5 NEW ANGELS

PuppyFive

OH MY......{{{SIS}}}

{{{FAITH}}}

{{OUR BABIES}}

I will have to come back later......

what a Beautiful, wonderful, fantabulous day to come Home....

{{{{{Norm}}}}}

YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.............

Love Puppy

faithandfifty

Oh happy, happy, happy day!!

Puppy is back! KimberSIS finished her treatment! Norm is chugging along holding us all up!

And look what happened on Earth Day:

Thank you Brenda and all you children for shepharding these new angels into our very midst. You watched over them for so long and I will be forever grateful. Please continue to grace us with your cheer and energy.

"Smooth as silk" just as Norm predicted:

Trevor is 6 pounds and 5 ounces & McKenna is 5 pounds 12 ounces. Born one minute apart!!

Love to each of you and all of our AngelWatchers! 

norm

The ANGEL"S are smiling on this SPECIAL DAY!

      So GRANDMA,how are the twin's and daughter,you look sooooooo proud!!!!!!congradulation's Faith.

      I hope your S/A aren't  too bad this time(LAST TIME;yea-haw!!)Kimberley. over done gone,right on.CAN you feel that,your hair is starting it's return,a little fuller/thicker.You better make an appointment with your salon,maybe that robin need's a new nest(wig)haha

Puppy;good to hear from ya,keep on smiling.You've made us all smile soooo often!!!

      Angel's are smiling

                            It is truly a BLESSED DAY!

                                                      norm

footprintsangel

 Dear Angelwatchers, I turned in more money for the Relay May 15  and 16, I still am working on doing better. I still have the first medal I got when I was having high chemo 2005. Every day is a gift and I really would like to think of all you people in this group and thank you. Well I need to count my blessing and call it a day. Angel Hugs to all, Debbie

SISKimberly

Good Morning Angel Watchers,

Oops almost posted on page 11 not looking to see that you all had gotten to page 12. Almost missed the pics.

Man was yesty a long day.  Went to breakfast with my twinsis. Unfortunately, what my brain thought I wanted didn’t taste good at all, thankfully the fruit and toast were enough. Then it was off to the oncologist.  He was very understanding of my decision not to do radiation and HT, but really wants me to get second opinions to ease his mind that I really did get all the information I needed beyond my own research.  I agreed to do that to ease his mind, although I am very at peace with my choices as is my family.  His wife had breast cancer, so he wants me to see her radiological oncologist and then find another Breast Cancer Center of my choosing to visit, and he’ll send my records.  After that it was off the my last chemotini lounge visit.  It took a long time.  I got there at 11am and didn’t leave until a little after 3pm. After my antibiotics and chemotini were down the hatch, I walked back to my oncologists office and into their chemo lounge to pass off my Super Girl cape to one of the young nurses who is pregnant- due in two months with a boy- who was diagnosed with breast cancer. She’s been through two treatments all ready and has all ready lost her hair. She’s got a really cute wig though.  Anyway, she was so excited to be passed the cape. My twinsis needed to be back in Folsom by 4pm for a meeting, so we stopped at Starucks for a decaf latte to go and a Ginger cookie.  I went home with her and called Greg to pick me up at her house after work.  By the way, my darling dh sent me flowers to the infusion center to congratulate me on my last chemotini.  He is the best!  My twinsis made dinner for Greg and I, so we didn’t get home until after 8pm. Wish I could have checked in with you all, but I went straight to bed.


Norm- Good to hear from you. Thanks for the celebratory WhooHoo!!!  Hope all is well in your world.  And have your angels been busy watching over us.  What a blessing!!!!  They had a very busy few months taking care of me and our babies.

Faith- OH, how beautiful the babies are and so big and healthy!!!!  Lots of angel dust spread over the past few months, eh?   And don't your look like a proud grammy!!!   I'm certain that you were nervous for your girl, but you look like you got through it with flying colors. How's our proud momma doing?  Your sil?

My twinsis and I toasted you all both at breakfast thinking the babies were about to be born and then again with a Starbucks coffee, which I had after my infusion before heading back to her house knowing the babies had most likely already been delivered.

Did I already say that your pic of WonderBoy on his birthday was so darling? How does he feel about his new sibs? 

Puppylove- As always, my day starts with love and blessings for you and all of our sisters on these boards.  I hope you're feeling that love wrapped around you and that you are getting through whatever it is you need to get through with peace in your heart. (((HUGS)))  Oh, I'm so glad you checked in...always so good to read your posts.

Debbie- Glad you've found a home here with us.  Hope you have a wonderful day today, and good luck with your fundraising.

Love to you all,

SIS KImberly

PuppyFive

I LUV YOU ALL.........

footprintsangel

Dear  Friends, Please pray for my friend, I went to the bank and my teller is almost due to have a baby  and found out fhe has a lump that has grown to a size of a quarter(was a dime) I am hoping that she find out good news, For her and her baby. Thanks for your prays and everyone here, I am prayng for you too. Take care, Debbie

faithandfifty

AngelWatchers: Just want you to know that I am attempting to juggle my life back into the excitement of the twins arrival. I'll be gone for a bit -- have travel till late Sat.

Now I need additional prayers for DD Sarah as she attempts to recover from the toxemia of the conclusion of the pregnancy. Her blood pressure keeps climbing, in addition to the other things and they are "concerned."

Angels...... you've gotten us this far. I trust in your new-angel power to get us thru this, too.

LOVE LOVE LOVE and blessings to each and all here

PuppyFive

XOXOXOXO

{{Sarah}}

SISKimberly

Good Morning Angel Watchers,

Feeling tired and got the rock in the gut (last time I'll have to say that..whoohoo...as it will only last about 7 days or so), but needed to check in.

 Debbie and Faith- I am sending out positive thoughts into the universe for both your teller friend who is pregnant and has discovered a lump growing and for your darling Sarah as she works through the complications of her pregnancy.  

Puppy and Norm- Thinking of you both and holding you both near to my heart.

If I'm not on the boards for a few days, know that I'm thinking of you all, and I will return once the fog lifts.

SIS Kimberly 

norm

Hello ANGEL WACTHER"S;just a short note,checking in.

                                        Well,Faith,you must feel some of the stress has taken it's toll,time for a little (me time?)We all run out of gas sooner or later,get some much needed rest!!!!!

                                        Kimberley;I am sooooo happy your done with your chemo!Your feeling pretty bad right now,but know it will pass and you can tell ca*!#* to kiss your a**!I had two pink ribbon decal's made with 'Find The Cure on them,big enough to take up the back side window's of my car,it's an all black magnum with the window's smoked-out so they really standout.It's turned alot of head's.Hopefully more people will become aware of this dreaded illness and do more!!!!!!!! I hope your s/a are bearable this time and pass soon......

                Puppy;how you doing?Is your path of treatment getting any clearer yet?Know we are all praying for you and that your in my thought's!!!!!

               Well I brought my two puppies home from Ed's yesterday,I think I made a mistake!All the other pup's were sold right away and I think I'll sell these two guy's(american bulldog's)they are so cute(8wks.old and already 18lbs.)I'm having a hard time looking after myself never mind 2 puppies.

              Footprintangel;sorry to hear about your friend,must keep positive!I'll keep her and you in my prayer's!!!!!!

               T.F.L.;norm

     ps.Why does such shitty thing's happen to such good people?

PuppyFive

{{{{{{{{{{Norm}}}}}}}}}}

PuppyFive

{{{Sweet Sarah}}}

and All.... XOXO Puppy

joyh

Kimberly - I am four weeks out from last chemo and spent four hours raking leaves yesterday, plus I am babysitting two year old gd.  You will be amazed at how well you will feel soon. Hooray for last one.

Puppy, you're in my prayers.  

Faith, congratulations, and oh how much fun the next years will be. They are all precious.  

Norn, so good to hear from you.  Love what you have done to your rear window.  Maybe it will wake some people up.  I have been wishing for a dog for you.  Perhaps just one?  Or perhaps another breed.  I don't know how I could have gotten through the last five months of chemo without my sweet Susie sitting in my lap.  She seemed to know something was not right and has not left my side since Nov.  I wish the same for you, something warm   to love and hold and sleep with. Someone to say, "lets go for a ride". Almost all hotels in the states accept pets now ( I know) although sometimes there is a small pet fee.  You are in my prayers daily for the strength you need.  I admire you for the way you are picking up the pieces.  Brenda was a lucky woman.    Joy

faithandfifty

Angel Watchers.... what a season it's been!! The babies feel like a miracle each and every time I hold them. So much to be grateful for in that department!! Now to support my dau as she attempts to juggle so very much, on her own.

Norm: I'm checked into my hotel in Indy, it was less than four hour drive over to here. It's an 'exclusive' type set-up. For example: they had a chocolate fountain stationed next to the elevator with fresh strawberries and pineapple chunks. WOWOW. Right now I've got my feet propped up & I might just order from room service. See I can learn to give myself some sweetness. Please ask Brenda to continue to oversee the resurrection of my DD from her agonizing side effects etc. Knowing you will encourage me is a big help.

KimberSIS: WHOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOO. There may be fog hovering today, but know that it's on it's way out and permanently!! I'm so thrilled that you'll have all summer to regain your energy and excitment for the season and school year ahead. Thanks so much for your support thru all of the twins excitement.

PuppyLovey: I just hold you completely in my heart..... asking for miracles to pour into your brain and flow from there, right into your very spirit. I am always so uplifted by the scripture passages & images that you share. What an incredible gift you are to each of us! Strength to you thru the waiting and wondering. Was it the 'ScareCrow' that asked for a brain from the Wizard? I'm so tired I can't even remember which character needed the brain. LOL. You've already got a HUGE heart so that's taken care of.

Joy: Thanks for stopping back. It's great to have your voice and insight here. I'm so glad that your Susie was good company thru your journey. It sounds like you're a BUNDLE of energy! Four hours of raking is a whole lotta raking!! We don't have that many trees at our house, but congratulations on a job well done.

FootPrintsDeb: wondering if your friend has found out any news yet? Of course, let her know of this amazing resource. There is such a wealth of knowledge & experience here -- whatever the outcome of her current story.

P.S. Puppy.... I just LOVE that little concept in your quote above: "I'll be your umbrella." All we gotta do is shelter each other in the storms. Here's a happy umbrella -- cuz I know you'll share it.

Blessings to all our angel watchers & other readers here.

norm

Hello ANGELWACTHER"S,well another week as passed and what an amazing week it was!!

                 As Kimberley finished her final chemo the miracle of life took place with the birth of Faith's twin GRANDCHILDREN!!!!!!If your daughter is half as strong as you Faith,she'll do just fine.....

                 Hope you all have a relaxing week-end...T.F.L.norm

 P.S.  Joyh;thank's for the word's of encouragement!But I must say,you wrong about one thing;I was the lucky one!!!!!!!

                                                             T.F.L.;norm

                           

norm

PUPPY;thank you!!!!!!!

footprintsangel

Hi Angelwatchers, I have not heard anything yet. I am going in to check on her tomorrow, Puppy how are you doing? Have you every notice you get drained sometimes fighting? I dont know what I would do without my angels. My friends, I am sending you alot of good thoughts and let you know, You are all wonderful people. I am sore all over from the chemo pill and the arthitis and lymphedema. But it happens sometimes when you do for others you forget yourself! My thought are with you. Luv Debbie

PuppyFive

{{{Debbie}}}

{{{{{Angel Watchers}}}}}

All My Love.............

SISKimberly

Hi Angel Watchers,

Not a lot of energy, but just wanted to stop by and say, the infection has left the building!!!!!  WhooHoo.  After almost 19 days of antibiotics, we've got it on the run. Only 4 more days to go. 

I've read all the posts, but just don't have the energy yet to address you all.  Just know that I so appreciate all of your love and support, and as always, I keep you all close in my heart.

SIS Kimberly 

norm

Hello everyone.I just need to write or something.When the accident happened there was alot of media coverage,tv,radio,newspaper's and of course the Internet.I was sitting here tonight thinking about it and I goggled Brenda's name,I wish I hadn't.Most of it is off now except 3 or 4.CBC new's still is running it,which I've seen over and over but I hadn't noticed on the right side(related story)There were two 5 minute video clip's of the crash sight and an interview with our school,picture's of Brenda and the kid's!It brought back..........I can't get the vision of the wrecked car out of mind,even when I close my eyes I still see it,I can feel the terror they must of felt before impact.         gota go norm

PuppyFive

{{{{{{{{{{Norm}}}}}}}}}}

Let It Go {{{{{Brother}}}}} You will never move forward.......

I know this is "NOT" what You want to hear, if You could You would..

but I feel as Your Sister.. I have to open Your eyes for You at times..

know I Love You very much..and talking is the one way to

"Let It go" So please keep talking.. We will always be here to listen..

Now get You new Puppies and take a long walk and....

Puppy

PuppyFive

{{{{{SIS}}}}} almost over..... So *VERY HAPPY* XXOXOXOXO....

{{{{{Faith}}}}} sure miss You... Sarah is alaways in my prayer..

and so are all of the family here at {{{{Norms}}}}}.......

Travel safe Angels are with You.....

Puppy

{{{{{Angel Watchers}}}}}

norm

Puppy;thank's,I know your right!Unfortantly it's easier said than done.With-out you guy's,I'd be lost...

              Thing's will get alittle easier sooner or later,right?

                                             T/C norm

faithandfifty

kimberSIS.......love

puppylovey......love

footprints & joy....... love

norm.........love, love, love

i was so touched by your kind, supportive, encouraging  sentiment norm

thanks buddies

xx00xx00xx00xx00xx

footprintsangel

I am sending you all a group of angelhugs, Hope everyone remembers you are special. Take care, Debbie

PuppyFive

{{{{{Angel Watchers}}}}}

lemonpie

Such beautiful babies.  You and your family are truly blessed......  

SISKimberly

Morning has gently painted only two boards of the fence right next to the adolescent, ornamental strawberry tree outside my office window.  The sun's light is diffused as if it has not yet awakened.  The rest of the fence and my little tree are patient in the shadow listening to the symphony of songbirds while awaiting the gift they know will come.  I am that little adolescent this morning stuck between the shadow and the light wondering what is next.

Indeed, what is next?  The shadow reminds me there are still cold nights ahead as recovering from the beating my body has taken will be slow, but the sunshine begs me to look towards morning as each day brings me closer to my new 100%.

The question was raised in my online support group, "How does one move forward from something like this without feeling paranoid about every ache, pain, or new sensation considering our bodies have betrayed us once already?"  That is a good question.

As humans, we do not like having our mortality thrust in our faces.  We want to believe that we are all going to live long and wonderful lives, so when something rises up and challenges you, "You wanna bet?", it tends to shake you right to the core.  Often that shaking up does not happen right away.  Being in survival mode tends to put one on a path with blinders on moving one step at a time and keeping to the plan that will get you to the buried treasure…back to your life.  When the treasure is found, you are left to wonder, "Now what do I do?", because you know that you can never go back to the life that you were leading before.  The journey has changed you, and change is not always easy.  It takes readjustment, and that takes time and patience.

I do not agree with, but do understand, the statement, " our bodies have betrayed us". My body did not betray me.  My body did what it knew how to do.  However, it did not know how to deal with years of being fed what we had been told until recently was 'good food' filled with hormones, antibiotics, pesticides, additives, preservatives, artificial colorings and flavorings, and high fructose corn syrup.  My body processed everything to the best of its ability, but eventually had no choice but to send out the S.O.S. to let me know I had to do something NOW!!!!!  Thank you body of mine for loving me enough to fight for me.

Will I wonder if cancer is back with every new ache, pain, or unfamiliar sensation?  I don't know. Right now, I am in awe of my body and of its resilience.  I trust that if I give it what it needs, my body will do what it knows how to do.

I know that nerves, which are trying to reach out and reconnect, will not be comfortable and could take many months to regenerate. I know that the numbness in my shoulder blades and running from my armpits down to my elbows will eventually go away, and that the feeling as it does will not be pleasant.  I know that the range of motion in both arms and shoulders will take time to return and that the tight and tender tendons and muscles, which have been traumatized, will once again be flexible. I know that as I build up my currently non-existent muscles that they will ache more than before, as it will take them longer to re-establish themselves.  I know that my stamina will not return overnight and that my body will tell me when it is time to rest.  I know that my bones will complain as they recreate themselves from the inside out after being repeatedly assaulted. I know that I will feel more at my chest wall than I have ever felt without the cushion of breast tissue once there, yet, that feeling will remind me to listen to my heart and the wisdom of my intuition. My body has been taken down to the barest of essentials.  Like a beautiful ancient forest, destroyed by a raging fire, what remains are the makings of a new and thriving ecosystem, and I, like the forest, will be present at every moment to witness the miracles.

I don't know if I answered the questions previously posed to the satisfaction of those who have asked, but for me, I am grateful for the opportunity to think upon the questions and find in them my own answer. I will listen to my body. If my body says, "This isn't right", I will act.

I know I have said this before, and I know that mere words are incapable of expressing the gratitude I feel for each one of you.  I have been truly blessed to witness humanity at its best.  The outpouring of love and support (and magic chicken soup) from friends, family, coworkers, and the friends and coworkers of my friends and my family, of neighbors and acquaintances, and even of total strangers has been a lesson in the power of community. Speaking of the power of community, my online support, my Jewels and my Angel Watchers, have provided me with an unconditional let it all hang out forum. Without them, getting through this without a total melt down would not have been possible. To find these two groups, out of all the support groups available to me, was not an accident, of that I am sure.

The fog has lifted. Thank you for standing vigil with your lanterns, flash lights, and fog horns, and for the loving encouragement to follow your voices. For those of you who did the Boogie-Man shuffle-right-on-out-of-town dance…THANK YOU!!!!  The infection seems to have retreated. I have one more antibiotic infusion today, and tomorrow I see the plastic surgeon. I hope that all looks well from his point of view. The mounds are getting softer...yippee!!!

Let the healing begin!!!!!


xoxoxo
Kimberly

PS- OK, so yesterday, I thought, I've got some energy, I think I'll sweep and mop the floor , which hadn't been done in months. Darn good thing we have the color floor tile we do. It hides a multitude of things. Even my broom and mop were saying, "Ewww...that is so gross!".
Ummm, how did I ever clean the entire house in one morning?  I personally vote for the following new motto, " Your house doesn't have to be perfect. Do one chore, or not, and call it good for a day."   I personally invite anyone to borrow that motto.

SISKimberly

Norm- I too am so glad to have all of you.  I'm sorry that you are struggling right now. Puppy is right about letting it go.  Brenda and the kids would not want you re-living their tragic death when they've got such wonderful plans for you ahead. They have been there pushing you forward into your life...a life where you are making a difference.  They are helping you to open your heart and mind to new and wonderous albeit not always easy things...but things that will prove fruitful for you.  Look at the growth you've made since we've all met here. I am in awe of you dear, Norm.  (((HUGS))))

Puppy- Loving you and keeping you near my heart as always, dear friend.

Faith- Sending lots of positive healing energy to your Sarah, and as much strength as I can spare to help you keep doing all that you do while trying to be there for your Wonderboy and Miracletwins. 

Debbie- Thanks so much for the group hug.  

SIS Kimberly