thread for middle age to older Christian women.

Teka

Mags, you're in my evening prayers!

bandwoman1234

Ade

Well it's going on 3 a.m. and I can't sleep (a normal thing for some of us). I just want you (especially Lita & Mags) to know that I am lifting you up to the Lord tonight and praying His grace is sufficient for you. Many of us may well walk in your shoes someday - but until then we fervantly lift you up in our prayers to the One who sees your tears and knows your pain. May you feel the Lord's arms around you and feel our love too. Thank you for sharing your hearts with us. Love, Ade

zjrosenthal

Yes Ade, same for me. I pray Lord Jesus that you give Lita and Mags peace and joy in your presence and bear with them their sufferings. Love, Jean

Ade

Decades ago as a baby Christian I read HIND'S FEET ON HIGH PLACES by Hannah Hurnard. I felt led to read it again and having lost my original in our move 4 years ago - I ordered another online. This one is in devotional form with journal space and is by/with Darien Cooper. I have to say it is blessing my socks off and SOOO much needed right now in my life! I just wanted to share with you ladies as I think it might perhaps bless some of you too. The back page says it can also be ordered from www.destinyimage.com - ISBN # 10: 0-7684-2278-7 Love, Ade

magdalene51

My oldest and one of my dearest friends has been sending a message daily on FaceBook that she and an elderly friend are praying for me together every night. Today she mentioned Jesus Calling and asked if I had a copy. I told her I did – Kath (Toby) sent it to me before either of us had received our Stage 4 diagnosis, which happened about the same time. Am I crying for her or for me, or for the inevitability of my demise, which, frankly, I wish would come sooner rather than later. This pain consumes me, inside and out, and though I know the FACT is that my Lord never leaves or forsakes me, I FEEL so horribly alone right now

zjrosenthal

Dear Mags, I wish we were closer so I could come and give you a (((((hug)))))! We love you even if from afar. I am so sorry things are so hard for you. I can't imagine. Praying right now for strength, hope and courage for you. Love, Jean

ladyb1234

Lita and Mags, my thoughts and prayers are with each of you always.

Mags, my dear friend! you are always in my thoughts and prayers. I do follow your post so that I can know what and how to pray for you. You have always been there to support, mentor, and encourage me. Although we may not frequent the same threads as often as we did at the beginning of this journey. I just want you to know you are always in my thoughts and heart! Praying right now for your strength, and praying for your DH.

Love across the miles,

Angie

magdalene51

Jo, I agree about Loveroflife's post (I call her Loverly). She speaks such words of encouragement. I know I've said it before, and I don't think I'll ever get tired of saying it: My times are in His hands. This is not the path I would have chosen for my life, but that was His plan. I love this Ginny Owen song, and the live recording has a final verse that's not on the album.

In any case, I understand what you're saying. I have no intention of taking that decision out of the Lord's hands, nor would I fault one of our sisters who did. We know the pain we go through, and that we can't know what someone else's pain is.

Jean, I know we've had the discussion in PM about living with someone who is not always emotionally stable - how they can turn it on and off in a heartbeat! How do they even do that?

Angie, my dear friend, we pretty much started this journey together, and we've touched fingertips along the way if we didn't always hold hands. You've been at least as much of a mentor to me as i ever was to you! And i'm so thankful for your continued encouragement.

I have no fear of what lies beyond, for I know my Lord is waiting. And that may be all there is to know.

Blessings

zjrosenthal

Dearest Mags, as I was listening to the song you posted Jesus dropped this thought in my head..."If you can't walk, I will carry you!" Take heart dear sister. He is carrying you. Love, Jean

Faith-840

Hello, dear friends, I've been reading and praying along for all of you. There seems to be such pain and sorrow here and I'm so sorry for that. I pray that we all find our way through these times with our dear Lord's help.

I have gotten my drug and insurance issues settled and we are getting our affairs (wills, etc.) in order. This whole experience was a wake up call to do things we've been putting off. So, in some ways, this problem has been a blessing for us. I do have a prayer request, I'm having cataract surgery on Monday and again on Feb 27th, so prayers for a successful surgery and quick healing are most appreciated. I worry a bit because my cancer meds bring my immune system down.

Jo, thank you for your banners, they always seem to be just right for the moment. Mags and Lita, you are always in my thoughts and prayers.

Nancy, I do hope that you are okay and there are no problems with your health or your mother's ongoing issues. I miss seeing your posts here.

Love, Faith ( in the future)

auroaya200882

I finally saw my new oncologist today. Monday I have a CT scan to see how am I doing after almost two months without treatment and next Friday I will start on an IV chemo called Abraxane which I had before. My hair is likely to fall again but I'm ok with that as long as it works. Prayers welcome.

Auror

Faith-840

Aurora, you will be in my prayers as you start your new treatment. I'm sure it will be a relief to finally get on with treatment but I'm sorry the need for a change was there. I'm also sorry about the hair loss again, that was one of the hardest parts for me the first time around. I'm grateful for the time it gave me, 25 yrs is great, but it was just such a visible reminder of cancer that it was hard.

As always everyone here is in my prayers and I pray that all is okay with you.

Love, Faith (in the future)

zjrosenthal

Ok ladies, I am going to try to be faithful to post gratitude each day.. I have gotten away from it and it does affect my attitude so here goes.... Today I am grateful that my dear friend Carolyn who suffered a major heart attack last week is home from the hospital with seemingly no permanent heart damage. Thank you Lord Jesus for saving her life.

Praying for Aurora, Faith, Lita and Mags for strength for today. Also for all needs here to be met, those in recovery, those in active treatment, those just starting, family needs, financial needs, insurance and for hope, encouragement, courage and faith. Love, Jean

auroaya200882

Amen Jo and thank you Jean. I had my CT scan today and will meet with my oncologist Friday to discuss results. Friday too will start chemo. Thank you for lifting me up in prayer and please keep it up

Aurora

zjrosenthal

This morning I am so grateful that my husband's neuromuscular disease is in remission. Thank you Lord Jesus. Love, Jean

Lita57

What's Nancy up to these days? Hope she's well and not stressing too much about her mom.

Keeping you all in prayer.

bandwoman1234

Dear sisters of faith,

I have felt my time on this thread was a ministry. I came on the thread like many of you who were either getting ready to go through treatment, in treatment or finishing treatment. Like most of you I had fears going through this bc journey. I was quickly welcomed and felt included like a little online bc family. I think it was probably in our hours upon hours search to find what happened to our dear Sue that some of you started thinking of me as the leader of this thread. It was never my intent to be a leader but some of the ladies started calling me just that and like it or not I tried to assume that role as best I knew how. It really did turn into a daily labor of love to uplift, encourage and pray for all of you. Anyone who came on the thread I wanted to feel welcome and did my best to do that while not forgetting anyone else. I tried to reach out to those who hadn't posted in a few days and I always wanted to point everyone to Jesus who no matter what our stage of bc or whatever they were going through I knew that was my mission.

I have seen ladies come and go. I have seen some only posting once and never coming back, some posting a lot and then disappearing and then some very faithful ladies who have been on this thread since the beginning posting over many years off and on.

I have developed some long time friendships from my time on this thread. I have cried a lot over all the ladies that we have lost but we now know are in heaven. I have taken this thread probably much more seriously than most of you realize. I have been out with friends and have just started crying from the weight of knowing what you all are going through taking some of my friends by surprise and myself as well. I have recently cried over some hurtful words that cut me to the core. I have always chosen my words very carefully and I am sure sometimes have missed the mark in my communicating my intent and apparently that recently happened.

I have at the moment decided to leave the thread and possibly BCO altogether unless the Lord hanks me back. I have been praying and grieving over this thread the past week. I have still been praying for you and I will probably continue to do so as you have been such a daily part of my life for a long time.

May we all meet in heaven if not before.

Love,

Nancy

magdalene51

Oh Nancy, my heart breaks to hear that you have been hurt so, and by one of us? I've tried to go back and figure it out, and I pray fervently it was not my doing. You have been the kindest, most understanding friend and if it was I who caused you this pain, I beg your forgiveness. You are dearer to me than you can imagine.

Love, Mags

ladyb1234

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Auroaya, been praying for your results!

Nancy, we have been together almost from the beginning and have lost quite a few friends. You and others excepted me on this thread even though I didn't meet the age qualifications but you, Sue, Lucy, Deborah Ann, Becky, Char, and others understood my need to fellowship with other Christian woman and be able to speak freely about our faith and fears. As others have come and gone you stepped up and became the anchor on this thread! Praying for you and your decision to leave BCO not just because of our friendship but because of the ministry that God has given you. His call on your life is undeniable and he has used you mightly on this thread. You not only post here but you personally reach out and make others feel special. The quality I just love about you is your attention to details -- such as you picked up on my love for butterflies and ladybugs shortly after I joined this thread. I love the way you remember the small things and use those to encourage and lift up others. Not sure how you pickup on thes things -- but you do.

I am so sorry about any words that may have hurt you. I pray that if you leave this thread that you don't move away from the call that God has on your life. My selfish want is for you to stay around on BCO, but specifically this thread. But my soul longs for you to do as the Lord truely leads you. I know we will stay in touch beyond this thread as our friendship has grown to that level.. I will pray for you and your decision.

I hurt when others hurt and will pray for healing! My heart broke when I read your post. And I cried because you are so very very dear to me.

Edited to add: if it was me I ask for forgiveness and truely apologize.

Love across the miles.

Angie

zjrosenthal

Dearest Nancy if it was me who offended you, I humbly ask your forgiveness. You have helped me more than you will ever know. I will miss you and hope that we will meet in heaven. Love, Jean

ladyb1234

Love that Sue, let the love of many out weigh the hurt from few!💞💞

ruthbru

Oops, I somehow just posted on your thread by mistake.....sorry!

ruthbru

Oops, I just posted here by mistake (it was next to a topic I was responding, you might have been rather confused by a picture of a grizzly bear popping up ).

Teka

Nancy, this Christian thread isn't an end of life thread. You've done no wrong. Hugs! )

auroaya200882

Nancy, I'm so sorry to read about you've been hurt. You have been so kind to me always reaching out to me even though I don't post as often. I respect your decision to take what I hope is a short break from BCO and pray for your heart to be healed from hurt. I know that the Lord has used you in many ways on this thread and will continue to use you wherever He may lead you.

If I may, please come back to us as soon as you are able and healed.

Love in Christ

Aurora

Lita57

Dearest Nancy, I along with others ask for your forgiveness if I ever hurt your feelings. We are all flawed human beings, and we can hurt each other (just as what we say can hurt our own family members) without even realizing it.

I take great comfort in the Lord's Prayer, "forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who trespass against us." And as part of my daily prayers I ask forgiveness for hurting others however inadvertently and unknowingly.

Sometimes just rolling our eyes or heaving a sigh or tsking with a click of the tongue is enough to hurt someone's feelings. Humans are very sensitive beings. Think how many times a day we hurt God by our actions, and yet He keeps forgiving us and giving us another chance.

One of my dearest friends said to me the first time I told her I was stage 4, "There are going to be times when I might say something that REALLY hurts you because I simply don't know exactly what you're going thru as a terminal cancer patient. I hope you won't hold it against me and that we'll always be friends regardless."

That was one of the best things anyone has said to me since my Dx.

Ade

It's almost 4:30 a.m. & I can't sleep because of irregular heartbeats. But maybe the Lord has me up to pray for you, Nancy, so I will do just that. If I have said anything to hurt you I assure you it would never ever be intentional and I ask your forgiveness. You mean so much to the ladies here and have prayed for and ministered to every soul. May the Lord comfort you with His love. He surely understands hurt. I send my love and will continue lifting you up to Him. Ade

zjrosenthal

Today I am so grateful for not having pain in my knee. A wonderful doctor gave me a shot of cortisone and I feel so much better. Praise you Lord Jesus. It is snowing a lot here. Thank you Lord Jesus that I have nowhere to go.

Just lifted you all up in prayer. Love, Jean

Ade

Beautiful, Joanne, thank you for posting!

Hugs,

Ade