please help

Sue, another night has passed for you. You are getting there - I know the time is going so slowly but we are there with you.  I can't wait for this surgery to be behind you. Each one of us beside you on this ride - can you sense us all around you?

I hope your pain has eased. The Diazepam will help you through the last few days so it's only until Friday that you have to endure the intense, non-chemical-assisted waiting.

I didn't know this site existed when I was waiting for my surgery so I used to knit, knit, knit - it was like a meditation and somehow soothing. I knitted myself a comfort shawl and I finished it the night before my mastectomy. It was warm and cosy and easy to drape around my shoulders when I was still stiff and sore. I wish I could drape it around your shoulders now but I think all of our prayers, love and empathy are a bit like a warm shawl - draw it around you and feel us close to you.

love and hugs,

gb

ps - Karen - I honestly didn't feel excluded. These threads shrink the space between us and I just feel part of a wonderful community. You like the puppy? I wish it was mine! It's a beagle. I really want to get a puppy next year, when I get a better fence around my yard. I haven't really decided what breed yet but beagles are gorgeous. My last dog was a blue heeler cattle dog.

Just checking in to see how you're doing today, Sue.  I wish I could speak about mastectomy from personal experience, Sue, but I can't.  I had a lumpectomy and SNB.  I do have several friends though, who have had mastectomies.  I've heard that afterward, the area is kind of numb and there really isn't much pain.  Hard to imagine, isn't it?  The drains are the most unpleasant part, apparently.  You'll be fine.  I wish we could all be there with you for moral support and hugs.

Take care, Sue.  Check in later to let us know how you're holding up today.

Hugs,

Karen

gb, I love beagles.  I'd probably have one myself if my husband wasn't so intolerant of barking and howling.  They are so cute!!  I could use a snuggly little puppy and some warm puppy breath on my face right about now!

Hi Sue:

Could you please let me know if you received my private message on Sept 29th? I'm having problems with this new format.

Erika-Canada

Hey Sue, I know you are probably in bed, where you belong!  But I just wanted to tell you please feel totally free to post any old time you want to or need to.

We all love you and can't wait for you to be well and helping other gals.  This will be sooner than you think.

God bless you, Sweet Sue, Shirlann

Sueps - This is my first post here and I just wanted to tell you that you don't have to apologize, you can cry,rant, scream, laugh and say just about anything on these boards and someone will understand you!! 

Bottom line is CANCER SUCKS but you will get through it. The waiting is always the hardest part.  Once you have surgery and start treatment in a weird way it kinda all falls into place.

Just know you are not alone and all these lovely ladies ,including myself, are here for you.

Stay strong,

Valerie

Hi Sue.  I think this was the first day we didn't hear from you.  I hope all is well.  Maybe you're feeling better and didn't feel the need to post??  I hope that's the case.

Take care.  We're all thinking of you.

Hugs,

Karen

Morning Sue!



How did you intake nurse phone call or visit go yesterday? We're you able to get through to her some of your fears?



Like the others, just wishing to let you know we're pulling for you. TGIF by us means Thank God It's Friday.



Never has this sounded more pleasing to my ears than THIS Friday!

Tender

Sue you need to keep the faith. Look at your signature, 'I will never complain about my wrinkles when I reach 80'. You need to keep your chin up and not worry so much so you can reach 80

I felt the same way you do now right before my surgery. I wanted to scream at the top of my lungs, 'DON'T DO THIS TO ME!!!!!' My husband was on the road trying to get home early the night before surgery but he was held up by a shipper delaying the loading of his truck for over 2 hours and he was 4 hours from the house.  I called him at midnight and cried for an hour and he was still 2 hours away. We will keep you in our prayers that you find comfort and peace before, during and after surgery.

Sheila

Oh sue, I am so sorry you are so sad today.  I too have been waiting for surgery.  I have been doing chemo for almost 5 months so they could shrink the cancer enough to do surgery.  I worry so much, and I wish I could just KNOW what the future holds.   I wish I knew how long until the cancer starts growing again.  I will have surgery the beginning of november, and I dread it.   It is nice to know that I am not alone and that others have the same worries and fears as me.  Hugs to you!  you are not alone!

Sue,

I've been following your posts and I feel that I must comment.  Everyone here on the boards are the best in emotional support.  Even though I don't post too much, I've gained soooooo much from the ladies here.  But I must ask you to do something - take your fear of this horrible disease, turn it around and make yourself angry.  FIGHT THIS BEAST!!!!  I know you can do it - we've all seen what a strong, wonderful caring person you are.  Now it's time to stand up to it and make it known that you are the boss.  I know that you have 2 boys and a father to help you through this journey.  I also know that you feel that you need to be strong for your kids, but remember that you need to be strong for you.  Concentrate on yourself for a little while.  Focus on healing.  I have no idea of the pain and fear that you are going through.  I had my own issues of fear -" my dcis is now what? what do you mean invasive? what do you mean mast and recon?"  But that's another story.  I have taken the posts from the wonderful women here - a true godsend - and fought this beast (still fighting).  Sorry to ramble, but just remember that it is now time to be strong and fight - for you. 

May God surround you and yours in His Loving Arms.

Trish

Hi Sue!  Its Shirlann.  Honey, don't be so down.  This is not going to kill you, it is not even that bad.  I think what we all hate the most is the time it takes to get things over with.

Remember, we are all here for you and wish you well and are sending our love across the pond.

Love you, sweetie, Shirlann