Discouraged and depressed

pianolady, I’m sorry to hear about your progression and can understand your discouragement and depression. Plus all that in the middle of a pandemic. It’s very unfair. I’m glad you reached out to let us know how you’re feeling. How are you spending your days? I hope you can find a few bright spots here and there. Last year, I went through similar feelings and I just let myself feel them, tho I was able to find a few distractions from time to time. And I did my best to pamper myself. Let us know when you find out what your next treatment is. Many hugs to you.

pianolady, I think we all know what you're going through, even though of course all our experiences are highly individual. Sounds like you have been on regimes that seemed to keep you stable and now have to move to other options. My two cents after 8 types of treatment (not counting the first bout in 2013)-1) ports are great, they will save you so much hassle . Sounds like youve had one before, odd that they removed it? 2) there is a general feeling that chemo is harder than targeted therapies etc and that tablets are easier than infusions. My own experience is that the pills have been the worst and my next and last treatment-the parp inhibitor Lynparza, is a tablet form targeted therapy that is rumored to be a really difficult one. Stage IV is a roller coaster, but if you have options left then fingers crossed. I'm incensed to hear that you have to get insurance approval for a scan????

I'm always really apprehensive when starting a new treatment. But as long as we can halt it or decrease the dose I guess I'm willing to try anything.

Do something nice for yourself today and try to take an hour off from being a cancer patient. And use this community as much as you like.we are here day and night : )