I want to quit

santabarbar and Frog - Well said!!

You know, I just want to to give a shout out to Erin for starting this thread. The wording of it...everything. Such a safe place to dump it all and in between such good posts about making it through and things getting better. I wouldn't be surprised if this thread keeps going on for years. And I've been on here 10 years. Thank you Erin and all who have posted.

I am so glad you are able to have that party!

23 days until last treatment, Erin. You GOT this. It's ok to be tired today, but tomorrow is 22 days. You're almost there. Hang in there and be proud of yourself everyday you cross off. Sending enCOURAGEment!!

erin_t:

I'm wondering if they can switch out your last 3 or 4 taxols for one infusion of taxotere. I don't know if the side effects would be any less but you would be done with the infusions. It might be something to talk to your MO about if sitting through 4 more infusions is just too daunting.

I really, really did not want to have chemo...I had watched my mother go through it 30 years before. But I knew that if I didn't throw everything at it and if I had a recurrence I would never forgive myself.

erin, you're stronger than you know... This is the backhanded gift of chemo. You will realize how freaking strong you actually are. You are surpassing yourself and doing something much harder than what you've done before. You are sooooooo close. We are here for you!

I am not binge-watcher. My daughter got us Netflix and I watched Moana and The Jungle Book. However, I do like being outside. Go outside and just wander (tell someone where you are going - freaked my husband out more than once). I ended up planting 340 onions between chemo 2 and 3 (I had TCHPx6 every three weeks).

I am exactly one year out reading all this and still can't believe I did all that crap. I still can't believe I'm the one who has to sit in that fake brown chair at the infusion center also.

Erin I did AC + T too. I wanted to quit at 8 as well.. I was just sick of it, but I didn't and I'm glad I didn't. At least if this dreaded beast comes back I can say I did everything I should and won't worry that quitting early caused the cancer to come back. Just my thoughts. It's only 4 more weeks. You can do it!

Nancy

I quit before even starting chemo. My mo pressed me really hard based on oncodx scoring. I just had an overwhelming instinct that said NO. In my case, doing chemo would reduce my risk of recurrence from 23% to maybe 12%. My pr was negative er 95% her2 negative. I did 4 years on AI drugs. Now on year 8, my risk of recurrence is less than 10% now according to mo. I believe I made the right choice for me.

Mine was 34. I had no nodes involved.

Now THIS seems reasonable to me!! lol Im Packing my bags and moving to mothers, or to live in a yurt on a mountain top away from everyone until the sun and God heal me. Or I'll sit on my couch and cry.