I feel like I have mini torpedoes in my chest

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Jadedjo
Jadedjo Member Posts: 469
edited November 2018 in Breast Reconstruction

Gotta strange question with along explanation for why I'm asking.

I had bmx surgery pre pec with alloderm direct to silicone implant no TE's on October 2nd.

I went in feeling like the PS was not listening to me when I said I wanted smaller,small as he could get without issues which I figured was a full B small C I could live with even a medium  C cup but I didn't want to be pushing into or landing on the letter D related to my bra size anymore. One of the three reasons I chose bmx with implants.i am  fat right now but trying to work on it hopefully my dead metabolism will have a lazerus moment and rise up once more to achieve that. i wanted something that I could look at and say I need a body to match these smaller boobs whenever I don't feel like working out.

You don't get much choice here in what implants are used it's dealers choice and the PS does it in surgery. I did indicate that I would strongly prefer the "inflated pancake" one over "the mini hill" same for PS you don't get a choice it's who's name comes up when your referred. Canadian health care.

I felt something was wrong even after I just came out of surgery which there was as lefty frankenboob was way more swollen then righty frankenboob and looked like it was trying to get out while righty looked....sleepy but awaiting orders to launch.... 

 I'm a touch over 4 weeks out and from the front I look like I'm wearing a earnest and overly dedicated  push up bra.. ok I can live with that mostly even though I wouldn't let one near me before breast cancer.

 From the side though...... well apparently my big droopy boobs were hiding a smaller rib cage as everything is more much pronounced. My chest looks like two mini torpedoes. it's way more pointed then the round and bulging like I expected it to be. Like I'm pretty sure I could use my chest to give directions.in fact it's so pointed in pretty sure he used the dreaded mini hill implant. i won't even go into the now pronounced overinflated beach ball stomach that now makes me look like I'm 8months pregnant ..possibly with twins...apparently droopy boobs equalize your belly so you don't have this very noticeable  smaller space between the giant melons and the overinflated beach ball.dont get me wrong I like the smaller space it's what s on each side of it I don't like, I can't do anything about the gut until I'm set free to exercise again ( prob sometime in December)but the chest...oh jeez if I start loosing  inches in band again it's gonna be comical to look at if I wouldnt be so upset to look at it.

Also for someone who was supposed to go much smaller I'm actually an inch or so  bigger in bust  size then when I started.

I know there is swelling from surgery and that could take months to go down. I overheard while going into surgery one of the doctors asking if they had,I can't remember if it was 650 or 600, implant that day was bad in more then one way. I know it was in the sixes and that sounds pretty big to me but I don't know much about prepec direct to silicone implants and how sizes work for them.not much info and I didn't feel comfortable stating my body stats in a public forum to get an answer.

What I need right now is someone who has experience with implants at all,whether their own in a similar situation or just by researching  to let me know if I'm stuck looking like this or if it's going to get better.if your swelling went down did your cup size do so also?

Cause right now I can barely look at my huge frankenboobs although these days I call them the frankenboob torpedoes and am asking why I sacrificed my breasts and nipples for this mess that looks like I'm fully armed and scarred beyond recognition.( I'm having a harder time dealing with the scarring then I thought I would)

Actually I think what I'm looking for is "it won't look like that for the rest of your life." Because as fun as it would be to watch people's reaction as you point a direction with your chest it's not really something that I want have the ability to do because of my implants that were a size I expressly didn't want.

Also I got NO information about the plastic surgery part of the surgery so I have no clue what type of implant was used and what size. Something I will be asking straight out when I see the PS Iin a few weeks. After i get the answer when I ask "will these ever stop looking like torpedoes and start looking like somewhat like actual breasts?!??

I have been very lucky so far no known complications or infections and I'm told things are healing well. I keep being told things look good and when it comes to healing and recovery I pretty much agree when it comes to aesthetics I'm more "......are you high?"

Don't know if anyone will be able to give me an answer but I thank you for any responses if there are any in advance.

Best wishes.


ETA: according to my recent measurements I'm definetly in D cup territory.

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  • Catrina
    Catrina Member Posts: 16
    edited November 2018

    I've had 9 surgeries, 6 related to my first breast cancer diagnosis in 2012, and 3 related to second breast cancer diagnosis in 2017. All related to implants of some sort, and I can say that they absolutely do change as time goes on. I would say it is at least 3 months before you know what the end result will look like, till all swelling has gone down and the implants have dropped into place. Every time I had an implant I was given a card by the surgical nurse that said exactly what implant was used, size, brand, etc. You can ask for the details, I think they are required to track any medical device put in your body.

    I have a lot of scars on both my front and my back, and I think 12 drain hole scars. They do fade a great deal over time, I was pretty horrified by each one, but they truly do fade, again it takes time. The side with radiation took longer to fade due to some skin damage but they have faded somewhat as well. All this to say that you will see changes as time goes on, I know it is very hard to wait for everything to heal and settle in

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  • Sassa
    Sassa Member Posts: 1,588
    edited November 2018

    I had bilateral mastectomies twelve years ago. I went flat for two years before deciding to do reconstruction with implants.

    I did have tissue expanders and had my exchange surgery in December 2009.

    Yes, your chest will change. While the implants do sit very high and forward and feel like rocks immediately after the surgery, that will change.

    They will drop and "fluff" which means they will be not as prominent and start to feel softer. You may not notice the difference for six months to a year after surgery.

    That initial dropping and fluffing is just the start. I found the process was ongoing over a period of years.

    Once you are allowed to exercise, make sure you include exercises that both strengthen and increase flexibility (stretching) of your chest muscles. Your implants will be comfortable as a result.

    I think it was about three years after the exchange that I was doing a shoulder shimmy in a Zumba class and realized that I actually had a small foob jiggle.

    I have 800 cc implants. I am 5'6 inches, weigh between 135 (Yay!!!) and 160 (Boo!!!) lbs. I do have a wide ribcage. The size of the implants also have to do with making sure that the implants will look natural on the chest. I needed 800 cc implants so that I wouldn't look like I had two ping pong balls nailed on a wide board.

    You can not measure for bra size with implants as one does with breast tissue. You may be able to find a bra size, but cup size will drive you nuts . The only way to find the cup size is to try on bras.

    Because I never have to wear a bra again, my attempt to find out my cup size was a manner of curiosity. I had told the surgeon I wanted B cup size breasts. If I measure, the results are D cup. However, when I tried on bras, I am a perfect B cup.

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  • NotVeryBrave
    NotVeryBrave Member Posts: 1,287
    edited November 2018

    Implant sizing is so weird. I very specifically said that I wanted to be "the same" afterwards. Not that my breasts were anything great - 50 years old, slightly droopy and deflated, post 3 pregnancies and breastfeeding. But they were mine and I didn't want something really fake appearing or feeling. When pushed for smaller or larger, I said slightly larger if necessary.

    I was super upset at first after surgery. The mounds were wide and flat. It looked (to me) like the chest of a man who works out a lot. It probably took about six weeks for me to start to feel a little better about it. They looked much better by around four months.

    Still - bra size is very strange. I used to wear a 36B. Probably should have been in a 34C (was never fitted). Nowadays - after surgery and being professionally fitted - I wear anything from a 30E to a 32DDD. I was pretty pissed at first. I now realize that I really look about the same. The projection is pretty much the same. It's just that the implant bases are so wide.

    My bra size is vastly different, but my clothes fit the same. If I really push my chest out - it does seem bigger. Most of the time I feel about the same. I wear underwire bras with thin padding to help with shape.

    My scars have faded to almost nothing. And I scar pretty easily with fading that usually takes a really long time. Most of the incision lines under my breasts are white and some is brownish (I'm fair skinned).


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  • Jadedjo
    Jadedjo Member Posts: 469
    edited November 2018

    Catarina, sassa and notverybrave

    Thank you for sharing your experiences.it does ease my mind some.

    I guess because this doctor has frustrated,disappointed and let me down more then once with not listening to me or answering my questions one way at one appt the saying something else entirely at another that it wouldn't surprise me if he went completely against my wishes.the fact nobody has said anything about it either concerns me. I get that it's not going to be perfect, I just don't want it to be so strangely pointy.

    Again thank you.

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  • nash
    nash Member Posts: 2,600
    edited November 2018

    Jadedjo, I have nothing to offer in the recon realm, but I just wanted to let you know I enjoyed the way you write so much that it made me laugh out loud and it brightened my day. Thank you for that. I hope things with the foobs work out for you. Best!

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  • Anonymous
    Anonymous Member Posts: 1,376
    edited November 2018

    Ditto what Nash says :)

    Sleepy but awaiting orders to launch.... had me rolling on the floor. You have a great sense of humor!

    Kelly

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  • Jadedjo
    Jadedjo Member Posts: 469
    edited November 2018

    Nash and clickchick

    Thanks. My humour has gotten me through dark times I also hadn't slept for awhile so that contributed too.

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