2005 ROCK-TOBER CHEMO GIRLS

Graycie

Your right Ravdeb, I will never catch up with you..........lol.....What is going to happen when you are gone? We are going too sink to the bottom. Have fun on your trip.

Mary, What a shame about your husband and what a terrible time for this to happen so close to the holiday's. The stress of losing his job sure isn't helping his health. I hope his test's come out OK. And, your poor little cat.........I hope she has returned by now......

Amy, you had me curious so I went and read that thread. OMG, "no comment" except I think there is definitely something wrong with a few of those women. That's such a nice picture of you and your husband. Your hair is really getting long.

Linda, Hi.....Your stir-fry sound's good. Actually everything sounds good to me these day's. I have a definite eating problem and it shows......

Off to work again.......

Gail

RoseMarie

Hello ladies...
Mary - saying a little prayer for you!!
Amy - beautiful pic!!! Your hair is sooooo long!!!
I think I'll stay away from that other thread - egads!!
Linda - so sorry you had to go through that with your friend! People just don't understand!!!

Just got off the phone with the *@#& insurance company. UGH! Everything is a dang struggle. I have my LE therapy today and have had to fight to get the stupid referral.:(
I guess I should be celebrating the fact that I got the referral, just a little frustrated!!!
OK...I think I'm the official Kool-aide mom now!! I had my house FULL of kids yesterday afternoon (total of 9!). I love it. We have a big basement that's heated and cooled so ALL of our toys are down there as well as a swing and a tent. If this is an indication of the cooler months to come I need to stock up on snacks!!
Have a great day ladies! I hope your day is full of sunshine (unlike my dreary neck of the woods!)

Anonymous

Mary, so sorry about your husband. It's so hard to be unemployed and even more so during the holidays. Has the cat returned?? I hate it when animals go missing, I can't stop thinking how panicked they must be.

Amy, love the new pic!! Your hair is so long now!!!!!

Hopefully, TracyNY, your surgery went well!!

The KoolAid Mom, remember that commercial where the KoolAid pitcher would run around? I love that commercial!

TracyNY

I'm back! Yesterday went well, it was a long day. I was scheduled to be on the table at 10am but didn't get in the OR until 1pm. It took 20 minutes to find a vein in my NECK, I had to fight with the anaesthetist to leave my arm alone. I woke up in recovery at about 5pm and was home in bed by 7pm.

I'm sore but its nowhere near as bad as the last time. I don't know if its because I knew what to expect or if its a result of all the massage I've been doing for my LE. I feel good though and I should have slept out all the woozy drug by tomorrow.

Thanks for all the good wishes ladies. I got the CD Tracy, thanks. I was tickled that my track is first! Sorry about your husband losing his job, Marymelodi. Remember that for a new door to open, and old door must close. Look for the lesson in the situation, learn from it and move on. Perhaps its time for a skill upgrade, new career, time out for a bit, who knows? I wish you both the best though.

Pictures coming, promise!

marymelodi

The cat came back. Leaving food on the porch was the solution. Hunger brought her home to us. We are relieved. How do you moms of human children ever make it? The worry about them must be awful!!!

Hubby is coping better than I expected with the job loss. The awful part is that just 4 years ago the very same thing happened. Back then, he wallowed on unemployment for 8 months . . . which was not a good thing. He did not have the fire to get out and find a new job. Then he only had part-time until this summer. So, it's been 3 days but he has been out placing applications and resumes in all the appropriate places. I feel so bad. Job hunting is the worst thing. All we want for Chrstimas is a permanent, full-time job!!!!

Tadah: Greetings and healing wishes to you, girl. I always smile when I play our CD and there is your song first up. I hope the "pain" will stay away and you will have a speedy recovery.

Thanks to all for your sympathy and support. I knew you all would be there for a "cry on your shoulders."

Guess what?? Only about 72 hours now until I meet Cathy at her motel and we drive over to Cheektowaga to meet Graycie. Whee!!!! I am getting excited and nervous all at the same time. What if they think I'm a dud or I make some awful social gaffe??? You know how you feel before a "first" date? It's kind of silly, I know, but that's me.

Have a good day all,
Mary

ake

you better take some pictures!!!!

Anonymous

TaDah -
So happy to hear everything went well. You are so brave! Gets lots of rest... I am so envious of your "meet" on Saturday! Can't wait to hear about it!

Amy -
You look great!...as always.

Everyone -
Hi there. I cannot keep up with you all! Think about you often though!

Laura

linny

Gail, I also have an eating problem which I did not have before. I am on tamoxifen - are you taking anything? - I wonder if it is contributing to the problem, or if it is because I was put into menopause by chemo
Linda

debbie444

Mary - glad your cat came back. If you cant prove that your hubby is innocent, how can they prove he is guilty??? Hope all goes well on the job hunt. I am jealous of your meeting - take lots of pics for us. How could anyone not just love our caring Mary?????
Tracey - glad the surgery went well - now we need some pictures.
Had my hair cut today - a lot off. Think i will keep it short for a while yet - hate the inbetween curly bit!!

I love to eat !!!! I have lost 2 1/2 stone since Feb, think it must be as i get active again.
Amy - great picture.
Ravdeb - thankgoodness the jammy dodgers werent stuck in the post!!!!
All everyone else, take care
Debbie

debbie444

ignore the wallpaper - we havent decorated this room since we moved in!!
And here is Sam waiting for tea - silverside beef today!! We are a bit concerned about his eye ( reflecting different) it has a bigger pupil and reacts slower, doesnt seem to bother him tho.

TracySeattle

Paula - haven't had a chance to send your CD yet. I need to make a few more and I have been busy getting ready to leave on vacation this weekend. Sorry! I will try to hurry as I know you are anxious for it!

Hi all!!! I am at work and in a hurry, but had to drop in to say hello and that I miss being able to spend time with you!!

Anonymous

Debbie, I love your new photo!

marymelodi

Debbie - Wow! You look great and so does Sam. What happiness to see these pictures.

Amy - yes, I'm taking my camera. But, alas, I'm still in the stone age and have only a 35mm camera. Will have the roll developed to a photo disk and then I'll post the pictures here in a couple of days.

Thank you again to everyone for sympathy, good advice, calming words, and priceless friendship. I marvel at it sometimes and yet, the truth is we have bonded as tight as I ever have with friends who I see more often. Wish I could talk to anyone of you and would call if I knew your numbers. If you ever have the thought to call me, PM and I'll send you the number.

Listening to our CD now . . . it lifts my spirits.

Less than 72 hours to go . . . .
Mary

Anonymous

Hi Girls!
I just finished my special surprise for you! My dh watched it and cried - literally cried! Tears were streaming down his cheeks...it was a TON OF WORK, but so worth it. It will be in the mail to you tomorrow.

I can't address each of you individually right now...but please know you mean the world to me...and remember one thing that I have told you all from the very beginning...


ROCK ON!

Laura

RoseMarie

Love you all so much!!
Mary - you are soooo sweet! We will all be there in spirit...wishing we could be there in person! Can't wait to hear all about it!!!!!!!
TaDah - so glad to hear everything went smoothly!!Glad to know you're feeling better than last time!!
Debbie - WOW, stunning picture! You look great!! I LOVE your hair!!!
Laura - you are so sweet and thoughtful!!!!!
Tracy - have a wonderful vacation!
Have a great night everyone!!!

ake

Oooo....I'm excited!!!!

Debbie...you look so great very chic
Tadah....glad you're okay!

Anonymous

Mary and Laura,
Your two posts made me cry. I feel like we are family. We will be together forever.
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Have to tell you that this whole dating thing is scary to me because I have not done it in so long. Sex is something I am so afraid of and we aren't even going there yet, don't know him well enough to do that or mix myself up like that yet. Dave knows about the cancer. Have not pointed out the fake boob yet. I know I have this baggage with me and am scared if I tell the whole truth about my fears, crying jags, etc, that he'd run the opposite way. I don't want to put the road blocks up either, I want to be open.

What's hard to believe is that he says nice things to me like: You're so beautiful. You're so nice. You've got it together babe, etc, etc. He is handsome, has a great job and here I sit wondering: What's wrong with him if he likes me like this? I don't feel beautiful with my short hair, my new 25 pounds of extra tummy and fake boob. I see my scars, I feel them every night.

This is very scary for me and exciting at the same time. I watch that show called Dexter. The sister of the lead character doesn't want to tell anyone she has a boyfriend because she really likes the guy and is afraid that 'when it ends' she will have to face everyone. Everyone would know that he mattered to her. I guess I feel the same way. I am finding it hard to make it 'not matter' and then wanting it to 'matter' ....... ok do I sound dumb or what???

ake

Kelly...you're not dumb! It's just plain old scary to start a new relationship...especially if other ones have been hurtful. I think the hardest thing is just kinda letting go and seeing what happens without your guard up....realizing it does matter....and seeing what happens. Anyone can get hurt. Unfortunately, we can't avoid that. But, something great is also possible and it sounds like that's where this is going Remind yourself that you're strong...because you are.

With the sex thing...even being married...that is hard for me sometimes too. It's hard to just make peace with my body. After really struggling with it, I've come to accept my scars and see them as part of all this....mainly part of my strength in getting through all this. If you do tell the truth about your fears, the crying, he will know the real you and in my opinion, you want him to understand all the things you feel and know that he can still handle it.

And you know what? He likes you beacause you ARE beautiful and strong and intelligent...in a weird way...cancer just made us all better...i just think when you go through something like this...you end up being stronger and more real.

TracySeattle

Kelly - I totally agree with what Amy said. Also, remember that aside from the whole cancer experience, you have had relationships that have not been good in the past. I find that it is hard to get past what has happened with those relationships because I am afraid that it will happen all over again. Just think in the moment, enjoy your new relationship and try not to worry about all of the other stuff. It will work itself out and everything will be right when it is meant to be. You are a very special person and you deserve this!!! I am so happy for you!

Well, ladies, I am getting ready to fly off to Houston tomorrow morning. They are having a cold spell, so it will be in the 60s. I was kinda hoping for warmer weather, but it will still be fun. I am pretty sure I will have access to a computer, so I should be able to stay caught up with all of you through out the week.

Laura - I am so excited to get my mail when I come back!!!!

Ravdeb - HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!! Have a great day, I will be thinking of you!

I sure wish we could all be together in person to celebrate our happy times and our sad times too. I feel so blessed to be a part of this group.

You are all wonderful!!!

chumfry

Kelly - I went for a long time (12 years) avoiding relationships because I'd been hurt in the past and figured I'd never find someone who would like me for me. (Being 50 pounds overweight didn't help my self-esteem.)

I started a new job and found myself attracted to a co-worker but talked myself out of it because he was 20 years younger than me (shriek!) and I was (and still am) so overweight. Then I went to two weddings that summer where the brides were no skinnier than me and I decided to take the risk.

We decided this was going to be a "practice" relationship, for both of us. (He'd been hurt badly, too.) That was five years ago. We got married in 2003. We've both grown through the cancer journey and I've honestly never been happier.

Seeing it as a practice relationship really let me open up and be very candid about things that bugged me, etc. It kind of took the pressure off. Try not to look too far down the road because you never know how things are going to work out. My mantra is "Be happy when it's time to be happy and be sad when it's time to be sad."

ake

happy birthday ravdeb!!!!!!!!!

here i go singing again:

happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you
happy birthday dear debbie
happy birthday to you

marymelodi

Good advice, Cindy!

Kelly: I have no good advice . . . just my warmest wishes for your happiness. For what it's worth, I think anyone who would turn away from a fantastic woman like you doesn't deserve you. If he is the "real thing" then he can handle and appreciate a woman of experience and wisdom. Just see how it goes and we'll "hold" your cyber-hand all the way.

Graycie sent me an e-mail and said she'll call soon. We have to agree on a place to meet up on Sunday - - - 48 hours from now Cathy and I will be on our way to Graycie's town and I hope we'll be gabbing like long-lost-girlfriends. Keep your fingers crossed that the snows of Buffalo do not interrupt our gathering. I was going to call it a reunion since I feel like we've been "bonded" for awhile, but can you have a reunion if you haven't actually been together?? I'm hoping mother nature will not give us a hard time.

mary

TracySeattle

Oh!!!! I am so excited that you are all going to meet each other!!!!

RoseMarie

Very exciting Mary!!!
Ravdeb - Happy Birthday!!! I'm sure you're enjoying yourself with all the beautiful desert scenes!!
Kelly - I so agree with Amy and Tracy - You are a beautiful, awesome woman and you are soooo deserving of TRUE, unconditional LOVE!!!
Wow, we had 4 hours without power - crazy winds! All that and 5 minutes of snow. Shoot, I was hoping for some SNOW. All you northerners think I'm crazy, I'm sure, but I want to see some REAL snow!!
Have a great afternoon!!!!

marymelodi

Rosemarie:
We expect to get the winds and drop in temps tonight. Hold off on the snow until after Sunday, OK??

When we are together on Sunday Graycie, Cathy, and I will toast all you birthday girls and talk about you constantly, I'm sure.

Happy, Happy, Happy birthday to everyone . . . Ravedeb and Debbie. We are so much richer for having you in our lives. May you have long lives of love and contentment!!!

Mary

TracyNY

Another birthday?! Congratulations Ravdeb. Many more and good health to you.

Can someone tell me AGAIN, how to post a photo. I tried this morning but I couldn't figure it out.

Tomorrow I can take the tapes off the tattoos and take a shower. I'm kinda nervous to see what my final product is going to look like. The lipo turned out really well. Even with all the swelling still here I can see how smooth my back is. Look out summer!!

Anonymous

Hope your day is as special as you!

Laura

Anonymous

Debbie -
You look smashing!
Laura

debbie444

Thankyou Laura - you sound almost English!!!
dEborah - have a good day, show us some pictures

RoseMarie

So right, Mary!! Ok...I know there will be snow before too long...
Well, I don't have a scanner but with the talk of wedding pics I decided to take a picture of a picture...this is us 16 years ago Mike no longer wears glasses as he had surgery a few years ago and weighs about 60 lbs. more than he did in the pic. No comment on my weight!!!