I'm bitchy, I moan, I groan.....anyway.

Harley44

Wish,

While you are getting chemo, you are NOT to take ANY anti oxidants, or any supplements AT ALL.

But now, we can.  My onc. told me that it is a very powerful ANTI CANCER supplement.

Harley

wishiwere

Hm...interesting..I'll have to some more research on it...all I remembered was NOT being able to take, never heard it was a good anti-cancer supplement...thanks sweetie

Hoping and saying another prayer for Sue...dang I hate not knowing how people are doing...wish there were someone to come in and update when someone is having surgery and can't...

Harley44

I agree...  I hope Sue will be able to post here soon, so we know she is ok.

Harley

P.S.  I am taking Curcumin and have been for almost 2 years now.  I know other women who take Turmeric, but I just take the Curcumin, because that is the active ingredient in Turmeric.

tnbcRuth

Denise and Barb - my whole life turned upside down a few years ago and bc was thrown in for good measure I guess~  Sometimes life truly sucks and I use Barb's method...OK< I"VE HAD IT !!   And I do calm down as well.  I even tried on a plastic bag for my head.  Sick?  I guess, but a lot of us here are on the verge of crazy from this.

Just try to get thru another day because this will pass.   

After 5 years alone and over a year without a job- in the same week, I got a great job (amazing, absolutely amazing in this economy/my age/etc) AND an old boyfriend from 30 yrs ago contacted me, we met and are happily dating.  I NEVER would have even hoped for 2 good things. I was in the minus column for degree of hope, so if it can happen to me..... 

sueper13

I'm baaaack!  The surgery went well, well, really well actually.  The thoracic surgeon said all the bone including the sternum looked clean and healthy, that if he hadn't known there was cancer in the sternum he never would have suspected it.  The PS took a slice of the pectoralis muscle from my right DIEP flap ( ! ) and filled where about a  3" section of the sternum was removed.  I was supposed to be on bed rest and with a catheter for the first day, but got them  to remove the cath midafternoon and was able to pee (HALLELUJAH!).....I am already home from the hospital and things are going amazingly well. My appetite has returned after weeks of not really being hungry, I have energy, and considereing I had surgery 2 days ago, I feel better than I have in months!   Now they will analyze the tumor on a molecular level....and I think I might be doing some Xeloda just to be sure.  Anyway, I feel incredibly blessed and grateful.  Thanks for the prayers!!

Love,

Sue

wishiwere

Ruth~  Congrats on a fantastic turn-around....it's great to hear good news on these boards as always

{{{Sue}}} So fantastic you are doing so great, but remember to not overdo it, just b/c you are feeling so fine dear!!  You've a great fighting stance there lady!  WTG!!!!  

barbe1958

Sue GREAT to hear you have surrmounted the surgery!! Woo hoo!!! Now treat yourself like a recovering patient and give yourself daily treats and pleasures....

Ruth I am so FRIGGIN' happy for you!!!!! Is this recent or years ago?? How did you get a double-fisted hit like that???? My expression is "I'm done", like stick a fork in me, I'm done. When I allow myself to say that, it is very freeing because anything that happens after that is bonus! Here's to good relationships and happy jobs!!!!

Denise2730

Ditto to what Barbe said. ^^^^

miasanta2007

Sue! That's wonderful! I have a question: Did you have any symptoms from the met?

Barbe! You are soo right, whatever it is, if you turn it over to god, your higher power or whatever, when you finally decide to give up and let whatever happens happen, it IS freeing (and usually good things will happen). But yes, I'm sure the wait on results sucked a big one!!

Ruth! Unbelievable and amazing! Go girl!

Harley44

YAY, SUE!!   So glad you got through your surgery so well!! 

WHOHOO!!   You will only need to do Xeloda and you will be DONE!!  

Harley

tnbcRuth

Sue- that is so wonderful!!!  I am so glad everything went well!  Hooray!!!

Barbe- This just happened!! The phone call from the old friend was 2 1/2 weeks ago and the phone call saying I got the job (without even having to interview) was 2 days later!   I've met up with him and we are both silly over each other....and just finished my 1st week of work.  I am beyond exhausted but anticipate it getting better.  AND, I just ordered areola tats in case we progress to 'intimate moments'.  I completed a survey at the web site and they are mailing me a free sheet...   http://www.areolatattoo.ca

I hate to say it but I will.... I WAS OVERDUE FOR SOMETHING GOOD !!!!!! 

Harley44

tnbcRuth,

YAY!  Yes, you WERE overdue for something GOOD!!!

 So glad to read some GOOD NEWS, for a change...

Harley

Traci-----TripNeg

Holy Sucking Crap!! I've been on numerous times but couldn't remember what forum this thread was in and didn't see it in the Active threads so thought it had gone away.....I've just spent the last two hours catching up and see that no....stuff to bitch about is alive and well!

Sue, I'm going to PM you. I lost all my contacts in my phone about six months ago and have thought of you so often. I read each page waiting to hopefully hear good news. I'm so glad you are okay.

I didn't write anything down won't even attempt to try to remember all the suckiness going on, so here's a big group (((((hug))))) for everybody. 

I'm in limbo. I can fake it pretty good on Facebook, but I'm happy to have this place to be able to let out some truth. I quit paying my $918 monthly insurance premium in January. Iliterally was not making enough money to pay all my bills. I got a second job for awhile and that was good, but I'm just too tired and bitchy to go to work after I get off work, so I quit. It's nice to have a little spending money, but the added level of stress wondering if I'm going to get in a wreck, have an accident, or a recurrence hasn't been good. At all. I'm really taking chances with that, I know. Work is okay, and I'm grateful to have a job, but man, oh man, do I miss being self employeed. I cannot remember ANYTHING. My memory is gone and it SUCKS. My reconstruction still sucks.I went to a football game and the guy sitting next to me was staring at my chest and I looked down and realized that some of the tissue I had stuffed my bra with had slipped out. Yes, I have the fake boob things but the are sooooo heavy. My waist is literally 5 inches bigger than my hips and I freaking HATE the term 'muffin top' because it's way too applicable to me. My OAOA just called me again.....whining.....will that ever end? I've been in Dallas for 3 1/2 years and have not had ONE date. And, I still don't want one. Or, do I? The thought of a man seeing me naked makes me want to throw up. One of my best friends' 25 year old son killed him self with a drug overdose. My Nephew came to stay with me for a few months, but he moved and I'm all alone again. Almost, all the time. I miss my friends in Florida so much. (Palm Harbor/Tampa Bay Area, FL by the way) And my Sister that lives here (only family here) is a bitching basket case that hates her stepdaughters and goes into a rage every time her husband wants to spend money on them.(Our Dad never gave us anything, so they shouldn't get anything either. WTH? I so think the opposite.) Oh, and, she works out 7 days a week and won't stop talking about thinking that she will eventually get me to cave. Oh, and remember a few hundred pages back when I talked about my favorite Nephew getting out of prison? Well, he just got busted again, this time for trafficking cocaine and is now facing 10 years. Dumb a**.

Other than that.....Sorry that was so long. Coming here and reading the last 20 pages and getting that off my chest has made me feel better!!!

Love you guys!!

Traci

Anonymous

Welcome back Traci!!!! Well after being MIA for soooo long you deserved a good long rant!!

Barbe, hey, things will get better..........something to celebrate your tests were B9, so yay!!!

Sue, so glad things went so awesomely well and your bouncing back! Sweet music to the ears, I was soooo worried for you! Wishing you a relaxing weekend at home with lots of yummy food for that appetite.

Ruth.....glad things are looking up for you!

Harley44

Traci,

(((HUGS)))   Crap, girl...  you have too many issues of suckiness at one time!  

Hoping things improve for you.  I love ya, girl!

Hey crazydaisy,

Good to see you here.  You aren't stalking me, are you?  LOL    

Harley

P.S.  I am on here so very early in the morning, because my dh snores and he refuses to get it checked out by a doctor or to wear those band-aids on his nose....    UGH....

Connie07

Hi everyone! Welcome to the newest ones, isn't this just an awesome place?  You can come and vent and read about all the other crap you don't have to deal with, but someone else is.

I had a CT abdomen friday, no kidney stones. Now an MRI cause there's blood in my urine and there is no infection. OHH.. can't do the MRI yet cause it takes a week or so for approval from ins. MAN THAT SUCKS SUCKS SUCKS.  I HATE THE INSURANCE POWER. It's just so wrong.

Barbe - yeah, that cipro was like 500mg. 2x a day. I know it's not the answer. Just wish I knew. Sometimes I can take the worry straight to the top..  what if,,, it;s another CA? what if... it's lung cancer and they are all black?  what if they never find the source of the blood?  and it festers until its cancer and eats me from the inside out.    stop. stop the mental madness.  I really don't like the way I talk to me.

rant. love it. relief. ahhhhhhh

~Connie

Harley44

Connie,

Hope everything is ok, on your MRI...  I'll be thinking about you and hoping and praying for B9!

Waiting really SUCKS, doesn't it??

HUGS
Harley

barbe1958

Still saying polycystitis Connie. Keep us posted sweetie!

Go Ruth, go!!!!

That SUX to everyone else!

AussieSheila

Oooooh, (moan) mmmm, (groan) I may be in trouble again.  Rolled over in bed last Sunday night while having a cough, and.........craaack, sharp pain in back as if I had been hit by a spear!  Broken lower left rib, I thought, having experienced this twice (right side) in the last 12 months.  Add to this the fact that for the last five weeks, my right shoulder feels as if it has a two ton lead weight attached to it.  Being right-handed, this is dammed inconvenient! 

Due to progression on bone mets in spine, I will be having rads to said lower spine for the next week.  DH rushed home from work (350 miles away) as soon as I told him and insisted I go to GP asap Monday.  My onc forgot to write me out a CT full body bone scan referral at last visit so I had to get that done by GP too.

Today, while having the CT, and without having mentioned the broken rib issue by word or referral, the tech came in at the end and said that it would take a bit longer as we had to get a 3D scan of the ribs.  So, as a result, I now think there is a very cracked/broken rib or maybe something more sinister lurking in my future. I will have to wait until next Tuesday to see my Onc to get the results.  

I think my current meds have reached their 'used by' dates and might be moving on down the options list.  

We shall see..........I can hear that long slurp of suckage coming after me.

Sheila.

sueper13

Sheila,

THAT SUCKS! And the WORST part for you is right now, when you "know" something but have no logical medical info.  The WAITING.  The THOUGHTS. Been there, done that.  Wish it was easier, or different.  Wish there was more to say.  TRULY SUCKS!

Harley44

Sheila,

Aw, That SUXS, girl!  Hope it is nothing sinister....    Will be keeping you in my thoughts.

GENTLE HUGS
Harley

wishiwere

Dang it....{{{{Sheila}}}} It all sounds so horribly painful not to mention the scary 'waiting' game hon.  Wrap yourself in our {{hugs}} and prayers lady...we're thinking of you often.

Traci~  Cool to hear from you, and even COOLER you get to RANT & RAVE as we do everyday on a great thread YOU started hon!

Sorry for you suckage, but dang nice to hear from the oldies and greaties

~~~ (waves) to all I've missed over the last couple years  

Connie07

I came in here tonight because I knew that Barbe would tell me what to ask about in reference to the ridiculous number of UTI dx's and blood of both cell colors in 4 recent UA's. Not visible blood but definately feeling the symptoms. THANK YOU.. BARBE. Once again, you have helped me out. I am doing the MRI on Tuesday.

Aussieshella, so, so sorry for the super-suckage.  you broke a rib by coughing?? I didn't know that was really possible and it's gotta SUCK. Hope it's not any worse than that.

I was denied on the extended long term disability claim. The clains handler talked to me like I was an idiot (thats how she made me feel) and when I wrote an appeal, she picked it apart, targeting my use of adjectives like when I said that the pain was "overwhelming" -- like, what?  I talk like that, I do. what was I supposed to say? It hurt so bad that I involuntarily curled up into a fetal position and cried for 3 hours?  I know she was doing her job, which was to deny me any further claim/benefits. So I wrote the State insurance commissioner and filed a formal complaint. Let that insurance department chew on that for a while. I'm not overwhelmed all the time but more than I'd like to admit. And its from a neck injury and surgery and OA and Degenerative disc disease. and these damned UTI's. Need to find out where the blood is comming from.   

Still haven't spoken with or visited Mother. I am so tired of playing her games and I have stuff of my own and talking with her only raises my stress levels. I did write my brother and he wrote back as if he had his nice face on that day. He's a pawn in her mind games. I quit playing that shit this year, for good. It's hard but what isn't?

Well that's a lousy way to start a Friday!  Maybe i should seek sleep again and quit bitchin.

Connie

bookart

Found out this morning I overpaid one credit card bill to the detriment of another.  My screwup, but not fixable.  Now i have to find the money to make sure the other bill gets paid.  I just wanna cry. 

AussieSheila

Yes Connie, just a cough broke this one!  I broke the first one last Sept (10) How I do not know........had the pain for a few weeks and then my Onc wondered why I hadn't told her about the cracked rib scar when it showed up on a CT.  In April I lifted my arms to take my grandson from his father who is 6"4' and 'snap' same rib again.  It looks like the biphosphonate has done it's job too well after 2 years.

Today, I went for the planning session for my rads next week and got my first ever 'Tatt'.........a full stop.......period.......if you know what I mean like this   .  oooh, I'm so tuff now.

Sheila.

sueper13

Sheila,

Congrats on joining the ranks of the tastefully tatted!!

Connie, sorry for the denial....and the way she treated you.

Bookart:  I have done the same thing... except I paid two car payments twice each and had to borrow money to last to the end of the month!  Embarrassing!!!

beccad

I am sorry about eveyones suckiness. And now to add to the suck factor. My house was broken into while DH and I were at work today. The b@$7@rd$ took the TV, a computer, and a few small things. I am more upset that they kicked in the backdoor and then went merrily out the front. We have already had the police out here, and I have called the ins. co., but........... Why in the hell do these things have to happen to us?

StillKicking

I got a letter from the IRS regarding my request for a waiver of penalties.  No reason to mess up my weekend.  I'm waiting until Monday to open it.

sueper13

StillKicking, you gots  COPING SKILLS!!!!!

TooManyCocktails

I feel like crap today!  All *&^%$ day!  I've been taking pain meds, nerve pills, allergy pills, putting on heat pads, rubbing my legs, ....  Cancer is a big sucky cow!  I'm glad that this was the last dose of Abraxane!  I can't take it anymore!

StillKicking, I didn't even know you could request a waiver of penalties.  That's about the best thing I read all day.  I'm gonna do it too!  I know, just because one asks for something doesn't mean that one is gonna get it; but it's worth a try.