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  • sueps
    sueps Member Posts: 2,266
    edited October 2007

    Well I didnt sleep til 5am on Tuesday and had to be up for 6am. Got to hosp for 730am and was terrified...so terrified that they moved me up a place...and had to really go at me to have it done.I  ended up having triple pre med...before being taken down at 11 am.... they told my partner I would be an hour and half....it wasnt until 5pm that I came back as my blood pressure was dangersouly low and they couldnt stabilise it. I came back to the ward and had a horrible sick night from the morphine...they ran out of every type of nausea aid until they had to jab me in the backside lol....

     Before they gave me pre med I was protesting and shouting 'I dont want this done and I cant protest if you drug me up' ROFL, I ended up in fits of laughter and so did the nurses,they offered to make a banner with sue protests...I protested again when I got to anaesthetic...but they saw me through it.

     Yesterday my dad came to see me...which was a great thing....its all so sad...

     Today they took my drains out as I insisted on going home...I am in a bit of pain but I am so relieved...well just going to have a strong brew.....once again I thank you all. you are tremendous...xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

     
  • sueps
    sueps Member Posts: 2,266
    edited October 2007

    I will read all your posts again in a min...I honestly could not have gotten through this like I have without all of you ....thankyou I am overwhelmed xxx

  • sueps
    sueps Member Posts: 2,266
    edited October 2007

    Melody...Bring On the Rain....will always be special to me..I played it on and off....and thought of everyone xxxx

  • livesstrong
    livesstrong Member Posts: 1,799
    edited October 2007

    YIPPEE!!!!  SUE IS HOME!!!!!

    So glad to hear from you!!!!

    Wishing you love, light and a better tomorrow.

    ValerieK

  • sueps
    sueps Member Posts: 2,266
    edited October 2007

    Thankyou Valerie... xx thankyou everysingle one of you...I could squeeze you all up lol...xx best be careful..I want to run before I can walk xxx

  • sueps
    sueps Member Posts: 2,266
    edited October 2007

    I go back 2 weeks for results Surprised on the 24th

  • lvtwoqlt
    lvtwoqlt Member Posts: 6,162
    edited October 2007

    Great to see you came through the surgery. We will still be here to help you through recovery. Now comes the wait for your results.

    Great big (gentle) hugs.

    Sheila

  • livesstrong
    livesstrong Member Posts: 1,799
    edited October 2007

    Sue,

    I sent you a pm.

    Valerie

  • prayrv
    prayrv Member Posts: 941
    edited October 2007

    Sue,

    Welcome back - May God keep you and yours in His Loving, Healing Arms.

    Blessings,

    Trish

  • portiasproudmom
    portiasproudmom Member Posts: 2,125
    edited October 2007

    Sue!!!!  You're home!  I'm so glad you dear, sweet girl!

    Take good care and I'll be back later to post more.

    Love and hugs,

    Karen

  • sueps
    sueps Member Posts: 2,266
    edited October 2007

    Would I call myself cancer free now...I had a huge panic attack in hospital last night on the basis they had took out what had been literally eating me....thats physically what the tumour felt like...everytime it was squeezing me....how am I supposed to feel... I feel in limbo...how will I even know if it has spread...sorry to be pain in backside ...again.....I  just dont understand the mets side of things at all....shall I just hush up until my actual diagnose...I am worrying again...that I still have it xxx

  • TenderIsOurMight
    TenderIsOurMight Member Posts: 4,493
    edited March 2008



    Welcome home Sue!



    We truly are glad you're alive and kicking and asking these questions. They are ones each and every one of us ask. I'm sure you'll get all the answers you need.



    Your doctors are cutting and fixing and staining and immunohistochemistying (that's not a word) and microscoping and collaborating all for you.



    That's what they do on all we patient's and we're lucky to have them.



    Just wanted to say I'm thankful you did o.k., and now I will hush. Please keep on eye on the area they took the drain out as sometimes fluid re-accumulates: you'll know as it will swell some.



    Do rest, sleep is so restorative to our immune system.

    Tender

  • sueps
    sueps Member Posts: 2,266
    edited October 2007

    Thx Tender... xxx

    I feel so sad and emotional tonight..it really has been a nasty few weeks and a very traumatic time in hospital, but I couldnt have asked for a kinder gentler more understanding surgical and nursing team.....they all came back to see me the following day...I think I must have left a little impact with all my protesting and humour...tonight I am at a loss and very scared...I am relieved it is over.

    Melody..I am still playing your song lol...thanks from me to you all xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

  • sueps
    sueps Member Posts: 2,266
    edited October 2007

    ...you all turned my world around x x x x

  • sueps
    sueps Member Posts: 2,266
    edited October 2007

    ...will I stop posting  Frown  I cant cope without my daily ramble...

    My boys are so pleased I am home..I have had kisses to last me a lifetime xxxx

  • Shirlann
    Shirlann Member Posts: 3,302
    edited October 2007

    OH WHEEWWW, you had us worried, like a bunch of hens watching an egg hatch!

    THANK GOD YOU ARE OKAY AND EVEN HAVE A SENSE OF HUMOR.

    Rest, sweet little one, we know you are home safe, and that is HUGE, we can wait for all the details when you don't feel like a wet noodle

    Know you are loved!  Shirlann

  • lvtwoqlt
    lvtwoqlt Member Posts: 6,162
    edited October 2007

    Glad the doctors did not remove your sense of humor.  I shocked my plastic surgeon the other week with a couple of removable tattoos place in very appropriate places. He could not stop laughing and asked me how he was to examine me with a straight face and I was the first patient to shock him like that.

    We are glad that you are home, just don't worry about the what-if's until you get the full picture from the doctors.

    Rest well

    Sheila

  • Shirlann
    Shirlann Member Posts: 3,302
    edited October 2007

    Sweet Sue, feeling drained and sad and panicky is very, very typical. You have been through a very traumatic event, you are ALLOWED to feel sad. It is okay, we all did.



    BUT, we have you back and they will not get you again! You will begin to heal, the worst part is over, and it sounds like you really livened up the day at the old hospital!



    Hang in there, lovey, we are all with you, I almost bought a tix to England, but you know we are only a keystroke away, but at my age, all I want to do, is HUG YOU.



    Love, Shirlann

  • sueps
    sueps Member Posts: 2,266
    edited October 2007

    Thankyou Shirlann....xx I know I really want to meet you all..and I am going to plan a trip after my treatment...the only thing I have the urge to do is to put my arms around you all and give you big love....I have never felt such an urge ...I am sincerely eternally grateful....xxx

  • geebung
    geebung Member Posts: 1,851
    edited October 2007

    Sue! Welcome home and welcome back here! I was so pleased to see your posts a few minutes ago. I'm sorry you had a rough time in hospital but from the sound of it, you endeared yourself to them - just as you have with us.

    It's natural to feel sad and low a few days after surgery. It has been such a traumatic few weeks for you and you are probably feeling a bit in limbo again. For now, just rest and concentrate on mending yourself.

    Hang in there. You will always find support here and we will help you over the next 2 weeks and beyond.

    love & healing hugs,

    gb 

  • portiasproudmom
    portiasproudmom Member Posts: 2,125
    edited October 2007

    Hi Sue.  I'm sorry my post from this morning was so short.  I had to rush off to an appt, but couldn't leave without checking to see if you were back.  I wasn't surprised to hear that your surgical team loved you.  How could they not?  You are such a sweetheart and we've all grown to love you so much.

    I'm so glad that you're home with your boys, resting and healing.  Enjoy all those wonderful hugs and kisses! 

    Love and hugs,

    karen

  • livesstrong
    livesstrong Member Posts: 1,799
    edited October 2007

    Sue,

    I sent you another pm.Surprised

    Valerie

  • honeygirl
    honeygirl Member Posts: 1,718
    edited October 2007

    LaughingSUES HOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!SmileLaughingSmileYEAH!!!!!!!!SmileLaughing I'm soooo glad you are fine and home. I really felt like a little kid in the back seat of a car , except I kept saying "is she home yet , is she home yet , is she home yet?"!lol I know how ya feel. After I got home , I would at times just start crying , then I'd be ok , then I'd cry... I think it has alot to do with , of course what I just went through , but all the meds and the surgery is such a shock to your system. I thought of myself as cancer free after my surgery. As far as I knew , I had the "bootface blob" in my right breast and they removed it. Now Sue , it is your time to heal. Lots of rest is best for healing. And the quicker you heal , the quicker you can go back to work! I'm so glad you like the song. Remember , "we're thirsty away , so bring on the rain"!!!!!!!! Much love and BIG BIG hugs to you Sue. Melody

  • honeygirl
    honeygirl Member Posts: 1,718
    edited October 2007

    PS- Sue , can I use your words , "as weak as a chocolate teapot" I love that! I've never heard that before.

  • sueps
    sueps Member Posts: 2,266
    edited October 2007

    lol Melody you can use my words lol...even though I am a picnic short of a sandwich at times.....bootface blob lol...mines sqwatting in a testube ....awaiting tests...Melody did you have chemo...was it just your right side xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx I love ya !

  • sueps
    sueps Member Posts: 2,266
    edited October 2007
    Cant wait to carry on updating everyone geebung...I thought you may all be tiring of me ...lol...I need to get through2 weeks of worry now xxxSurprised
  • Anonymous
    Anonymous Member Posts: 1,376
    edited October 2007

    How delightful to find such good news when I was finally able to turn on the computer. It was a busy morning around here.

    OMG! I can just see the chaos.

    Sue, in the hospital with her...uhhh...unique personality and methods of coping.

    Nurses and doctors trying to do their work.

    Ladies, why didn't we think to hire a film crew? I think we could have made a bit of money selling it to a TV show, or at least had a few good laughs and tears for ourselves! 

    Welcome home, Sue. 

  • sueps
    sueps Member Posts: 2,266
    edited October 2007

    Towhee ...lol...your posts have cracked me up and your pics are supercalifragilistic.....you are sooooooooooo funny yet so caring.....lol.....Would it have made another hit like Dallas or Dynasty or ER with george clooney lol...maybe a comedy lol

  • sueps
    sueps Member Posts: 2,266
    edited October 2007

    I am off to bed now..I am drained..I will explain my post op symptoms to you all tmw..to check theyre not sinister..

    Thankyou to all of you...I have joined the xmas card list and will be dropping good humour through your postboxes at Xmas  xxxxxx

    Sweet Dreams xxxx

  • honeygirl
    honeygirl Member Posts: 1,718
    edited October 2007

    Yes , it was just my right breast. I had immediate reconstruction though , my surgery last 12hrs! and it took me 6 to 8 wks before I really felt good. But you will bounce back much quicker but you still need to rest. Yes , I did chemo. 4 rounds of a/c. I would have treatment every 3 weeks. I worked the whole time except for the day of tx and the day after. My tx was always on a Thurs. and I would take off Fri. and would have the weekend before I had to work on Mon. The only time I missed extra days at work , was after my first infusion , my onc thought I was young enough to bounce back with my white blood count and didn't need a neulasta shot. But my white count bottomed out and wasn't coming back up as fast as he thought it should so he called me and asked me to stay home from work for two days.I felt fine and after my second tx he gave me a neulasta shot after every tx. I started May 30th and my last tx was Aug. 1st. I feel great now. Just wish my hair would grow faster! Maybe by Feb. I will be able to sport a pixie!!

    Now I am taking tamoxifen , because my er was 90% +. I 'm doing ok on it except for too many hot flashes! Can you say "spontanious combustion!?lol thats what I feel like at times like I will turn into a giant fireball.lol I know you will be worrying these next two weeks. I did too. I'm sure we all did. Just remember , whatever the outcome they have treatment for it. And we are all here to go through it with you. I'm sure you will end up doing tx that someone already has gone through. And we'll help you get through it.

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