I'm bitchy, I moan, I groan.....anyway.

tnbcRuth

I have done my fair share of bitching and complaining, but I have good news to share!  I finally, finally got a job!  I've been kinda looking since February but scared because my brain is still scrambled.  I was a loan processor in both mortgage and title, and this job is in mortgage as an ASSISTANT !  Yay!!!  That takes all the pressure off, whew.  Its 5 miles from home and in Orlando that's a very good thing.  Pay is excellent and from what I have read, I get benefits right away!!  I got hired directly from my resume, no interview!!  Amazing!  There are a few other things that need to fall into place...but as much as I have been hating my life for the last 4 years, maybe this is finally the turn.  I'm afraid to hope that things will actually ever be good again, but it sure feels nice to know I have somewhere to go in between bed and sofa.  

9-11  I cried my eyes out during the memorials on tv this morning.  Thanks Connie for posting kind words. 

Hauntie

I just got back from a week of vacation. I just noticed I hadn't posted about the results of my tests. My eyes are back to normal. All the heart tests turned out ok. My PC is going to refer me to a cardiologist just to make sure she didn't miss anything. She can't figure out what caused my blood work to indicate that my heart was under stress. I'm having repeat blood work tomorrow, which will hopefully be normal. The highlight of my vacation was driving to NJ to have dinner with some of the BCO gals, including Chrissy - on the first stop on her US tour. Four of us ended up back in my hotel room chatting until 1:30 a.m. It was a great time.

bookart

I've been swamped so I haven't been on BCO in weeks.  It sounds like the suckage is abating for the time being - that is excellent!  Barbe, prayrv - our website isn't up yet; i don't have one up either 'cause I'm a bizzy girl.  I'll have to figure out a way to get some of my art posted - some of it is on flickr under elainetaylorart, but it's a bit hard to find.  Gallery night was terrific and exhausting.  I'm still recovering, but I have to go back to work Monday morning, so I better get to bed!  prayrv - I've taught at TCC-NE, but now I'm over at DCCCD - I like their system better.

juliet62

congratulations ruth!  have driven in orlando  so 5 miles yes

barbe1958

Ruth - CONGRATS!!! This is YOUR year, sweetie! Sounds like a good match for you, so happy for you, sweetie!

Thanks for the update on your health (finally!) Hauntie!

barbe1958

I googled you and found you bookart!!!

I LOVE smc45, terrace wall and smc36 the best!! The others I 'just' like ehehhehehehehe

You must be FILTHY when you finish!

miasanta2007

Ruth: Very, very happy for you! Loving the good news!

Connie07

Ruth - Congrats and more congrats on the job. I've been thinking of looking again. Thinking. 

Tired. I'm just tired, all the flippin time. I try to keep busy and that makes me tired. Tired makes me sad. Money makes me sad. Worry about it makes me tired. 

Barbe - How are you doing these days?  Is your day as busy and full as expected? Or do you miss the routine and people at work?

 Bookart - Congrats on the opening. What a rush that must be, to have your art hung and showing! Awesome.

Is it 5 o'clock somewhere.

~Connie

barbe1958

My days are FULL of doc appts for my DH or I. Yesterday I had an ultrasound for nodes on my neck and they did an immediate biopsy! My DH now has a nodule on his lung as well as his kidney. Can you say stressed????

prayrv

Barbe,

(((((((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))))))

Trish

sueper13

Hugs, too, Barbe and DH....remember stressed backwards is desserts.  I'm just sayin'.

Hauntie

Barbe - hang in there. You need some pocket pals - I'm there.

prayrv

Barbe,

When do you get the results of your biopsy?   Thinking of you today.

Trish

barbe1958

I was told 5 days for results. I called my doc yesterday to give the office a heads-up to watch for the results. I will be more nervous as time goes on as my doc phones once he has the next specialist appt booked so he has a plan! That takes an extra day or two....

Strangely enough, I have made up in desserts since Monday! It must be something subliminal..heheheh

tnbcRuth

Barbe - thinking of you~

barbe1958

I will take all the hugs, good wishes and prayers anyone wants to pour over me!! Now is NOT the time for me to be gracious!!! Thank you to you all!!!

chabba

Barb, you have my prayers too. 

Reading your last post it occurs to me you can't help being gracious.  But if you ever should not be or if your wonderful sense of humor should fade for a while we will all understand! 

sueper13

Exactly, POUR over you, that is the kind of prayer I will surround you with today.  Many many hugs and boundless good wishes!!! 

Connie07

(((((((((((BARBE))))))))))))))))))))))  You do not deserve any more bad news

Dear Barbe, I'm so sorry that it's so hard. I often wonder why good people are challenged in health related ways? Between the two of us, whoever is doing the challenging must be having a really good time..

I'm down again. UTI and kidney pain again this week. showing white and red blood cells but culture not growing anything. Taking hydrocodone 10/tylenol and laying around like a worthless excuse for anything. Headaches, backaches, left side pain to tears, crying, bitchy, moaning and groaning. arrrgh. Why's it have to be so mean? .

barbe1958

Coni, my kidney issues ended up being a Perfusion defect in my kidney and IC. You HAVE to get yours settled!!! Mine finally got settled this spring with a very expensive drug called Vesicare that I take with my other 21 pills a day!!!  Mention it to your doc. I didn't believe my doc (didn't want to!) but when my sample ran out I forgot about it until I was back to the pain level that you are at now!!!

It can't hurt to ask and it IS working for me. I know you and I had very similar symptoms.

TooManyCocktails

I have been having problems with kidney and bladder pain too.  I thought that I was passing a stone. I have had a stone get stuck in a ureter before; and it did hurt like hell.  I had to have it surgically removed.

I do have a stone in my left kidney; but the doctors say that it's not blocking anything??  Anyway, that is the side that hurts the most when I have kidney and bladder pain.  I wonder if it's trying to move?

Connie07, I'm with you on taking pain meds.  I thought about going to the ER a couple of times.  The pain seems to be calming down.  Maybe, I passed a stone?

Connie07

I had ultrasound, kidneys/abdomen about a year ago, no stones. Not that they couldn't have formed in the meantime, but this is #3 incident this year. in 2010 I was on antibiotics for 6 months total. That's just wrong and it's been like this for 4-5 years now.

I have an 8:30 am appt with my primary care and will ask about IC and about kidney defects. I am sick of being blown off. Seems like I have to claw and scratch and fight for any medical help. It's so frustrating. .. here, take these pills and go away.  What happened to our doctors? I know they are overworked and overwhelmed but they have my records, can't somebody see that this has been going on for years now and that it hasn't stopped??? A 7 day Cipro Rx just does not solve this ongoing problem.

Nightmare. awful, awful nightmare. Thanks, your support always feels good.

Connie

tnbcRuth

Ladies- I agree with you...it is not fair!  Please continue to bitch and moan!!!!  

flash

a big "that suxs" to all who need it.  thank goodness this site is here to bitch and moan.

hugs to all and wishes for a better tomorrow. 

barbe1958

Connie, 7 days on Cipro is too long if you have a high dose script! Mine are for 3 days only. Check the small print on your bottle!!! Try not to have to take them as each time you take them, your body figures a way to get around the antibiotic part and you will not be able to use that antibiotic in the future if your infections learn to beat it.

You MUST see a Urologist. Not a Nephrologist (I have one of those too!!). Or, try to get your doc to give you a script for Vesicare. Scare him into taking you seriously. My Urologist worked with me for THREE years before he finally gave me the script. It is very expensive, but seems to be working.

My perfusion defect was found only on a DOUBLE-contrast CT scan.

Denise2730

After reading the last 10 pages or so of this thread, I've decided that compared to what some of you are going through right now, I have no room to complain.

The biggest sucky thing I am going through is not being able to see my granddaughter who is a little over 2 1/2. My son's ex has hooked up with another guy and has a 10 month old son with this guy so they want my son out of the picture. To make things worse my son is not my granddaughter's biological father (he was an abuser and in jail) but he stepped up to the plate from the day DGD was born, even put his name on the birth certificate. Now when we try to get to see her the bitch always throws "you're not her real father" at him even though in every way possible she was his child and she was my grandchild. She called me Nona and loved being with me. For crying out loud she spent the first 2 years of her life with us including when her so called mother was in jail for selling drugs and when she just couldn't be bothered with my GD. When she visited me here after the bitch took her back she never wanted to go home; said new BF was "mean". I miss her so much. She would fall asleep on my 36D boobs (which are now gone, replaced with rock hard TE's) and I would just watch her sleep. I now understand how adoptive parents can love their adopted children as much as they would a biological child. We haven't got the money for a lawyer but my son and I are making an appt with Legal Aide to see if we can do something about all this.

The only good thing in this mess is the bitch's parents are decent, Christian people and they keep me up to date as much as the bitch allows them to.

Physically I don't feel great, besides BC I also have fibromyalgia but thankfully I don't have to work anymore.  So glad this site is here cuz I don't want to annoy my family with all this crap.

Anonymous

Barbe, looks like all your retirement time is way too busy with doctors! That sux!! Hope your biopsy will be B9, you don't need any more on your plate!

chiluvr.......grrrrrrrrrrr, that makes me mad just reading it. Poor kid, it's always the kids that suffer in a situation like that! Hope you get to see the little one more.

Sue......hope the resection works for you (((HUGS)))

A Huge That SUXS to all who need one!!

Denise2730

Did I happen to mention my son (my DGD's father) has a lump under his left nipple?  He's freaking out of course although my BS said there was only a 5% chance it was cancer. He has an ultrasound scheduled for next week.

That's my groaning for today (so far).

barbe1958

That's a BIG SUX chili!!!! It can run in the family and that means to men too. Please keep us posted.

bookart

I'm just getting back on after taking a few days off.  Barbe, I hope for B9 for both of you.  I'm glad you enjoyed my artwork!  My suckage this week is that we got slapped with a cease and desist order from the code people for running a "business" in a residential zone.  We are shut down for now, and just trying to figure out what to do next.  It was just supposed to be an opportunity for artists to get their work out there, but we got swamped with hundreds of people that night, and someone in the neighborhood got their panties in a wad and ratted us out.  So back to square one.