It feels like a bad dream

A routine consult about birth control 2 weeks ago led to blood tests to check for menopause. The estrogen level came back over twice as high as it should be. A quick search of this forum revealed enough evidence that tamoxifen can do this to seem reassuring until the clinician called and put me on the urgent list for an ultrasound and two more blood tests. I asked if tamoxifen could do this, and said, no, not this high. I breathed a little more easily when the radiology reports (both US and CAT scan) said it appeared to be a simple cyst and I should come back in a month or two to make sure it was gone, and the CA125 was normal, but the Overa test was elevated juuuuuuust enough to get me referred to a gyn/onc surgeon ... who can't see me for almost another 3 weeks!!! And he wants more blood numbers first. I feel like I'm in a nightmare.

I've exhaustively combed this forum for similar experiences of super-high estrogen, even higher than mine and although there aren't that many, there are enough that it appears to be A Thing, and most of the doctors appear to chalk it up to tamoxifen without further investigation. And I've found a few case reports and other studies online that indicate it's not unheard of, if not highly common. On the one hand, I have reassuring images of what appears to be a simple "check back in two months" kind of cyst, a normal CA125 score, and some evidence that tamoxifen can do this. On the other hand, there's this Overa test that seems to insist something is amiss. It's bad enough having to go through a month of fear and anxiety and repeated orders to get more testing and then waiting for those results ... everyone here knows how it goes. But seeing how most everyone else who's been in this situation seems to just get reassurance from their doctor without further investigation makes me feel like the kid in the neighborhood whose mom won't let her ride her bike off the driveway but makes her stay home to practice penmanship while all the other kids bike off to the ice cream shop and have a party. Of course I want them to catch cancer as early as possible if that's what it is, and based on the imaging, if something is going on it really HAS to be super early and I should feel very lucky to have a chance to catch it before it even shows up on imaging. The clinician even said that if it weren't for the estrogen they wouldn't be referring me, but because of the estrogen and the Overa test they can't let it go and have to do more blood testing. The Overa test isn't that high; in fact, it gives me slightly over an 80% chance that it's benign, which would feel a lot more reassuring if that wasn't the same chance my breast calcifications were going to be benign, which they weren't. But I feel like one more blood draw and then the torturous wait for results is going to push me over the edge into a full blown panic attack. Why couldn't they just have done ALL those tests already?

Don't know what I'm looking for here except any possible reassurance. So, please don't anyone tell me the awful things it could be. I have stopped googling because I just don't want to know. I've realized that the only thing that can possibly make me feel better would be good blood numbers on these additional tests, but in order to get them I have to take the risk that they'll be bad numbers that will devastate me and make the wait even more torturous.

I hate hate hate HATE HATE HATE this. And I hate hate hate HATE HATE cancer.