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Sue...You are going to be just fine. They'll give you some good drugs and you'll be asleep before you know it (I had twilight, so I was just happily buzzed throughout). Then you'll wake up and know the worst is passed and you made it through. Hang in there. Imagine all of us here on this board being right there surrounding your surgical bed...and in spirit, we will be. We'll get you through this...

~Marin

Dear Sue,

Not long to go now and you'll be on with your plan.

You have done exactly the right thing, by coming here and getting the support of all of these special ladies.  All of us have trodden in your shoes and we are holding your hand so that you are surrounded by our love and support.  You are a strong feisty Lancashire lass and you will be fine.

If you want to call please do so - even in the small hours when you are at your lowest.  Take care, sweetheart, we have you.

Big hugs

Valerie S

Sue, you're nearly there. This tortuous month has finally passed.  You have already gone through the worst phase. It's now time for the action phase, the gaining of knowledge phase and the healing phase. You will soon know exactly what you are dealing with and you will be an active participant in the choices that are put before you. It may not seem that you have such choices but you do, and I know you will attack this disease with all your medical advisors to blast it out of existence. 

It's after 8 o'clock Monday night there. I hope you have been able to do something nice with your dear sons to distract you and them. When they go to bed, it will be easy to let the panic set in but you are not alone. We are all here supporting you. Perhaps, as Karen suggested, a phonecall to Valsul might really help you. There is nothing like speaking with someone who has experienced the same thing as you.

Maybe you could have a warm bath, with candles and soft music. Breathe deeply and visualise the disease being lifted out of your body and see yourself recovering and growing strong and healthy again. After my surgery, I used to listen to Dr Emmett Miller's healing cds. He has such a soothing voice. I listened to a lot of relaxation cds and I liked his voice the best. 

Yes, ask for pre-med drugs when you get to hospital. These will really help you when you get there before you have the anaesthetic. You will soon be waking up in recovery Sue. You've waited weeks - these last few hours are just moments - try to see them as that - even though time seems to be dragging.

You are in my thoughts and prayers. I am so looking forward to hearing from you when you get home.

Love and hugs,

gb 

I took so long to write that last post! Talk about long-winded. I don't think my brain was working too well as it was 5am when I started to write!

Great to know that Vasul is so close by. Please call her if you need to.

You're right about sleep - I don't think anyone sleeps well the night before but you will catch up after surgery. I had weeks of lost sleep so one more sleepless night didn't make much difference to me! 

You are nearly there and we are with you in spirit.

gb 

Hi Sue!! I tried to hurry home from work to post with you. But , when I pulled in my drive , my SO , who had surgery on his legs 3 wks. ago and had just gotten back from the docs , fell getting out of his car. I pulled in and saw him laying there and I couldn't get him up by myself. I called the ambulance , and they got him in the house. To much oxycotin!! So now I must keep an eye on him.He refused to go to the hospital!!Men...

Oh Sue , I wish I had some words that would calm your fears. I know , you are probably all knotted up inside. I soo remember that feeling. But please try to remember , the next time I talk to you , you will be c**c*r free!!! Dear Lord , please bless our dear sister Sueps , take away her fears and anguish. Help guide the surgeons hands tomorrow that will heal her. Fill her with courage and peace. And always hold her in the palm of your hand. Amen. I love you Sue , my sweet sister across the pond. I will be checking back all evening... I am here Hugs , Melody

That stinks you can't take the diazepam. Hopefully the sleeping pill will let you get some sleep. We will all be there with you tomorrow in thought and prayers. I hope valsul posts to let us know if she got to talk with you. Hang tight girl. 

Good night Sue. I hope that sleeping pill works! If not, just wanted to send more hugs. If you wake up during the night and can't go back to sleep, I will be awake and I will turn my laptop on every now and then to see if you are there. But I do hope you have a long, restful sleep.

Love, hugs and prayers,

gb 

Sue, I just found this quote on a card:

The world is so empty

if one thinks only of

mountains, rivers and cities;

but to know someone who

thinks and feels with us,

and who, though distant 

is close to us in spirit,

this makes the earth

for us an inhabited

garden.

-Goethe

Sue,

I just saw your posts... 

I will also be praying for you tonight before I go to bed, and I'll be thinking of you tomorrow, too.  I'll be going tomorrow for my LAST chemo treatment!!!  While I am getting my treatment, I'll be thinking of you... 

My journey is not over yet, but we'll get through this!!

I'm praying for you!!  GOD will get us through this... it is just a bump in the road!!

God Bless

Harley

Hope you read this before you go to hospital so that you know that we are here surrounding you with love.

Please leave me the hospital details so that I can telephone and find out how you did.  If not, you have my number so you can call or leave a message if I am out.  I'll gladly let everyone here know.  We will all be holding our breath until we hear.

Big hugs, sweetie,

Valerie S