My Husband, My Life, My Love, My Family, My Cancer

Mara, glad you made it home okay, now rest up.

Glad to see all the good scan results!

Mae, I love murder mysteries. Are you reading or watching? I'll be thinking of you Friday with fingers crossed for good news.

KBL, so sorry about your pup. It is so hard I know. Virtual hugs.

Mel, I think, too, you'll know when the time is right, but I imagine the waiting is agony. The love our furry family members give us truly is unconditional. Hugs.

Golden, also glad to see you're now pain free.

Bliss, I watch lots of PBS and Britbox mysteries. I really enjoy good ones of any kinda as long as they’re spoken or dubbed in English, subtitles don’t work for me as I read slow and get distracted too easily.

Well, looks like a change is coming, MO cancelled my H&P for tomorrow and wants to see me Monday to discuss the plan. No verdict on the brain mets until tomorrow afternoon but I expect she and my neuro onc have talked about it. The potential combo would be Herceptin with Xeloda and Tukysa. I hear good things about Tukysa working well and some not so good things about Xeloda SE’s, so we shall see.

Mae~Hanging in your pocket for a little while Kick me out whenever.

Oh my god, that movie was great. If you like the first and second Bill and Ted movie, this one is great and very laugh out loud funny. It was a lot of fun at the theater. Had my popcorn, lots of space between seats. Definitely no crowding. Had a nice time with my friend.

Thanks Bliss, I get the official word on Tuesday. DH is uneasy about a possible change but I showed him some videos with the lead researcher for this trial combo and he feels better since she is my MO.

Mara~glad you enjoyed yourself! Sounds like fun. I love funny movies.

Sounds like you’re Ok with the possible change Mae. Hope it goes well.

Waving to everyone 🤗.

Thank you, Goldens. I had to go out today for a few hours and made the mistake of turning on my front porch camera. I can hear my doxie girl barking and whining. I never really looked to see if she did that even with my big guy there. I asked a neighbor to come let her out. He loves her and hopefully will come and keep her company for a little while. Thankfully, she’s not alone often (actually might be why she’s sad)

I am broken-hearted! I look at him and think of what a good dog he always was. Never a problem ever. No accidents, guarded well. Not a noisy dog. Unlike my other chorus dog who’s a hound dog and bellows a lot. I feel helpless. We just try to keep helping him. We don’t want him gone. Is that selfish?

Mel, I can empathize with what you are going through when knowing when to let our furry family rest without pain. It is very difficult to do. One of my cats name Dippy actually developed breast cancer believe it or not. She was a trooper for 3 months enduring dressing changes to contain her necrosis going on in there. Once she started not wanting food, I made the painful decision to put her down for her sake. It was so very painful but needed to be done. She was no long suffering after that. You will know when best to let your furry family member have a rest as well.

Oh Mara, that sounds kinda scary, I’m sorry.

Discussed the tumor board meeting with my neuro radiation onc’s nurse today. Lots of ideas thrown around surgery, different radiation. The lesions have not grown since the last MRI but they believe the prominent area is cancer rather than radiation effect. They’re saying “no definite progression” and want to do another MRI in 8 weeks, so I’m still not sure what MO wants to discuss Tuesday. I’m ok with indefinite, tiny, slow/no growing possible cancer for now. Clear as mud, right?! Lol.

Mel, I’m thinking of you with your pup. I’m sorry it’s so heartbreaking. My heart was hurting today myself. I think of my boy and tears well up.

I was up at 5:15 this morning. That’s about the normal time I wake up.

I have to say I had a great day. I went to the zoo with my daughter and grandbaby. They got passes that include a guest for the whole year. They’ve gone two to three times a week. This was my first time in a long time. I had more energy today than I’ve had in a while.

I came home and rested, and my doxie is just out of sorts because she was home alone for the first time without her dog brother. I decided to take her for another walk, even in the awful heat. My sister lives right up the road, but I haven’t seen her since March, only spoken on the phone. I called her up and asked if she could just come outside to see my doxie because she loves her. I ended up asking if she wanted to come over and stay six feet apart. We had over a two-hour visit. My heart is full today. I really needed it.

Mara, sorry about your oven issue. That does sound scary.

Mae, nothing is ever easy, is it? It’s an everyday struggle to find answers.

Lol. I haven’t slept past 6;30 in I don’t know how long. I went to bed at midnight as well, and I woke up at 6:40. I slept in.