please help

I did not receive any hormone treatment.  I was er-/pr+ and HER2+.  I had IDC, 2 cm, stage 1 and a grade 3.  I have my appt with my oncologist on Monday....I always dread those appts. 

Hi Sue! Are you working today? I'm sorry this is stiring up emotions of past events. I know chemo made me feel "raw". Everything about me was sensitive. Physically , emotionally , mentally. But it does go away. I hope your new meds help. Please take care sweet sister. We are all gathered around you in a great group hug!xxxx Melody

Sue

Feeling kind of different today. Strange really. Very tight and sicky. I really had a look at my stitches today. It really upset me.

I feel like a patchwork quilt, Im scared if I move too quickly I will split!

I know it might sound irrational but thats how it feels. Has anyone on this thread felt anything like this?

I suppose I just want to be back to normal instantly which isnt going to happen.......

Ow well my turn for a cry I suppose

Poppy

I admire you ladies who've had mastectomies so much.  Whether you've had reconstruction or not, it must be such an adjustment.  I still have my breast--though it may look different.  I can't even imagine the toll it must take on you both physically and emotionally.  You are all awesome!!

I had a wonderful day yesterday!  It was pouring rain on our way to the zoo, but just minutes before we arrived, the sky started to clear and it turned out to be a gorgeous day.  We had a great time.  It was so nice to feel like I was LIVING and to forget my troubles for a while.

Sue, I hope you're having a good day and not suffering too much from that darn nausea.  Are you working today?  You are incredible!  I'm so fortunate not to have to work during all of this.  I'm in awe of you ladies who are now or have in the past worked during chemo.  Sue, you're one of the strongest people I know!  Your sons must be so proud of you.

Love and hugs to you all,

Karen

Hey!!  I just saw that my last post was the 1,000th post on this thread.  Do I win a prize??  Wow, Sue!  What a testament to you--1,000 posts!  That's incredible, and so are you!

Hugs,

Karen

Sue,

You sound a little better today, good for you!!

If your hair starts to go, be sure to cut it short, if it is not.  I had long hair and had it cut chin length, just to make the whole process easier. Then when it was coming out fairly quickly...my very dear friend from childhood, came over and shaved my head for me! This was so liberating.  She even offered for me to shave her head first if that would make me feel better!  Wasn't that incredible?  We both cried and hugged and I told her..no, but thank you!  When she shaved my head, it was such a relief!  I had my wig ready, but I have been wearing this wig (mostly only to work) since April, and I can't wait to not wear it anymore.  Usually anywhere else but work, I wear a hat or a scarf.

Sue, your sore throat, may be just dry.  Are you drinking enough water?  I drank allot, because I craved it.  Drink juices, anything that helps keep you hydrated.

Poppy...just think, it won't be long before you are healed, and everything will look "normal" again.  I had my masctectomy on Oct. 1st, and I know looking in the mirror everyday is not easy.

I will need your advice and help after the first of the year.  That is when I am planning my reconstruction.

Sue, I had several nasuea drugs that helped. But off the top of my head, I don't remember their names.  I am at work right now, so when I get home, I will look at them and let you know.

Stay strong everyone!

xoxo hugs & kisses,

Lisa

Hey darlin', please do not worry about dying.  You need to take "baby steps", one day at a time.  There are thousands of us out here who are fine.  So stop worrying about that.

Get through chemo, keep that front and center.  Then rads, (that is a lot easier) and then it will be almost a year and one more year and you will KNOW by TESTS RECENTLY DONE that triple negs, once past 2 years,  almost NEVER have a recurrence.

So print this out, and hold it in your bra half.  Tap it when you panic, and remember, YOU WILL BE AN OLD LADY!!!!!!!

I am 500 miles at sea and I had to see how you were doing.

You are loved and you will BE JUST FINE!!!!!!!

Hugs, Shirlann 

Wow, nice to see everyone so "in here". I feel the love and boy does it help!!!! I can never remember who posted what by the time I get down to here but I read each and every post and commisserate and send lots of positive energy out there to each and everyone of us.

  Very Cool that you can be online and atsea Shirlann....

I had to smile Sue with your comment of your "friend" I can't begin to tell you how many people have made the query.... "Do you have cancer?" ANd when I say yes, and be more descriptive (if they request it) They always seem to say something like...... "Ohhhh I knew someone with (fill in the blank) Cancer. She's not here now". And then proceed to tell me what "they" went through as they *sometimes* realize that they didn't say the right thing to a survivor after all!!

Karyll

Rest Sue darling...REST!! It is part of doctors orders...very big part of recovery...so please get as much as possible!

Thanks for your kind words Sue.  I think God puts things before us for a reason.  I just felt at times this year..he overloaded me..but then I realized, it was all for growth!  I feel stronger more empowered, than I have ever felt before.  I have the negativity and people (or should I say person) who was dragging me down..GONE!

We are all strong women!! Remember ladies...the  Emerald City is before us!

xoxoxo

Sue,  I'm soo glad to hear you are doing better.  Make sure you take care of that sore throat now.

As far as hair goes, I started losing mine later then most girls.  It was after my 3rd treatment.  I went to my hair dresser and she cut my hair short. By the time I went for a wig fitting I was losing it and the lady at the Wellness Center cut off more.  It would bother me when I laid down so DH shaved off the rest!! I did the same for him when he was sick!!!  Kinda weird. Anyway its been almost a year since my last treatment and I just decided to let my hair grow long again.  It grew back very curly (I had straight hair) and salt & pepper in color (I was a brunette).  The picture that I posted from the Keys a month ago was me after 2 haircuts.

I hope all of you ladies realize how special & strong you really are. Keep up the fight!!!

Love ya,

Valerie

Sue I am reading an amazing book at the moment called Nordies at Noon. It about a group of women who meet during cancer treatment. It gives their experienced of everything from Dx to Mast, recon and Lots on their Chemo experiences.

I will finish it and send it on to you, I'll get your address in a day or so when I finish.

Poppy