Guilt ridden for drinking/ eating~ anxiety

delaine

Hi I too am filled with anxiety and guilt over what I am eating even though I ate really quite a healthy diet and exercised every day. I used to like a glass of wine with dinner but since my diagnosis I have not had any alcohol. My bi-Max is in 10 days and I already feel defeated about my future. We had a great social life but since I found out about my cancer I am avoiding everyone. I just can't seem to find any joy in life now.

 It is ironic that I used to think that if anything serious happend to me (like cancer)  I would just do whatever I wanted - eat what I wanted, drink what I wanted and try to have fun. Turns out that I am walking on eggshells all the time. My days are filled with worry and apprehension.

I was under a huge amount of stress two years prior to getting cancer but they say I could have had it for 8 years and I don't remember being under much stress back then.  So who knows.