2005 ROCK-TOBER CHEMO GIRLS

ravdeb

Terynsmom...
The book "Night" is very good and I believe Oprah Winfrey is reviewing it now. I read it years ago. You probably made your way over to the Jewish section because of MY VIBES!!!

I feel like I just took over this discussion with my million short messages I just wrote. sorry about that.

Graycie.. You will get hair!! Promise! Mine is still thin on top and I wonder if it will ever get thick. Hope it does as I don't like it. I ignore that part

I have more curls than I did in my avitar. I will try to get more pictures taken of me and put in a new one with my new "hair cut".

I'm off for my walk....
Be well ladies. You are all the greatest and oh so beautiful both inside and out!

ravdeb

TracyNY

Okay, break out the champagne. I am finished. After three days and nights, I have finally finished this darned albatross of a thesis.

I'm going to sleep now.

maryannecb

Ahh the bubbles are tingling my mouth.

Fists up!

TracySeattle

Hi Everyone!!!!

I am back and I have missed you all! I have been trying to catch up with the thread and it sounds like you are all doing quite well! A get together in November--Vegas??? How very cool would that be?

I have been busy with some new challenges in my life. I have separated from my husband. He was not supportive of me at all when I was going thru Chemo and Rads. I scheduled some counseling just to find out at the first session that he has been unhappy with our marriage for 10 years (BIG news to me--I had no idea). He also went on to say that he has 10 years of anger & resentment built up against me. He did not talk to me about being unhappy because he did not want to cause any conflict.

Well, after all I have been through during this BC journey, I decided that I just don't have the desire to go back and try to fix 10 years of anger. My life is precious and I want to live each day to its fullest and I want to do good things with it. I found a cute house that I am renting and I am all moved in. I have had some boughts of lonliness, but I guess that is to be expected.

My fear is that I will end up living the rest of my life alone--but really, I was alone when I was with my husband. At least now, I don't have to deal with the stress of being around someone that doesn't treat me very well.

I am feeling GREAT! And I am pretty much back to my pre-cancer schedule with all of my volunteering and other activites. I am the newest board memeber for the Breast Cancer Prevention Fund which raises funds to provide free mammograms to low income women in the state of Washington. I am also volunteering for the Komen 3-Day walk and I am walking in the Survivors Lap at the American Cancer Society's Relay for Life this Saturday!

It is good to be back with all of you and I promise to be here more often now that I am all settled in my new place.

Love every one of you!

sherryhaire

It was great to have a 3 day weekend now time to go back to work, Had my 3 month checkup with Onc DR on Friday says things are looking up I can finally have my port removed if I choose, Actually I'll wait until I see PS on 13th just incase they can use it.

RoseMarie

AGGH! I spent the last little while typing and trying to catch up...lost my entire reply...

Back from Tallahassee...it was fun but a lot of driving for a short visit! On the way back we drove through the night and that eliminated potty breaks and the constant "Are we STILL in ALABAMA?!!"

Well...I'm going to pour another cup of coffee and come back and rewrite everything I JUST wrote!
Maybe you can telpathically pick up on all my cyber thoughts...they're out there somewhere!!

Anonymous

tda, congrats on finishing that thesis! Cheers!

Tracy, I am so sorry that you are having to make such a drastic change at this point but obviously, we are proud of you to be so strong! I think having had cancer makes us realize that we are stronger than we thought and we can do much more than we realized!! And no need to be lonely ... pack your bags and go to Vegas!

Rosemarie, I am with ya on the potty breaks and "are we there yets" so that was why I got a dvd player installed in my car over a year ago. This last vacation was only 1/2 hour away and she was thrilled to be riding around in the motorhome so it was easy-peasy!

sherry, congrats on your wellness report!

TracySeattle

OMG!!!! I am going "topless" today for the first time! I feel like such a boy!!! I had my wig on (as normal) and in our daily 8:30 meeting, someone said, how is your hair doing? So I took the wig off to show everyone and they told me I should just ditch the wig! A coworker took me down to the lobby to the hair salon. The guy there trimmed me up and spiked my hair (well kinda, it is not really long enough to spike).

Just a bunch of new experiences for me! The guy at the salon told me that he has experience with people that have had chemo and that I can dye it any time (I am 5 months post chemo). I am thinking about dying it before I go on vacation to TX on 6/14.....

Anonymous

I went topless this weekend, too! My daughter's birthday party was on Sunday and then we went to my neighbor's for her birthday party and I ditched the wig. I just wanted to be real and it's too dang hot to bother with. Will post pics when I get to work tomorrow.

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Having a hard time with shellik and diana having mets. I didn't know LuAnn so I am not dwelling on her. But with Diana and shellik, I have become very depressed about them ... shelli is only 37 and has teeny children. This is terrible. She skipped bone mets but got it in the brain.

ravdeb

tda...as I have already told ya...CONGRATULATIONS! Cheers!

Tracy and Terynsmom... so happy to hear you two are topless!! It's very liberating, isn't it??

Rosemarie..glad you're safely home but sorry you lost your message in cyber..that has happened to me tooooooooo many times!

Sherry..sounds like you are doing great! Good news.

Terynsmom..I agree with you..it's very hard to read about the women here who are not doing so well. Seems so unfair. I can only send prayers to them and their families and hope that they are filling their days with the things that they love and with the people who are close to them...and pain-free.

Be well October Girls...
ravdeb

Anonymous

E V E R Y O N E -
A preliminary head count for the trip to Las Vegas this November is taking place here:

http://community.breastcancer.org/ubbthr...e=0&fpart=2

If you think you may want to go - you can add your name to the list.
Laura

Anonymous

I lost my big toenail today. Did anybody else lose a toenail? How long will it take to grow back????

Laura, I am hoping to go. I hope it's in November, it would be so much easier to take in November!!

debbie444

Many thanks to everyone who wished Dad well - yet again he has bounced back. He is not 100% and probably never will be but we will be quite happy with him just being able to walk without falling over and being able to breathe!
Tracey, I am sorry that you have had to go through all of this hassle with the other half but, like you say, your life and your time is now your own. Are you still at the same addresss?
I would love to meet in November but the chance of me getting to Vegas is probably equal to me winning anything if i ever got there! When you do go, let me know if the fountains are as spectacular as they look on CSI Vegas!
Tda, Fantastic picture and congrats on the thesis!
We are in Half term at the moment so filling the time with some long awaited trips to feed the ducks and trips to town to visit the shops that seem to appeal to those under the age of 14 ( Lego, hair accessories, dolls house furniture, model trains etc!)
Take Care
Debbie

TracyNY

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I lost my big toenail today. Did anybody else lose a toenail? How long will it take to grow back????

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I lost both of mine. They were black anyway. They sort of split across the middle and there is a little stub left behind.

Its been a while and they aren't back yet. I'm going to have to get acrylics put on if I'm going to wear sandals this summer!!

Anonymous

Tracy -
I wish you the best and am sorry that you have to deal with this after all you've been through. You sound very positive and upbeat though! Your attitude is quite impressive and admirable!
Laura

Anonymous

Can you really get acrylics for the toes??

Anonymous

Can you tell which one is me?

maryannecb

Tracy, do what you have to do. Wh ylive with someone who is making your life a misery. Hope your transition to singlehood is smooth. Fact-most divrced people remarry--I guess that is good news as liong as it is not the same guy!

Terynsmom, topless is for you. It is time, your hair is doing great.Toenails take abot 9 months to grow. Acrylic toenails ???

Debbie glad your Dad is doing better.

Not much news here. My skin is almost better. I am still tired. I have lost 9 of my 20 pounds now so am pleased with that. Life is busy. Don't think I'll make Vegas either.

Fists up!

daydream

I haven't been around for about a week. I'm recovering from exchange/lift & reduction surgery. I'm doing fine, still a bit sore.

I'm feeling pretty good--I have hair, two boobs, and it's summer!

Las Vegas, eh? Sounds intriguing. I can't commit to it yet, but I'm certainly thinking about it.

Susan

Anonymous

Terynsmom -
Wow - you look fantastic!

ravdeb -
When is your last radiation?

daydream -
Glad to hear you're doing fine, hope the soreness goes away soon.

Everyone -
I still haven't gone topless outside of the house and I still look like Curious George. My hair is growing though and I think in about a week I'll be ready. Yikes! I really think I'll feel naked like in one of those dreams where you find yourself in public and totally naked. LOL Hope you all had a great Memorial Day weekend. Hmmmm...I wonder where Amys mysterious vacation is.

Laura

TracyNY

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Can you really get acrylics for the toes??

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You betcha!! In New York, the Koreans will acrylic anything!! They look just like they grew out of your foot!

The first person I saw with them was a really ghetto friend of mine. I never liked them but I may need to change my stance if I plan to expose the toes for the summer!

Anonymous

OH Laura, I didn't go topless at work yet, just around the neighborhood. It's ok for me to be 'real' in front of my neighbors but I am not ready for that at work where I have to see so many clients.

sherryhaire

WOW Terynsmom you look great By all means go topless!!! My hair is growing back but it is like a Q-tip So curly and fuzzy and my hair has been straight all my life!! Oh well at least it is hair!!

ravdeb

Terynsmom...you are gorgeous. You look great like that. Just go for it! I've gotten lots of compliments with my new do. I think people think I look better this way than before!

Laura...Curious George! That is so cute! I love Curious George. And you look great in your avatar...go for it!!!

I finish my rads June 12th. I have an appt. with my onc on June 11th and that should be the end of it until I return from my trip. Can't wait!

We went to a lovely and gigantic wedding last night only to return home to find that somebody had broken into our house! They tore apart our bedroom and even broke our bed (but dh was able to fix it since he built it!), stole my great digital camera so that I won't have one when we leave on our trip, stole my dh's laptop with all his work on it, as well as some other things, and some money we had hidden...not a lot...but still...

Very upsetting. Nobody was home and thank goodness that my son was out with friends and not home alone, asleep. Oh yea..they took the new flat screen TV we got recently since I was diagnosed.

But everybody is safe and it's just an aggravation more than anything else.

We have a holiday that starts tonight. Long weekend and no rads! yahoooooooooo! I need the break.

Be well everybody.
ravdeb

ravdeb

sherryhaire...
My hair is curly and fuzzy, too. Never had this before and I kinda like it. I put a hair cream on it that separates the curls and then it's not fuzzy but curly. I've been told it looks quite classy!

Anonymous

ravdeb -
OMG! I feel bad that your house was broken into! Those dirty rotten *******! I will never be able to understand how anyone can have the bal** to invade someone's space in such a violent way! Perhaps your Homeowner's insurance will reimburse you for it?
Laura

maryannecb

Ravdeb, ahhh you must feel so violated. Scary stuff.

Sticking gel in my hair, sort of makes it spikey. Gives me attitude I think.

Laura, my middle son's favourite animal is Curious George. Yes there is something about your large grin. And the shape of your hair...are you related? LOL. Don't be silly you look great.

Terynsmom, I don't think anyone would even think chemo when they see your hair. It is quite long now. Go topless and be proud, you look beautiful.When is your next MUGA?

Susan, hope you recover speedily.

Fists up!

ravdeb

Hey Debbie..glad to hear your dad is better. Just saw that.

Laura..yes we have insurance and the guy was at our house and we have to mark down each item that is missing and so on. We will probably get some of the money back so we can replace some of these items...especially my camera and the laptop...but we can't replace the stuff that was on the laptop and he will have a lot of work to do now.

So aggravating!

Maryanne...like the idea that the gel gives you attitude!

Curious George is cute, but Laura..you are gorgeous!

TracyNY

Oh Ravdeb, I am so sorry to hear about your burglary. They got me once too, its awful but thank God all they took was material. It can be replaced.

I hope you can regain your sense of security, don't let them steal that from you.

Terynsmom: I'm scared of you!! You're too cute for me baby!! Looking all pink and glowy!

Anonymous

Thanks guys but I don't feel like 'me' yet. Not even a new me.

Ravdeb, so sorry you had to have some stranger in your house. That happened to me last year and I was so upset and it really irked me that they were in my underwear drawer and found my money!!

Next MUGA is tomorrow morning. Hoping its ok but I haven't been feeling well so I doubt it.