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  • nosurrender
    nosurrender Member Posts: 2,019
    edited November 2007

    DEB- (((My SISTER)))

    I know how scared you are right now.

    I know that cold feeling you have in the pit of your stomach.

    Please- imagine I am sitting next to you and holding both of your hands.

    I have had two spots on my lung for the past 3 years. They vary in size and change depending on the machine that is taking the film.

    I have been to several doctors and the consensus is that it is scarring from radiation along with a nodule.

    I know there is some tell tale thing that the CT can show that will tip them off to a metastatic finding. But the waiting is so hard and the worry is all encompassing.

    Can you feel me sitting next to you?

    I am hugging you now.

    I won't leave your side and I will be with you through all of it.

    I am praying that you have nodules just like me.

    Deb, God is able. I believe. I know you do too.

    Hold on tight, we are right here with you... every step of the way.

    With love,

    g 

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  • SoCalLisa
    SoCalLisa Member Posts: 13,961
    edited November 2007
    Awww Deb...I am so sorry to hear...I wish I knew more about medicine, but I don't.. But my arms are around you ...holding you tight!!
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  • AlaskaDeb
    AlaskaDeb Member Posts: 2,601
    edited November 2007

    Thank you guys.  It does help t oknow you are all with me and praying for me.  I am so fricking scared I don't even know what to do.  I don't think I can do this again.  I know it might be nothing, but I just have this sick feeling...

    I got ahold of John.  I caught him before he got on the plane to Washington.  He will be home in a few hours.

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  • AlaskaDeb
    AlaskaDeb Member Posts: 2,601
    edited November 2007

    If it was scar tissue, would they have been able to see it last December, right after my rads was finished??  Does anyone know?  This did not show up a year ago.

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  • bluedahlia
    bluedahlia Member Posts: 6,944
    edited November 2007

    Not sure about that, but I'm almost a year out of rads and my boob is still healing (looks and feels different than it did a year ago), so that could also be happening in your lung.  Healing = scar tissue?  Just going on logic here.

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  • nosurrender
    nosurrender Member Posts: 2,019
    edited November 2007

    To every member of the wagon circle new or old:

    This is a plea for peace.

    We have sisters hurting and we need to be strong for them.

    Vickie, please, relax and breathe deep and let all of this go.

    Peter, it is ok if you don't like me. Lots of girls here like you so please, don't let this go any further.

    Mizzy, I never understood what the heck went on with you all but if you want to be a part of this place then please forget about the past and help us with our mission.

    Nicki, you are one of the most valued members here. I want you to know that you enrich my life and I would be lost without you.

    Peggy, even though you were upset with what was happening here, I was so glad to see your beautiful face.

    Blue you are my sweet friend and love to see you too.

    Cy has asked us to move forward. I was upset about Cy last night and today and she has come here and asked us to forget about what was and move forward.

    Our dear Deb is in a terrible state of limbo right now not knowing if the beast has returned.

    PLEASE

    No more bickering. Not here.

    If you chose to take a leave that is ok because we will always have the memories of what we had here. And I will make it my business to find you and make sure I will always be in touch with you.

    I will always post on BCO.

    I will post on other places too, and that includes my own little site.

    But no matter where I go or what I do, we are all part of the same battle and where I come from, when someone is down you pick her up and protect and love her.

    Please- no more snarky posts after this one to prove something. It is so counterintuitive to what SUPPORT is meant to be.

    If the circle needs some quiet time- that is ok.

    There doesn't have to be a frenzy of activity all the time.

    It is the quality not the quantity of posts that count.

    PLEASE- take a moment, step back, reflect on your own lives and situations, think about what others are enduring, and then ask yourself if it is really worth it to post something that isn't nice or supportive.

    This is not a dress rehearsal. This is the only show we got. And because of BC our run won't be as long as others will be.

    MAKE TODAY COUNT.

    Forget yesterday.

    Please lets give this place a break and stop it.

    All of it.

    This is my third plea in less than 24 hours.

    Please.

    Let's move forward into the arms of the women who need us. 

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  • nosurrender
    nosurrender Member Posts: 2,019
    edited November 2007

    Deb, no!

    Scar tissue grows with time.

    So it CAN get larger....

    THAT I do know! 

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  • MargaretB
    MargaretB Member Posts: 1,305
    edited November 2007

    Deb, I'm so sorry to hear your news and I can only imagine how scared you are.  Gina, move over so I can help you hold Deb's hands.  I'm praying that it is scar tissue.  Please keep us posted.

    Margaret

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  • SheriH
    SheriH Member Posts: 785
    edited November 2007

    Deb, just wanted to let you know how much I am praying for you tonight!  We'll be with you tomorrow at your cat scan!  It's gonna be scar tissue, we'll keep saying it.  I sure hope it is.

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  • bluedahlia
    bluedahlia Member Posts: 6,944
    edited November 2007

    Very well said Gina.  I really do enjoy and appreciate each and every one of you and want to feel the positive vibes I felt a few months ago from you all.

    I really outdid myself with the posting today.  I'm surprised I didn't knock my monitor off my table LOL!  I have terrible dyskinesia when I try to type.  It has mostly affected something (the typing) I was a wiz at before my Parkinson's diagnosis.  Go figure!

    edited for clarity 

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  • slonedeb
    slonedeb Member Posts: 562
    edited November 2007

    Deb i am so sorry to hear your news im sure its scar tissue i have a 8milmeter in my right lung and it is scar tissue i am sending you a prayer and know that the good lord is with you here is my prayer deb      dear jesus we come to you tonight to lift up our dear sister l  ord she is scared and needs your strenght right now lord wrap you loving arms around her and let her get good news about her scan and lord reach down and touch all the bc girls on here we all need you jesus help them find a cure for this beast and lord let peace come baxk to this site i dont know none of what going on but lord jesus we need each other we ask in you mighty name jesus amen   hello to all you sisters out there take care   love deb from ky

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  • CherrylH
    CherrylH Member Posts: 1,077
    edited November 2007

    Amen

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  • marshakb
    marshakb Member Posts: 1,664
    edited November 2007

    Deb, I'm thinking scar tissue from rads!!!  You are in my heart and in my prayers.  Take care of you and please let us know how it goes tomorrow.  ((((((((((((((((((DEBC)))))))))))))))))))))))))))  Love you girlfriend, Marsha

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  • Anonymous
    Anonymous Member Posts: 1,376
    edited May 2008

    Gentle hugs to all the circle girls and Peter.

    Deb if this is from a bone scan, the costovertebral joint is a common area for degenerative changes.

    Vickie -- please let us know what the doctor says tomorrow and good luck with the job meeting.  Hugs.

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  • MargaretB
    MargaretB Member Posts: 1,305
    edited November 2007

    Gina, well said and I hope everyone takes it to heart. 

    Margaret

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  • b445
    b445 Member Posts: 1,325
    edited November 2007

    Deb, It is going to be scar tissue! Scar tissue take time and it could very easily be just that!


    I had a nodule in my lung before the rads. Come to think of it they haven't mentioned it since my Scan last Dec. But the say that nodules can apear in the lungs for no aparent reason. So Scar tissue it is!

    You know I'm right here with you too!

    Lod Please please with all our sisters tonight may they find peace in whatever is going on in thier life. May they always be a comfort to each other!

    In Jesus' name I pray with all my heart!

    Went to the wound specialist today. They removed a LOT of dead tissue and put something on it to sraw up the stuff that is keeping it from healing. I go back in on Friday to have them check it!

    They were surprised they stopped my chemo because of it so I'll find out Friday if they think I can resume chemo and then hopefully we can get back on track.

    A friends son came by tonight and capped of the cold water to the tub and turned the hot water off at the water heater. He said we'll need to turn off the wather to the house at night and when we are gone but at least we can flush the toilet again. We can always boil water for bathing and dishes until we  can afford to get someone in here to fix the pipes, which he said we were lucky they hadn't burst on us yet!

    Well I need to go take some pain pills and head to bed I have to be at the lab bright and early in the am.

    Deb I'm cuddled right up with you dear!

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  • PeanutsGirl
    PeanutsGirl Member Posts: 153
    edited November 2007

    Deb, you'll be in my prayers, along with all our other sisters who are struggling tonight.

    As always, love, Laura

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  • Anonymous
    Anonymous Member Posts: 1,376
    edited November 2007

    I've never been to this thread before today. I've been looking things over for a week or so and decided to register. I started at the beginning of the list of forums and made my way down. I've made a few posts along the way. I read the Welcome thread here and this sounds like a wonderful group.

    Then I read the last few pages and I've decided that perhaps I'll come back another time. Good luck to this group.

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  • Madison
    Madison Member Posts: 1,819
    edited November 2007

    Deb,  sending hugs and prayers to you.........I also say scar tissue from rads.......we are holding your hand

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  • jankay
    jankay Member Posts: 837
    edited November 2007
    GOD WANTED ME TO TELL YOU
    It shall be well with you this year. No matter how much your enemies try this year, they will not succeed. You have been destined to make it and you shall surely achieve all your goals this year. For the remaining months of the year, all your agonies will be diverted and victory and prosperity will be incoming in abundance. Today God has confirmed the end of your sufferings sorrows and pains because HE that sits on the throne has remembered you. He has taken away the hardships and given you JOY. He will never let you down. I knocked at heaven's door this morning, God asked me... My child! What can I do for you? And I said, Father, please protect and bless the person reading this message... God smiled and answered...Request granted. If you believe, send it to seven persons and the one who sent it to you. By doing this you have succeeded in praying for eight people today .
     
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  • newvickie
    newvickie Member Posts: 3,939
    edited November 2007

    Just stopping in quickly.

    Deb...I sent you a pm...it will be ok.

    I was asked about the journals...I do have them ready to be printed.  I plan to do so asap...I then will have to put them together (they will be in three ring binders as book binding is too expensive).  I planned to mail them as Christmas/Holiday gifts.

    Love, hugs and take care all...

    Vickie

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  • jankay
    jankay Member Posts: 837
    edited November 2007
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    I am not going to be the one who
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    This is to all of you who
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    I pray for your happiness.
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    Someone who loves you has helped
    keep it alive by sending it to you.

    Don't let The Candle of Love, Hope
    and Friendship die! Pass It On To All

    Of Your Friends and Everyone You Love!
    May God richly bless you as you keep this candle burning.       
    I received this today for the 1st time and I hope it comes back someday again.

    Please keep this candle alive     

      
      
     
     
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  • SheriH
    SheriH Member Posts: 785
    edited November 2007

    CY, I hope they can get the chemo going again.  It sounds like they cleaned up your wound and it should start healing.  I pray that it does.  And to top it off, plumbing problems!  My least favorite thing.  Being able to flush is a good thing, but boiling the water before showering has got to be a pain.  I sure hope you can get it fixed soon.

    Nice prayers everyone.  Good luck with the scan today, Deb.

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  • PuppyFive
    PuppyFive Member Posts: 2,808
    edited November 2007





    {{{{DEB}}}}

    xoxoxoxo

    Puppy

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  • PuppyFive
    PuppyFive Member Posts: 2,808
    edited November 2007





    NS, I was Very Touched by Your Post!

    OK, Sisters and Brother, Let Us

    Begin Our Journey Together, the Way We Always Have!

    Let us Not Look Back, It is The Future We Desire

    The Love We can Share, and The Belief that WE can

    Beat The Beast, and Hold Our Dear Family

    In Our Arms and Heart, and Soul

    "TOGETHER"









    All My Love, and Prayer

    Puppy

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  • Anonymous
    Anonymous Member Posts: 1,376
    edited May 2008

    Good morning Circle girls and Peter!

    Gentle hugs and extra prayers for all those with tests and treatment today.  We'll be there in the room with you holding your hand.

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  • Anonymous
    Anonymous Member Posts: 1,376
    edited May 2008

    Jankay -- I just got a call from Entertainment Weekly.  They said you threw your bloomers on stage at a Wayne Newton concert in Vegas.  We're going to have to have a big talk when you get home young lady.  :)

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  • GracieM2007
    GracieM2007 Member Posts: 1,564
    edited November 2007

    Cy, have a good day today, I hope your wound starts to do a little better. It sounds like they got it cleaned well.



    Will keep you in our prayers.



    Deb, thinking of you today, and praying.



    Sloandeb, you are always in our prayers.



    Gina, thanks so much for being a friend and you remain in our prayers also.



    Gracie

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  • lv2cmp
    lv2cmp Member Posts: 1,363
    edited November 2007

    Deb-Just found your post and wanted to respond.  Scar tissue can grow and also speaking from experience on the lung thing.  A bone scan shows everything and I mean everything and so many false things.  A CAT scan should show you and they can also do a skeletal survey on you which is read quickly.  My lungs and bones are monitored by CAT scans.  I know the gut feeling you have and how you want to just put your head in the mud or sand and forget yesterday even happened.  Been there my friend.  Whatever the outcome good or bad you can handle it.  You are a strong person and you will do whatever it is you have to do.  I wish I was there with you cause I know you are scared and its ok to be scared.  I am taking a moment of silence for you this morning and sending all the positive vibes I can round up your way.

    Amy

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  • purplemb
    purplemb Member Posts: 1,542
    edited November 2007

    morning family....

    sorry work has kept me away from the circle... I have missed so many and so much....

    I have unloaded the firewood to keep us warm

    have some wonderful pulled beef in the crock pot and home made rolls...salad and warm cider too.....

    sorry I have a lttle time to cook but not much time to visit

    just know you are always in my prayers and thoughts..

    MB

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