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Sue, I forgot to tell you something important. Epirubicin was pretty hard for me mainly because the antinausea meds didn't work at all. It was like sailing alone in the ocean getting seasick for an entire week. But from what I have heard from those in the States, they have more antinausea meds than we do here because it takes way too longer here to get the drugs to be approved than in the States. So many of my friends there didn't suffer from nausea as much as I did because of the good meds. So there's a good chance that you'll be given effective meds.

xo

Fumi

I feel for you!  I am now considered a SURVIVOR!

I feel for you!  I am now considered a SURVIVOR!  I

I feel for you!  I am now considered a Survivor!  You will be too!  It is a long and sometimes very scary road.  But you can do it!  Have a fighting attitude and try as hard as you can to keep your spirits up!  Your attitude is so very important in the fight and to help you mentally deal with this.  I was diagnosed March 6, 2007. I went through 8 rounds of chemo. Adriomycin (sp) Citoxin and then Taxotere.  The anti-nausea meds are great, they make you sleep, but I never got sick!  I had 22 lymph nodes removed at the end of September, and a lumpectomy.  Then 4 days later found out the margins were not clear.  They nodes were..thank God!  I went in 3 days later and had a mastectomy.  This was very difficult to deal with, but I have.  I have worked full time through all of this, taking off a few days here and there the weeks of chemo.  I was off work for 4 weeks for the 2 surgeries.  I just want you to know to stay as strong as possible...it really helped me get through this to keep a very positive upbeat spirit.  Its ok to break down and have your crying spells, you need that!  But to fight this dreaded disease..be a warrior!

My prognosis looks good.  I dont know all the particulars of my cancer, like most people on here.  But that is me...it is not that important to me.  I know it is estrogen based, and I know what I need to do to keep it from coming back..and that is the most important.  I follow what the doctor says to do! 

My hair is coming in, and hopefully early 2008 I will have reocnstruction.  Life is looking good. 

You will be feeling this too....I promise.

My best to you..and prayers for your healing and strength.

Lisa

 Sue---American Idol starts up again in January--they start by showing contestants from about 4 or 5 major cities---  then it wraps up with the finale in May.  I wish they could somehow make it a year round show-- it's good entertainment.  Carrie Underwood is on the Country Music Awards tonight--I don't really like country music, but I will watch it just to see her perform.

sue....I know your cancer may sound scary.  But think of this...my Ukranian grandmother used to say this to us when we were younger in her very broken english..."worry is for shit"! Haha..saying it makes me laugh.  But it is so true...what will us worrying about any and all of this crazy disease change?? Answer...NOTHING!  So..Sue...try to stay positive..think positive...pray and try NOT to worry.  I think your recovery will be remarkable, and we will be reading wonderful posts from you, many many years down the road!

xoxo

Lisa

Hey baby, I am not too crazy about trials.  At least the ones where "some" participants get nothing.  Screw that!  You want the whole nine yards, then, there is never any, "what if I had" thoughts in your mind.  Hit it with all you've got, the first shot at this is the best one.

I think the Deep Margins is a good thing, I think it means they are wide.  Different words, but that is what it sounds like.

So go, make the dates, show up, gripe with us every day/evening and before you know it, we will be making Valentines!  It will go fast.

So, love you Sweet Sue, XXXOOO Shirlann 

Hi Sue and all,

This is going to be a quick note as I am at work right now.

Just wanted to pop in to give our beautiful Sue a massive big hug.

Oh and I agree with GB, your picture is so ..... err.. can't find the right word but anytime I saw it, it warmed up my heart. It has such a magical power! But I have to admit, I wasn't sure if it was really our Sue. I assumed so but since it looked too nice, I thought that it could be someone who was popular.

OK gotta go back to work before my boss finds me!

xo

Fumi

{{{Sue}}}

I don't know what your job is but wonder why you had to be told that way. As I said before, I haven't even taken a single day off since I was dx'd over two years ago except for fun holidays and when I had an appointment for scans or with my oncologist. Yes I did suffer and there were some days when I wanted to stay in my comfy bed but I managed to work full time throughout chemo. Believe me, I even worked overtime till midnight. In fact, there was no way to quit my fulltime job. I got divorced 3 years prior my dx and my parents are too old and don't have that much $$ to financially support me. Plus my private insurance didn't cover any bit of my treatment due to my medical history (huge crap!!!) nor were there any organizations that would help me with $$. I was totally alone in the financial aspect of this journey but I did it.

I wonder why they don't even let you give a try to continue working. I have met many women on these boards who managed to work full time. Just because you don't quit your job beforehand doesn't mean you will have to continue working. You could quit it if things didn't work out, right? Of course you don't have to work if that's what you want but having something that keeps you busy helps sometimes. It's all up to you, I never mean to push you to work like crazy. But if you don't want to quit your fulltime job, then it's worth a try?

As for those "what if's", I know how you must be feeling, poor sweetie. But rest assured you are NOT going to die anytime soon. I personally know a woman who was dx'd with BC mets to her brain 10 YEARS AGO. Mets to brain does sound much worse than deep margins or tumors on the chest wall, doncha' think? So keep your chin up, you will be fine!

xo

Fumi

Just found this picture of my boys in Egypt a couple of months ago.

Thought you I'd share it with you guys

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See you on the other side

Poppy

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