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meg8000
meg8000 Member Posts: 108

Ladies - I am going to introduce myself here, as unfortunately I will be joining you. I am 9 yrs out from original diagnosis & treatment (lumpectomy, chemo, rads, hormonals). My husband passed away in July and I injured my arm the night he died. CT & MRI showed no tears in muscles, tendons, but did show abnormal bone marrow and several suspicious lesions & pathologic fracture. Follow-up PET confirmed hot spots with high uptake on pelvis, several lumbar joints, clavicle, humerus. I will have a bone biopsy to confirm & verify particulars of the cancer. MO mentioned radiation treatment for the fracture to help it heal and help with the pain. I also have pain from lumbar and clavicle. MO also mentioned likely treatment might be Ibrance, Xgeva, and hormonals. Treatment plan will follow once we have more information.

I am well-read on the BCO forums from my first go-around with cancer, and made myself familiar with the statistics, outcomes, and outliers of the disease. But that didn't help me from sucking in my breath when MO said that average life expectancy of MBC is 3-5 years, followed by those that have mets to single system, especially the bones tend to do better and might be able to gain a few more years, like 7-10 years. I felt the adrenaline rush of fear, despite the fact that I knew the odds. Yes, I know that no one can give us and expiration date, and I know that there are many here on these forums who are doing very well many years out, but that doesn't stop me from thinking about the fact that there are others who aren't so lucky, and we never know which we will be.

My husband of 47 years just died (also cancer), and I have a 30 year old son, and he is my biggest concern. I don't want to leave him to the vagaries of life without a father AND a mother. He would be alone, as he is an only child. I need to get at least 10 years out of this, as I think it will be easier for him to cope by the time he is 40 and possibly a little more settled. However, I will prepare for the worst, but plan for the best. Yes, I am scared, as we all are, but I'm also pretty strong and very much a realist. I know that we need to do all our planning, preparation, and education first, and then all we can do is let go of the fear and just roll with it - live our lives the best we can each day, and try to find the humor and love and the best in each day.

I live in the greater Atlanta area, and we have CancerCenters of America, with a Breast Cancer Center nearby. I'd like to plan to visit them. Has anyone been to them anywhere across the country? I'd like to know how much more expensive they are, especially since their intake process includes a 3-5 day stay. But I'm interested in not only their expert opinions, latest research, trials, etc., but also their integrative medicine and wholistic approach. I'm not sure they would have too much different to say treatment-wise, but I owe it to my son (and myself) to do all I can for the best care.

I also have practical concerns. I am 67 and still working. But I don't think I can continue to work. I have had too much piled on me this year and I just can't deal with it all by myself. I cannot concentrate at work any longer. I have a very stressful job that demands 100 percent attention for mostly 10 hours per day. I can't do it any longer. It's nice that it keeps me in contact with others and gives me something else to occupy my time, but it doesn't leave me the time I need to take care of myself. And since it's all-consuming, it prevents me from having enough time to have a social network. I'm interested in going on medicare, because I think it will help financially. Between my husband and myself, I have paid out of pocket over $12,000 this past year, as well as several other years. I can't keep doing that. Does anyone know if the Medicare supplemental policies have pre-existing conditions? I have heard you have to pay extra based on your health. I only have a week to get signed up before their deadline, although I may have longer because I am eligible for a special enrollment period, but I need to get it done by end of year. I also want to get CancerCenters of America done by end of year if possible, so I don't have to start over with $6000 deductible/out of pocket again next year.

I will next need to focus on my personal support network. Due to my husband's illness, he became homebound over the last 10 years, and we had to let most of our local friends fall away. I will need to renew those contacts and I plan on finding and including more wonderful people in my life. My husband and I moved to a 55+ subdivision 3 years ago, and my neighbors have been wonderful. Many of them have their own health challenges, but we all band together to help one another out. It is the best neighborhood I have ever seen in that respect. I will be seeking out bereavement groups and local cancer support groups. I've got to make some friends and have some kind of social life. Most of my friends are distant, and I can't do this alone. I am trying to keep the burden of this off the shoulders of my son. He is pursuing his doctorate and I don't want this to interfere with his ability to study and concentrate on that. It's hard enough for him to lose his father, let alone be concerned with the possibility of also losing his mother, and I'd like him to complete his degree so I know he will be in good standing for a stable career so I don't have to worry about that.

I know I am starting to ramble, so please forgive me. I will try to wrap it up. I know I also have a tendency to sound like I have it all together, but believe me, I don't. I'm just like all the rest of you when you heard the news. Scared and trying to cope. Scared of leaving my son an orphan. I will read the bone mets thread (all 753 pages) and many of the other articles and excellent discussion topics here, but that will take time. Any shortcuts or tips you have will be most welcome. I look forward to getting to know you all, and thank you for your kind support. I wish you too all the best in your journey.

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  • Zillsnot4me
    Zillsnot4me Member Posts: 2,687
    edited December 2018

    sorry you’re joining us again but you’re not alone. Just feels that way right now. Wherever you decide to get treatment there will be support groups plus online friends.

    I left my job after my stiv dx. I’ve been in ibrance, and now xeloda. Do xgeva too. Will be six years in April. My latest scans said stable. I’ll take that with a grain of salt.

    I have no experience with cancer centers. I’m Lucky enough to live near a university with top ten NCI designation.

    Good luck and check back in.

  • hapa
    hapa Member Posts: 920
    edited December 2018

    I'm sorry to hear about your stage 4 diagnosis and your husband's death. I am not stage 4, but I visited CTCA when I was diagnosed and went through the whole 3 day intake process with them. If you are planning to quit working you can just cross them off your list because they do not accept Medicare. If you have unlimited funds you can pay out of pocket, but my 3 days of tests and consults, which mind you included ZERO actual treatment, cost about $30,000. I only know this because they accidentally put me in their system as self-pay and sent me a bill instead of sending it to my insurance company. I believe my insurance company cut that amount down to a few thousand dollars, so they are severely marking up the self-pay folks. If they accept your insurance, you can start treatment with them but as soon as you go on Medicare they drop you as a patient. They are very up front about this, in fact the very first person you talk to when you get there is the finance person, and the first thing you do is sign a bunch of paperwork agreeing to pay for anything that your insurance refuses to cover. They also tried to give me a form to take home for my spouse to sign saying he accepted responsibility for any of my unpaid bills as well. They also don't do hospice care. When I asked about hospice services the nurse navigator told me I was getting ahead of myself and I didn't need to worry about that yet (I was stage 2 or 3), but when I refused to drop the issue she admitted they have nothing in the way of hospice care, all they could do is refer me to a local hospice company. I did not get any kind of personalized medicine; their recommendation for treatment was boilerplate based on my receptor testing and tumor size/lymph node involvement; I could have looked it up online. It might be different for stage 4 patients though. I thought the doctors there seemed competent enough, but I preferred to do my care elsewhere because if I ever do reach stage 4 and have to go on disability and enroll in medicare, that is not good time to be dropped by my cancer center! People bag on this place a lot because of their for-profit business model, but I think they're no worse than your average local private practice, most of which are also for-profit, except that their doctors are more specialized, meaning if you go here for breast cancer, your doctors would most likely only see breast cancer patients.

    I would recommend going to an NCI designated center if your insurance covers it. These places have the best outcomes, and I believe they are required to accept Medicare patients. Emory will be the closest NCI center near you. Next best would be any teaching hospital. I personally prefer treatment at a large medical center because they will have specialists and care for all your problems; if anything crops up during your cancer treatment they will be able to refer you in house and that person will have access to all of your test results and treatment records.

    I have been treating at Mayo Clinic and MD Anderson, both of which are NCI centers. I feel like they also take a holistic approach, but they call it "integrative medicine", but they don't push the integrative medicine as hard as CTCA - its there if you ask for it but I felt like CTCA was pushing it on anyone whose insurance would pay for it; they just scheduled consults with the naturopath and nutritionist without even asking if I wanted to see one. I have been getting acupuncture at MD Anderson for my neuropathy, and both Mayo and MDA have nutritionists (I found my nutrition consult at CTCA to be useless btw) but they don't use naturopaths. I have not signed a single finance-related document at either place. I supplied my insurance info during the intake process and once I met my out of pocket max I've had no further bills. There was no talk of getting my husband on the hook for my unpaid bills. They have lots of financial aid programs if you have trouble paying your bills. Best of luck to you.

    Oh, one more thing that bothered me about CTCA; while I was there, I heard a code blue called over the PA system. A few minutes later, an ambulance showed up and carted a patient out, presumably to a hospital. And I was like "um, I thought this was a hospital??" So yeah, you never know what else is going to hit the fan while you're in treatment which is part of the reason why I prefer large medical centers for my health care.

  • meg8000
    meg8000 Member Posts: 108
    edited December 2018

    Zillsnot4me - thank you for your reply. Very heartening to hear from 6 year survivor! Good going!

    Hapa - thank you for your reply and for all the info about CTCA. In looking at their website, that's what I was afraid of, and just the kind of feedback I needed to hear. You saved me a lot of stress and wasted effort. I will refocus my time and efforts on Winship at Emory and make the trek over there. I still think it would be a wise investment of my time to go beyond my local cancer center. I have a feeling that treatment is fairly standardized initially, but I think there will be a lot more experience at an NCI.

    Thanks to you both!

  • jessie123
    jessie123 Member Posts: 532
    edited December 2018

    I can't talk about the cancer treatment because I too am newly diagnosed. However, I can emphasize with you about being a widow living alone. I luckily do have many friends, but they are not going to be here at my house. I would just feel better to have someone living with me. As far a medicare goes --- if it was me (and you're already used to paying a premium) I think I would buy a good old fashioned medicare supplement instead of one of the new advantage plans where you give up your medicare and everything is through the HMO. I was at a large medical group a month ago and saw a sign that they will no longer accept Humana effective 2019. That's scary. No regular doctors office is going to not take medicare Just do a lot of research before you decide --- and don't get pulled into the 'free exercise groups the HMO's offer. . Blue Cross has a medicare suppliment and there are many more. The medicare website will list them.

  • Partyoffive
    Partyoffive Member Posts: 188
    edited December 2018

    welcome

    I know this is not the place u want to be welcomed but u will find lots of support and great info here. I’m 5 1/2 years out and on the same medication(only tamoxifen)and current scans are stable. I have many bone mets throughout my body but they have not progressed and I feel mostly normal.

    On the topic of ctca I had a similar experience but in my case the Philadelphia center is about 45 min from me but they wouldn’t accept my insurance at that location only at the Ohio center and there is no way I was adding that amount of travel into an already confusing chaotic time. I’m close to Penn and Hopkins and ive been very happy at Hopkins so I’m glad I went with my gut.

    As for support if you need/want to talk please pm me anytime. My support system is non existent and it helps to talk to people who are going through the same experience. I’m so sorry you lost your husband and now have to deal with a stage 4 diagnosis. Take things day by day,educate yourself and find a dr that answers your questions I say my life may Be important to my dr but it’s more important to me so I make sure I read my reports and have found a dr that will answer my calls or emails and trust me that was not the case with the first two I tried.

    Kristin


  • Cure-ious
    Cure-ious Member Posts: 2,626
    edited December 2018

    Meg, I think you may be lumping all of your problems into one great big bag, which was already stuffed full with each problem on its own. And therefore, its just overwhelming and panic-inducing. Try to sort them into different groups and tackle each one in its time and best way, ie grieving your husband, worrying about your son, making your doctor appointments and decisions, retire or not, move or not, etc, etc. No promises, but it is not crazy at all to think you will still be here in ten years, and possibly for many more years beyond that as the treatments are changing fast. As you sift through your problems, also build in extra free time for yourself, obviously the stronger and happier you are, the better it will be for everyone.

    So far as I can tell, CTCA takes a lot of money from early and late-stage cancer patients who are willing to pay extra for treatment that might not be any different (or even as good) as the advice and treatment you will get from a major teaching university hospital- just takes some research to find the group near you that handles regional clinical trials and is familiar with new therapies. You will have to get a biopsy done, and re-done every time you have progression (because the cancer will have mutated and changed in order to escape the drugs) and always get a second opinion for what next treatment is best, but beyond that you can treat this as you would for any other chronic condition. Things will get a lot better, after the shock and awe wears off..

  • meg8000
    meg8000 Member Posts: 108
    edited December 2018

    Jessie123 - thanks for your reply and I'm sorry you are in the same boat - both with the new diagnosis and facing it alone, after the loss of your husband. I agree with you about the Medicare Advantage programs. They did not seem advantageous to me at all, and I was already planning on getting a supplemental program - either F or G. I agree with you about the 'free exercise' programs. That made me LOL!

    PartyofFive - way to go on your 5.5 years of stability from Tamoxifen. You have gotten great results from your treatment! I can only hope that I will have a similar response. I can see from your treatment history that you must have been through a lot initially. I'm the same in that I always want to have a full grasp of what I am dealing with - the disease, the potential treatments, and risks/rewards of each so I can make informed decisions. Thanks for taking the time to reach out.

    Cure-ious - you may be right that I am mixing a jumble of problems together. I certainly am trying to sort through things so I can prioritize my actions, and you are right, it is overwhelming at first. It's funny you mention being around for 10 or more years because, from educating myself 9 years ago about what I might be facing in the future, that is kind of what I thought. But it felt like I'd been punched in the gut when almost the first words out of my doctor's mouth were that average life expectancy for MBC was 3-5 years. It threw me for a loop. She did go on to provide other caveats, but I guess I had to pause and absorb that possibility before I could move on. You are certainly right about the shock and awe. No matter how prepared you think you are, it seems to get you. Thanks for the comments on CTCA. I suspect that is an accurate assessment. Thanks for the great info and comments and for taking the time to respond.

  • rockymountaingirl
    rockymountaingirl Member Posts: 78
    edited December 2018

    Meg, I am so sorry that you are having such a terrible time. You certainly have a lot to deal with, and I wish you all the best as you go forward. I'm sure you will find a lot of support here.

    I hope that I can help you a little with your Medicare questions since I retired this year and signed up for Medicare Parts B and D (I already had A) as well as a Medicare supplement plan. I did all this after the age of 65, and as you have already noticed, signing up after 65 complicates things.

    Basically, Medicare expects you to enroll at age 65, and you will face financial penalties if you enroll after your initial enrollment period ends. You can avoid those penalties if you can show that you qualify for a special enrollment period, and if you enroll during that period. However, the rules that govern who qualifies for a special enrollment period can be very complicated and confusing. For example, if you delayed enrolling in Medicare because you were working and had health insurance through an employer, and if the employer employs more than 20 people, your employer-provided insurance is your primary insurance for as long as you have it, Medicare is secondary, and when you lose your primary insurance because of retirement or some other event, you qualify for a special enrollment period for Part B and another for Part D. (I think there is also a special enrollment period for Part A in this situation, but since I had enough work credits to qualify for premium-free Part A, I just signed up for it at 65 and didn't have to worry about it.) What if your employer employs fewer than 20 people? That's a different situation entirely. Because this can be complicated, I suggest that your first step, once you have had a chance to catch your breath, should be to educate yourself on the subject of special enrollment periods. If you aren't sure how the rules will apply in your specific situation, the Medicare website has a list of the agencies in each state that can provide "personalized health insurance counseling."

    Assuming that you will qualify for special enrollment periods for the various parts of Medicare, you don't need to do anything until the special enrollment periods begin. At that point, or shortly before, I suggest that you begin gathering the documentation that you will need to show that you are entitled to a special enrollment period and should not be charged a penalty for late enrollment. Don't delay too long in getting started, because someone, somewhere, will mess you up. True story: to get penalty-free Part D coverage, I had to show that I had creditable drug coverage during the five years between the time when I became eligible for Medicare and the time when I retired. But, instead of sending out annual letters certifying creditable drug coverage, my employer had fallen into the habit of sending out a generic "Dear Employee" email every year that directed employees to see a special section of the employer's website for copies of policies that applied to us and other important documents. The annual certificate of creditable drug coverage was buried in there. It took me almost a month to convince the personnel office that a series of generic emails which did not contain my name, and which directed me to a series of certificates of creditable drug coverage which also did not contain my name, would not be accepted as proof that I had creditable drug coverage during the five years for which I needed to show coverage. I was ready to tear my hair out.

    As for Medicare supplement policies, the good news is that you can apply any time. However, there is a huge advantage to applying within six months after you get Part B, because if you do it then, insurers can't deny you coverage or charge you higher premiums because of a pre-existing health problem. If you apply outside of that period, in most states they can (and most likely will) either deny coverage or charge higher premiums for health problems. A few states don't allow such scummy practices, but you would have to check to see if your state is among them.

    I hope this makes Medicare enrollment a little less confusing. If I have unintentionally made it MORE confusing, I humbly apologize.

  • meg8000
    meg8000 Member Posts: 108
    edited December 2018

    RockyMountaingirl - thanks so much for such great info on Medicare! Your info was clear and very helpful. Yes, I am entitled to a special enrollment period. I have verified that several times over the past year or so with both my employer and the Medicare office, because my employer has >500 employees. Coincidentally, I just went to the SS office today, and took them the letter we also get from our insurance company that outlines their testimony to creditable coverage, and they did explain they need the own form (found on their website) to be filled out by my employer because it is signed by a representative of the organization and includes dates of start of employment and start of health insurance coverage and proves coverage. They (SSA) also reconfirmed that I can sign up at any time and don't have to do it within the annual enrollment period.

    Thank you, thank you, thank you for clarifying that you have to sign up for supplemental coverage and drug coverage within 6 months of obtaining Part B or else you may face pre-existing condition exclusions. I knew this caveat was still lurking somewhere and wasn't sure where. While I do plan on signing up for all at the same time, this is good information to have - critical even for cancer patients. I have been worried that pre-existing conditions could be excluded at some point in this crazy political climate, and that's one of the reasons I wanted to apply ahead of time, hoping that maybe if that happened, they would grandfather in those who were already covered.

    In looking at the drug coverage, and plugging in Ibrance, Xgeva, Anastrazole, and even a few shots of Neupogen for good measure, and the out of pocket drug costs came to over $15,000. Lordy! Looks like I'll be replacing my $12,000 out of pocket for medical expenses with about the same in drug expenses. Then again, I haven't really taken the time to figure out how the drug coverage works, so many I'm not understanding that correctly yet. My main objective was to get cheaper coverage than our high cost insurance costs, and also as a way to be prepared to be ready to retire at any time.

    Thanks so much!!

  • 36andcounting
    36andcounting Member Posts: 7
    edited January 2019

    Hi Meg8000,

    I am so sorry for your loss and your reoccurance. I also leave in the Atlanta Metro area. I have always chosen Emory for major health problems. However, with my diagnosis in August 2018 with stage IIb ER positive, lymph node positive breast cancer things changed. At the age of 35, the first step in my process was fertility preservation and this was handled at Emory(didn't work btw). The weekly appts at midtown or main campus and paying for parking were a bit much for me at the time. This immediately let me know that despite the excellent medical treatment available, my quality of life would diminish based on the sheer amount of stress from downtown traffic and parking alone. My next choice was Piedmont Fayette, which seemed logical as it was closer and no traffic worries. However they sent me to a MO at Georgia Cancer in Fayetteville. I did not like the idea of having a surgeon one office and a MO in another office and appts were being scheduled to far in the future.for my liking. So, I went to CTCA Newnan for a consult. I feel in love with the one stop shopping approach. I have been receiving treatment there since August. My oncologist is great. Every department works together and everyone is very accomadating. I received 4 dose dense biweekly rounds of AC and weekly taxol(recently ended last week due to neuropathy). I would typically receive my schedule via email.and.portal. for my.next.appt.before i completed treatment for the day. Yes, I had some very long days. Labs usually at 8 or.9 followed by provider appts.and ending with chemo in the afternoons. But never once did we have to leave the facility once we arrived as our meals were provided. I was never asked for a copay or deductible as the clinics do not ask anyone for this information. You are allowed to.focus solely on.your treatment. There is a finance department who will.contact you via phone or mail as needed and assistance is available. I am not sure about Medicare. I do know they can't provide food, hotel, or travel discounts if you have Medicare. All your medical information is a available to you through your portal. Labs are typically available 30mins after draw and imaging about 1 hour. This was very important to.me.as I.hate waiting on test.results. of course it's read at your own risk bc your.dr may or may not have reviewed it yet. As I prepare for my left mastectomy at the end of this month, I am very thankful that I.chose CTCA. It was the best choice for me and my family. You have probably made a decision but I wanted you to have some insight to their service . Take Care


  • meg8000
    meg8000 Member Posts: 108
    edited February 2019

    36 and counting - thanks so much for sharing your insight into your experiences. I hear you about Emory - my husband and I used to go to Emory Spine Center, and it is such a hassle. What takes me less than 2 hours at a local site would take a minimum of half a day at Emory. But despite that, I am thinking at this time of using Emory because of their NCI designation and reputation. I hear you about the one stop-treatment, as I want the same whole patient approach, with an orthopedic oncologist to treat the bone mets. I hope I can get that at Emory without too much inconvenience. Sounds like you have found CTCA to be a good fit. I guess we have to find what we are most comfortable with. I'm sorry you are dealing with this at such a young age. That's got to be rough. Best wishes to you too

  • vlnrph
    vlnrph Member Posts: 1,632
    edited February 2019

    It appears that 36andcounting does not have metastatic disease. She is describing the typical patient that the for profit CTCA chain loves to accept - early stage with private insurance. Her treatment will soon be over, unlike those of us with mets who only stop when we enter hospice. Any major medical center with up to date technology can provide routine lab results in 30 minutes and imaging reports within an hour plus put them up on a patient portal so that is not a unique service. With her young age, I trust they offered genetic counseling.

    For meg, our original poster, have you been told that you would see an orthopedic oncologist? Presumably, you don't have primary bone cancer. You have BC cells present in your skeleton. Since your diagnosis was over two months ago, I would hope the biopsy and rads are behind you by now and the CDK 4/6 inhibitor/hormonal/Xgeva or bisphosphonate therapies have begun.

  • Moominmamma
    Moominmamma Member Posts: 40
    edited February 2019

    Dear GA

    I am so sorry for your loss, and the double whammy of your own diagnosis. I was recently diagnosed with MBC and recognize the shock that cancer you thought was beaten has returned in such a devastating way. On a positive note, my oncologist told me theat he has many patients who are living years with MBC like mine, and the statistics always reflect old data. New treatments give us hope.


    Most important for you is to sign up NOW for Medicare and a good Medigap policy. They have to take you with no questions on preexisting conditions. If you wait til later, they can take pre existing conditions iinto account for premium rates.

    Best of luck to you,

    Moomi

  • meg8000
    meg8000 Member Posts: 108
    edited February 2019

    vlnrph - Yes, I don't have primary bone cancer; it is metastasized breast cancer. I sought out an appointment with an orthopedic oncologist because the fracture in my arm is not healing properly and the humerus is now angulated from the point of the fracture. I have had loss of function in my arm and pain for the last 7 months that I need to have checked out by someone who knows both bones and cancer.

    Moomonmamma - Thanks for the response. Yes, that is what I have heard also.

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