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  • TenderIsOurMight
    TenderIsOurMight Member Posts: 4,493
    edited March 2008

    Sue, thanks for your kind words. You stir our hearts.



    Poppy,



    I lost a lot of blood too after my surgery, but then I grew it back (grin)!



    Not to make light of your situation: you are dedicated to our Sue, and we are dedicated to you!



    Cheers,

    Tender

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  • honeygirl
    honeygirl Member Posts: 1,718
    edited November 2007

    You haven't let anyone down Sue. We are all traveling on the same road. I know , the wizard of oz! Thats how I feel. I'll be the scarecrow , you can be pretty Dorothy , Zippy can be our Toto. And will go arm in arm and pick up Karen and won't know whats next , but hey , we are all in this together!!!!

    Seriously Sue , I met the above. We are all in this together. And no matter what happens , we will be here for each other.

    I know , I wish I was normal too. But at the point I am at , I feel more normal than I have since this all started for me in Feb. I am not making small of what you are feeling Sue , I'm just saying in time , you will feel more normal. I wish I could speed your tx time up and you were right where we all are. But please don't fret. We are all ready to help you through. Your Nov. chemo group will help too. It really helps to go through this with others at the same time. Sometimes you need to cry Sue. I wish I was with you too. Having a good cry helps me immensely. I don't look so good afterwards(lol) but I feel better. Maybe make yourself a cuppa , and try to relax. xxxxMelody

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  • honeygirl
    honeygirl Member Posts: 1,718
    edited November 2007

    Poppy! Oh my gosh! What a trooper. I lost alot of blood too. I had to have some given to me. After they gave me the blood , I did real well. Hope you do too! I'm so glad you pm'd us. Rest up now. xxxx Melody

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  • sueps
    sueps Member Posts: 2,266
    edited November 2007

    Poppy....Its is great to see you post...what a lovely thing to do..you are one brave ladee...OMG lol....I send you lots and lots and lots of good wishes...and I am so happy ...I have been thinking of you....and all yesterday praying like mad...

    YOU ARE A TROOPER  X X X X X X

    Much Love xxx

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  • sueps
    sueps Member Posts: 2,266
    edited November 2007

    Melody lololol yellow brick road...I would be more of a match to the lion than dorothy...but I would so love to be dorothy...and click my heels on my red shoes...the bootface could be the wicked witch...lol....follow follow follow follow follow the yellow brick road lol...can you imagine karen too ...and all of us skipping down a long winding road....laughing in adversity....hahaha...thats what I wanna do! You cheer me up no end inspite of your rough journey too....Zippy could be toto....hahahah.....we could all be skipping to the hospital for our treatment...how do lally would that be...

    Thankyou for being my friend...I feel very close to you xxxxx

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  • my3girls
    my3girls Member Posts: 3,766
    edited November 2007

    You ladies are so awesome!! I love the analogy of the Wizard of Oz as well!  And Dorothy thought she had problems..haha.

    Can we make the Emerald City...the place that Cancer does not exist...and all is welcome??  Wouldn't that be great for all?

    Melody...your journey sounds sooo much like mine!  Even the same time frame.

    xoxo Lisa

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  • honeygirl
    honeygirl Member Posts: 1,718
    edited November 2007

    Hi Lisa! , Yes , we can all go down the yellow brick road , It just has to be wide enough , cause we're ALL going to the Emerald City where the $#@@$%^ bootface is never allowed! Ok ladies , green is the new pink!! And I declare Tender the wizardress. (is that such a word) You know what I mean. And Shirlann is the good witch. I loved her , I thought she was soooo beautiful.

    Lisa , I hope your doing well and feeling as "normal" as can be. xxxMelody

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  • my3girls
    my3girls Member Posts: 3,766
    edited November 2007

    Thanks Melody....feeling as close to normal as possible...the closest I have felt in 8 months!  Counting my blessings every day!

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  • honeygirl
    honeygirl Member Posts: 1,718
    edited November 2007
    Hey Lisa , I'm in Ohio too! Laughing
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  • my3girls
    my3girls Member Posts: 3,766
    edited November 2007
    see..we have more in common...haha.  What part?  I am about 45 minutes south of Cleveland.Tongue out
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  • honeygirl
    honeygirl Member Posts: 1,718
    edited November 2007

    I'm about 50 miles northeast of Cleve. in a very small town called Geneva. We're part of the "snowbelt" yea!!

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  • my3girls
    my3girls Member Posts: 3,766
    edited November 2007

    Geneva...I have heard of it.  My town is somewhat small...Wadsworth, near Medina.  Not looking forward to the white stuff falling!!

    Sue...I hope you went to bed!! It's late there and you need your rest!

    I have about 40 minutes left at work...then home for my "weekend"!

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  • sueps
    sueps Member Posts: 2,266
    edited November 2007

    I am so pleased we are good friends....and I have so much repsect and love for you all.....who would have thought we would have found each other....and become so close....I thank all of you for your eternal friendship....

    When I am better....I have every dream of visiting.....that would be the icing on the cake.....for now I will continue to be more positive....and travel this road with you all.....the loneliness I felt earlier has gone...thankyou for being here xxxx

    Sweet dreams ...its midnight ...I am taking my red shoes off until tomorrow ...lol

    Much Love xxx

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  • sueps
    sueps Member Posts: 2,266
    edited November 2007

    You all make this jouney bearable...and once again you have helped me overpower boil in the bag bootface torment. It has now boiled dry in the pan and I will leave it there screaming and scalding....xxxx I wont take any thoughts of it to bed...

    Sweet dreams xxx

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  • honeygirl
    honeygirl Member Posts: 1,718
    edited November 2007

    Yes Sue , I entirely forgot about the time difference! I feel so close to you , I forgot you are across the pond! I hope you sleep well and when tomorrow comes for you , you are feeling much better and the flu is gone. Gods special blessing to you Sue.xxxxx

    Lisa , My son lives in Kent. I don't think that is as far south as you. I see the Medina exit when I travel to Tennessee to see my family.

    I have a half hour drive to work. And when the snow flies , its pretty much a white knuckle drive. But other than the drive , I'm pretty use to it. I tolerate it because I love the change of seasons here. Fall is my favorite. Hope you have a great weekend.

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  • portiasproudmom
    portiasproudmom Member Posts: 2,125
    edited November 2007

    Sweet dreams, Sue!  By the way, you are NOT the lion.  You are Dorothy (only prettier than Judy Garland).

    Love ya!!

    Karen

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  • my3girls
    my3girls Member Posts: 3,766
    edited November 2007

    Kent is actually just east of me, about a 20-25 minute drive.  My older siblings went to college there.

    I have lived in my area most of my life, so like you, very used to snow.  Fall is my favorite season, the only thing that keeps me here..haha.

    Taking off from work..goodbye to all...enjoy the weekend.

    Sue...question to you...did you have lymph nodes removed?  If so, how many.  I will catch up with you later about this.  Maybe I will log on at home, if I am not too tired.

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  • livesstrong
    livesstrong Member Posts: 1,799
    edited November 2007

    Ladies,

    Can I be Auntie EM????? She was always there to comfort Dorothy.  Please, please!!! LOL.

    Sweet dreams Sue.  Please take care of yourself tomorrow, Lord knows you don't won't to prolong your journey, you have to make it to Emerald City!!  I have asked on one of the Circle the Wagon thread's to put you on their pray list.  You have some power behind you now girlfriend.

    Poppy - its great to hear you are doing OK.  How special you are for checking in on our Sue.  Now get some rest.

    Everyone else from A to Z - hope you are doing well and for those in treatment - I can see Emerald City in the distance - it won't be long now!!!

    Stay strong,

    Valerie

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  • my3girls
    my3girls Member Posts: 3,766
    edited November 2007

    whoops...I meant the nodes question for melody...sorry about that...geeze...i am tired.

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  • portiasproudmom
    portiasproudmom Member Posts: 2,125
    edited November 2007

    Poppy, I forgot to commend you on your dedication to our Sue.  What a special friend you are to check in on her from your hospital bed.  We bc sisters are an amazing bunch, aren't we?  Hope you're resting soundly now (both you and Sue).

    Love to all,

    Karen

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  • honeygirl
    honeygirl Member Posts: 1,718
    edited November 2007

    Valerie , you are Auntie Em! We shall party in the Emerald City!!

    Sue , with all of us praying for you, God is watching over you tonight , as always , and you are recieving special blessings and you will feel much better tomorrow. xxxx

    Lisa , I had three nodes removed. All were negative. Have a safe trip home.

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  • Shirlann
    Shirlann Member Posts: 3,302
    edited November 2007

    Hi Sweet Sue!  On to the Emerald City, and we all got to stop in the poppies, and it was okay! 

    How about our Poppy, from her hospital bed!  You gals are unbelievable.  I bet Sue is asleep now.

    Anyway, I leave tomorrow, so I will be missing for a week.

    I will you everyone of you special women.

    Hugs, Shirlann

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  • my3girls
    my3girls Member Posts: 3,766
    edited November 2007

    HUGS TO YOU TOO SHIRLANN!

    SEE YOU BACK IN A WEEK.

    XOXO

    LISA

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  • livesstrong
    livesstrong Member Posts: 1,799
    edited November 2007

    Sue,

    I won't be around much today but wanted you to know I am thinking of you and hope that flu bug hasn't got the best of you.

    TTYS,

    Valerie aka Auntie Em!!!

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  • sueps
    sueps Member Posts: 2,266
    edited November 2007

    Hello Everyone xxx

    Hope you are all having a good moment...xxx

    My dad came to see me today....he came and played the last post at Rememberance Sunday in a town nearby (he lives in the Lake District) ....it is always so nice to see him.He is continuing his mild chemo but it never can be mild enough eh... Well we are like two peas in a pod...and this journey I now find myself on is tearing me apart having to see my dad feel for me so much....and there is nothing he can do to make it all better....it is a comfort to have his unwavering support...

    I have decided I am grieving for my old me...my care free attitude and my feeling of immortality.....I am grieving my breast also....and though my scar is pretty and very neat I can never really look in a relaxed happy manner...obviously it would sadden anyone of us xxx

    I am not too sure if the anti depressants are working...I do not feel depressed....just all at sea with anxiety and the like....but maybe thats because of the situation.

    Before I became ill my life was like a cake cut into several pieces...say 8 ...one for each of my life ways...children... work... worries...health..bills...money...issues etc..... right now I feel that not only is the cake sliced into about 20 thin pieces...not enough to go round...but that somebody has stabbed and sliced it and mixed it all around until it has become a sponge and jam and icing MESS....lol...true...so I am going to have to keep rebaking it every situation....until eventually the slices become healthy to deal with...

    Well Sueps is off at it again...rambling her thoughts down .... lol...argghhh...I have to say what I see ...lol..

    And one more thing...Poppy...if you are out there tonight..I want to let you know that I think you are extremely extremely amazing xxx Your O/H and your children will be really proud of you....

    Now I am off to try and put one foot in front of the other and think of getting through work tomorrow...I am also going to do a route plan to the hospital as I always always get lost on a journey..... lets hope I find that 'Emerald City' one day ...

    Much Love xxx

    You all to me are like gold dust xxx

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  • sueps
    sueps Member Posts: 2,266
    edited November 2007

    I love you Auntie Em......you give me the strength xxx  thankyou so much for the prayers xxx

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  • Valsul
    Valsul Member Posts: 160
    edited November 2007

    What an amazing bunch bc sister are - totally agree with that sentiment.  I haven't been on the board for a day or two and have seen that Sue, who was in deep and painful despond (((Sue))) has come out of that trough and posted a cheerful message, and Poppy in Dorset has posted from her hospital bed!!  I already know from my own journey buddies how truly special these bc sisters are, and I am so heartened to see that tradition continuing.

    Keep yourself well, Sue.  You will be tested beforehand for any infections and as Valerie Livesstrong says that might delay treatment if your bloods are low.  The chemo lowers your immunity, so you really have to stay clear of folk who might bring colds and flu to your door.  Let your friends and relatives know not to visit if they are unwell.  This is hard, I know, because I love to see friends and family, but my DH was like an immigration official, almost wanting a letter from their doctors that they were fit and well!  I'm sorry to be so doom and gloom about this, but it came from several hours in Accident and Emergency at Warrington Hospital with all the drunks and fighters when I had a temperature that exceeded 37.5.  It took them a few goes before they realised that I needed special attention - didn't want it, but needed it for my survival.  I hope to spare you all that.

    As for crying Sue, cry as much as you need to.  There's nothing to hold it in for, and letting it go is much easier on you.  We are all sad that we are in this situation.  Our first welcome to a bc sister is to let her know we never wanted her to join our club, nor did we want to join it ourselves, but we have and while one of us is down there are lots of others who can bring us back to smiles with their love and humour.  God bless 'em.  I don't know what I would have done without this board.

    Big hugs, Sue and Poppy, and all who are on this path and having a hard time right now.  Loving thoughts for everyone.

    BTW, don't have a right breast anymore, but still have an itchy right nipple.  How's that?  I have found myself rubbing the prosthetic wondering why it doesn't relieve it. 

    Love and hugs

    Valerie S

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  • portiasproudmom
    portiasproudmom Member Posts: 2,125
    edited November 2007

    Sue, I can so relate to your comment about grieving your old, carefree self.  I felt immortal too.  I never thought in a million years that something like this would happen to me.  After all, I'm not overweight, I'm relatively young, I exercise.  The only thing I may have done was drink one too many glasses of wine on occasion.  Otherwise, I take pretty good care of myself.  How on earth could I end up with c@nc%r??  Unbelievable!  I still wonder sometimes that this is actually my life.  MY life!!  Not just some friend of a friend's life or the lady with bc they're interviewing for a television program.  It's MY life.  When am I going to wake up from this nasty dream?  Sigh........

    Have a wonderful, relaxing evening, Sue.  Keep following that yellow brick road.  The Emerald City is in clear view!!!!

    Love and hugs to you and all my wonderful bc sisters!

    Karen

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  • sueps
    sueps Member Posts: 2,266
    edited November 2007

    Boo   xxx

    Karen! You are me all over..that is EXACTLY how I feel...I could not have put it better...LOLOLLOL.....aren't these feelings spooky....like it is a second person...its all way too strange..... jekyll and hyde... xxx

    Well..... had a good day at work...hanging on to every transaction and banter with the customers ....... dreading tomorrow....had a good chat with Tom....my boss....and tomorrow....oh my oh my...

    I still have my uniform on and feel time running out....I havent started drinking my gallon of water yet...I am about to google to see how much a gallon is...lolol..and if you dont hear from me its cos I will have drowned in drink..glug glug...I can only manage 2 glasses before I am full....helppppppppppppppppp.......the day is dawning!!

    I thank you all and hope you are not as nutty as me right now....because tomorrow will be one down ......12 to go!!

     I am going to make a calendar and each time I come back scribble one out with so much force that I rip the paper, scratch the table,  break the nib and snap the pen in the process......  GOOD RIDDANCE BOOTFACE! BOIL IN YOUR BAG !!

    Much MUCH love  xxx

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  • Karyll
    Karyll Member Posts: 235
    edited November 2007

    1 gallon = 4.4 Liters... lol...

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