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  • portiasproudmom
    portiasproudmom Member Posts: 2,125
    edited December 2007

    Oops, had a double post again.  I hate it when that happens!

  • my3girls
    my3girls Member Posts: 3,766
    edited December 2007

    Hi Shirlann and Karen.

    I am at work, not busy at all! Bored.  It's snowing here...some is sticking..and it's cold!!

    Shirlann...your comment about the windex..reminds me of the movie.."My Big Fat Greek Wedding"!  The father used windex on everything, to clean, to heal..haha!

    Hope our Sue is managing ok today!

    xoxo

    Lisa

  • sueps
    sueps Member Posts: 2,266
    edited December 2007

    DING DING ...ROUND 2 LOLOLOL

    YOO HOO ..I'm home xxxxxxx

    My my what a horrible day....horrible horrible horrible!!!! HORRIBLE!!!!!

    Do you ever see horror films about laboratorys and white coats and lethal injections..and being tied to chairs..that place is giving me the wierdest thoughts...like a world of difference....ooooohhhhhhhh my oh my....

    So I had a meltdown....in the chair with nicest of nice male doc...and protested...and told him off that I didn't like the vein he had shoved the whatsit in and he never asked me where I wanted it..lololol...of course everyone always laughs at my protests...lolol..it is always aimed at the bootface and not personal.....I never seem to have time to gather my emotion...in daily life...I need to cut back and find time....as it is unhealthy to store....but I fired it all out today....well I went on that much to them that by the time I had finished ..... the treatment was done!!

    And now I am home...I will be back in a minute...I am making a brew....before I go completely off loads of stuff for 10 days...

    Much Love to EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOUSSSSSS XXX

  • lvtwoqlt
    lvtwoqlt Member Posts: 6,162
    edited December 2007

    Sue,

    One treatment down, one less to deal with.  You go and rest now. You will feel better.

    Sheila

  • livesstrong
    livesstrong Member Posts: 1,799
    edited December 2007

    AND THE WINNER IS...........................SUE!!! LOL.

    2 down, yippee!!!  You crack me up!!  I can just picture you sitting there giving everyone hell - including that nasty bootface.

    I'm at work so I'll check in when I get home.

    I'm proud of you!!!

    Hugs to all,

    Valerie

  • sueps
    sueps Member Posts: 2,266
    edited December 2007

    ....anyway I asked the oncologist to check my right side...and she said it was lumpy but nothing stuck out to her....she said it may be the anti d's ...she was rushed and not at all empathetic...she prodded me that much it made my eyes water...I asked her what if it was something more sinister....she said 'it doesn't really make much difference as you are having treatment'  ......and walked off....well excuse me!!...I would never complain if it wasn't hurting....I have been near to tears at work and in bed with it...

    Well when I fall asleep down here...the corner of my laptop digs in my right side....for hours...so it may be causing the pain...I just don't know...I will go see my gp nxt week...as they said today maybe I should be on 20mg of anti d's and not 10 mg...they obviously saw the worst of me today... xxx

    Karen...you will have finished your treatment well before me..I can't understand why I have to have so many....you will have to let me know how the rads go.... gosh I will be left here alone by the end of May ...lol  Cry  how sad a thought...  xxx You are doing so well....it is fantastic....

    The docs have halved the steroids ...i told them it made my sleep rubbish and whatnot

    Ulla....please don't be alone...please please...always check on here..we are all thinking about you so much....I really want to be right by you when you are so down...its a terrible journey...BUT we will all get there I promise you so much xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

    Everyone hang in .... hang on..... and we will all get there in the end .... xxx  DAMN BOOTFACE

    Much Love xxx

    oh and Aunty Em ...I am posting that book of Poppys' to you on my day off I finished it today xxxx  Also Lisa..I shall wear the scarves with love....what an amazing gift xxx

    I am now going to make another cuppa...xxx

  • TenderIsOurMight
    TenderIsOurMight Member Posts: 4,493
    edited March 2008





    You brighten my day even when you've just returned from chemo and I should be brightening yours!



    Ding ding, round two! Who would have thunk it! Only you, Sue.



    I'll check back, but just wanted to be sure you're ok.



    Sorry your surgeon said that, twas a tad insensitive to say the least.



    Enjoy your tea! (or it is coffee, I don't know which cuppa stands for).



    I just had my green jasmine tea. Love it's taste.



    Tender

  • my3girls
    my3girls Member Posts: 3,766
    edited December 2007

    Sue...glad to see you have your spit and vinegar!  I can hear you now with them!  I sent you a pm about the scarves...I feel bad..well you will read.Cry  I did not think it would be that much money. Sorry!

    I checked 2 ways..both allot more than I thought it would be. They are so light!

    Sue everyone has a different amount of tx's.  Some people have 4, some 6, 8, and more.  I had 8 tx's.  I was supposed to have rads..but then after they did the mastectomy..there was no need..cause all 22 nodes were clear.

    xoxo

    Lisa

  • sueps
    sueps Member Posts: 2,266
    edited December 2007
    Hello everyone  I feel rubbish I am so nauseous and my heart is beating really really slow ..my body is aching...I am going to phone the hospital and see if I can take a steroid. They halved my steroids reluctantly .... I am so ill...last time I only became ill on day 2...its only freakin 6 hours since I had it... I cant take it anymore Cry
  • my3girls
    my3girls Member Posts: 3,766
    edited December 2007

    Sue...honey...you were not feeling well to begin with remember?  You felt fluish.  You think it's from the steroids being reduced?  The steroids made my heart race.  Calm down...drink some more water...relax, put your feet up.  Do you have the anti nausea meds?  Take them...they would knock me out, so I didn't know how bad I felt.

    Oh how I wish I could be there to help you...

  • honeygirl
    honeygirl Member Posts: 1,718
    edited December 2007

    Hi SueSmile! Treatment #2 got a hold of me faster than treatment one did. I wish they hadn't mess with your steroids. Not being able to sleep beats feeling nauseous and sick. I know this sucks so bad. But hang on Sue. Sometimes you have to go through hell to get to heaven.

    I can't believe your onc said that about you breast pain. Yes , go see your gp and let him/her check it out. Do you have more anti-nausea drugs? I do hope you can take some and feel better.

    I'm gonna go get a cuppa...

  • sueps
    sueps Member Posts: 2,266
    edited December 2007

    ...I don't know...I phone the helpline...they say get the gp out blah blah....well it may be the steroids ..but it may be because I havent really bin drinking water...and I am washed out this time around....so I am going to drink loads before I go to bed...and look forward to takin steroids tmw.....also....erm....I forgot ...erm...also ummmmm...oh yeah..I have taken the nausea meds and a back up one....I might take another one with the water.....

    Shall I work tmw shall I not...I just had meltdown AGAIN on the phone...it really affects my emotions and hormones...

    I will go get some drinks ,  I may fall asleep...this is a baddd day xxx

  • my3girls
    my3girls Member Posts: 3,766
    edited December 2007

    NO..do not work tomorrow...I think that may be part of your problem...is you are not getting enough rest.  Rest is crucial to recovery..think of what you are putting your body through with your tx's?  With that, rest, sleep, recovery is ever so important.  Please...give yourself that ...please rest..work will be there when you are ready!

  • honeygirl
    honeygirl Member Posts: 1,718
    edited December 2007

    Sue sweetie , if you can fall asleep , do it! Try to get lots and lots of rest. Stay home tomorrow! Zippy will appreciate it. xxxx Melody

  • sueps
    sueps Member Posts: 2,266
    edited December 2007

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    THAT IS THE STATE OF MY HEAD ......blerghhhhhhhhhhhh 

    AND THIS IS LOUD SCREAM ......  ARRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

    Get lost bootface...uuuggghhhhh 

    I might go and lie on my bed....xxx

  • my3girls
    my3girls Member Posts: 3,766
    edited December 2007

    Ok..Dorothy...you have two of your dear friends telling you the same thing...REST...STAY HOME tomorrow!!  Then you will have 2 days in a row to rest, since you are off on Thursday. If you don't listen...I am sending the wicked witch..haha..trying to make you laugh!

    xoxo

    Lisa

  • sueps
    sueps Member Posts: 2,266
    edited December 2007

    I think I will pull a sickie tomrrow...

    well it wouldn't be a sickie would it lol...well not a pulled one..just a real one ...xxxx

    God I could scream the house down...its the only bit of me that doesnt ache on exertion ... lol....motormouth.....

    Do you remember  The Muppet Show.....well I need to be like Animal and beat them drums like there's no tomorrow with my frustration...lol

    I am going to drink xxx

  • sueps
    sueps Member Posts: 2,266
    edited December 2007

    lol  I am turning into a witch...lol...not....

    Why do I never get nasty lol....

    I am seriously considering taking day off....I will see how I feel at 7am .... and then phone in....  xxx

  • my3girls
    my3girls Member Posts: 3,766
    edited December 2007

    Good girl!! Yes...stay home..take care of yourself. Do you have anyone to come over and give you some help?  That is what I did for day's 3 &4..they were my "bad"days...so someone came to take care of me..mostly bring me drinks, some food, etc.

    You rest!!  That does my heart good!

    xoxo

    Lisa

  • Shirlann
    Shirlann Member Posts: 3,302
    edited December 2007

    OH POOR SUE!!!  Dang this disease!  NOT FAIR!!!!

    As if life wasn't enough on its own.  Sheeesh, well as all of you know, my hubby and I adopted a sweet little kitty last week.  She is precious and has slept on my pillow for a week.

    WELL, the little dear HAS RING WORM!!!  Had to go to the vet, rinse her in SULPHUR, smells like rotten eggs, get a horrendous prescription.  Oh boy, what do I do now?  She will be terrified in the garage:  HELP< does anyone know anything about ring worm?

    And Sue, I promise not to touch you or come near you.  So two down, hummm, how many more?

    Honey, keep screaming, the only good care and concern goes to the squeaky wheel, you keep squeaking.

    Hugs, Shirlann 

  • sueps
    sueps Member Posts: 2,266
    edited December 2007

    OH Shirlann...lololol..you mad me laugh out loud...

    DO NOT PUT KITTY IN YOUR GARAGE....she will be mewing for you all night lol....give her plenty of love...I bet Dusty is well pleased....HAHAHAHAHA 

  • sueps
    sueps Member Posts: 2,266
    edited December 2007

    Shirlann tell Dusty I can here him tittering at Kitty lololol

  • my3girls
    my3girls Member Posts: 3,766
    edited December 2007

    Shirlann...sorry about your poor little kitty!  I wish I could help, but I really don't know anything about it, especially in kittens.  Did the vet say how long it took before it would be gone?

    I hope our Sue is ready for bed....Night dear Sue.

    xoxo

    Lisa

  • sueps
    sueps Member Posts: 2,266
    edited December 2007

    Lisa I am goin in to bed in min...I am stalling...as my eyes won't shut to go up the stairs...I feel too achey to gerrup lol

    Shirlann sometimes fleas cause ringworm....I just sprinkle worm powder on Zippys' food and he walks off in disgust...flashing me a dirty look...lol

    google it mam ...google it..... ask Ulla if you can google ring worm...she is netnanny lolol..you are my cybermam

    I am going to the kitchen slowly for water xx

  • sueps
    sueps Member Posts: 2,266
    edited December 2007

    Have a lovely evening everyone .....xxxx

    Sweet dreams xxx

    I am off to bed its midnite here in the UK....I am sick as a dog....but my eyes wont shut...I just took another med

    Much Love xxxx   I feel green with sickness LOL... if I was actually green and took my hat off... I would look like a pea on legs xxx

  • my3girls
    my3girls Member Posts: 3,766
    edited December 2007

    Good night dear Sue...I hope you have a nice restfull sleep.  I will check on you tomorrow...while you are home from work, resting..ok...

    Much love to you!

    ..a pea on legs..haha...you are so funny!  Glad to see the sense of humor is still with you!

    xoxo

    Lisa

  • Ulla
    Ulla Member Posts: 840
    edited December 2007

    oh dear sweet sue,,i am happy that u have 2 Rx down now inspite of all that pain and discomfort that u r going through,,plz honey hang on it will pass too,,i just came on;line now i am as bad as no one can imagine..ny arm and armpit still swollowed i met my onk this morning ,,she assured me about this whitespot on the port scar the nurse cleaned it for me with some spirit and antiseptics and the onk, said that this swelling will goes away gradually,,but i feel so crappy,,i cant take off the bra neither i cant keep it on,,laughing do u have a one side bra??laughing and trying so hard to c ur gorgeous smile,,,plz ssue dont o to work whenever u cant not go,,my onk was very angry on me today when i was telling her that i have a language test this thursday,,she started to yell at my face what the hell is wroung with me???why i just cant have some rest ??why i am not listening to my body and give it what it needs ,,she said :what the hell i think that they r giving me as medicines??she said we r giving u poisns to kill those nasty cancer cells ,,and i f i want this work i must strengthen my body by having good rest not weakening it by loading my mind and body with going to school and having tests,,she said that i need to fight strongly to defet this stupid illness for the timebeing then i will have the whole life time to go to school and learn and work or do whatever i want,,she was very angry ,,i felt every word she said to me,,i even blamed myself to be such careless about the whole rest thing,,,she put me in vaction of school till the 1st wek of april,,she told me that this un negotiatable at all,,and it is her final decison,,she even e-mailed the school and transfered me to a social helper,,,i will met her tomorrow at 1pm becoz that my onk thnks that i was destroying myself and going through depression by my denying my own weakness and my hard trying to act as a normal ,healthy persone while all what i need really is rest,,

    plz listen to me and get as much rest as u can..do only wat u feel like to do ,,no more...

    i am happy to be ur netnanny...i can take good care of u if i was nearby,,but unfortunately i am so far away...

    sorry for the long post but i feel so sleepless with pain everywhere and i thought it might help me to be useful for u telling all these things be4 u wishing u will feel better than i do and that u will make good use from my faults not to repeat them,,

    sue ,,plz take good care of urself and have anice dreams if u r sleeping now,,,

    hugs,kisses,,with all love

  • Wren
    Wren Member Posts: 324
    edited December 2007

    Sue and Ulla,

    I am praying for you; I am rooting for you; and I am hoping for you to feel better soon.

    Your strength and courage shine through all your posts and you are an inspiration to me.

  • Valsul
    Valsul Member Posts: 160
    edited December 2007

    Ulla, I am so sorry that you have been feeling low.  Your onc is right, and I suppose she is being angry because she wants the best for you, but medical professionals should get their message across in a patient way.  They are dealing with sick people after all, even though we might be striving to be normal.

    I admit that from the outset I was going to work with the chemo, telling my body that the poisons it was taking in were going to be of benefit in the long run.  But I had such a horrid time that no one had to tell me to rest, I was in such discomfort, I could barely do anything.  Wuss or what?

    Sue, I read that you are not so well this tx.  I was hoping you would be okay, but reading your posts you are poleaxed by this one.  I think you will be joining us on the board today and not going to work.  I can't believe you said "pull a sickie." (ROFL) That has so many levels I don't know where to begin.  "Pulling a sickie" has the mental image of colleagues saying "Oh Yeah - whatever!" when they hear you are off work sick.  "Bet she's off around the Trafford Centre getting her Christmas shopping in."  I think, perhaps, in this case they might JUST understand the real situation.

    Much love everyone

    Valerie S

  • lvtwoqlt
    lvtwoqlt Member Posts: 6,162
    edited December 2007

    Sue, Don't worry about "pulling a sickie", those days are there to use when you are sick or even not feeling well enough to work. They tell us that if you don't feel well stay home (so you don't infect the office). Please stay home and rest. The meds will work better if you do rest.

    Sheila

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