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Macy187833

Hello again, I've been away from the boards. Thank you all for the best wishes about my Confirmation. I hope you all are doing well; it seems there is some good new shared on this thread recently, which is good!

I'm doing okay. I can't tell if I'm just sick with a cold or if what is in my lungs is getting worse. I began treatment so maybe that is just "stirring things up." My anxiety is high and I'm tired. Sometimes I wonder if God drew me close now through Catholicism because it won't be long until I'm with him. A sad thought, but it does go through my head. I'm hoping some of you can at least understand.

Sorry for the whining!

feelingfeline

Macy, that's not whining. They are normal human thoughts. Remember the prodigal son, Jesus tells us God wants us close to him ALWAYS, now and in eternity, whether you live to be as old as Methuselah (spelling?) or not. Best wishes with your treatment. XXX

LindaKR

Macy - welcome to the Catholic family!

AmyQ - Awesome!

GrammyR

Macy- I got closer to God way back when first diagnosed. My faith has become so much stronger as he has been there answering my prayers all along- and yes I had that thought too , but imagine the peace you get from knowing you are on " good talking terms " , so to speak w/the Lord. I thank God for each good day and take note of the little things in life that make me smile like a sunny day and my flowers blooming. You WILL get through this even though the days(and nights)can be difficult sometimes.

Hugs and prayers coming your way.

RonnieKay

Welcome & congratulations on your confirmation! Knowing you are one of His lambs & that He will always take care of you will give you peace in those moments of fear & the unknown.

A blessed Sunday to all!

Macy187833

Thank you all for your kind words!

I start chemo next week--this has been a bit of a process for me and a long story.

ElaineTherese

Let's pray for Penny. I saw on another thread that her doctors believe she has a limited amount of time left.

RonnieKay

Praying...praying.

AmyQ

Prayers for Penny

feelingfeline

Thanks so much for letting us know ElaineTherese. That is news we were all hoping not to hear. Praying for Penny and her husband and children. Tough times. May God be always with them.

RonnieKay

Amen.

redwolf8812

Love you all. There are not enough words.

Penny

ElaineTherese

Will continue praying for you, Penny. I hope your days are as peaceful and pain-free as possible.

RonnieKay

my first pic ever posted...just for you, Penny!

GrammyR

Penny- Thank you for all your wonderful posts, thanks to you I now pray the Novena regularly. I am praying and sending you big hugs. May was always the month of Our Lady Mary when I was a kid, I loved walking and singing in the procession to the grove in the church garden. I still pray to her now as she interceeds for us.

redwolf8812

Thanks so much for all your prayers. I've met with Holy Redeemer - for palliative care now - and they "bridge" over to hospice when I'm ready. Just to keep you updated. I go on Tuesday to see if I can get more chemo. Have a safe, healthy, happy, and most of all, Blessed, Memorial Day Weekend!

- Penny

RonnieKay

I happen to know Tuesday is your Birthday, Penny! Love you...and hope you have a blessed weekend. I'm glad you get an extra day of no school with the kiddos.

Jerseygirl927

hi all, been away since February while tryi to decide if I do chemo or not, well I chose chemo for now, practicality kicked in, I have been a bit remiss as I know many many people are praying for me and I have been mad tha God could give me this cross , I should be greatful that I could offer it up, but guess I am being selfish to not think that first instead of why me? Never thought that I would become a victim, but it is upon me with all these side effects, I now realize that I can offer these up now even with all the complaining I do and God understands me. I just need to ask His forgiveness for not being honest with Him and being selfish first. Praying for penny and all cancer patients everywhere. Feel better gals!

GrammyR

JerseyGirl- We all had that initial anger and why me reaction. I was a nurse so for sure not used to be on the other side. Praying to God helped me deal w/the lows of it all. I was a lapsed Catholic. You know Easter and Christmas mass only.This has all made me stronger in my faith as I know he hears our prayers at our most desperate moments.Big hugs and prayers as you begin this journey.

RonnieKay

JerseyGirl...I think God's given you clarity in how to follow through with treatment...wisdom & confidence to find a medical team that will do their best to care for you, and hopefully, healing and long years on this earth. I've heard from so many different people in this journey...whether it's oncs, techs, nurses...that there's no rhyme/reason as to who is dx with this disease...and we are the first ones to understand that! I choose to think of the impact my journey's had on others, whether to show that you can still smile, try whatever we can to live life, and have faith that there will be eternal life after this life is over. Trust me...not a day goes by that I don't wish it'd not been my cross to bear...but here I am...and blessed to have you all to support me & share my most difficult/joyful moments. I am glad you've chosen tx...and I'm praying for you & all my sisters, for complete healing...miracles welcome! Love & Hugs!

ElaineTherese

Jerseygirl,

I have two sons with autism, and, beginning in June 2014, cancer. I have often wondered, "Why me?". But, it is what it is. I'm not Stage IV, but one of the most inspirational threads on this site is Penny's "Amen for the morning." Every day, someone (usually Penny) expresses thanks for waking up and being blessed with another day. I keep that in mind, every day. Some days, when the boys have been especially trying or appointments regarding my cancer have been challenging, I think, "Amen for the morning." I am alive, and I have another day to enjoy the blessings of the Lord. I try to slow down and appreciate life itself. Hope you find a way to keep on keeping on, Jerseygirl.

Penny, I'm praying for you. I haven't been around BCO.org that long, but your faith is truly inspirational.

Jerseygirl927

thank you gals for the encouragement, and I am truly blessed that I am here, I really thought I had a good grip on this, until it got here, I just lost a friend about 3 weeks ago to ALS and he posted daily about how greatful he was that he was given a new day till then, He was so cognitive of God and his privilege of being here one more day till the end, he was 56 years young. I just really need to be more greatful and go to confession soon to get my act together, I hope to be around for a long time, God willing. Thank you fellow gals! Feel better.

redwolf8812

I'm still here. I read everyone's posts and inwardly celebrate or commiserate, depending upon the news. I try to remember to thank The Lord for each step of our journey. No matter what, there is a happy ending.

Monday being a holiday, my next appointment is on Tuesday. My bilirubin will determine whether or not I get chemo. I'm still jaundice, my eyes are yellow, and my urine is usually dark. The oncologist said this can be so even if the bilirubin comes down, so who knows what will happen. It is what it is.

I thank The Lord I was able to spend another beautiful day at the beach with good friends. Life is good.

Happy Memorial Day. Thank You, Lord, for those who've sacrificed for our freedoms.

feelingfeline

Happy Memorial Day to you Penny. Will be thinking of you tomorrow.

JerseyGirl best wishes to you with your treatment.

Jerseygirl927

Penny, be strong, God is with us every moment of every day. You are in my prayers and we will meet one day,

Maryann

MaryAgatha

Hello ladies,

I'm new to this thread. Reading some of your stories made me cry. Your courage and faith are really humbling. Elaine, I also have two children with autism (and two typically developing children). I'm only stage 1 and my nodes are clear so far, so I know it's ridiculous for me to think about death, but sometimes I am gripped with panic and fear when I think "what if..." My two children with special needs are objectively very very difficult and if I were to die on them now... for one thing, my poor husband would have a hard time finding a new wife/mother who would be genuinely patient and loving toward all my four children.

I have a BMX with reconstruction scheduled on Wednesday. I'm getting increasingly nervous as the day approaches. What if they find more serious tumors once they cut me open? What if there are serious complications or infections? How will I feel when I look down at my fake boobs? I have been asking Mary the Blessed Mother and St. Agatha, the patron saint of breast cancer patients, to intercede for me. If you ladies would pray for me as well, I would feel more at peace. I will pray for each of you as well. God bless you.

GrammyR

Mary-Agatha- Praying for good reports and successful surgery . Just think of those young faces waiting to greet you when you get home. Gentle hugs.

Jerseygirl927

maryagatha, be assured of our prayers, we are all in the same boat. I was very scared and afraid and "a what if person" like you. With you stats, you are probably a low case because it has not gone into the nodes. Just ask Our Lord to calm your over active mind. Our destinies are in the book of life, so we are here until our Heavenly Father calls us home. Be strong for your family and our prayers will carry you thru. Read the serenity prayer, it is quite calming. Hugs to all

feelingfeline

MaryAgatha, God bless you and your family. WIll be praying for you on Wed especially. XX

jjski62

MaryAgatha, praying for a successful surgery and speedy recovery. I pray for all of us here everyday for God's merciful healing and strength.