depressants. So, you should know that there's a lot going on...give yourself time honey bear...((((hugs))))

Oldest caught a fever: ( but I got to make her a smoothie and my special tea...the youngest is in bed snoozing. DH just went to bed too. Really feels nice having everyone tucked in (baby puppy too).

Has anyone seen the movie "Paul"? Its really funny in a dirty sort of way. I've seen it probably 20 times and it just cracks me up.

thefuzzylemon

Thanks PT!! Hugs back at cha!

sheila888

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thefuzzylemon

Sheila!!!! How ya doin'? OMG.....special and Sheila in the same day?? LOL....it Really is Christmas!! LOL

Im in! Group Huggin!

sheila888

Fuzzy...I'm always here reading......

You know where to find me..on TOL Thread

ridergirl

(((((((((hugs)))))))) for everyone!

thefuzzylemon

Rider.....hey there lady!! How are you doin'?

Sheila....that makes me smile....you know I wuv ya....

Hope its ok....im all mushy tonight...feeling very grateful...

kathindc

Alyson, glad your friend's son was found.  I don't know what I would do if one of mine went missing.

Fuzzy, I'm with you on the movie Paul.  My DH even liked it.

thefuzzylemon

Kath -hes such a "manly" little alien!! My husband likes it too...my girls however think I'm nuts...

dunesleeper

I'm in on that group hug. Feel better soon. Stay well and keep getting better if you are currently doing A-OK. Our lives have changed. Eventually we'll catch up.

sheila888

fuzzy...It's OK to be mushy once in a while..it shows that you're a human

For few weeks I was very mushy and emotional about everything....It was too much....

Holidays don't agree with me.....i always get sad.....Now we sing...lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala

(((♥Fuzzy♥)))

sheila888

kathindc

Fuzzy, I know what you mean when it comes to daughters.  I have twins.  Oh God, say the wrong thing to one and they become a hormonal glob against me.  

Alyson

Know all about daughters. DD1 is completing her doctoral exegesis and a few minutes ago a file wouldn't open - toatal panic. All is fine now. Mine gang up on me all the time especially when it comes to clearing out things, they would like me to be minimalist but no way. But I love them dearly.