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  • portiasproudmom
    portiasproudmom Member Posts: 2,125
    edited February 2008

    You sound so much better today, Sue.  I'm so relieved!  Has the bleeding stopped?  That's so scary.  They really need to lessen your dose.

    {{{{{Shirlann}}}}}.  I'm so sorry to hear about your tumble.  I'm so glad you're ok.  You could have really injured yourself.  No more looking over your shoulder, okay??

    It's good to hear from you, Lisa.  You have been a wonderful friend to Kim.  I'm sure she appreciates you so much.  I know she's done a lot for you too.  How lucky that you two have eachother to count on during hard times.

    I had a pelvic ultrasound today (my second in six months).  The onc wanted a baseline because Tamoxifen can cause uterine cancer.  Isn't it great how some of these treatments help prevent one type of cancer while increasing the risk for others.  Sigh................

    Lisa, I keep forgetting to answer your questions and then I look back at old posts and feel like a dork.  The weather here has actually been pretty nice.  Sunny or partly sunny most days.  It rains at night and then the sun comes out after the sun comes up.  I love that!  Also, the flower show was pretty overwhelming.  SOOO many plants, flowers, and landscape designs to check out.  I just wish we were already in a new house because there's no point in putting a lot of work into the yard here.  It's going to end up being a rental soon.

    Love and hugs to everyone,

    Karen

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  • livesstrong
    livesstrong Member Posts: 1,799
    edited February 2008

    Ok I'm in...............

    I smelled my mobile phone because I think I need some serious help!!!!! lol

    Ain't that the truth!!!!

    Gotta get dinner,

    bbl,

    AE 

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  • sueps
    sueps Member Posts: 2,266
    edited February 2008

    lololololol AE .... this is so funny...xxx

    Lisa thankyou so much for lighting me  a candle..it means the world xxx

    Karen ...I am still bleeding just not as much ...I will never have that dose again...I honestly thought I would die...I wnet down hill and kept going down ...too much too strong for me...I am only fragile lol

    BRB ....Dave needs putting to bed xxx

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  • mommy_mia
    mommy_mia Member Posts: 81
    edited February 2008

    Oh Sue...crap...6 more.  Your schedule is so different.  I guess because you are doing the trial?  YOU CAN DO IT!!!

    I'll be doing my Herceptin infusions with you.  I know it's not the same, but I'm here getting poked with you!

    Shirlann - hope you are ok.  I think I missed the post about a tumble?

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  • portiasproudmom
    portiasproudmom Member Posts: 2,125
    edited February 2008

    You're a March baby too, Mia?  Looks like your b-day is on the 16th.  My dad's is the 14th and mine is the 1st!  Are you a Pisces?  I KNEW I liked you :)

    Hugs,

    Karen

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  • my3girls
    my3girls Member Posts: 3,766
    edited February 2008

    wooohooo....Karen has a b'day coming up!!

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  • portiasproudmom
    portiasproudmom Member Posts: 2,125
    edited February 2008

    AE, that's the best one yet!!!  Too funny!!!  I haven't sniffed my mobile phone today--I'll have to make a point to do that.  LOL!!!!!!

    xoxox

    Karen

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  • portiasproudmom
    portiasproudmom Member Posts: 2,125
    edited February 2008

    Ack!  I know, Lisa.  I guess I should be feeling grateful for still being here for another birthday, but everyone gives me such a hard time about getting older.  My DH is the worst!  And he's a year older than me!!!  Portia is a brat too.  The other day she said, "how old are you going to be mom?  50???"  She keeps trying to make me older than I am.  God knows she makes me FEEL older than I am!

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  • my3girls
    my3girls Member Posts: 3,766
    edited February 2008

    Karen, try not to let any of those comments bother you!! You are a wonderful, beautiful person...who needs to celebrate every b'day, because you are YOU!! I just watched Oprah, and she talked about getting older and celebrating b'days etc.  If it has not come in in WA...watch it!!

    Celebrate and enjoy Karen!  We need to cherish every b'day to it's fullest. YOU ARE NOT GETTING OLDER...JUST BETTER!

    XOXO

    LISA

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  • my3girls
    my3girls Member Posts: 3,766
    edited February 2008

    It's been a week since we heard from Lucy. Sue, have you heard from her??

    I am sure she is fine...but I tend to start worrying.

    Lucy..please post!! I miss you, and your beautiful smile!

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  • mommy_mia
    mommy_mia Member Posts: 81
    edited February 2008

    Hey Karen - just 2 days 'til your birthday!  Woo hoo!

    Yup, I'm on the 16th (I'll be 40...yikes).  And my youngest son is on March 25th.  March is my favorite month!

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  • my3girls
    my3girls Member Posts: 3,766
    edited February 2008

    Mia...40 is young honey!  Enjoy!  My brother is on the 25th also. My oldest daughter will be 24 on March 23rd.  I like March too...start of spring!!

    It is so cold here, and we have sooo much snow! I am very ready for warm spring weather.

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  • mommy_mia
    mommy_mia Member Posts: 81
    edited February 2008

    Thanks Lisa!  This chemo has made me feel twice my age though.  But I can't wait to get past this part.  I have big plans to take good care of myself (exercise, diet, pampering!) when I'm feeling better.  Nothing too dramatic, just making time to take care of myself and not feel guilty about it!

    Oh ya, I almost forgot that our dog's bday is March 27th too!

    Ah spring...I'm SO sick of snow.  And it's supposed to snow again tonight...

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  • sueps
    sueps Member Posts: 2,266
    edited February 2008

    I just checked Facebook...Lucy last posted on there 21st Feb... maybe she has gone away ...I will just send her a text ...see if she is ok ... xxx

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  • sueps
    sueps Member Posts: 2,266
    edited February 2008

    Mia ....thats what I plan to do..take good care...and feel good...and never to neglect my health again... xxx

    My skin seems to have gained a load of fine lines during chemo...did anyone else think they aged a little...I also have a blue vein on my cheek..Surprised

    I am sooo looking forward to the end...I will finish rads end of June. Mia arre you having rads xxx

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  • my3girls
    my3girls Member Posts: 3,766
    edited February 2008
     

    Please check Sue..thanks!

    Mia...I forgot too....our little Oliver...will be 2 yrs old on March 5th!!

     
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  • my3girls
    my3girls Member Posts: 3,766
    edited February 2008

    Yes Sue...I felt like I looked soooooooo much older going thru chemo.  Even afterwards...but now that more time has gone by...I feel like my skin is starting to look better, a little more youthful!  I need a good facial...now only if I had the money to do it..haha.

    I use allot of moisturizer, which I never used to do...because I always had oily skin (the Italian in me). But I feel older, move like I am older. I think most of my old self will return in due time.  I have to learn to love the "new me"...but sometimes that is hard to do.  I look in the mirror, and question...who is that?  I cry sometimes..wanting the old me back. The woman that was so full of life, busy, very active...looked attractive (usually..haha).  I want her back, but I think she may be gone forever.  Now I have a body full of scars...something nobody would want to look at.  I guess I should thank God, I don't have anyone in my life...they would probably be disgusted with me.

    Sorry....to go on, I just feel so down about all of this sometimes.

    Bootface....bring the old Lisa back!!!!!!!!Yell

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  • sueps
    sueps Member Posts: 2,266
    edited February 2008

    Lucy ...is fine!!!! She is all loved up with a new fella!!! I told her we loved her ...she has had trouble with internet but will be back on tomorrow..... she was well happy that we wanted to know she was ok xxx

    Lisa ... you will find someone to love and to be loved by ...you are a truly beautiful sister both on the inside and out.... xxx you will find him!!!  and one day we will all come to your wedding !!! xxx

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  • sueps
    sueps Member Posts: 2,266
    edited February 2008

    ..... Lisa...we all love you....and when you find your guy...you will be loved up completely by us and your life will be that much more enriched than when you started this journey.... xxx 

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  • my3girls
    my3girls Member Posts: 3,766
    edited February 2008

    ...Thanks Sue.  It's not that I am looking for anyone....I am not ready for that. But the thought of who would want me....that is what I keep thinking.  I don't know what to think about all of it sometimes.  I guess I need to learn to love me...who I am...and be ok with that. 

    I know I don't want to ever marry again.  I would however, love to find someone who truly loves me and cherishes me.  Is that too much to want?? Sometimes, I wonder.  It does get lonely.  When Olivia leaves in about a year and a half...it will be very tough!

    Sorry...here I go again.

    I am glad our Lucy is ok.  I look forward to hearing from her.  A new man....woohoo....you go girl..good for her!

    Maybe there is hope for me.

    How is your mouth today Sue?  Have you had anymore bloody noses?

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  • portiasproudmom
    portiasproudmom Member Posts: 2,125
    edited February 2008

    Mia, you're not old! I know what you mean though about the chemo making you feel older.  I swear, half my hair is coming back in gray.  They're all wirey and stick straight out--yuck!  Stupid bootface!!  You mentioned your dog--it's a girl right?  I'm probably wrong.  STUPID chemo brain!!  Has she had her tumor removed?  How is she doing? 

    Lisa, I know how you feel about having to get used to your new "look" after bootface.  I hate my scars.  I feel like I look pretty repulsive these days.  I never get undressed in front of my dh anymore.  I guess that self-consciousness will lessen in time.  You're such a strong, kind, and beautiful person (both inside and out)--you won't be single for long.  Bootface has probably just kept you out of circulation for a while. 

    xoxoxo

    Karen

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  • portiasproudmom
    portiasproudmom Member Posts: 2,125
    edited February 2008

    Sue was posting the same time I was and said the same thing I did, Lisa.  Listen to us!!  We're right!

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  • sueps
    sueps Member Posts: 2,266
    edited February 2008

    Lisa...I know how you feel....if I was without my o/h I would feel the same...but there are men out there who see us for who we really are xxx When you are ready....you will get with someone. I have every faith...you are such a loving and caring person with a wonderful sense of life and love and laughter xxx

    I have had 2 bleeds today ...and my mouth is still sore...but I feel a little better. They obviously give me 2 much chemo...2 chemos in 8 days is too much....I was ok with the first week ...but the second week was a disgrace xxx

    I am going to ask if I can have longer between treatments xxx

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  • portiasproudmom
    portiasproudmom Member Posts: 2,125
    edited February 2008

    Oh good!  I'm glad Lucy is fine.  Thanks for checking on her for us, Sue.  Wow--a new man already?  It doesn't really surprise me.  She's sooooo pretty!

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  • Wren
    Wren Member Posts: 324
    edited February 2008

    "I danced with a noodle because I am a Ninja"

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  • my3girls
    my3girls Member Posts: 3,766
    edited February 2008

    Karen, Sue...thank you for your kind words and inspiration.  I just know how men are..and who wants someone with such a mutilated body..not to mention...someone who had cancer??  I just find it hard to think that there is that person. 

    My g/f Kim and I are both alone now.  We want to start getting into shape..although, she looks great..but when I am allowed to, we will start running, and working out together.  We have goals ahead of us.  We just want to feel really good again.  I just hope my body can take the work outs I want to give it!  I worry about the lyphodema.  My arm has felt heavy and tight so much since my surgery 3 weeks ago. I just want to be NORMAL!!!!!!!!!!  I know you ladies feel like this too.  Shirlann....do we ever feel normal again?? Please tell me yes!

    Sue, those tx's are too close together!! Mine were 3 weeks apart...and sometimes that seemed too close.  Two weeks should be the minimum!

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  • Shirlann
    Shirlann Member Posts: 3,302
    edited February 2008

    YES!!!!!  Believe it or not.  And if I get a little pissed off at a party or something like that, I say, "I've had breast cancer!". Boy, you should see their faces.  Now that is mean, but people are so stupid.  It only happens if I am reaaallly bored.  No one knows what to say, and I just smile and waltz off.  That is kinda mean.  I better stop that.

    Well, what happens is two days go by, you haven't thought of it, or, even more amazing, that headache isn't mets!  You didn't even think of it.  I still hate the yearly mammo's.  Once Walt and I were going into the big building for the mammo and we were walking down the hall and I was with him and he turned a corner talking away and I just ducked into a restroom.  I was still as a mouse.  In a second I could hear him, shout, "WHERE ARE YOU?".  It was hilarious. 

    So, in about 2 years things get a lot, lot better and then better each year.  Now, after 9 and almost 1/2 years, I truly don't worry about this too much.  I do think of other cancers, which I will probably get eventually, but breast, not hardly at all.

    I need to go play the game.

    Love all you sweet sisters, Shirlann  

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  • honeygirl
    honeygirl Member Posts: 1,718
    edited February 2008

    I SMELLED MY BESTFRIENDS BOYFRIEND BECAUSE I THINK I NEED SOME SERIOUS HELP!LOLOLOLOLOLOLOL

    That is too funny. But we all know , I do need help!lol

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  • Shirlann
    Shirlann Member Posts: 3,302
    edited February 2008

    "I smelled a noodle because the voices told me to".  hahaha

    That is a good one.  This is fun.

    Hugs, Shirl

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  • livesstrong
    livesstrong Member Posts: 1,799
    edited February 2008

    Hi Ladies- So glad to see everyone posting again!!!

    Well, went to the bs yesterday and its official - I need another biopsy!!  I am SO SICK OF THIS!!!!  She doesn't think its anything BUT I JUST DON'T WANT TO DO IT AGAIN - isn't 3x ENOUGH!!!  UGH!!!

    Sorry, I needed to get that out!!! LOL

    AE 

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