INSOMNIACS place to talk in the wee hours

cb123

Shepkitty,

What tool?

Doesn't Spinal MRI just inject you with the Kool-Aid (I call all the crap they give me "the Kool-Aid"), slide you into the machine for 20 minutes and slide you out? What broke? Where? Can you tell I'm having MRI Thoracic, spinal and head this week?

cb

susan3

My friend from grammar school and Claire's a God mother...I am in the middle

susan3

Hubby and I , Claire and andrew

Loveroflife

Beautiful family and friend. What a blessing to have friends from grade school. What happened to your striped shirt? Hah!

ShepK, yes, upper GI is joining lower GI to slow me down. I usually have lower GI problem and have been learning to live with it without meds. As long as I don't have cramps and have a toilet near by, I can still function. I thank God I still have somewhat strong sphingter muscles to hold back the flooding gate that fails occasionally. You have metals in your spine? You mean you are a bionic woman? Ouchie! Oh, OCD will not allow me to have Mitzy in my bed. She sheds too much!

Taking today off from work to stay home with the little brat. Gave my hours to a friend who was laid off two years ago and is now working on call. She needs the hours and I need the time off to train Mitzy to be alone outside her crate. Hopefully, she gets it by Thursday when I need to return to work.

Lookforward

Susan great pictures, sorry to hear about your tests hugs.

Lookforward

a soothing calm picture for all

JunieB

Good Morning Ladies,

Sorry I haven't been posting recently. I had a CT scan last Monday in Portland, long day. Still waiting for results. Massage on Wednesday, volunteered on Thursday & Thoracic Spine went out on Friday. Really scared me because ribs hurt and had nausea related to it. Called Palliative Care and was told if my pain meds don't help go to E.R. Yuck, don't want to go to E.R. Anyway with meds and rest it got better. Thanks to God! Otherwise have been real tired and couldn't work up the brain power to try and post anything coherent.

I don't remember if I've already said, but hip surgery scheduled for June 9th. Had hoped for some support from my narcissistic Mother, but she is going on vacation that week and is MORE concerned with how her plants will survive while she is on vacation, than the fact that I'm having major surgery. It is confusing to me how although I know full well how narcissistic she is, that I would even think for a moment she'd be able to act like a normal Mother. I really really need to get over this irrational hope.

Anyway, enough about me!

Susan - So sorry your test results aren't good. Will keep you in prayer.

The pics of the baby shower were very uplifting. Cupcake stroller is a really cute idea, plus really liked the little watering can for the utensils. Did guests make all the bibs hanging up?

Loverly - So wish I had some helpful answers for your G.I. issues. Does Mitzi shed all the time or is it like others I've spoken to that this is the time for dogs to shed their winter undercoats?

Adorable pic of your girls in their costumes.

Lookforward - Pic is very serene to look at.

Sas - Hello, didn't want to overlook you. Now just a question. The pic you posted with the gray dots and yellow ball flashing all over, do you remember that if someone with seizures looks at that it could trigger one?

Sorry that Patty is in the hospital again.

Also, had a chance to have a nice long talk with my friend in Florida on Saturday (the one in Tampa). He was talking with me as he walked along a river (can't remember the name) and was telling me he's really come to love the area since moving there. Also told me about a festival called "Gasperilla" a pirate themed festival.

Jazzygirl - When does Spring usually start there in New Mexico? What are the Summer temps like?

And to everyone, I hope you have a great Monday.

Lookforward

Junie sorry you are having a rough time, hip surgery is a major operation. It is very unfortunate that your mother isn't there for you, do you have any help? I wished I lived closer, I am about a six hour drive north of the Montana boarder. I would love to see Oregon , it is supposed to be beautiful

Anonymous

Oh my.......so much going on today

I'll pack up some blankets, pillows, animal crackers and juice boxes (or wine boxes) and we'll all meet under that beautiful tree next to Lookie's waterfall. We can bask in the warmth of the sun as it peeks through the branches overhead and let the flowiing water carry all our "icky stuff" far, far away......

susan3

jazzy, tests today...no results yet. Will know tonight

Lover...ha, didn't notice that. Guess I Didn't get the memo. Also, I am shrinking:(. Hope you feel better soon

sas-schatzi

Cb,on the genetics, for those that were tested they were BRCA negative. Several preceded BRCA, I think. Did you have thyroid cancer? There is a connection. The Seer stats also showed that two cancers are increasing more than pervious, whereas, the others are stable or going down. Thyroid cancer is one. Liver is the other one.

Thyroid disease as you likely know runs in families and is predominantly a female thing. Same as with Thyroid cancer. So far I'm the only one.

My doc at Moffitt is at the elite level in thyroid circles. Regretfully, I didn't see him till after the RAI-131. I decided to flip over across the state when the docs involved were not communicating in concert about course.

So interesting to talk with BigWig doc. the bigwigs were seeing an increase, but the SEER stats confirmed it. Plus, management now is radically different. Much less aggressive. The RAI-131 can do more damage than the cancer. Papillary and follicular are taking more of watch and evaluate with yearly ultrasound every 3-6 months. then yearly.

There is one study in Japan with a cohort of just under 1000. It's been on going for _____(15 years). Only three have had to receive 131. There are a couple of other studies. The key is it's a changing scenario about thyroid cancer.

Big Wig docs and the elites were treating according to the unpublished results of studies a year before I was dx'd, I so, wish I had him and not the local cancer docs. Since I'm on the fence of saying it's over, but the complication that made my life hell since April 2014 may now be okay 2 years later. I have learned to not declare it over.

Thanks for the prayers, I will try the same

sas-schatzi

Jazzy, I thought it was tall. ... So, true on giving and not trying to effect something after the giving. But DB just sold their place. What they hadn't already taken back to Mich. last year they are divesting now. Some cute plates I had given are coming back to me. .....Do you drink coffee or tea?

Loverly, love the kids pics.

Shep & Cb Color Genomics which recently changed it's name , but still can be accessed by that. Was started by some silicon valley folks that thought it awful that the cost was so high on testing. After Myriad lost the patent suit, they developed a panel of 18 genetic tests at a cost of 250.00$. I'm even too cheap for that, but they're other reasons too which I won't disclose at the moment. Hopefully, I can remember to bring the BCO thread link here.

sas-schatzi

Susan, the kids looked so happy. The house looked wonderful. So many creative ideas. So beautifully preserved in pics. I'm so bad I never think pics. Ergo, I have no pics. Your 's are just delightful. Was Claire surprised? Hmm, no, not a surprise they came the day before for the wedding? Who helped decorate? DH is a cutie. Such a proud grandpapa.

With the cupcakes were you afraid that__________(it will bam me after I post) sweetie pie furbaby--milo? was going to jump on the table?

You have a happy bright house

Do you have a pics of you and Dh over the years, Since both of you are so beautiful now, guessing you have always been a striking couple. Strike us, LOL. Please,

sas-schatzi

Loverly, it's a risk leaving them out. Been working it since 1975. Max was the worst and the first. I stupidly didn't believe in crate training. I learned. So did the subsequent dogs. If it says anything Max was a Brit. The dog(only, I believe?) Smarrty gave to a farm By the time we got a female we learned much more. We didn't have any issues with subsequent Brits.

Also, well trained dogs have a great influence on the training of new dogs. Max was superlative by the time we got Lady. Then the two helped train Moose and JB(Jimmy Buffet).

As an untrained dog learns, they get a sense of boundaries. The time of learning is such a risk. Just put away what you value for a few months. Once Mitsy has shown she can be trusted over a few months bring the good stuff out Everything Shep and others have said about the safe place of the open door crate is so very, very true.

Shats was still being crated when we were gone. The goodbye pat through the crate wires. She watched for months as Rascal was on the bed getting hugs and kisses. Off we'd go.

One day Shats, who by then knew the signals of the leaving, jumped on the bed close to Rascal. With this innocent "I'm a good dog, I am". We left her out. She's never been crated again with the door closed. She uses it when there is a storm, but it's her choice.

If she's not in control when someone comes, I say "cage". Years ago as a young pup, I made her go to the cage for a timeout. Basically, to allow her to get control. As time went on, I would say "cage". She didn't like going to the cage and would immediately settle down. It was/is so cute to watch. "I'll be good mom, don't send me to my room" with a sheepish look. Then It's a pat and an okay and she's good. Dogs are all about knowing boundaries.

Mitsy was abused they are a bit different. Dini was too. Hate to say it , but Donnie was involved too. He took Dini in after the greatest abuse. But Donnie didn't understand that a dog doesn't need to be hit to obey. It was a shock when they moved in. Either the first or second weekend. I got a call from DS in an airport in Michigan, asking what was going on. My back neighbor heard Donnie screaming explectives and the dog yelping. She called Steve telling him she was afraid I was being beaten. Yikes.............What a mess. All that cared about me so upset. I had to start teaching Donnie as well as his Dini. Dini is short for Houdini. Yes, we had an escape problem too. The no hit rule was established immediately. Overtime Dini and Donnie learned the other rules. Both are well adjusted now

The run in the country corridor for Dini is special. He never understood freedom with limits. He's so self assured now. Mitsy will get there too Time is what she needs and consistency.

Getting maudlin now------and love.

sas-schatzi

Lookie, We learn, my first learning about poking too much. 1975, OR patient with a throat tumor. The lead anesthesiologist put the case on hold after he looked in her throat with her sitting up. He came back after some minutes. She was proceeded to be put to sleep. The anesthesist couldn't access to put in the endotracheal tube, neither could maybe one or two others. The tumor was blocking access. The doc stepped forward. Took a device out of his pocket an did a needle 14ga.cricothyrotomy, Hooked it up to oxygen and she was good. It was a pretty frightening experience. Time slows down. I remember all the details still.

He was an experienced doc. He prepared for a failure. It allowed for absolute control. Pretty damn cool.

I had him teach me about the landmarks to do a cric (cricothryotomy). I went around feeling the landmarks the rest of the day. Then noted I had trouble swallowing. Duh, I had created a situation. It was a life lesson about poking

susan3

sas,,ha, my 15 year old dog couldn't jump to get anything. Had her downstairs mist of the time,nice she doesn't hear well, she had no idea people were here....lol

susan3

Picture of hubby and I just before cancer journey 15 years ago

Blessings2011

Owlettes!

Lurking, reading, sending love....

Wanted to mention something my MO told me last week....

We were reviewing my drugs, and she saw Omeprozole. That's a generic for Prilosec. I had taken it daily for years, then stopped. I couldn't remember why I started. (Indigestion? Reflux? Who knows.)

She told me that this drug is a Proton Pump Inhibitor, and was designed to be used short-term only - 14 days max.

Recent studies have shown that drugs in the PPI family can cause c. diff (Clostridium Difficile - a horrible, nasty, drug-resistant diarrhea caused by intestinal infection).

Many hospital patients acquire c. diff because it is present everywhere, but being on high-dose antibiotic therapy destroys all the good bacteria in the intestinal tract, and c. diff takes over. (I'm probably preaching to the choir here... y'all probably know way too much about c. diff already....)

The MO told me that I should switch to drugs like Pepcid, which are Histamine 2 Blockers. They do the same thing as Proton Pump Inhibitors, but without the connection to c. diff.

O.K. End of sermon.

Love y'all!!!!!

susan3

just got word...tests were are stable !!!!!! Happy dance time

Blessings2011

Susan - Happy Dance indeed!

sas-schatzi

Shep what was Marti's dx and what drug was she put on? At one point I thought she was having focal motor seizures. But then backed off on that b/c of another description. Oh yeah, the pacing....That was an unknown to me. What up? I'm doing split screen review. Didn't think I missed anything, but must have.

Melatonin was introduced to me by ChrissyB. She's a wonderful Aussie. In my worst days the only thing that would knock me out was Melatonin 10mg and Ativan 4mg. Chit, now I'd probably have to go to the hospital. But it was an awful, awful time. I started this thread b/c I was tried of being up in the middle of the night with no one to talk too. On about page 180 I made it my home social thread. That's when it became 24/7

In a do over I would have tried a higher dose of Melatonin. I'm big into Cytochrome450 liver enzymes. They are metabolizing pathways. Since those dark days, I think it is 1A2 has been identified as the pathway for melatonin. We are designed for it. God did it

I think if you look at more current info up to 20 mg. of melatonin is safe. Of course, just saying that is making my OCD voice repeating "Check that, Check that". Actually, should. melatonin research was blossoming. Different than other non patentable drugs.

Love it that you caught the thought about the Golden Dildo Award. Dildo's are fine. But the connotation of being such an anal wad. Yes, The doc had his WHOLE HEART TEAM quit on the same day. He was so denigrating. He was fine outside the room. When he got in the surgical room. He'd call all of them every 4 letter name in the book. On the particular day they all quit, cunt was his word of choice. Can you imagine the chit that went down when the CEO had to explain to the Board of Directors why the HEART program had to be shut down. It never leaked to the press, or maybe the press was convinced not to print it.

Being on the Heart team was my goal when I went to the OR. With the description above you can see why I didn't when I could have. But explaining to others why I didn't when I said it was my goal wasn't easy. We kept the wall of silence. Rarely, have I told that story.

sas-schatzi

Susan, just got to your post " got all my tests today, yuck day." I know in good time you will explain further.

From the topic box " "Be still and know that I am God" and "He Wept"- Susan3 and Loverfolife, 2015".

Your doc, has pulled so much out of the trick bag. I think your MO is a rare breed that should be cloned. Continue ..................and breathe, L&H&P's

sas-schatzi

Cb deleted posts, several, what's that mean?

Shep, naw, can't say broken tool in spine without the story? I'm an old OR nurse right. Details.........

susan3

sas keep reading...tests were stable ...yeahhhhh

Lookforward

Susan great news

cb123

cb

cb123

Sas,

I had total thyroidectomy due to cancer in 1992. My niece just had the same last month.

Thyroid directly relates to how your body processes calcium from Vit D. My Vit D levels are horribly low and I know there's a cancer correlation in this vitamin D thing.

My PCP has me on a weekly supplement.

cb

Blessings2011

Sorry. All I could think of was "Raindrop my @** - it looks exactly like a breast implant!"

http://www.buzzfeed.com/juliareinstein/raindrop-cake?bffbfood&utm_term=.upmGj0Ppv#.jyX8G5EeL

JunieB

Lookforward - Oregon is beautiful. Yes we do have our share of overcast rainy days, but the greenness of the landscape is so great. In the Summer, even when we have very warm weather, once the sun goes down we are able to open our windows because the temps cool down very nicely. I lived in Las Vegas, NV for 15 years and DO NOT miss it at all. I enjoy going to Portland for the day, but always am thankful when I get back to Salem.

Also, yes I do have friends who are available if I need help, but most of us would like to have a real Mom. I have a Mother, but she never learned how to be a Mom. I truly envy those who are blessed with that kind of relationship with their mothers. Oh well.

Anonymous

Good Evening Y'all! My, my everyone has been busy today.......gotta catch up.

Susan, your yucky day turned into a HAPPY day ~ Hurray!

JunieB, Don't know if insurance would cover it or not, but there are in-home caregivers available for a lower cost for cancer patients. Maybe a combo of a home aid and helpful friends? You can't be by yourself after surgery. Check with your doctor or the American Cancer Society to see what might be available for you. I'm happy for you to be having your hip fixed and so sad you don't have the support from your mom you need. (((hugs)))

Loverly, Yay for Mitzy being a good girl! As for dog hair in the bed, don't you know that doesn't "count"? It's just her special way of adding sprinkles of love to make the bed more cozy :-) I had my gallbladder out 16 years ago and my guts were never the same after. I already had GERD and a touchy stomach from years of NSAIDS (for arthritus). Now I have IBS - not as bad as yours :-( I am now lactose intolerant, cannot eat anything high in fat, nothing fried and no garlic, black pepper or other hot spices. I take Nexium first thing in the morning and Axid at bedtime. Later in the morning I take Robinul-Forte, which works to slow down rapid digestion and stop cramping. It can be taken up to 3x daily, I get by with 1x. My PCP is big on natural/herbal remedies and suggested I take Bromelain (Pineapple Extract) 3x daily. It works for digestion and for inflammation. I've gone weeks where I could skip the Robinul-Forte because the Bromelain worked so well for me.

CB, being pissed off is a-okay. When I get good and mad is when I am most productive! The dicktor (is that how to say it?) who first found my cancer told me I would "drop dead in 6 months". Pissed me off so bad that 3 years later I'm still here. Ha! Get mad, be sad, throw the grandest pity party ever. Get it out and then channel all that shite into ways to make things better. If you're not confident with your doctors, keep looking until you find someone who listens to you and knows what they are doing. Do what's best for you and your body. There are those who will tell you "horror" stories about this treatment and that treatment. They are called jackasses. Don't listen to them. Your Onc team works for YOU. Their job is to keep you comfortable and keep you here for as long as possible. Your job is make sure they do that. ( this attitude may be why my MO refers to me as "The Pain in the Butt" - he really loves me though)

Keeping Patty in my prayers ~ hope she gets to go home to her boys soon.

Sas, I'm catching up to you next...........